Things I Wish I Knew Before Starting My Transition! - FtM Transman 

"I don't like labels because I don't fit into any of them " honestly that's exactly how I feel

Love you talking in a more open way about inclusivity. I feel a lot of connection to the trans guy community and it's really helped me find myself. I don't see myself as just a girl who likes masculine fashion or sth. It's way deeper than that. But I also have no desire to transition. I just see myself as inherently masculine in every way and I have always found it odd that others don't from the moment I could think. I didn't understand how I couldn't just be a boy if I said so. I always thought my boobs were sort of funny and I just don't see them as feminine because they're on me. That's not the same as just liking men's jumpers or sth or being sporty. I'm not sporty at all. But it's also not the same as needing top surgery. And I've felt a lot that I need to be either a cute tomboyish girl or a real trans guy or I'm just a snowflake. In the end I had to cut myself a break and stop giving a shit what I am. And that is so much better for my mental health.

I got referred to the Dutch gender thing a year ago by an intern still in school and I was the first trans person she met and she had no Idea what to do nö one taught her how to handle a situation like that but she was great she was so nice to me that was so helpful bc my parents almost disowned me so it was really nice to have a doctor or anyone for that matter be nice to me about that yk

I’m new here, and want to tell you that you are on point. ON POINT. I’m 44 and went through most of this in the late nineties/early century, in America. You seem like you are probably kind to docs and nurses, although it’s all really frustrating and painful to have to explain to people who are there to care for YOU. But explain we must. And I’ll add that the ones I dealt with were sad they didn’t know, and apologetic. And sometimes angry about their lack of education, lol.

Thank you for addressing the "grit" of transition that isn't often discussed. This is was so informative and empowering. Thank you for your wisdom! :)

I'm currently on my 4th year of medical school in France and we haven't learned anything worthwhile about trans issues, even if psychiatry was last year's program. The one hour we had on it was basically outdated definitions and the professor's own opinion on this "social phenomenon". 2 groups had a project about a movie featuring a trans woman and they misgendered her their entire presentations. Honestly, when it comes to trans issues, I've probably done more drunk debating with other students than university did. It's such a shame because the transphobia and ignorance are deafening.

I like your honesty. I have found that under the LGBTQ+ umbrella, our journeys are as unique as we are. Same journey, different paths.

Also, this is 100% the most useful things I wish I knew before transition video out there.

Awesome educational video❤️ minute 13:24 was hilarious! This video is the truth though! So many topics to talk about and they all are very helpful. In a previous video I mentioned I was having top surgery on 12/17. They called me on 11/4 and asked if I could go in the next day! I totally said yes! So I am a week and a half post! I mention this because having it done is dope as shit but also i want to thank you especially for your top surgery vlog all about it! On another note: put on a fashion show! Let’s see you all dolled up talking physics! That would be so hot! I have to admit I have a few years on you but what you are doing for so many people is beyond words. Yay Laddish!❤️🙃😘😎😉

Thanks for your videos, I have watched many and really enjoy them. My NHS GP first said no to shared trans care, but the private gender care Psychiatrists wrote an extensive letter explaining everything and how this is according to the official NHS guidelines. Then my GP accepted and asks them for advice if she has any questions. She has been fine since then and I even wrote the practice a formal letter to keep her when they decided to swap GPs on me in some reorganisation. I didn’t want to introduce the whole thing to another GP. I had a private endocrinologist from the start. Sustanon every four weeks is the start dosage and then they usually increase the frequency gradually and with systematic blood tests for hormones and liver stats. I’m now on Sustanon every 18 days. I’m tall even for a man, I’m 6 foot, and that can affect dosage. He offered Nebido but I prefer Sustanon because I can inject it myself without being dependent on a nurse doing it and needing to come in to a clinic for it. You cannot self inject Nebido When the Sustanon is more frequent then the T level doesn’t drop below the minimum male level. Nebido works the same just over a much longer time so perhaps you won’t notice the changes in levels as much, however they still happen and you can expect to have the same difficulties at the lower ends that you have on Sustanon. I became emotional at the lower end on Sustanon until they increased the frequency. That is something my GP understands since they do deal with a lot of women’s emotional instability due to the monthly cycle or menopause. So please make sure they check your hormones on Nebido or you can expect the same ups and downs just over much longer period. They won’t necessarily tell you this unless you ask because they want to try how far they get on placebo effects first or as they would call it “unbiased”. Nebido is newer than Sustanon so we don’t fully know if it is better or worse. My Endocrinologist objects to that but I’m a scientist so that is water of a ducks back to me. Medicine of this type requires a very long time in market before it’s affects and side affects can be fully appreciated. Mainly due to how slowly subjective complaints are gathered and filtered up the chain and that many problems take a long time to materialise. However, initial indications are that there are less side effects. I don’t know whether that is due to better management since it has longer duration and needs to be administered in clinic rather than self administered at home, or whether it is a better product.

