this song is about a father leaving the mother with a child and taking all of her anger out on the child, the child ended up running away and committed suicide
My mum: Aww my daughter is dancing so nice to her music it must be so nice Me: The song legit having the word useless child in it Me crying on the inside 😭
@@izukumidoriya4553Or they’re in the car with someone else driving while them with headphones (or not) in the back or front listening to this heavenly music
@@meowinkk I am one of the top students and during this time was close to our exam, my mental health was at the worst state and my grades were dropping significantly, got scolded by parents and teacher and being insanely overwhelmed and scared that I'd fail and disappoint everybody because I am no good in anything other than in academics lol, fortunately I got above average results and got into one of the top school in my country, now I am currently preparing for my midterm that's in a week ^^
Me in class: My teacher: you can listen to music while you wait. Me: You just made the biggest mistake in your life, letting these idiots listen to music. Also me listening to this for an hour:
My mother : "my daughter has really nice music taste, I'm sure it's a really happy song" Yes ofc. While your son is listening to a song about trauma which he is literally trying to survive.
That moment that this song is whats keeping you together before you fall apart again after holding all your anger and sadness inside for 3-4 years : me: “lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala” Me now: listening to this while crying because i got a 35% on a math test and you dont know what you missed and you know the eng lyrics
So the whole time I was listening to this I had a soulmate AU idea stuck in my head, where your soulmate can heard the song you listen to. My brain then convinced me it might be true, and every five minutes I was apologizing to my possible soulmate who probably doesn't even care.
@@michiko8994 thank you so much! I got the idea from the sining soulmate AU, where your soulmate can hear you sing. I'm not sure if it's original but I like it a lot.
awe, im so sorry, i hope you feel better now, your dad is wrong!! you arent useless or anything!! just know if you need someone to talk to im here and its okay! :)
My friend:so what songs do you listen to Me: *shows her this song* My friend:what is it saying Me:words my family calls me cuz im gay My friend:oh...you ok man Me: yep ;-;
My music teacher said, at our last school year we can put on our favourite song, and everyone should listen to it. Thats not gonna be a good idea, cuz my classmates thinks japanese songs, and animes are disgusting. Im already scared, because im planning that this will be my song.
I love this song so much because it reminds me of my dad calling me “useless child” and I feel relived when a music and relate to my pain. I mean dad issues am I right? Not my fault you made my mom pregnant and gave birth to me, if you want me to die, I’ll die definitely. Say the word your wish is my command ✨ • If I’m being honest here rn, I just wish I had a normal childhood. I wish I didn’t have trauma. I wish I didn’t *mature* so young. I just wish I was like the other kids. Being happy and proud of my body. I’m only 12 and got send to the hospital SO MANY TIMES. Probably 4 or 3 times. I hate it. I just wish someone can relate to me. I just wish so many things that didn’t happen to me. I matured at 9 years old and gain depression there. It’s my fault. Fucking discord ruined my life. I didn’t deserve any if this. I wanna go back home. I wanna go where I was supposed to go. I didn’t want this. This isn’t my definition of “growing up”. Not like this. Turn me back please, and change me into the girl I was supposed to be. (Sorry for the vent-)
Omg I don’t blame you, that’s how I feel- like my siblings tell me to kill my self and me being yelled at for no reason? Being a people pleaser to not get yelled at or to get talked bad about behind my back- still happens anyways like how similar is this..i didn’t ask to be born so I totally understand u
I matured at a young age to..I also have a insecurity about my body I feel you..I matured at like 7-8 when I realized that my parents didn’t love me. They love my brothers but only portend to love me so I don’t find out but I know already- I tried to run away when I was younger…so I can relate to you 100%. My childhood was trash as well, it was hell and after turning seven I realized things that a 7 year old should not have to go through ^^
