Dan and phil are living on brendon uries foreheard but this song will never be on the radio, even if the clique were to pick and the people were to vote
The beginning and end of the song are the most eerie to me, because it sounds like muffled tones from a phone; like what you would hear before, while, or even after dialing 911. It also kind of sounds like a busy signal/disconnect tone (all of this with the pitch messed with to go along with the melody), which is even scarier. The implications of that are haunting. Maybe it's just me reading too much into the music, but that's my take on it.
I saw on another lyric video someone say that Tyler said there are songs he's never gonna release; songs that he doesn't want anyone to hear. And somehow, that this song- unfinished, but still a song- that he put it to music, that he actually recorded it... ...what about the songs he didn't have enough courage to even do that for?
This gave me chills... it's hard to believe he could have worse thoughts, I suppose.. sometimes I wonder if Tyler knows something about the world that we all don't. Some big lie that nobody else understands..
WElL dInG dONg hAtiNg tWenTY oNE pIlOts iS wRoNg triggered much? All I’m saying is, some people have seen this before and OC needs to speak for himself. That’s all. It wasn’t anything about grammar.
The sound of what seems to be a phone in the beginning makes me think of calling a suicide hotline and nobody answering. It's kinda terrifying thinking that you could call a number like that and even they aren't there to help. EDIT: HOLY SHIT I DIDNT EXPECT THIS TO GET SO MUCH ATTENTION LMAO
@@ahfreshair9242 you got very lucky, most suicide hotlines are very poorly executed, and they will immediately hang up on you if you say a bad word (which is crazy, cause people under a lot of pressure don't think about what they're saying). and they will at the beginning say shit like 'go look for another person' (or if you're underage 'go to an adult') and it's just so wrong..
imagine seeing life from a terrible perspective, so terrible that you want to commit suicide. And then you go on to bring another human in here, holy shit
my theories: 1. the sound in the background is a suicide hotline with a busy signal 2. 0:44 is a gunshot 3. "i'm tired of taking my own life" means he's had too many failed suicide attempts
i think that "I am tired of taking my own life" means him not making what he wants from his life, but instead wasting it on depression, and not even living at all.
@1 1 please don't.. There are times for everything, bad times and good times.. It might feels like the bad times would last forever, but it won't.. And it's not clichè to say this, because it really does work like this.. If you're going through a hard time, just remember, you only have to go through today, you'll never know what's gonna happen tomorrow, you could "go" anytime and you'll never know, just don't rush it and live for today.. Before you know it, the bad times will pass and it's your choice to move on with a smile or stay in the dark.. Just remember, don't burden yourself with "tomorrow", bcos "tomorrow" is a mystery, no one would ever know.. Just live for today, you only have to go through today.. I hope that could help you, because it helped myself to go through everyday *ps, english is not my first language so i'm sorry if i make some mistakes:')
@1 1 Please, friend, don't commit because life, your life, is so precious. In all the people that ever were on the earth or ever will be, none of them were or ever will be you. If someone on Earth tried their hardest to be you, they would still be unable to replace you. You are worth fighting for, you are extraordinary, and please don't let yourself convince you otherwise. Life is horrible a lot of the time, but parts of it are worth it, like a trusted friend, a breathtaking scene in nature, and amazing music. And for someone, you are that reason to stay alive. Tyler and Josh make this music, being vulnerable and trying to help us even as they face the same struggles. People in the clique are uniting, trying to help each other and help you defeat mental issues, even when they feel they can't help themselves. There is still good in the world, so please don't give up on it. Bad times may come back, but there are people who will help us get through those times. And, perhaps some of your motivation can come from helping others, from being able to say "I made it out, and now I'll try to help you too." You are loved, and you aren't alone. Together, we can stay alive.
@1 1 and @Nate's Best Friend I do want to reply, I do care about your life, I just don't know how to express it properly. I'm sorry the people in your life are putting you down. Being afraid of hurting others is one of the worst emotions, ever. I know it's extremely hard but please, please find people who will listen to you. Maybe you can find new friends online, or you can widen your circle of friends wherever you go on a day-to-day basis. True friends will want to help you, and they'll keep on loving you even when you mess up. Please, don't let the negativity from others impact your self-image. I really hope you find people who will treat you with respect and kindness, people who will help you see your worth. Please keep on going. None of us are perfect, but that doesn't diminish our value. Please don't leave, it's not worth it. I want to keep on going through trench with you. The sun will rise and we will try again.
