Vlogmas Day 15 - A Very Honest Chat About My Health 

You have to take a step back and start looking after yourself I’m a Virgo at 57 I’m burned out with stress of trying to keep everything ticking over to my standards I’m very poorly with cancer I’ve had to stop and make sure I’m ok first it’s what you need to do otherwise you end up having more health problems, it’s ok not to be on top of things all the time, chill and enjoy your beautiful home and family xx

Your YT community is behind you with much support. Thank you for giving us an update on your health. Take care and much love to you and yours.

Appreciate your honesty, always. Also your need for privacy. Why would we, as your subscribers, need to know about your health? If you want our support, however, I'm sure you would have that in force.

Thanks so much, Caroline, for sharing your day with us. Of course you need privacy around any issues you see fit, and always know we're right here caring about and supporting you. I have two words for 2020 - heartbreak and hope. I'll leave it at that. Take good care. So happy Will is coming home tomorrow! Blessings from California XXX

Caroline we never stop being mums, wives and rescuers to all especially if you are selfless. It's taken me 57 years to realise that I'm important and need to look after myself, like you work full time (social worker) and with grown up kids that still manages everything. I love your insight and love you bring. Keep smiling xxx

Caroline you are perfectly correct to keep some things personal , especially health concerns , to allow yourself time to get your own thoughts in place. A lot of people will identify with the over thinking / anxiety / perfectionism. We often spend a lifetime , not realising that we do hold ourselves to a high standard and expect so much of ourselves! Being kind to ourselves is a skill to keep reminding ourselves not to be self critical . Hard to do though. Enjoy having your son at home and thank you for your blogs. Merry Christmas

Aww Caroline I wish i could give you a hug. As a fellow 52yr old i am exactly the same. I need to change my lifestyle, drinking too much, lack of excercise & diet. I've put a load of weight on this year and work has been very stressful to the point i've took a few days off work as im mentally depleted. We're pushing ourselves too much. I too have put off a health issue and you are so right about "Without your health". Your lovely home looks beautiful and cosy. Much love to you and the family. Julie x

Garland and Christmas Tree 🎄 look amazing 🤩. Thank you for your honesty around your health. I find accepting my limitations due to health/age very frustrating 🙈 and often recall my mum saying ‘ Mandy I’m 60 not 16’ when I’d plan days out or certain activities. I hope you find the balance you need to enable yourself to enjoy what you do whilst caring for yourself. As always take care and stay safe ☺️

Well done Caroline for your honesty, I totally agree with your decision on keeping somethings private. I also understand the stress! I’ve been feeling the same at this horrible time. Any small situation can become an enormous problem in a small time frame. I love your vlogmas vlogs. Please keep them going and enjoy Will’s and Ashley’s company over Christmas. Take care.xx

Improving your fitness is propably key to better health. As a 63 yr old fitness instructor I would recommend that you walk regularly. Its the best and enjoyable exercise that is not sore on the body. Ever thought about getting a dog? It will need walked every day and wont listen to any excuses. Ha ha. There are lovely walks where you live, enjoy them and see the difference to your health!

The word for 2020 - survival

You are every woman/mother/ daughter/wife . . . . But you are different, in that you give a voice to all of us joining you as friends and feel just the same way. We push ourselves into ‘perfect’ - but nobody but ourselves expects it. Our female family ancestors set us the example - mum says the Blitz was survived with gallons of tea and a red lipstick. We are strong love 💪🏻

Oh how our bodies and minds deceive us! Our minds tell us we want to do it all and then our body lets us down. I know just how you feel Caroline. As we get older I find it hard to judge how to re-assess but I should expect of myself. Listening to our bodies and taking a rest/break is what we should do - but do we? Anyway, always good to listen to you. Take care.

Thank you for all the charity donations, it has been very interesting hearing a little about them. I got a very pleasant shock when I heard my name mentioned today for nominating Safe In Sussex. Best wishes to you, I love the videos.

You have a beautiful home Caroline 🏡❤️ Sorry to hear about your health, I also worry about my future health, my nan died at 62 and my mum now in her 50"s has awful health issues.. Makes you question your lifestyle doesn't it! I wish you and your family a lovely Christmas x

Hello Caroline. I reached your situation at the beginning of last year, I can make little impact on my health problems because they are genetic but I decided to sell my house and downsize and try to work less. I've put exercise on my list and I try to walk everyday and next year I am going to work on my diet and, covid permitting, I am going to have my first holiday in 9 years. I am sure that no matter how you work on your particular problems you will get huge support from Ashley and your family and the thousands of people who look forward to your vlogs and are very fond of you. Good luck

My word for 2020: upheaval. My word for 2021: hope. Caroline, it takes courage to admit that what you did at 30 you aren't able to do at 52. I'm there with you. I juggled so many balls in the air just 10 years ago. Now I'm 64 and just have to admit I can't do everything. Your health comes first. Everything else can be prioritized after that. Some things will need to go by the wayside. Your garland and little lights look wonderful.