Thank you i feel like no one can relate i wish my childhood wasnt so messed up i wish that my dad didnt yell at me i wish my dad didnt spank my siblings with wood and a belt really hard and with metal i wish "his son" i cant even call him my half brother anymore didnt do that to me when i was 4 years old and my dad chased us with a dead cockroach at half brothers moms house and the door got closed and had a child saftey lock on it so i was locked in there with my 5 year old half brother who was exposed to the internet when he was a baby so he did that to me(something sexual that i didnt understand since i was 4) i wish i didnt live like this and i have to stop the voices in my head saying "k1ll yourself" "your useless" and i wont let suicide win but deep inside me i can never truly heal its been years but the scar still remains inside my heart
My mom calls me useless because I lose my notebooks that have all my drawings that she wants to show her friends, lmao if she wants to see them she can ask nicely 😌💅🏻
@@michiko8994 she literally just yelled “Oi! Child WHERES your notebook?” And I was like three seconds away from saying “yes that’s my name don’t wear it out 💅🏻“
whenever im sad i go to listen this song but also i kinda feel bad about myself like i was a mistake and i could never do better than my brother...also thank you for making a 1 hour version
I have a plot for this music (if you watch mcyt continue) So, there’s a female and male different videos and plots, I’m just gonna read off the female currently (Females, you’re Y/N.) You fall into the world, everyone’s pointing swords at you as if you were a intruder. It takes a while too be friends with all of them but you do, you only have 3 lives and on the way of taking Tommy’s first life, you jump infront leaving you with half a heart, dream shoots again killing you and tommy (continue in the reply)
You respawn with tommy, leaving him behind you went to dream and called him a dumb ass, he thanks you and says it was your fault but it did help him. You both fall apart and rarely talk, you stay with the others and You (Y/N) was very happy, you are in a room and hear arguing saying YOU were a useless and worthless child (continue in reply)
You cry and lay against the door, keeping it close. You hear Quakity saying you were not a useless child, and it led too a argue ment. Tubbo backs up Quakity but Tyler let too Tubbo dying, he had 2 lives remaining. It continued every day with arguing and Quakity was with you playing his guitar trying too keep you calm (more in reply)
You break and run out the room crying, Quakity runs after you and you yelled at them saying you were a worthless and useless child. You tried too stop Tommy’s death again causing you too loose your second life, you are down too one (will continue later)
Everyone left you, unless you picked a side only Quakity stayed and joked around about drugs with you. He kept you calm for a while till he went missing, you didn’t get the news till you found Quakity. He was crying on the ground singing a song about tommy. Tommy was killed by dream leaving you with only a few people who trust you, Quakity told you what happened and you couldn’t help but fall into tears. (More in reply’s)
You blame yourself for Tommy’s murder, you couldn’t saved him somehow but you didn’t. You thought if you never came or if you picked Tommy’s side he would’ve survived and you all would’ve been happy, but Quakity comforted you and you comforted him.
ah yes time to listen to this while I think those jokes from my friends weren't jokes maybe i'm just a cry baby just as they say idk I just really want to dissapear
I love it❤ Me on the outside:🙂 Me on the inside:😞 i keep thinking for myself its all my fault cuz my uncle died...😞😞 And on the outside they thought im smiling... i dont wanna tell my family that im hurt on the inside... im crying on the inside my eyes hurt... but im wearing a blindfold but i can still see on the blindfold...
Me on the outside: :) Me on the inside: ): Everything I do is wrong (: I hope you can understand that there are people out there to help you! cuz I don't have anyone (:
It's really a mood. No matter where i am or how many people i met, everybody see me as a stupid girl. Even my family find me stupid. I think it's due to my behaviour and my education since it doesn't matter that i have good marks or bad marks. But how do you arrive to be more intelligent than the other kids of your age when you have bad memories ? I feel like it's already too late to make up for lost time. I don't want to look like my mother but more time passes, more i looks like her.