I'm 40 and just learning what trans is. It is amazing to look over my past years and realize this. Like I had no idea what FTM was. I just never had words to call what I felt till now. I am happy and excited for the first time in my life. I am actually trying to lose weight so I can be healthy. I cannot wait to start testosterone. I am ready for this change in my life. I just wish I knew about it 25 years ago!

well, my doctor sucks, but my nurses who do the injections really take good care and know more than I do about it, at least on the injection and blood pressure part and such and they respect me as a man and try to use common sense. Im glad I have them.

definitely, this needs to be said. the deed poll thing sounds so messed up. btw I'm definitely scared of going to the doctor and they don't know I'm trans. a few months before I was on t, I need to do a medical check-up before entering uni, and I can say that that was peak dysphoria. i was lumped in with the girls to do this lung x ray thing and it made me so uncomfortable because we have to get changed into a gown there and the fact that everyone was at the counter waiting for their name to be called. it was also a weird day because after getting checked for that, they need to check something else which is peeing on this litmus paper type thing and the nurse gave me just the paper and not the cup because i thankfully passed as a guy. anyways, be prepared to get uncomfortable in clinics or hospitals. scroogilydoo?

Yes there's also a waiting list here in America merica at 10 months and Kobe made it extend that long

i started my transition in 2015 i found that it had helped my mental health because i was so depressed and low i was 17 had already went through a lot of puberty and going on t was a life saver and surgery couldn't come quick enough i think alot of my mental health was caused by dysphoria however i do still get troubled with mental health but its so much different now

I had a similar issue with HMRC. I got my MP to contact them and they changed it even though it was gender related. They obviously couldn't change the gender with a GRC but at least the names match

I do my shots twice a week to prevent the mood swings

Here in the U.S. (in some states, it's a state by state thing) they will change your name with just your driver's license showing your new name but not your gender even though it is on the driver's license as well. You have to have a letter from a doctor for that. Makes no sense since you need a letter from a doctor to change it on the driver's license so why do you need it again for the birth certificate?

My insurance covers everything so as long as you have good insurance you don’t have to be anxious about money.

Yeah that's why you need to look for doctors that do work on that It will take a lot of research in time

In the UK do you have insurance that can cover that

20:18 I really don’t know how to spell that. Scroogelidoo?

scroogelydoo lol but honestly thank you for this video. i really needed to hear some of those things

Thank you so much for sharing!! Love from Korea (Squiggly doo~~)

I want to transition real bad but seeing how hard it is I don't wanna take the first step, it seems like such a big thing. I rly want to be a guy and I am dysphoric but I wish I could just finish the transition in a week, i dont wanna go through the thing it just looks so hard and exhausting even if I want to

how much did it cost to go private?

Thank you for this video btw (scroogelydew??)

U r so cool like ur style

And I'm already taking a hormone but just to talk to therapist therapists are experts on that to eventually legally change my name

I just started testosterone yesterday any advice???

Scroogelydoo??

Scruugelyduu Love you!

How many times a month do you have to inject yourself with Testosterone???

At least you have these waiting lists. I'm kind of jealous. In Poland you have to pay for every single step of the transition, including a lawsuit against your own parents when changing your name and gender markers. But hey, in Hungary it's straight up illegal to be transgender, maybe I don't have it that bad after all? (Sorry about the rant)

You aint does also a good thing to know because men never apologize they do things their own way And as a man everyone knows that to if you apologize people will see you as weak I'm transiting for 2 transwomen so I know what I'm talking about

Hello, so have you given yourself intramuscular injections? I have lots of questions, if that's okay! Edit: Also, Scroogleydoo!

That's why I weren't going to go with doctors that already done a bunch of trans women That way they know more

I think you should react to this video! Or at least a clip from around the 16:00 min mark

Doctors don’t know everything. Just because a doctor says they don’t know much about trans people and don’t think they’re the most qualified to treat you isn’t necessarily discrimination. It could mean that the doctor needs to get training and hasn’t yet and will be fine with treating you after they get the training. But demanding that a doctor treat you despite not feeling qualified is so dangerous. You’d be putting the doctor in a difficult spot of forcing them to give you care when they know they might make a mistake and might hurt you. Yeah, a routine physical doesn’t involve needing special training. But some not trans specific procedures probably do require specific knowledge about trans people that not every doctor has these days. Personally, I don’t want treatment from a person that doesn’t want to treat me. I live in a relatively conservative area and I’ve had doctors say they don’t have proper training but they’re also incredibly respectful and seem to go iut of their way to learn from me about trans people. It’s not always discrimination. Sometimes rural areas don’t really have the resources for training all doctors about trans people. I get my hormones from a specialist in a city about 30 minutes away and most of my medical care happens in that city as well and that’s fine because they have the specialized training that I often wind up needing anyway.

Im from uk but moved to US so I don't even know where to start with name change but that rule about being able to change your name along as it's not a gender thing is the stupidest thing I've ever heard. Im wondering if you could just lie and say your changing it just cus you want to.

Scroogly do to a real cool dude 👍🏻

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Screwgelydoo Lol!

i really wish i had money for top surgery. "flails"

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Well I would just say that a general practitioner should know general things overall. But that general would be a different word in place of basic. And in no way would I consider anything in regards to medical treatment of a trans person as either general or basic or even normal day to day of a doctor . Thus to assume a GP doctor should know exactly what and how to treat a trans person under the umbrella of GP is a bad assumption .

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@04:02 - "They need to give you the care you request" That's just completely ridiculous, the world doesn't owe you anything my friend. :/