VLOG: WHAT'S GOING ON? ❤️| Fleur De Force 

Just a note to some people who may not understand it. THIS is why you don't ask people about their plans about children. Imagine going through this at such a private time and then having hundreds if not thousands of people asking 'When are you having another baby?' It can come across as such an innocent question but at the wrong time, it can be heartbreaking. Not taking anybody had actually said this to Fleur since I have not seen these comments. But just a general comment on the fact that people do actually do this. Lots of love Fleur

Fleur, it was so brave posting this. It’s something a lot of women go through and is never mentioned. Glad to hear you’re getting better, stay safe and well ❤️

Fleur, don’t you dare apologise for not vlogging as much as usual. You need time to process this and you take as much time as you need. Never compare your situation to those who have it worse because you are suffering and you’re hurting and you deserve all the love in the world. You always manage to give a smile despite what’s going on, and that’s why you’re such a brave trooper. All my love to you and Mike 💛💛💛

I've had 5 miscarriages myself. Very good to talk about it. For a very long time i thought nobody knew what i was going through. But finding out it happens more, really helpt me, im not alone ❤️

Fleur, I’ve watched you and Mike dating, get engaged, get married, lose Woof, have River, your house moves. You’ve shared so much of your life with us. To share this is so brave. I am so very sorry about what’s happened and I’m sending all the love for your granny. But thank you for sharing as you’re probably helping a lot of couples - lots of love to you, Mike and little River xxx

I am a silent subscriber for years and i just want to say: Thank you for sharing, what happend to you, even if you don't have to. I wish you and your family all the best.

Oh lovely, I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I had a missed miscarriage before I had my son and it was absolutely heartbreaking. It opened my eyes to a whole world of babyloss that I didn't realise was so huge. It's such a shitty club to be a member of and can feel extremely lonely, thank you for sharing with us. I appreciate not everyone wants to but I talk very openly about my experience, for a few reasons, but one of them being the hope that others will feel comfortable enough to talk about their own when they're feeling in the depths of grief and all alone. You are never alone 💕

Blessings to you, Fleur. You are the most joyful mother and my heart breaks for you. Be good to yourself.

Awh Fleur, as a viewer for years it breaks my heart to hear you’ve experienced this for the second time. I myself have lost 7 and I am now expecting baby no2. The most important thing is that you take the time you need to do whatever it takes to make you feel better, don’t let it get you down for trying again. Thank you for speaking up about it it’s never spoken about by women. Stay strong chick :) xx

I never comment but have watched you for years but felt compelled to tell you how sorry I am to hear this heartbreaking news Fleur💔 you are so strong and thank you for being brave enough to share such difficult news. sending love and support to you, Mike and River xxx

My elderly aunt is 82, is on a dementia journey, and in a nursing home... she contracted Covid-19, and recovered! She's a tough nut... Hope your granny gets thru it all x

Women need to talk about these kinds of things, because it’s more common than we realise! We all need to not feel so alone, us women are a tribe and stronger together 💪🏼 love to you and mike fleur 😘

I had several miscarriages myself. I think you are very brave to talk about it. Sending you a big hug 🤗

I am so sorry about the miscarriages and my heart is with you. I've had one too between my 2 kids and until then I've had no idea how many women go through that. I remember crying in the pharmacy while buying the pads and 2 pharmacists said they went through that too, so did my 2 close friends who have healthy babies. I even met a lovely mum in health centre with a premature daughter to whom she gave birth after 13 miscarriges and now she has 2 lovely kids. God has plan for all of us so lets not lose hope❤

Oh Fleur. I’ve watched you for over a decade so hearing your news has saddened me as though an old friend were telling me their struggles. You are as always, so eloquent and brave in the face of your pain. So much love through the internet ❤️

You’re a strong cookie Fleur and I love your attitude towards difficult times, cracking on, dealing with it whilst recognising you’re only human too!

