Therapist Reacts to Yen by Slipknot 

To yearn

For the purposes of this song Yen is an archaic term for an obsessive need, particularly used for opium addiction

@mediumvillain I was correcting the therapist, who said yen was chinese currency, not giving the meaning behind the song.

​@@YTsupportsZionaziGenocide....its "yuan"

Yaun is when you're sleepy and your body without reason makes you open your mother really wide open. Yuan is the chinese currency.

@@joaoaugustolandim technically that would be yawn... but yeah i had the vowel backwords. apparently "yaun" means "sexual"... good to know....lol

Disasterpiece helped save my life

Would love to hear your take on Disaterpiece @HeartSupport

YEEESSSSS WE ABSOLUTELY NEED THIS 🤘🤘🤘

I just want her to analyze that opening line

I was about to say that ! Corey literally stated that it is a dark weird love song. To each his own interpretation but personally I think this song is truly about the desire you can develop for the person you love, almost like from a masochist POV wich makes it so mesmerizing

Definitely orphan. Maybe even red flag?

From ThriceTheThird: @nickroschnow2802 Well I hope things are going well for you now! Even if there is that uncertainty of whether or not it is okay for things to be going well. Thank you for sharing how you relate with us. I hope you are having a wonderful day today!

From taylor: @nickroschnow2802 Hey friend, Thanks for reaching out here. It's so common for people who grow up with turmoil to feel a little bit discombobulated when things are going well. It feels like you're waiting for the other shoe to drop, because that's all you ever knew when you were growing up. Things being bad became familiar. So although you didn't WANT those bad things to happen, it was what you were used to, so you became comfortable in the discomfort. And now when things are good it feels hard to trust that they would stay good, because they never have in the past. Recognizing this about yourself is a HUGE step toward healing. Awareness is the first step toward change. I'm so sorry that you were surrounded by abuse and addiction as you were growing up, that's not fair, and it's not the environment any child deserves. I'm so proud of you for being able to recognize the ways that growing up in that environment impacts the way you experience the present. It's really hard to come to this realization, and to have this awareness gives you more currency to use toward your healing. Sending love

From Micro: @nickroschnow2802 Thank you so much for sharing this here, friend. Somehow, this is particularly relatable to me, and it's always comforting to know that someone out there gets it - even if I wish you didn't experience any aversity as you grew up. Somehow, there's this feeling of finding comfort in chaos, right? It's as if chaos and turmoil were your default state, and anything that transforms it feels odd, uncertain, like an unknown territory for your mind. Which makes sense when you think about it: as a child, you've learned to be familiar in a chaotic/adverse environment. It has built standards that you've learned to accept in order to survive. As an adult though, you have the possibility to be in different environment and experience different ways to be. It challenges what you've already known and have learned to be familiar with. It makes sense that, even now it's difficult to take objectively good or healthy things/events/people as being suspicious and to be questioned. Too good to be real. But you are aware of this process, of this dichotomy within, of how the "good" seems labeled as "bad", and the "bad" as good. If anything it makes completely sense to experience this contradiction given the environment you've known as a child. The very fact that you are aware of this pattern at play is huge, and such a great sign of your own growth and resilience. X years ago you may have not been aware of this way to view things, at least maybe not with such an acute and detailed understanding. What was learned can be unlearned, and thankfully you haveand will keep having the possibility to reinvent yourself, away from the abuse you've known and suffered. I believe in you wholeheartedly, and I belive in your ability to learn to welcome good things in your life and embrace them without feeling too guilty, too weary of it either. You got this, friend. :heart:

From tromboness: @raymondmurdock8603 Thanks for sharing your experience with us! And your interpretation is not corny; it is very relatable. Dealing with ED is not an easy task, especially for as long as you have. There can be conflicted feelings about it too. You know it's not a healthy practice, but you crave what it gives you. I commend you in recognizing that you don't need to feel worthy from EDdy. You are worthy to live a healthy life because you exist. Hold Fast.

From Micro: @raymondmurdock8603 This is definitely a strong interpretation, and I'm personally so thankful you chose to share it. Just because it makes a LOT of sense, and even though it may feel like something you are struggling with on your own, the way you describe this can be very relatable to other people who have been through something similar. Having struggled with eating disorders for roughly 15 years now, I defiintely resonate with what you say. Even though I have not personified my ED, I've heard other people who did. Somehow, it's a powerful way to separate thestruggle from *you* as a unique individual. It highlights the subtle difference for example between saying "I am depressed", and "I struggle with depression". The struggle happens to be a part of your life, of your journey, of your thoughts... but it does not define *you* as a person, and even less your worth. To me ED always felt like something I had to live with too. It's not me, but it's also such a significant part of me at the same time. I can't escape it, yet I can "dialogue" with it. I know it by heart yet I keep falling into its hands over and over. It's so hard when there is this double dialogue in you, these two voices battling almost all the time. One that knows rationally that you have worth even if you may not feel like it... and one that is this call to darkness, to diving deep into your struggles and surrendering to self-destruction. It's hard as the second one always feels so right and powerful *at the moment*. But it's always a response in the moment, a repeated cycle that doesn't bring your perspectives for the future. It feels as if it leaves you stuck living the same day on repeat. EDdy is not your enemy as it is a part of you that, somehow, is trying to tell you something about what your heart needs the most. But the language he speaks and the messages he give you are not the right ones. He's displaying *hurt* and wounds that needto be cared for, but he identified ways to respond to this pain that are not serving you - on the contrary. It's the paradox of having such an "ally" in our life. It soothes, gives illusion of control, make us feel like darkness and pain are *safe* while good things are not. But as you said so well, what he needs and feeds from will never be enough. He is stuck in the same patterns and serves only one purpose. You, on your side, are *so much more* than he is. To me personally, trying to see and hear what was behind my ED, depression and PTSD is what helped me the most. I stopped seeing them as allies or enemies, but as *voices* that were expressing a pain that needed to be said. My role was then to re-learn how to respond to it appropriately, how to re-parent myself, how to meet them with *kindness*, how to meet my own heart with gentleness. It's a tough journey when we've been so used to see our worth in the act of destroying our selves. But oh man, it's one journey that is so worth walking on. Even if it feels like a rollercoaster, even if it feels uncomfortable, even if it doesn't feel *right* sometimes... any step taken towards helping/supporting/encouraging yourself to be safe and to not need EDdy anymore, is worth it. He exists because he has a job, but that role may be clearly outdated now, and you are allowed to walk towards freeing yourself from him, while recognizing while he had to exist. I believe in you.:heart: