Theo Von Hopecore 2 

It can be... I don't know why today I let it sink in, like I really want to feel sad today. I guess in a sense, its a way to never forget ya know, so you don't make the same mistakes again.

I feel like I don’t know how to be happy I’m scared of who I’ll be if I’m happy but I know how it feels to be depressed 😢 it’s comfortable in an odd way

@@juandavidtrujilloaristizab3764 I feel you, man. It gets comfortable down here.

@@juandavidtrujilloaristizab3764 feeling sad makes us feel human, if we didnt feel sad then we wouldn't feel anything

@@RochellBarbara4690 I wouldn’t even know who I was if I wasn’t sad, it’s my identity now 😢

Absolutely. My eyes would rather not adjust to the light but stay comfortable in the darkness of the hole I'm in.

don't do it

It does but its like an addiction. Its just easier to give up, its easier to not change, beacuse you dont deserve it, you dont deserve to be happy. But thats just how you feel. You Do deserve better, you deserve to be happy even if it takes time. Until youre trying youre doing better

@@blyab5167 absolutely

That is called the fear of change

Touched me too

Reminder that you are in control, you are capable, you are not alone. Good luck my friend.

omg....I know dude...

We need more Theo Vons in the world and less Andrew Tates.

I totally understand, it's cathartic, like looking for a song and having a good crying session, just reminding yourself that you are human and you are alive, in a healthier manner.

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Sensational*

This was a nice message, thanks for sharing it

stay strong 🫡🫡

Same here. All that stuff you said, that's how I feel on a constant basis. It's killing my soul and I don't know how to reverse the damage that I've put myself through. I haven't felt this alone or in such despair and wanting to self delete more in my life and I'm only 28. I'm so afraid of living that I'd rather slowly kill myself through alcohol, cigarettes, etc than attempt to live a life worth living. Even though I yearn for it. The shame I have for myself is so big and so present in my life, that I really don't know if I'll ever truly work for what I want for myself. I hate this feeling. It's always been in my since I was young.

@@chefboiardeeznutz9881 I’m in the same place lol you could hear it all through my music and that shit is torturous. But I guess the best way to think about it could be the fact that life doesn’t matter and everything you do in life can be fun if you stay present and don’t think

I thought I was the only one man.

I have the exact same issue. Stay strong brother. Went through a breakup and lost my house and car. After all the damage my ex even said I had to open myself up for somebody else. I recently just bought a car again. And I am planning to move out on my own again after I have enough money saved. Till then I can’t open up to anybody and it kills me inside. Just waiting till everything is perfect…

Damn man, I just have to say thank you for sharing this cause I have never heard anyone else describe that feeling so perfectly. Not doubting your sadness, but doubting your happiness. I feel this a lot, and I didn't know how to word it, so thank you for the more clear perspective. It's almost like when I feel happiness, it hesitates. I almost don't feel allowed to feel it sometimes, of course I work past that feeling but it's odd to have it come up in general. Anyways, blew me away. Thanks

Damn 😔

its alright man, you re not alone. im 20 and this same problem made me miss many opportunities. just go do what you feel without thinking too much about it, you ll have time to think about it later

@@todie616 Thanks man I appreciate that a lot

I love and believe in you, man. Be kind to yourself. You're important. Life can be really hard sometimes, but you're gonna keep on getting up, my brother. Bless.

​@@HURHRHRHRHRI second this. You are the opposite of alone ❤ stay strong brother :)

Lmfao

Yeah bro, it’s one of the most important things I think about.

Amen, brother. The law of love established by God is the foundational principle in the growth of the sunflower and in interpersonal relationships with a potential spouse. In my past, I got rejected by women because often times I would not free them of the agency of reciprocating admiration unto me for who they were to me in the first place. We oftentimes think we have to submerge another person with deep admiration and attention. In consequence, the person will wheel back because they see we don't see them as a person but merely a possession. Think of what happens to crops when they are over-watered. How much it slumps their growth and causes them to wilt instead. This is what we do to people when we shower them abundantly with too much attention. This is what I found on Google about overwatering. “Plants growing in soil that is too wet suffer from a lack of oxygen which leads to the death of roots and a loss of vigor in the plant. Stunted slow growth with yellowing leaves is a symptom of over watering. Plants may suffer from leaf scorch or leaf burn.” A lack of *oxygen* which is the very foundation for the life of the plant; much akin to how relationships need space akin to the oxygen for the plant in order for them to grow and flourish.

Thankyou brother needed to hear this. Wishing love