I’m so sorry that you’ve had to go through this awful time. Sharing this sad news is incredibly brave, but will help so many women who go through this silently. I also send well-wishes to your Grannie and hope she makes a speedy recovery! Sending you all lots of love ♥️ take your time xx

Fleur, while I know this must have been a hard thing for you to discuss, I am so glad you did. This is SUCH a common occurrence, and it's definitely not discussed enough. I don't want to say we should "normalize" the experience (because that wording feels a little insensitive), BUT it's definitely important to talk about these things so other women know they're not alone.

I’m praying for your granny, Fleur, I hope she can pull through. Keep smiling beautiful, stay strong and positive, sending hugs xx

So sorry for what you've had to go through in an already difficult time. My heart and thoughts are with you and your family right now and I'm sending you all so much love xxxx

I am a silent subscriber since years and i just want to say: Thank you for sharing, what happend to you, even when you don't have to. I wish you and your family all the best. Thank you for your videos ❤️

Fleur you’re so incredibly strong, not to mention inspirational❤️ always so happy to see videos from you but please don’t ever feel pressure to put out content when you don’t want to. we love you and support you no matter what and I’m so sorry for your loss and i’m glad you’re healthy and safe🙏🏼

I’m so sorry for your losses, Fleur. My heart goes out to you and Mike. The sun will shine again ☀️ 🌈

Oh Fleur... I got emotional when you talked about this. I’m sorry to hear and wish you all the luck towards a next pregnancy. Lots of love xx

Aw man. When I saw your post on IG, I had a feeling that’s what happened. Very sorry for you and Mike. Take whatever time you need. Everyone is here for you and loves you. You’re a good egg! Things will work out. Lots of love and good energy from Canada

Thank you for being brave enough to talk about this. When it happened to me, I didn’t know anyone who had been through it and seeing this would have helped so much. So many women will feel less lonely because of your bravery, thank you. Xx

Oh Fleur, my heart breaks for you. Thanks for sharing - it’s so incredibly common (they say 1 in 4 pregnancies) but no one talks about it so we tend to suffer in silence. I had two before I had my daughter and openly spoke about them and was very surprised how many people shared they’d also experienced miscarriage. Talking about it actually made me feel better and less alone. Look after yourself (and Mike too) ❤️❤️

I'm so sorry to hear all that Fleur, really. I hope the best is coming because you deserve it and it's been a very hard period of time.

Your honesty will be so reassuring for others to hear. Sending you lots of love 💕

I am so sorry 😢 I have gone through a miscarriage and it’s heartbreaking! Well done for sharing it’s a brave thing to do xx

Havnt watched in so long but watching today feels like I’ve never left. I’m so sorry you’ve been going through such an incredibly hard personal time, thank you for sharing it does help other ladies who have been through something similar. Sending you all the love. Can’t wait to catch up with all the videos I’ve missed 💜

I’m a 23 y/o with no plans of children but sending all the love to this beautiful family💓 because I don’t know the pain but I understand pain needs support

I know that when I had my miscarriage knowing that other people had had the same experience was incredibly comforting, so this will be making a huge difference to lots of other women. Thank you. Sending love 💕

Fleur, I had a miscarriage in between having my 2 boys. Like you it took me by complete surprise as my first pregnancy had been so straightforward. You are very brave to talk about it online and will help so many people from doing so. Sending you lots of love ❤️

I have watched you for years and have never commented before. But I just wanted to say that you are an amazing mother and your little rainbow baby will be just as perfect as River. Xx

Miscarriage sucks, I’m going through the same, sending lots of love!

I’m so sorry to hear that you lost those babies but I’m honestly SO proud of you for sharing it. I don’t have kids and I’m not trying to get pregnant, but I know many people are having difficulty conceiving and they feel so alone. It’s more common than people think and I think your story really will help so many people. We love you fleur ❤️❤️❤️

I am so sorry to hear about this Fleur, it sounds like you have had a really rough few weeks. You are doing so well and are being so amazing, I wish you the best ❤️

Sending you so much love, Fleur! You are so strong and I look up to you so much. But please don’t forget that it’s okay to take all the self care time you need. We will be here no matter how much time you take off! Saying a prayer for your granny ❤️❤️

Thank you for being brave enough to share. I had a miscarriage when my first baby was twelve months old, and it devastated me. I went on to have three more healthy children, but still think about the baby I lost, even now.

