I officially am going to be on T! I have been thinking a lot about the man I want to be, the future I want to have, and where I want to be. I keep thinking about the life I want, and how much this means to me. I picked gel to go on, but I don't know when the prescription will get filled. I also have been struggling with that I identify as a male, not merely as a trans person. In fact, I feel like being trans is a temporary thing. I am a man. And I just am struggling to find other trans folks who feel that identity with their gender more strongly than their own transition.
After some soul searching and discussion with my therapist, this was decided upon as a good idea. I used to post to RU-vid in the past and it helped me a lot to feel like I was helping people, while also connecting with others without having to actually be social :D My vlog has some kinda raw emotions and somewhat can be about darker things. Some of it may be triggering, especially to trans folks, as this is a vlog about my coming to terms with and dealing with trans issues, as well as other issues, from PTSD to childhood trauma to current events, so on, but I try not to ever be too graphic. Also, sorry the audio quality is not great on these, between the background phone notifications sometimes, or the volume overall. I’m just me talking to an imaginary you, and a struggling to process me.
16 сен 2024