Crybaby Fan Ol I know it's hard but listen to me, we all are here together and let's stay that way. I love you and I want you alive and happy. Take good care of your self ❤️❤️❤️
uh, so, let me get this straight "i need something to kill me" i need something to kill me, i don't know how to do this anymore. "i'm tired of taking my own life" i'm tired of failed suicide attempts. that's the vibe i'm getting.
what I get from it and what I relate to is that he’s tired of constantly thinking about, like step by step of how he will do it but never goes through with it.
Jimin who? But while we live doesn't the fight continue While the battle is still waged isn't not over Failure can't be declared yet because the battle isn't over yet It's awful battle that's leaves us battered and wounded But to simply struggle to continue is brave and meaningful It gives hope to others fighting And when the fight is won you will be stronger for it I like to think people create masterpieces during their life. For some that will be art, or their relationship with their spouse or kids. It's their beautiful contribution to the world. But masterpieces get some of their beauty from their impossibility, uniqueness, and the effort they provoked. Your masterpiece can simply be a fight to keep being you when the world and your brain may tell you to give up. Your life holds beautiful things and ideas that only you can give the world. So please everyone please keep working on your masterpiece, for me, for your loved ones, for the world. Keep working on and fighting for your life
every day this number of views increases. it's scary to think that this many sad people are watching. if you're reading this, stay alive & you're loved. it'll all get better, i promise.
it's sad. that Tyler had to go through this. that most people will never hear this. this is great. this is amazing. but only 831 people watched this video. that is sad.
Can I just say I think TØP fans are some of the nicest people ever everyone in the comments is like stay alive guys and that just makes me really happy
Skelton clique is the nicest in the world I guess :) ask for any help guys! :)) would love to help fellow clique members stay alive and stay strong ||-//
s7eampunk I was thinking he's tired of his thoughts eating away at his head and consuming his life. Like hes not actually taking his life away, but that's what it feels like
s7eampunk i thought of it as him cutting. i know that's something he struggled with because of the rubber band he always wore before he got the tattoos and in a performance of addict with a pen when he sang "of course i'll be here again" he looked down at his wrist and positioned the microphone as an object he would use to cut himself. it makes me think of how cutting little by little cant fully kill you, unless you bleed to death.
drew is lonely depressed trash hope things are going ok, and you're a wonderful, unique human being so you deserve similarly wonderful unique things :)
This song speaks to me. To me, personally, it's saying i need something to kill me like an outside force because i'm tired of doing the harm to myself, i'm tired of my mind killing me. For once I just wish it'd be something else.
Slow it down. You can hear talking, screaming, a lot of really disturbing things. Who knew a two sentence song could have so much power (and maybe hidden things?) It also kind of sounds like a home invasion in my opinion.
Greta I slowed it down to .25x here is what I found 0:15 0:17 0:20 0:23 0:31 0:45 scariest 0:47 0:49 1:07 1:10 1:19 1:21 clear 1:22 I tried to stop all the ones that sounded the same. It sounds like someone saying hi, hide, or hey
I know this was from when Tyler was 17, but honestly I want to cry because I know what it feels like to feel worthless and in Tyler's situation from what I can understand. He wants to die but killing yourself is against the Christian religion and he would end up going to hell,but instead of taking his life he wants something else to just kill him. I used to and sorta still self harm and I know some people think that's idiotic but for some reason that's how I coped/cope, its like I want to die but I don't want to go all the way through with suicide because I'm to much of a coward and I don't know what's gonna come next after death,
- okay if your Christian, that may be but I feel everyone has a higher power maybe it's God or maybe it's an energy but does hell really exist? Maybe hell is having to go through this life until you get it right. If that the case I guess I'll be going through "hell " for a few more times.