I’m so sorry Fleur. Your content has been such a breath of fresh air during lockdown and it breaks my heart to know you’ve been going through this behind the scenes. Sending lots of love to you, Mike and River xxx

I’ve miscarried twice. The first time I was heartbroken and the second time I just knew it was going to happen again and felt anger when it did. I blame that on messed up hormones! I’ve since had my rainbow baby as you will too! Much love to you all xxx

I have been watching you for so many years I have a hard time remember when I have NOT watched you in the last decade or so. I feel like we have grown together and moved into adulthood together. We live completely different lives, but you really do feel like a long time friend. I am sending you all the love, I feel like everyone has already already said what can be said about this. Sending lots of love and strength to your grandma too. Stay healthy and stay safe.

I’m so so proud of you Fleur. I’m drawing strength from you right now. Thank you, for taking things at your pace, and then putting on your brave face and coming back to us- we will always be here for you. Sending you a lot of love you brave, brave human.

Fleur, I am so sorry about the miscarriage. Thank you for talking about it. That must've been so hard but I am sure that it will be helpful to many of us

After two normal pregnancies my third ended in a early miscarriage. It’s heartbreaking and everyone deals with the loss in their own way. Prayers for comfort and healing.

As a viewer for many years, it breaks my heart to hear that this happened. Just want to send all my love to you and your family. You are a strong woman 💕 you go gurl🔥

Fleur dont ever be sorry for having a break when your having a very bad time. Hugs and love to you all and to everyone on here who have suffered a loss.xxxx

Fleur, I‘ve been watching you for years and you are by far my favourite person here on RU-vid. I just wanted to say I wish you and your family all the very best you can ever imagine. You deserve the world and I hope everything turns out okay! 😘

totally understand how you feel. I had a miscarriage 2 years ago. Probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever been through in my life. But then came my rainbow baby. It will get better and you will feel better. Sending love xx

Oh Fleur, I am so sorry to hear the news. Your family have had a lot thrown at you during lock down. Glad you are all feeling better and I am so sorry to hear about the baby. I hope things get better at your end. sending all my love and support xxxx

My heart goes out to you Fleur. Hope you and your family stay healthy and supported during this difficult time.

Aw Fleur, that’s a heavy few weeks all in one go, all I can send is love and a wish that everything gets better for you all soon. Lots of love xxxx

I’m so grateful that you have shared this Fleur. I’ve suffered with female reproductive problems for years and I think it’s incredibly important for someone with your visibility and so brave of you to share this in an open forum that can normalise (to a certain extent) these heartbreaking issues. I wish you really well 💜

Fleur I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you continue to heal. Sending you and your family a lot of love. This is all a lot of things to be going through at once. Thank you for taking time off, feel free to take any more time you need, whenever you need it, and I know we will all be excited to hear from you when you share.

Next year Fleur is going to be the best ever....my hubby just said today....I think we all in a fashion need to forget 2020 as quickly as possible....and we're not people to wish our lives away....chin up keep going your doing a fabulous job 💖

this year is just a strange old year so far, look after yourself, stay strong,

Ah, Fleur. Sorry you’ve had such a shit time. Sending lots of love. 💕

Fleur, my thoughts are with you. I also lost two babies early on. What brings me peace now is that that wasn’t my baby. I would go through it all over again if it meant I would have the two girls I have now. Without my losses, I would never have met my daughters. Your baby will come. It will be the one you were meant to meet. The old saying ‘time heals’ has real truth. Love and best wishes. Xxx

I’m so sorry to hear about your two miscarriages. I’m sure this was hard to talk about in a video but thank you for sharing this with us. Sending you lots of love and virtual hugs 💜. I also hope your grandma makes a full recovery. 💜

I've been thinking of your family the past few weeks and just lifting your family up in prayer. It isn't something that I would normally think of doing for someone I don't actually know other than watching on the internet. Yet I am so glad to hear you two recovering and still holding up. ❤️

I’m so sorry to hear about your miscarriages Fleur. We were so excited to find out we were pregnant with our first but unfortunately miscarried in January. Sending lots of love 💕

Wow - been watching for years and have never felt the need to comment. Nothing but well wishes for your health, your family's journey, and your well being. These times have been trying for so many of us, your ability to be raw and honest about the challenges you have faced is beyond admirable. This is why I have continued to watch for so many years.

