Why does it feel like it getting free therapy based on my music taste. I'm here for it, and I need it. You've told me more about me than I think I knew.
So, when I was in high school shortly after this came out, the prevailing theory was that this song was about a soldier preparing to leave for war and saying goodbye to his loved ones. There’s also a rumor that the band lost a friend to suicide early in their career. “Chop Suey!” was originally titled “Suicide,” but the label didn’t like that, hence the change. Somebody else in the comments already mentioned “Soil,” and people on old school music discussion threads back in the day cite this as the first song mentioning their friend’s passing, and the lyrics definitely check out. “Streamline” is the closer on Steal This Album and is arguably one of their most heartfelt songs, and the lyrics of that one seem to all but confirm the theory. It’s also worth mentioning that Steal This Album is a collection of leaked B sides that were written during the Toxicity sessions and released as a full album after the fact, so “Chop Suey!” and “Streamline” sharing thematic DNA isn’t a far stretch. I think given the political climate at the time and given the political leanings of the band, “Question!” could be an anti-war song, but I think it also fits as a subtle nod to their friend. As a final note, 3 things: 1. Love your reactions and analysis on System songs. I firmly believe they never wrote a bad track, and it’s great seeing somebody experiencing these for the first time. 2. I also recommend “Soil” and I’ll throw in my hat for “Streamline,” but “Streamline” really benefits from the flow of the album building up to the finale and I think you should treat yourself to the full thing. “Roulette” is the preceding track and it’s one of the most beautiful songs System Of A Down ever wrote and likely the closest thing to a love ballad we’ll ever get from them. 3. Sorry for the word vomit, it’s 12:45 PM my time and I’m still a lil’ drunk from last night.
Seriously you got me in AWE with how fast you were on the ball with this song lyrics and video. It's amazing and a real gift how quickly you read those things. Of course, also gotta say I agree thoroughly about those being the issues they were talking 'bout in this song.
Question! is my favourite song from SOAD. It's so Jazzy in the instrumental, which is how Numetal should be, It needs that jazz vibe, the chaos. It's so good.
4:57 nah, sometimes you just want to simply di3. Music really helps, went on a slipknot binge last week and felt zero depresso in the days that I did that
I would love to see you react to Citizen Soldier, the singer is actually a therapist. The songs that they come out with feel so relateable. I listen to their songs to help me get out of my depression, sadness, hatred.
I really like your reaction to this as a SOAD fan and someone who's dealt with suicidal ideation for most of my life. I do think your perspective is idealistic, though. I'm 34 now. I was probably around 10-12 when I first noticed the desire to kill myself. I'm still here. A lot of the time I tell people that every day I'm still here is a win. I wish it were true, but it often isn't. I'm severely morbidly obese. Been trying to change since my 20s, and I've never gotten back below 350 lbs. I've tried counseling; the utility is limited and its not even close to affordable. I live every day trying to distract myself from chronic physical and psychic pain. I self medicate with food. Every day that I fail to change, I know I'm doing damage to my body that will make it even harder to recover. The non-poisonous berries never lead to peace. They only lead to more suffering. They lead you to pull yourself 10, 20% of the way out of hell, only to fall right back down into it again. The climb never ends. Sometimes you're just too deep for the way out to be realistic. Every day I'm still here is a win over my suicidal ideation. Every day I'm still here is a loss for my soul.