not throwing yourself to the unknown to where you can't come back from is inelligent, not coward. MANY many ppl go through this and you too can make something out of your life. and inspire others when you do. PLEASE STAY ALIVE FRENS |-/ I care about all of you. and so do josh and tyler
Just image that happen, the arena goes completely silent. Tyler finishes. "Goodbye frens" he says. Then climbs the tower, and jumps.. I'm sorry I just made myself cry
Tyler joseph tried to kill him self but look at him now. 1. He has the best fanbase ever 2. He got a bestfriend (josh) 3. He is the lead singer of the best band in the world 4. He has a sweet beautiful wife (jenna) 5. He is gonna be a dad🥰🥺 6. He is a dad🥺, beautiful rosie 💞
Dude I’m sobbing everyone in the comments is saying how he tried to kill himself I didn’t even know about this And now look at him I have so many emotions right now
every single morning i fear that i'll wake up to find that tyler has taken his life. this song just increases that worry for me... please, stay alive, frens |-/
yeah, i just have a lot of anxiety about that. and yes, this song was recorded a while ago, and yes, he seems to be doing better now, but you still never know
It's sad because Tyler is going threw hard thing in his life I will never ask him to finish the song simply and I'm actually glad that he did not make a full version of the song you can hear the hurt in his voice it's not the same as his other songs he was probably going threw hard stuff in his life
This song reminds me of a suicide, and a 911 call at 3 am, and police sirens, and the machine at hospitals that beep with your heart beat. It freaks me out. And to think Tyler thought of these lyrics is so sad. But he made it. He stayed alive. And now look at him. Saving people. It's truly amazing Stay alive you guys. I promise you it is so worth it. |-/
It's so sad knowing that such a sweet, caring, adorable, strong, loving person has felt this way. He has saved many lives and I hope that he is truly saved now.
@@natesbestfriend3173 please remember you might not ever know the full extent of your work, you've made something with meaning and it's helped a lot of people, which is really amazing. Thanks for putting out your creativity into the world, and for still being here.
this is so haunting. to believe Tyler went through such a hard time and looking at him now, just amazing. he is someone that I look up to. He is shows everyone that you can get through everything
I cried when I first heard this song. I didn't understand why he felt this way because of how beautiful he is. He's an angel, and yet, he went through shit like this. Even angels get it bad
@@natesbestfriend3173 But now see, now that angel is a really proud father with a beautiful daughter and wife, he have Josh (he's best friend) and the last thing, he helped and saved a lot of people's, I love him.
I'm crying so hard now.i just read the forest fic and now I'm listening to this. I can't feel my life anymore. please help me EDIT : geesus, why are people on the Internet so much nicer than the people I talk with everyday.I will never regret I joined the clique.And thank you everybody for being so nice and for showing that you care.Thank you. Tbh, every time I feel like I'm gonna give up, I'm just gonna look back at this comments. Also....HOLY YEESUS, 1.3 K LIKES?!
Clique fans can be actually depressed or have anxiety. I hate how people try to be depressed to be “cool”, or “relevant.” Depression is not a joke, I’m not “diagnosed” as being depressed, but I have had suicidal thoughts. Some people just don’t understand. And I’m not hating on people how actually have depression, but if you do, please don’t try to make it as a joke. Thanks a bunch. 💖💝💞💘💗💓💕
i also hate how people think that depression and anxiety arent real. ive been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and schizo-noises. tyler and josh have really helped me through everything. to my suicide attempts to just needing to smile. they definitely make my life feel worth something and im beyond greatful
valerie Honestly though. I don’t have any open chances to see an actual therapist to actually have a diagnosis (since my parents are helicopter parents) but I have had Anxiety since I was very young and I just recently realized I might have Borderline Personality Disorder. I have suicidal thoughts and tendencies and I used to cut frequently. I still have scars from over 6 months ago. I am 5 months clean thanks to a promise between me an my girlfriend but it’s hard to restrain myself. TØP has been a great help to stop me from doing anything and I even got to see them live which was a life changing experience to see the people who are helping me through my problems
I know. It's like, I'm not literally choking on my anxiety on a daily basis to be cool and popular, I'm not literally hurting myself for popularity or whatever, because for me it's not trendy. It's survival
Ok i just imagined the saddest fucking scenario ever. So you see the background with the trees and all, just imagine Tyler walking endlessly down that path. Singing this song. Looking blankly straight ahead. His clothes torn and bloodied sleeves. Along the path, a huge crowd of people are watching with blank eyes. No pupils. Theyre standing still like statues, their heads only turning to look at tyler. Among that crowd, Josh is there. Watching. But to make it better lets say Josh breaks out of whatever the hecc the ppl are trapped under and he runs over to tyler and hugs him :'
I love this song but after listening to it too many times, crying out my eyes, covering my mouth so my family wouldn't be worried at 2 am, I can say that this is a very dangerous song that can lead you to thinking or even doing dangerous things. Please take care of yourselves. Don't let the darkness overwhelm you. Don't let it win forever. Get somewhere safe instead, at least somewhere where you feel like you are. and don't forget, sweetheart, some people need you down here. They know that you have a purpose. *and* they want you to stay alive. for them. and for you.
i completely agree. i went through the WORST time in my life a few months back and when i hit my all time low i listened to this song and almost did something i would've regret!! stay safe everyone 🙏🏼
i’m crying so hard because i feel like i’ve just ruined someone’s life and i think he might go back to jail because of me and i feel really bad even though my head knows it’s not my fault and i feel like a waste and i just don’t wanna BE anymore and honestly i needed this thank you ❤️
It brings everything back. The rare times that I am somewhat happy, the thoughts and memories still haunt me. I need to stop listening to depressing music but it’s all I like 😭. I’ve attempted suicide before and I feel like I might try again.