Women are like tea bags, we don't know how strong we are until we are in hot water

You need time to accept that you have an illness. I have been diagnosed with two terminal illnesses, first one 17yrs ago and at the time 8yrs was life expectancy. The second one was3 to 5yrs and that was 3yrs ago. I have been diagnosed with 9 more illnesses and the first was 47yrs ago. When l see the consultants l feel very down but after a few days l leave it at the back of my mind. Take your time to accept it and the way you deal with it will right for you. Wishing you the very best and be kind to yourself.

You are so right about your health being everything. I learned that lesson when I lost my sister 7 years ago to breast cancer. We own a small business, so 2020 has been challenging, but we are making it. We are lucky in a way because we live in Mississippi, USA and we've never been completely "locked down". Our son was married this year and we were able to have a ceremony and reception. My mom and I were able to take a little trip. We had our usual Thanksgiving and hopefully will have Christmas the same as usual. We live on a farm in the country, so we're kind of homebodies anyways and we have lots of land and animals to take care of, so we stay busy. I find my animals have helped so much because they depend on me. It has helped to have that outlet. I'm 51 and I'm realizing every day that I cannot do what I used to. Between elderly parents and children just starting out on their own, we get squeezed from all sides. Your home looks lovely. Love the trees and garland. Enjoy your family and have a very Merry Christmas! Prayers for your health issues and that everything is resolved quickly for you!

Hi Caroline. I suffer from having overly high expectations of myself and of others aswell, my husband is always telling me so! At 61 I workout everyday, even with the gym being closed I have the Les Mills on demand so do it from home. If the house is not to my liking I can't rest till it is, I think I make myself miserable with that! Anyway give yourself some slack and enjoy your Christmas and focus on all the positive s in your life of which there are many. Your chat is such a tonic better than the tele !!!

Lovely varied content as usual, Health! Stuff comes along to give you a quick boot up the jacksy...(had my boot a few years ago)! You are a planner and you will make a plan and then go for it...when you are used to worrying about other people it comes as a shock when you have to worry about yourself doesn’t it? Take care xx

Hi Caroline, Your house is looking lovely and Christmasy, I think the garland and lights look fantastic, and I love the two gnomes on the mantle piece are so cute .I am sure when William gets home and you have Ashley home for a few days at Christmas, you will be able to charge your emotional batteries. Hope all goes well with your health issues, and I think next year has got to be better than 2020. sending hugs, you are a very special person. XXX

Just seeing this video now and I had to comment on your chat about your health…..your ability to articulate the reality of how so many of us deal with health issues had my jaw dropping! I have the EXACT same approach to my health, the ability to recognise that change is needed and simultaneously acknowledge that while you know intellectually it has to be done, you also acknowledge that implementing the changes is “still in the works!” I, too, would have postponed having testing done till after the holidays, the better to deal with any news the tests might reveal! I so get it! Anyway, just wanted to chime in that you are not alone in any of these behaviours and attitudes toward your health….in fact, you have an identical match over here on the west coast of the states!!!!!!

Dear Caroline, I wanted to give you a big hug. I so agree, with Debbie, you are an amazing lady. I love your sense of humour and your honesty. Thank you so much for doing the videos for us all the way through 2020. They have gone a long way in keeping all our spirits up. I know what it's like to have health scares and had some myself this year. But our bodies are resilient and some changes really do help. We can do it together. I so hope your son is delighted to see your little face too, just like you are to see his xxx

Sorry to hear you have some underlying health issues Caroline. Im sure we are all sending you kind thoughts. I know I need to focus more on my health and fitness at the age of 66. Here's to a happy, healthy 2021

'Will's little face' !!!! You made me smile when you said that, no matter what age they are, they're still our little babies!!! A bit of unwanted advise from a nearly 70yr old, listen to your body, rest when you feel like it, enjoy your food and the odd tipple and be good to yourself. You bring a lot of joy to people that you don't even know and we are all rooting for you, and I'm sure that I speak for a lot of people when I say that we will say a prayer for you.