From DyllonKG: @davidm6329 Good Afternoon my friend. I appreciate you posting on this and sharing your story. I know that it must not be easy, especially if what you have to say maybe goes against the grain. You mention in your post that you've struggled for a few decades now with suicidal ideation, specifically in relation to your weight and the toll that takes on your life, self efficacy, and mental health. You mentioned self medicating with food and dealing with chronic pain and stress - the sort of looming cloud that every day you don't get better is a day where you do more damage. A sort of pressure chamber that stresses you out more, sending you back to your only sources of comfort. And Im sorry friend. I really am. I dont feel pity - I want to make that explicitly clear. But I am sorry. I, in a much different way, know what it's like to be caught in a cycle that perpetuates itself in never ending agony. And how suffocating that can be. And Im sorry. I cannot relate to the core of your struggle regarding weight. My only relation is with my own cycle, which I can spare the details of for brevity. But the long story short - I used a lot of people to feel good about myself. Validation was a crutch. I couldn't validate myself very well, i couldnt love myself. But other people would. But eventually, they wouldnt. They wouldnt be able to jump when I needed. And it would wreck me. Without a way to self soothe, without a way to face myself, I would do it all over again. That happened for friendships. Relationships. Everything. My cycle only broke when I demanded it did. When I identified what I needed to change, and stopped going back to it. When I stopped seeking happiness in others, and instead sought it in my existence. Which is a tall order. Years later, I still struggle. Sometimes I relapse into old habits and have to catch myself. Ill likely work on it until im in a grave. But ill always work on it. Our situations aren't the same. I wont pretend they are. I also wont pretend that you dont try. Or that you dont put effort in. But I also wont pretend that you're not someone deserving of a healthy way out. Because I think you do. I think you deserve to live. To enjoy life. Idealistic? Perhaps. But as a once proud cynic, I've learned that my way was equally as destructive as pure positivity. The truth was somewhere in the middle. In the jagged line that juts up and down the graph paper as it scans across the X axis. I'd like to think we're capable of more than we think. Maybe that's because I never thought I'd live this long. Im sorry you're hurting my friend. I'm sorry that you're stuck in this cycle. And I hope in my heart that you can shatter that cycle. We'll be here. I'll be in your corner. Hold fast.
I Came Across The Slipknot 27 Song Analysis Breakdown & Was Wondering If You Guys Would Be Willing To Cover My Channel Because It Is A Channel About My Grief & How I've Managed To Deal With It Through Autobiographical Dark Gothic Poetry Music Videos I Created By Myself For Self Therapy With The Help From Variety Of Musicians That Fit Each Tone Of The Poems Themselves In So Many Visual & Tonal Different Ways Of My Own Self Therapy. As My Own Personal Self Therapist I Would Be Honored If You Guys Covered My Channel Because The Content Of This Channel Is Perfect For It. If You Consider Doing It There's An Entire Playlist On The Channel Called "Shyheem Of The Dead" & That Playlist Will Take You Directly Through My Entire Channel So Far🙏❤️
The whole Album ist one of my Alltime Favorit Albums. If you like you could listen one of these Songs? These are some Songs they are importent for me: The Mars Volta-Eriatarka / Monster Magnet-Spine Of God/Alice in Chains-Dirt/The Cult-Edie/Stone Temple Pilots-Dead and Bloated All the best !
Song is called question not suicide. Where we go after. Is a question,not suicide. You need to tap into a happy place instead of that dark place. Gl with that 100k
Has anyone suggested watching Nightwish? 2 song in particular (in this order) - "Dead Boy's Poem" ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-S8E3L7ggLMM.html - "The Poet and the Pendulum" ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-N4Vfy5yCy-c.html Be sure to turn on captions Background info: The songs are written by Tuomas (on keys). The first one when he was 22(-ish), right after he all of a sudden became the most famous artist in the country. The second he wrote years later, after he fired his (female) singer by a nasty public letter, for witch everyone offered their opinions. (friend, the media, fans, even the prime minister)
Please do Johnny from System of a Down! Its a song that not many people know and o think that it has a lyric that can be very efficiently extracted meaning
I don't like living as is and if there is an afterlife I'll be soooooo disappointed. I'm all for nothing but nothingness and darkness.... That's what I'm looking forward towards 🤣🤣🤣
I think you should look at the old school Alice n chains with lane Stanley as the lead singer. ( extra dark and scary) and definitely therapist worthy. angry chair. and them Bones. are my favorite.