Things to tell myself to keep living until someone or something or natural causes kills me: Your parents love you and you love them. You love to live. Everyone in your live motivates you to continue living. You’re just being dramatic. Cry harder and the sadness will go away. for a long while. You’re just lazy. Writing out your problems help. You don’t actually want to die. What about your friends don’t you love them? That will hurt them if you die. :( What about your family? That will hurt them if you die. :( You’re selfish for wanting to die. There’s meaning in life. Just occupy your time with something it will take your mind off your problems. You don’t have problems you’re just making it up. Others have it worst than me I should be grateful. Go outside and talk to people it will help. Maybe if I get up and exercise I wouldn’t want to die anymore. You have to see the bright side of living. Living is beautiful and nice. You’re just hungry. Your life is going great why would you want to throw that all away? Just be happy. Maybe if I get off my phone, computer, game I’ll feel better. Just because you hated your life growing up and still hate your life now doesn’t mean it won’t get better in the future You were not emotionally abused You were not mentally abuse Your family did their best for you Be grateful for what you have Know what I’ll add and others motivative words that will 💯 % help me not want to die and why it’s not worth dying: You won’t go to heaven if you die. :) You’ll go to hell if you die (hoping I do heaven sound terrible anyways). People with money be like: Go to a therapist they can help you. Why do you want to die? You have no reason, your life is good. You don’t have depression so why do you want to die? That’s stupid are you dumb? Huh??? Followed by and angry/confused look, or just a confused look. (This definitely helps me not want to die) If you wanted to die so bad why didn’t you just shoot yourself? (I don’t want to commit suicide I just really hope I die in an accident or get killed by someone/thing)
Listening to this after your mom slapped you, forced you to drink hot sauce, being yelled at and compared to another child by your mom just because you got a bad test score is actually great😃✌️
My mom speaks Japanese and she understand the song while I was dancing to it and I knew the song but then after she came in my room crying and hug me because I have school trauma and from my dad and aunt so I listen to this after school but my headphones broke so I listened to it just with out my headphones
I was singing this in-front of my parents and I this taught me something thank you. Plus I am the unless child I get forced to do everything. I can finally confuse them in two ways: by speaking French and singing this
I actually feel identified with the "*happy person*" that inside's suffering, this comment it's just for motivate people to be like they like, no matter what others say .... hope you understand me cuz i'm actually not english, i am peruvian but i talk english Sorry for make you lose your time, keep going down :)
Song lyrics: You are a useless, useless, useless child The most useless child in the world. La la la, you're useless at studies, exercise, and speaking. You're just a destitute, dense, and dirty child yet I fell in love with that sobbing which came from that mouth that couldn't even say your own name. Drool in snot, dandruff, sheet, pee germy, crybaby, scaredy-cat, just ignore it, ignore it all Come, come, I'll protect you together, together, stay together with me La la la lula-bye, good night Let's sing a duet that will let us sleep with ease, sing it, sing it, sing with me! Lonely child, child You're a useless, useless, useless child You're the most useless child in the world. You're a useless, useless, useless child A child who'd be dead if it wasn't for me. You're a useless, useless, useless child A sad, sad, good-for-nothing. You're a useless, useless, useless child. I'll be the one to save you. La la la, monster, ghost, invisible human The flower vase in the urinal, skipping school. With seared lips, a small voice springs for the slander Let's listen to the monotone shriek Nevertheless, time continues to continue and continue in tedium You're a child with not enough time nor brains. Now it's too late, you're mentally retarded; a cute child, a good child, you belong to me. La la la, lula-bye, sleep tight, With a feeling of falling asleep, dance with me, dance, dance, dance with me. (And that's all, I can't continue further)
this is a suggestion for another 1 hour version: can you do magical door by maretu? i cant find it anywhere at all and that song helps me calm so much and it annoying trying to find one; or press replay on the regular song all the time, please do 1 hour vers of magical door
it actually hits me the best because I'm the disappointment of the family and knowing I can never be better than my cousins and I'm always being compared to them and being called useless so listening to this music is bliss to my ears and also they always see the bad in everything I do like in studies whenever I got good grades but one of the subjects I almost that fail they scold me and they don't care about the goods including I won couple tournaments and yet I didn't get congratulated enough and I wanted to confess so bad but I can't so i will be here venting :D
My dad always cheats on my mom and she always says she will leave him but never do...she takes out all her anger on me and my younger siblings....I never feel safe ...sometimes she gets drunk and eave us to fend for ourselves...I had to take care of my lil sister and brother I had to be the parent...im just 12....I wish I can have fun I wish I can have friends...my mom scares me so much ...she makes me feel so useless and unwanted and ugly I just want someone to love me ...I just want to be hug im so tired of seeing my classmates having a relationship with their mom...I just want my mommy back I just want my mommy to treat me like she loves me even if its fake....Im so tired of crying im so tired of it...