I appreciate their music because I've never wanted to kill myself and I don't want to. But the beat and how he sings, it makes me understand a little bit of what some people are going through. It helps me to truly realize that I should be happy with what I have in life. Before I knew tøp, I didn't really care about suicide. I knew it was terrible, but now that I've heard TØP, I really am inspired to try to help those people and I feel like I'm a much better person. I think knowing that it's bad and understanding what they are going through are totally different things. If anybody is reading this and can relate to this song, then please get help, and talk to somebody. Because you are unique and special. And if you are alive, you might do something really great one day, like Tyler did. And know that you are not alone. It is unfair that some people have to go through this. But God will help you. Remember that he is with you every step of the way:) sorry if this is cheesy...
When I started listening to them, I was normally so happy. About two months later I did get kind of depressed, but I've never been suicidal. I've never wanted to do that. The band has always helped me go through things, even though sometimes I can't relate.
I *need something to kill me* Because I'm already a *goner* Life is like a big *migraine* life it isn't *lovely* I feel like I should *march to the sea* I feel like i am falling through a *trapdoor* I just want too *fall away* I've lost my *glowing eyes* And now its *Time to say goodbye*
Ok. To make it clear. The phone-sounding and gunshot-like noises are nothing more than a side effect of sound isolation. As some of you may know, this song is from RAB series, and the original video had Tyler speaking (along with some other sounds) while the song was played in the background. And when you isolate any sound, the rest always gets distorted. If we had to keep the best quality possible, there would still be faint Tyler’s voice in the background. But the person who did the isolation apparently wanted to erase the speaking completely, so in the end we got this. Creepy and eerie distortion.
From this, to Friend, Please, to Lovely, to Screen, to: Fairly Local. From singing about wanting to die, he wants to help us and try to love us, I added Fairly Local here too, listen, I think he's a local to this sadness that we felt and the worthless-ness (?), so he says he is Fairly Local about it.
I feel lost inside, trapped under the ice, struggling to breathe but I can’t. Being sad, having my family think I’m stupid hurts and makes the pain stronger.
I know how that feels, you feel that the pain could do nothing but grow. But it does stop, believe me I know how you feel and if you ever want to talk about it I'm always free. Even though this comment is from a year or two ago I just hope you see this and you are doing well. Its a hard battle but I believe in you. I hope you are okay
every time i hear this song it always does something to me. just the instrumental at first and the distortion gives me chills, but /always/ as soon as he starts singing my heart stars to race really fast. every single time. and my breathing gets heavy and i start to feel anxious. but i strangely like the feeling and it actually makes me appreciate this song more. not many songs have that effect on me.
This put me in a dark place just listening to it. The fact that Tyler had all of this in his head and was able to put it on paper like this... it makes me so sad. Thinking that all of this is from his experience and his emotions destroys me. I want to cry but I can’t. I really hope he never gets this bad again. We all need him so much and we all love him too much to see him go.
I have a weird relationship with this song I feel like it always pops up in my head at my worst times. And I only ever actually listen to it when I'm completely done with everything. I'm at that point again. But now it's different I feel numb I don't feel sad or mad or happy or upset I just don't feel anything. I don't want to end it but I don't want to keep going. I just don't know anymore
hey how are things now? i want you to know that things get better, they do, for absolutely everyone. you just have to get through the bad times and and you will see the good times. there is so much life has waiting for you and you will be so glad you stayed alive to see it. your pain is temporary. you will experience happiness again, you will feel truly good again. suicide isn’t worth it. you can and will get through this. you have reserves of strength you don’t even know about. you are loved and cared about, and people want to support you and they want you to stay alive. i want you to stay alive. if you ever wanna talk, i’m here. please focus on getting through one day at a time and do absolutely anything that helps reduce your feelings of pain, anything. just please stay alive, i promise you it’s worth it. stay hopeful
Maybe you just want to know something... find purpose, and really don't have any ill intentions to do any rash things. You just need to know something. Please listen when I say, what is it you feel you need to know? Ask. God and other people are listening if you search for them. I believe in you, friend.