I always viewed this song as a take on dreams. I see the lovers as meeting in their dreams only and wondering what happens to them when they wake. Does that version of themselves die when they go from the dreamspace
I got an interesting question... so I grew up in my teens being bullied and beated up and such as I may have said on HeartSupport forum and such and that I used to feel suicidal back in the day... but question is ... is it possible to feeling / being suicidal without realizing it or "expressing symptoms" of it when struggling to explain you may feel on certain things .. my past 10 years or so I been feeling lost and I sometimes have survivor's guilt I guess from staying strong and keep on fighting but honestly I kinda feel tired at times
From JBrach: @TrymRU-vidMainChannel Hi! Thanks for your question and I am so sad to hear that you have had those feelings of being lost the last 10 years. What you are describing sounds like passive suicidal ideation. I am not a mental health professional, just a psychology undergrad student. If you can relate with passive feelings of hopelessness, of not minding if you just didn't wake up in the morning, but don't have active plans to end your life-- passive suicidal ideation may be the title you're looking for. Both active and passive ideations stem from feelings of helplessness and hopelessness without the internal locus of control (confidence that you can change your own life for the better) to breath hope into your situation or perspective. And feeling tired from fighting to stay alive is so normal. You are exhausting tons and tons of willpower and mental energy to dissuade those thoughts. That's a workout! Of course you would feel tired of fighting it. [www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation](www.healthcentral.com/condition/depression/passive-suicidal-ideation) I am glad you have found a space on our forum to voice your experiences and trauma. I hope you found support through there! Whether active or passive suicidal ideation, both are dangerous. The energy to keep these things at bay is exhausting. Whatever the main stressor is for you--- this survivor's guilt, your past, or a current situation, or a engrained mindset from years of these thoughts, I hope you can find it and uproot it. This is a place for your to share and explore what those triggers and causes may be. Please share with us if you would like, we are here to listen and help however we can, within the confines of our volunteer non-mental-health-counselor status :) I appreciate you sharing your question and I hope to hear from you soon <3
From Micro: @TrymRU-vidMainChannel You can experience a desire to not live without it necessarily being manifested through suicidal thoughts. Could it be passive suicidal ideation or even just internally giving up on life, it is definitely possible to not expres ssymptoms while also not feeling like embracing life to the fullest. Depression is often a manifestation of that kind of "in-between" for example, where you are alive but also doesn't feel like fully living. It makes despair grow, and you might think about death as an escape rather than something you want to move towards. Through either passive or active ideation, what is present behind is actually a deep craving for LIFE rather than death. It's a way to say: I want a better life. To highlight the pain and struggles we're experiencing as being an obstacle. It expresses a need for peace overall, and being tired of struggling. Staying strong, especially for 10 years, feels exhausting. It makes sense to be tired of it, and to potentially feel alive but also not at the same time. When the emotional exhaustion takes over, it's hard to feel like there would be room to take care of ourselves and embrace our life. We feel stuck, there's inertia, and either way we're not moving towards death or life. We're just here, present, breathing, contemplating how we wish our life could be. We just want to rest and for a positive change to happen. If anything, you are deifnitely not weird or crazy for feeling the way you do. In reality, the fact that you are aware of it is also a strength because it gives you perspective over your own struggle. From there, you have the possibility to try to shift the narrative, seek support that you might not have received during these 10 years, so you could have the possibility to rest, be your authentic self, and have allies by your side as you navigate through life. Being strong all the time and having to put on a brave face is exhausting, but it is possible to unlearn this, to reconnect to yourself in ways that would be both nurturing and healing for you. :heart:
Wanting only leads to suffering. You have to find peace in each moment with the way it is. The saying "what you resist, persists" is a good one to keep in mind. If you can be at peace with being alone then you will never be lonely. Try meditation, it works wonders to train your brain. In no time you will be more attuned to when the unhealthy thoughts are creeping in and you can refocus faster on not paying attention to them.
From Riri: @jessicacuster8767 Hi there, I don't know your story or why your daughter hates you, but it seems it happened something very deep that she feels like that towards you, but maybe those feelings are not that intense anymore, and she might have forgiven you. Have you talked to her recently? Maybe having a discussion could fix a bit of those issues. Wanting to die is a very painful feeling, but what keeps you here is your son, which indeed he really needs his mother by his side. Have you considered going to therapy? A professional might really help you better. And mistakes can be forgiven and we have a second chance if we really want that. I hope your daughter will make peace with you, and I hope you can get the help that you really need. And don't forget that your son needs you here.