You are actually very strong and I'm sure when time comes your life will be the other way around (happy and safe) and I think your younger siblings will look up to you because you kept them safe.
No mater what others think, you are a beautiful person, and you will find people out there who truly care for you also……………..you said you wanted a hug………Virtual hug sent
!Vent and swears! so ive had suic1dal thoughts the whole night. its currently 01:08 for me. i cant stop crying beacuse of my dead dog bff and possible insomnia. my parents are nice, its just that i listen to these songs for comfort. i might have d3pre$sion to. the bad thing is that none of my friends stay up this late so i have no one to vent to. i usually just vent to myself. i also need to be my own therapist beacuse im the only therapist friend. i hate my life so fucking much. i hate basically all my fucking friends, they never listen to me. thats why i love online friends, and two of my irl friends. without them life would honestly suck. im under 18 and i already hate my life. i hate it so fucking much (edit: i timestamped basically the best part without knowing-)
I'm just kinda here after forgetting what day it was today and being in the wrong class. So I got put as absent for something I can't exactly explain and have it be taken well. Honestly all I got going on would be good grades, but they're poor during the months of April and May every year. I got called a disappointment last year when I got a very low grade, and can't explain to my mom that she upsets me. She wouldn't want to hear it cause she loves me and all, but it's true that her expectations affect me the most >:,) It's difficult focusing and finding the drive to keep pushing on when tests are coming up. I feel like I can't struggle with the one good thing I can bring. I feel childish caring about being a "well-behaved kid" when that's who I am when I'm scared. I really hate letting doubts fester and stop me from being consistent. She really doesn't know that I cry so often at school in the morning. I have tried telling her, but we end up crying together before I can even say a word, and I hate it. I'm really close to finishing high school now, but always want to be seen as the quiet and still kid people think I am >:,)
I feel the the exact same as you do the only reason why have good grades because I don't want my mom to worry about me, and sometimes whenever I try my best I always feel like I'm doing something. And the crazy thing is in about two more weeks is going to be my last weeks in middle school then I'm going to be in high school 🤦♀️
Srry that this is gonna be a long vent u can just scroll I just want to vent if u are gonna read this tho there is some triggering stuff so Tw sh, suicide, child abuse/neglect, bullying . . . Mum- she used to physically abuse me and my sisters by doing stuff like throwing plates, phones and other stuff at us if we were too loud or accidently spilled something she'd also burn us, hit us and slap us (idk how the school never noticed we were always covered in bruises and burns) If I spilled some WATER she would scream at me and say I'm gonna ruin the house even tho it hadn't been decorated for like 15years and then I would get lectured on why I'm such a bad kid If I was too loud she would yell at me to "shut the actual fuck up or I'm gonna make u" when I was like 4 If my room had one thing out of place she would threaten to throw all my stuff out and actually did twice If I wanted to go out she would refuse to take me and would force my sisters to take me out and if they didn't they would get grounded and then my sisters would get mad at me so until I was 8 I never went out unless it was for school After the age of 8 I could do whatever I wanted with no consequences aslong as it didn't effect my mum so I'd drink stay out till like 11pm (I knew that it was unsafe to stay out later then that) and I just done whatever I wanted so I wasn't rlly parented I was never taught basic things like how to clean, how to study or even proper hygiene I only learned that ir supposed to use body wash like 2 months ago If I didn't instantly know how to do something I'd be called stupid and get scolded If I wasn't perfect in school I would get grounded for months (which didn't affect me since I never went out anyway) Almost everything I owned was my sisters old stuff so alot of my clothes was atleast 6years old If I got hurt she wouldn't help me she would just laugh or ignore me once my leg was bleeding for an hour because I fell rlly bad and the only reason I got helped was cause my sister helped me Whenever me or my sisters confronted her on how shitty she is she would make us seem like the bad guys and say "oh so I'm a bad mum" like yes, yes u are Her and her bf both have depression and an Ed which has been passed onto me She has a bf who she breaks up with very Christmas for a week or 2 before getting back with him Her bf makes fun of me for no reason Her bf can't spell and constantly makes me spell words for him Her bf ways coughs or throws up almost every every rlly loudly