Ah you made me cry! Those emotions from when you lose a child never go away 😭 It was eight years ago for me and I have a nephew the same age so every little milestone has hurt along the way. I have since had a little girl who’s the same age as River. Take care of yourself xxxx

I thank you so much for talking about this. It will help so many people. I’ve been a silent viewer for years and I must say how much appreciate you and your content. You are the most respectful, thoughtful and genuine person I follow on here. Sending so much love to you and your beautiful family. ❤️

Fleur, I'm so sorry for your loss. I've missed your vlogs but am glad you took the time off you needed. Be super kind to yourself during this stressful time, much love to you, mike and river and wishing all the best for your granny too, hope she has a speedy recovery.

feels nostalgic watching your vlogs, you were the first vlogger I watched over 5 years ago

I just wanted to say, when you put this video up, I remember watching and feeling my heart break for you. Last week I had a miscarriage myself and I felt myself looking for this video again to feel less alone. I wish you'd never had these experiences at all, but thank you for sharing, thank you for helping me feel less like I'm in the middle of a packed stadium, crying and no one can hear. I hope you're okay and I wish you all the best and all the love and hope in the world.

My thoughts are with your granny. There are elderly who’ve lived through it with proper care, hopefully she will be one of them.

I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through this, especially with everything else going on. I’ve been a viewer of yours since the very early days and it breaks my heart that this has happened to you. Stay strong, don’t give up hope and hold on to the love and positive things in your life. I also have to say that the way Mike looks at you is just pure love ❤️ I’ve loved watching your relationship grow and develop over the years. Sending you lots of love and positivity and I’m crossing everything that your Granny makes a speedy recovery xx

My gosh fleur, lockdown has not been kind to you. You don’t have to stay strong, grieve and have time out. Everyone will still be here when your back. 💗

Just because you have a high profile life, does not mean you have to share everything, I think it's good that you are sharing as so many women suffer this. It is sad, but as you say it could be worse. Take joy in what you have now, and hopefully you will get answers and ultimately another healthy baby.

I am so sorry, Fleur! It must be heartbreaking!! Look after yourself, stay healthy and it will all work out when the time is right. I have been watching you for 8+ years now and am absolutely gutted that you are going through this! Sending lots of love to you and your family xxx

I also had a miscarriage during lockdown - end of March and it was so hard as we don’t have kids yet! Sending you lots of love! Bruna 💜💜

Fleur that is so much to go through in such a short space of time. I've no idea how you are even functioning . Huge love and hugs to you mike and river. Stay strong and fingers crossed your grandmother will be ok xx

Awww Fleur. You are allowed to feel and act how you please, don't let anyone try to give advice or undermine your grief. And you are correct, life can be shit. We have to go through terrible times to truly love the great ones, and I am still trying to learn this myself. You are surely handling both with poise and grace, as usual. With love from Chicago. Hugs

Fleur, went through this myself, a long time ago now and it is heartbreaking but I eventually carried to term and have a beautiful little girl. I comforted myself at the time with the fact that I had had my son already - and if it never happened for me again, I was blessed to have him. Sending hugs xx

Sad news, have been there myself a few times, be gentle with yourself, thinking of Mike too, much love XX

So sorry to hear I had no idea. Hope you're doing well. You don't have to come in here and be all happy bubbly Fleur, you can show your sad side, obviously only if you're comfortable. I'm sorry for your loss and hope things happen for you soon ❤️

I am so sorry for you Fleur. However, I admire you for sharing and openly speaking about such a painful topic. Speaking about it helps people and even though you may not see it directly, I am so glad you shared this.

