I watched my youngest brother hold resentments towards our sick dad, having the juvenile impression that dad would always be there. The day my dad moved on, (it's hard for me to say the "d" word), my brother shook the walls with his screams and gutteral wales of regret. He locked himself in the room with my daddy's body for at least an hour. My brother was 28 then and he's currently 54. He's never been the same since that day. He hasn't forgiven himself for wasting precious time with dad. I remember that pain that literally emotionally thrashed my brother's body and mind. I would never wish it on anyone. My eldest brother is now very ill and may not be here for much longer. His son, my nephew, is holding huge resentments, not even letting my brother see his grandchild or any pictures of the baby. I tell him that regrets after someone leaves us is the most painful experience one can probably ever have. My nephew is stuck in that same state of mind my younger brother was in; dad will always be around kind of mentality. I really hope he wakes up before it's too late. Make amends now because none of us are promised tomorrow. - I try to always remember that. 🙏🏼✌🏼
This was deep. I guess what it comes down to is if you are fortunate enough to have good people in your life who you love and love you back, don't leave arguments or ill will unresolved. Try your best to resolve it ASAP, put it behind you and move forward. Most importantly, don't assume your loved ones know how you feel about them. Use your words from time to time and tell them out loud that they are loved. Follow that up with your actions or your words will be hollow. In 2018, my brother left this world unexpectedly but NOT by his own hand. I found him in my mom's living room. We knew he had health problems that he was working on and he had our support. Turned out that there were so many things wrong with him that werent discovered yet that the coroner ruled the cause inconclusive. There was nothing that we hadn't said to each other beforehand. He knew I loved him and I knew he loved me. Losing him was hard enough but not having the "if onlys" hanging over my head went a long way towards acceptance and peace. Now I just think of all the good things and remember him well. ❤
I really appreciate you taking the time to type that out and getting that out. I feel for you, truly. And I'll be thinking of you today. Great way to turn that negative into the best positive you can and keeping that memory alive.
Thank you so much for doing this! He does have hype tracks and deep songs that aren't as emotional. You should check out piece of mind 3 or 4, doesn't feel the same, Numb, or tiny shiny objects for more upbeat songs
Never heard of this singer - now I have . Your words on the song and how it reflects things you have experienced are appreciated . Thanks Black speed. And oh by the way - I did vote for you 😊
@TheBlackSpeed im a daycare teacher and last year one of my two year old students (one of my favorites that i was extremely close to) was diagnosed with IV neuroblastoma MYCN amplified.. hearing the news shattered my heart. Thankfully today she is in remission! On the other hand even though this song is about losing his dad to cancer there are parts i relate to regarding my sisters death (from an overdose) and how i felt afterwards. I had a alot of regret because we ended on bad terms and i didnt respond when she tried to reach out 2 weeks prior to her death. It took awhile to get past the what ifs and guilt
I met my girlfriend online, long distance, and we started talk a lot and she told me I was the reason she started to continue with her treatments. Before me she was just letting her cancer run wild agsint her body. Shes back to treatments, but yesterday she spent 16 hours in the hospital after constant throwing up and body pains. Its not easy but let your love ones know that you're there for them even when they're not in need of your support. The only time you have with them is now, and you never know when that can be taken away from you.
Thanks for sharing that. That's hard but you, and her, definitely showed some strength. Sometimes, all it takes is that bit of support that spreads a long way. I really do appreciate the comment.
My mum died almost 1 year ago so I am still kinda raw about it. We got her home from hospital so she could let go with her family around her in her own bed. Lots of regrets with the way the hospital dealt with her, but we got her home for enough time to say goodbye.
Damn, I'm sorry to hear that man. I'm grateful you all got to spend the proper final moments with her, but it's a shame how the medical system can treat human beings sometimes.
@@TheBlackSpeedoh haha. It’s a website and brand I think? In another reaction I heard there’s a KITH magazine. But I only saw the website; They sell clothes, shoes, and apparently put out special content?? They have high end clothes and super nice Jordans 🤷♀️ I browsed the website and racked up quite the shopping cart but haven’t committed to anything yet. Prob get some sneakers eventually, Christmas list type ish 🤑 😂