Sisters- I'm the youngest of 7 kids and since my mum didn't raise me they all did which didn't work out very well since they didn't know much themselves ( I am thankful tho because atleast they taught me too cook if they didn't I would rarely have dinner) My sisters had to constantly look after me while they were trying to deal with school at the same time I used to share a tiny bedroom with 3 of my sisters so i never got privacy till I was 9 Recently my second oldest sister hung herself and somehow my mum still doesn't realise how much of a shitty person she is School- I got bullied ever since primary 1 or 2 (for Americans that's a year or 2 after u finish nursery/ kindergarten) I had multiple BRICKS thrown into my face and then I got in trouble for screaming at the people who done I got slammed into the walls alot and always got in trouble when I fought back I got made fun of for crying alot (because of my home life) even tho when other girls done it they didn't get laughed at I had 2 "friends" who always talked about me behind my back and who both left me in primary 5 I was constantly thought of as dumb because I didn't understand some stuff even tho I was rlly good at math and spelling Highschool- when I started highschool I met these guys who I became "friends" with I'm gonna call them T, L, S and C (talking about them further down cause they need there own paragraphs) Highschool has rlly fucked me up in s1 I started sh and felt rlly suicidal My class calls me greasy(cause I don't have energy to shower most days) My class tells me to kms My class tells me that nobody likes me My class tells me that I should just do it right and slit my vein to kms A girl were gonna M started a fight with me for no reason and then got mad when I fought back My 2 class's have a total of 7 nice people in them everybody is an asshole and hates me for no reason L- L is one of the reasons I started to sh he gave me a piece of class and told me to cut myself then done it himself when I said no L got me to start vaping L has tried to get me to kms multiple times L has tried to get nudes from me then told people about my sh and suicide attempts when I said no L pours Pepsi on me if I walk near him L punches me and then laughs if I'm near him L vented to me one night and then was a dick to me the next day L uses me as a distraction so he can steal food even tho he has the money to buy some L made me and my closest friend sh and feel suicidal L constantly tells me about him and his gf having sex without a condom as if its a good thing L has tried to kill me but strangling me, putting acid in science onto me and pushing me onto the road S- S is L closest friend and hasn't rlly done anything to me but I feel bad for him S sh one day then L told everybody and laughed at him S had depression bu almost nobody knows S was bouncing his leg in class one day and the boy next to him turned to me and laughed at him S has tried to kill himself before and L laughs about it C- C is as bad as L C does all the same things as L exeot behind my back C was sending my friend voice recording about me where he was being an asshole and making fun of me C has wasted about £15 worth of Pepsi on me be covering me in it and then running away and getting mad when I poured some on him C- has beat the shit out of me and ran before I got to get him T- T is one of my be friends and L has done all the same things to him he's done to me T relapsed after months of being clean 2days ago T has become suicidal recently T has been bullied by L for being gay T has too look after his younger brothers constantly even if he's busy I have a gf and I'm pretty sure she doesn't actually like me and just felt bad she's hinted at breaking up with me multiple times but has never actually said it because i think she's scared ill kms I have tried to kms a few times even when I was like 8 and people only know about one a few months ago I've been completely unable to stay clean these past 2weeks and I've felt even less motivated so I think I'm getting worse again I probably have bpd and whenever I'm clean I end up hurting other people because of it My bpd has been making me have derealisation episodes more often now I have a shit ton of trauma and my mum Denys it all even tho my sisters can back me up on it I can barely sleep most nights or I sleep to much there's no in between I'm constantly in a battle between not eating and binge eating I just always feel like shit and I can never escape it Srry for this massive vent I just have never rlly vented properly feel kinda better now tho
I’ll say all my struggles in a few words I’m not a professional, so don’t tell me ask for professional help I’m not a tool, so don’t use me I’m a human being, so treat me like one And I’m not some fucking therapist, so don’t tell me problems I don’t want to know
others : ''oh yes! she must be hearing k-pop i think,'' not me: listening to this song while im crying over my father scolding me bc im a bad sister while i did nothing in my room ngl { and yes , my parents basically hates it when im in my room listening to music }