honestly though, this is so inspirational. just thinking about how he had scream "save me" at the top of his lungs to jesus makes my heart hurt so so much... he must've gone through some really rough shit, but this is just to show that things do get better and that even if you are in your darkest point of your life, if you don't give up, things will always work out. i mean, look at him. he has a wife and an amazing best fren and he gets to do what he loves every single day for millions of people. it's the biggest example i can think of when it comes to the fact that will get better. I'm so happy that he's in such a good position right now and knowing that because he got through stuff like that, i can get through my stuff too. i love him so much. like he said, peace will win, and fear will lose. stay alive, frens. i mean it. |-/
Kayleigh Kayleigh I can name several people who had it really really tough and it got good. Can you name someone who grew for things not to get better at all? and whenl I say grew I'm talking about long-term. Not 2 years or 4
Things aren't getting better this time and I know, I am getting old, no time to start over, and this time my ex has defeated me, 5 years, harder every day, to cope, to distract myself from what my life is not any more, which is everything that it was. Knowing that there is no justice, and not only does good not triumph over evil, but that our government makes certain that it doesn't, is just more than I ever expected to know. There are ufos literally everywhere and they are changing the Bible. Our government is beyond reform, it would require a revolt but the people with money have all the power, and plan to keep it that way, pitting citizen against citizen, to keep the spot light off of what is really going on, and the only people that you can find to even tell you that you should stick around are on a RU-vid channel full of kids half your age. I see so many people saying they have been isolated for their foolish actions, and bad mistakes that hurt their family and friends, but I did everything I could to keep everyone happy and it ended up costing me everything once everyone decided to move on, I held no value to them anymore, they didn't care what became of me, and it still torments me that bad evil people can ruin your life and destroy you inside and out and openly laugh about your misery and STILL be held in esteem by ANYONE. That while the bully attacks, people who have never even met you and have no clue what is going on will join in against you?! Just for the opportunity to hate on someone. And this just continues. How are there not enough decent people in this world to speak up when they hear words of hate, sobs begging for mercy, or cries of desperation. It is so very sick, and of this was the way the world was when when I was growing up, I never would have survived to now..
the gunshot makes me cry every time. imagine how he felt when he added that into the song. he probably thought about how he wanted that. that gunshot. to end him. i’m so proud of how far he’s come. i wonder if he ever comes back to this song.
Its sad that I tend to find myself here when everyone is asleep and I'm all by myself with no one but my thoughts. I really hope my mom can find a therapist honestly.. I hurt bad. Please stay alive |-/
this occurs so rarely... the instance where something so brief can inflict so much fear, despair, and concern. the excellent use of what sounds like a 'busy' beeping sound on a phone, the falsetto that chills you to the bone. the incredible phrasing, making you listen hard to certain points of the lyrics. the lyrics themselves, ones that slip under your skin and spread, viral and unstoppable, aiming right at your heart. typically, people sob and cry over long winded, descriptive paragraphs, ones that let you know exactly what's happening in a collection of sentences. this, however, can serve the same exact feelings and reactions in just two lines. tyler joseph can do almost anything. and inflicting terror and concern is one thing he's extremely well-versed in. when your bones chill and the song fades, you can't help but wonder how his family must feel when they hear their son sing lines like that to himself in the basement... alone. it's beautiful, yet so heart-wrenching. and truly, the only thing i can say is: wow. stay alive, my frens. none of you should nod at this song and say 'same'. you're all angels, all perfectly imperfect, all worth it, all incredible. ||-//
Oof this song is even more triggering to me now, because I remember the time I was home alone, blasting this on my basement, pouring the bleach into a cup.. I started to drink it, then I spit it out. Not cause I suddenly liked life or anything, it just tasted THAT fucking bad. Kids, don't drink bleach it's bad
And there is also a good chance you end up vomiting the bleach, AND messing up your mouth and esophagus at the same time, so you'd need a ton of surgeries and things done to you, making you suffer way more than you already were. If you wanted a painless way out, even something like stabbing yourself would probably be less painful than drinking bleach, which might not even kill you.
I just want to say that around two years ago I played this song (and similar TØP songs) on repeat every night as I cried alone in my room, thinking that my life would never be worth living. And I can not say that everything is perfect and amazing now, but I can say that things have gotten so much better. The journals I wrote then scare me now, and I just want to tell anyone who is in the same place I was in, No matter how bad things are now, No matter who is standing in your way, No matter where you are stuck, No matter how many people say it won’t, No matter how faded the light at the end of your tunnel is, And No matter how much your brain screams that it won’t, *It gets better.* *Stay Alive*
everyone is saying they want more of the song but isn't it better that tyler is actually happy? maybe it's good that there's not any more of the song cause that means he's better. (not trying to start drama or anything)
Bluu Insanityy there’s actually a continuation of this song, it isn’t official though. I forgot her name but just look it up and you’ll see it. It’s quite good.
