Thank you for explaining it to the rest of us who are not in that world and for having the courage to come forward and change. Changing your mind in light of new information is a mark of wisdom. Being 'herded' using FEAR as a mechanism is an age old method to control the masses. Good on you for breaking free of it. Fear is a lousy place from which to make any decisions. Moving towards love and being kind is the only thing that takes us in the right direction to build a better future. Co-operation over competition is very different energies. One is peace and the other is war and the emotions you feel when faced with anything ....think of them as your compass or guidance system. If you feel fearful move away from....if you feel love move towards.....simple.