Fleur, I can't thank you enough for sharing your story! It would have helped me back then and I am sure it will help many others along their way :) Over time I have noticed that I started to feel a bit sensitive towards people telling me how I shouldn't be worried because 'person xyz has had a miscarriage too and shortly after they got pregnant again and had their baby'. I know these stories are ment to be soothing and to reassure women that it is perfectly possible to have a baby after one or multiple miscarriages. They gave me hope too and I regained confidence in my body but now I am looking back and all the 'don't worry this happens to so many women when they first start trying - next time it will be different' stories have not become my own reality and maybe they never will. Every womens' story is so unique and if you have been able to have a baby after a miscarriage and you are talking to other women about the topic, please keep in mind that that is only your story and it won't necessarily become theirs. Share your experience and talk about how miscarriages suck - we can all agree on that - share your joy of eventually becoming a mother too and let us be happy for you but please, please don't tell another women to 'hang in there and keep trying' or how 'in the end it will be all worth it' because for all you know that woman might be going to 'hang in there' for years and years to come and she still might never get to that part where all the pain and the heratbreak was finally worth it. Lots of love to all those on their journey and sorry for my attempt on English :)

My husband and I are sending you, Mike and River lots of love and hugs and prayers. We love you so much 💛💛💛

I am so sorry, Fleur. Please take your time to heal, don't feel pressured to post or anything. Sending you lots of love!

I know what you are going through. Lost à baby in week 10 on christmas eve after numerous of IVF trials... worst time of my life! Constant struggle between hope and desperation. Take your time to heal. All my love to your beautiful family.

Sending love Fleur. I just want to wrap you, Mike and River in a bubble of caring and love whilst you all heal xxx

Aww Fleur I’m so sorry to hear that you lost 2 babies, you must be devastated. Sending so much love your way. Well done for sharing when you’ve been ready to. Sending prayers for your grandmother’s health xxxxx

Sending you much love and hugs. You didn’t have to share but thank you for bringing us into your life. I have followed you for so many years, you are soooo amazing! I hope your grandmother has a rapid and full recovery.

Oh dear...so sorry darling for the sickness and loss. Been there and know it's super hard. Lost my first. And when my son was conceived. ..I lived for every appointment. Be well dear girl! And hold your little River close...love you.

I’m so sorry my heart breaks for you,, sending you so much love and support xxx

Thank you for sharing this 💕 I’m so sorry for your loss and just want to say we are thinking of you and wishing you and your family all the best and all good things to come.

River is an absolute angel! What a stunningly beautiful child! Thank you for sharing her precious antics with us. What a charming family you guys are. I’m so sorry the past weeks have been so difficult and sorrowful for you. Here’s to hoping for so much better for you moving forward!

Thank you so much for sharing--as someone who has also lost two babies I always find it so comforting to hear other people's stories to remind myself I'm not alone. I hope you can find that comfort too from the huge community of us who have experienced these losses. We all have the power to support each other through sharing our stories with the world.

Sending so much love to you all 💜 I had a miscarriage in November and I'm now expecting our rainbow baby 🌈 so believe that good things will follow this storm you are currently weathering

I’m so sorry to hear what you have been going through. Sending lots of love x

Fleur, I follow you since the very beginning of youtube and I normally don't comment but this time I just had to. You are so brave for sharing your loss and heartbreak. Sending you lots of love!

I am so sorry for your loss Fleur. Your still a wonderful person. And River is the best daughter ever.

I'm so sorry to hear you have had such a tough time, and so sorry for your loss 💓xx

So brave to talk about this and it must be especially difficult to have a huge audience to share it with. All the best to you both x

I’m so sorry to hear about how terrible last few months have been for you and your family. I’m very much enjoying your vlogs especially when you show off River. She is absolutely gorgeous! Her beautiful curly hair and sweet little voice omg! Hope the next few weeks/months will be better. Best luck to your Grandmother!

Loving, calming, peaceful thoughts being sent to you and Mike and River....you are amazing!