I remember in 2016 people were talking about how they might remake this and put it on their new album (it’s Trench now) I’m so glad they didn’t but I think this song slightly inspired leave the city / neon gravestones
hello welcome to the comments, if ur sad now bc you r saddo that tyler was saddo dont be saddo bc now we have cookies and blankets (milk is optional) and tyler is saddo no more
When will it end look, you are an absolute stranger but I love you with all my heart. Please, tell me if you need help. I’m here for you. We gotta stick together as a Clique. We are a family and we gotta help one another.
Short but complex with a lot meaning. Please don't take your life, If your standing there with a gun in your hand and you think know one cares about you, I DO! i love you with all my heart. I tried taking my life and my BFF walked in and saved me. Now its my turn to save someone else life. Let it be yours. I know this will get lost in comments but hey if your reading this, your beautiful, kind, caring, and you mean the world to me! I-/
pro tip for the broken hearts that still come back to this: go to SoundCloud or make an account (it’s completely free), search up this song, heart it, and then click the little loop at the bottom of the screen. It will loop for hours with the static still in the song, AND you can lock your screen. ||-//
to anyone who may see this- this is your sign to stay alive. i look in these comments and i see a bunch of sad, broken people. i promise you it will all be okay. we may be beaten down at times but i swear to you that you can pick yourself up and get through it. if you ever, EVER need anyone to talk to, PLEASE dont hesitate to contact me! my instagram is @kayliemcclelland and my discord is kaylie#6587. please dont hesitate to reach out to me. stay alive, PLEASE, because it is worth it. i love you. until next time 💛💛
I’ve honestly never heard a song like this, Like it genuinely makes me terrified but I can’t stop listening to it because I connect with it on such a deep level
I want all clique members here... Who feel broken, Lost, forgotten, and worthless.. To promise me This. "I Will stay alive. My life is important, I will stop telling my self lies. Because Lies are not worth it. I am not worthless I Am Strong I am Me I am perfect. And I will Stay alive because its worth it"
antisocial i won't stay alive. im not important. i will keep telling myself the truth. because the lies are all true. i am worthless. i am weak. i am not myself. i will not stay alive. i am not perfect. blurryface won. holy crap i cried writing that. what if that happened to tyjo.
If this IS a new song, then Jenna and Josh NEED to keep an eye on Tyler and keep him away from knives. I hope he never finishes this song because then that would mean he's falling again. I don't want him to hurt. He deserves so much more than that. I really hope Tyler isn't going to release it. Ir would just prove most of my theory and this is one I don't want proved
After this song I went up to my mom and hugged her tight I looked at her and told her I wanted to talk. We sat down on the stairs and I told I might have anxiety (social anxiety I might have depression too) she looked at me she didnt belive me she said " a lot of people go through that lots of people are scared of talking to others" i told her "no its not that you dont understand" it went on like that. I thought coming out would help, but its made it worse im scared to even look at my mom. "I need something to kill me" not only for that reson. Edit:she still doesn't believe me mostly because I'm a Minor Edit: im better now the feelings i felt were mostly because it was hard to come to terms with my sexuality my dad is very homophobic and i was raised to think being gay was a sin but now im happy to say im a proud lesbian or bisexual im still trying to understand that too thank you for your really nice comments i just wanted to say it gets better
your local emo girl - it’s been a month since you posted this, but I just wanted to say that someone not believing you does not make your struggle any less valid or real. And hey, if you need anyone to be your new honorary mom, I’d gladly take the job (even though we’re probably around the same age) ;P
@@speckofdignity2487 lol thanks that means a lot I actually tried to talk to her about it but she just lashed out about it but don't take it the wrong way she is a great mom I'm lucky to have her thanks for caring
This doesn't make me cry as much as the fact that so many people are saying they can relate. If you can relate, then please get help if you haven't already. STAY ALIVE FRENS
I feel like this is a 911 call.. The begining sounds are tyler or someone else calling 911 because they are about to attempt suicide... And all they can utter is 2 sentences because theyre so broken. Police are immediately called, and the ending noise is them hanging up. This is so eerie to me sksknfndnejennfgn
