I think your music captures that feeling I had playing SH2 which I haven't shaken since: to my confusion and despite its horror the otherworld feels like home, or more accurately a desideratum for home that has never existed but may some day. If I focus on it it's almost distressing how desperately I want to go home. For some reason I feel something similar if I focus on myself in the mirror. It's not a particular judgment about my appearance which actuates the terror but the sense that the image before me is incommensurate with something indefinite. I feel like something that shouldn't be contained but always will be; either I am trapped inside my appearance or something essential in me is. If it's nostalgia I doubt it originates from myself because I don't wish to return to my childhood, my life is more comfortable and free now than it was then, and I know that if my life is ever to have a "good old days" it's now or soon, not then. There are images I feel nostalgic for in my childhood but they're vignettes, not scenes. I suspect there's something behind the images just as I feel there's something behind my face. It's odd just how versatile dark ambient/drone is. I use it to focus and engage as much as relax. I see people comment on it as an anesthetic aesthetic, but there is some reflection of my desire in it that is not just a narcotic or means of escape. It often triggers overpowering emotion and gratitude for the profusion of phenomena around me; it is an affirmation to the prospect of existing in which it was good to exist for those moments of recognizing that the world is unreasonably beautiful and indifferent. It feels like facing a truth of my experience rather than turning away from it. I don't want the mist to just swallow me, I want to witness the silhouette in it because that's where it's clearest.
sometimes it is! when a music piece is done, i listen to it for some time before posting it and it might sound weird but i like listening to some of my own music while trying to sleep/relax. it helps me with my thoughts!
I'm 30. 13 years ago I seriously thought about suicide. I even found a better way for myself. 13 years later, I still don’t understand why I live. But I find peace in music. I won’t say that this video brought me back to life, but music is 95% of my life. My personality does not allow me to learn to play instruments. But I beg you, if you love music, try writing it for yourself. You will discover a completely new world. I love you, whoever you are.
Of course there's no one here. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength, resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (series)
Damn.... I had following u a lot time ago, and fuck men.... It's just... The place that I supposed to be, y'know? So calm.... It just take me away from depression, but at the same time makes me so close, it's like a little line between the sadness and loneliness, but at the same time the nostalgia and happiness.... It's very hard to explain, but I just want to say that if I, who's reading this, have a bad day or time, just remember that outside of everything, there are people who love you and care about you.... A good night for everyone here(sorry if there's something wrong, I don't dominate the English)
@@dots4live Search Duckstation emulator (PS1) with his bios and search for the ISO of Silent hill 1 here in RU-vid. Config the settings of the emulator with a tutorial and that's it, you can play this game.
i don't know what extent of crying is considered 'a lot' but like every other person, i do have times when i feel hopeless and scared. i often cry when i realize the reality i face and i get upset.
@@departureskies It was a great response my friend and in fact this channel is possibly the best I've ever found at capturing that feeling of hindsight and thinking about past and future actions. It's a great channel to reflect on what we can still do and that can take us both ways, falling into depression but also giving us hope for the future! continue this is another brilliant sound