Nobody's life is perfect. Financially or health wise. You're doing well Caroline. You are doing wonders for my mental health. First Christmas I will be spending it alone. All will be well in 2021. Thank you for being the very entertaining Mrs M. Xx

Your health is paramount, and I understand that coming to grips with what needs to change is daunting and you have my support! This year hasn't helped much, has it? Seems as if we have several more months of this, which is also daunting to think about. Can you imagine how busy airlines etc. will be when we are allowed to travel again? I just booked my trip back to the UK for late August, hoping that things will be almost back to normal by then (I was supposed to go this past May). The fare was good, the hotels are offering great prices, so fingers crossed.

I am so glad you talked about health issues, I had to pause you mid sentence because you reminded me I had to ring my Orthopedic surgeon for an appointment, I had put my referral in the drawer after coming back from the doctor last week and totally forgot about it, oh the joys of getting old, I’m 61 and had my first hip replacement at 55 now my other one needs doing, I can so empathize what with my blood pressure and osteoarthritis in my knees etc, I know I need to lose weight and drink less and exercise, but I just need a kick up the backside, oh well let’s just get Christmas over with, then onwards and upwards. A very merry Christmas to you and your family Caroline 🎄☃️🎁🎄

Whenever your ready Caroline your followers are here for you, I understand completely where you are coming from regards to trying to do everything the way we could in our thirties, if I can I do if not stuff it I would rather play cars with my 2 year old grandson, I watch him 3 days but he stays with us so he is with us 24 7 so bedtime for me is between 7.30 - 8.00 PM bliss lol so glad your boy will be home for Christmas, take care sending hugs xx

Such a lovely tree! These vlogs truly mean more to me than you’ll ever know x

Love the Garland and lights, just beautiful! Health is vital, I’ve learnt that this year, as for stress well that lies behind so many health issues, my aim for 2021 is to cut the crap, find the joy, get rid of anything that causes disproportionately high amounts of stress and bring in more that gives me joy. Ambitious but I’m determined. As women I do think we aim for perfection far to much, a phrase I learnt this year is good enough, it’s helped me through some tough times. Take care and stay safe xx

You have no idea how much I needed this video today. I can relate on so many levels. Just to know I'm not alone in the never-ending struggle to balance home, family, marriage, life, and oh yes, my health. You hit the nail on the head with your comment about lacking an iron will. I almost spit my coffee out. That's me in a nutshell. I suffer from many of the same ailments that you were dealing with. Number one is the need to eat better and exercise more. What stands in my way of that achievable goal, is the fact I love to eat, I love to drink, and I hate to exercise! But I don't give up hope, and I'll always keep trying. Thank you for so nicely articulating what so many women deal with.

I wish I could hold myself to high standards. I am so unmotivated at the moment. I have Osteoarthritis and Osteoporosis. I want to find that motivation within. If you are going to make changes I will follow your progress and hopefully make changes myself too. I am 70. I was really active until a few years ago. I hate being so lazy and stuck. I need to change. Bless you x

Hi Caroline, I find myself in the same situation concerning my health, I also lost my husband this year. I really feel for you, but like you I am going to focus on my family and christmas, new year new beginnings, love and light xx

Kirsten's shop is lovely. Walking an hour a day brought my blood sugar down to where my doctor was very pleased. Every single health problem I have is caused directly from carting around too many pounds. I will likely not be able to lose weight and keep it off. But the walking is very good.

Hi Caroline,Been going through health issues myself for last 2 years and I’ve read some of the comments and everyone else has been too ,Life gets busy and you put yourself last and as a mum we’re selfless and putting everyone first ,and having the worry of your Mum&Dad on your shoulders...It will sort it self out as life does,You got to take care of you and love&enjoy your family as you do so well ..seeing the excitement on your face that Will’s coming home melted my heart ,Have a wonderful Christmas,Cheers Caroline 👍🌷🌲🎁🤗

Hi Caroline, I'm a "tooth grinder" as well and my Dentist made me a "mouth guard" which I wear to bed each evening. This has been a great help. Best wishes.

Caroline, you are an awesome lady but honestly we are all trying to keep up with the way we were went we were 30 but unless you have been wrapped in cotton wool all your life, it just is not possible. So as the Japanese do, just move slowly and drinks lots of water to keep flushing the system through. Please dont stress over stuff you really cant change. I stopped watching the news purely because i know i cant save the world. Im a worrier and want to save everyone but i cant... so please dont be hard on yourself, enjoy your surroundings and your family, big hugs you wonderful wonderful lady xxxxxxxxxxx

I was diagnosed this year with inflammatory arthritis at aged 39. Just to top of the 2020 curse. I have been reading endless books on positivity and how state of mind can help people manage health issues. So far I’m finding it helpful, I think. Made me realise how negative I can be so has got me thinking certainly. x

It is so lovely to settle down with you for a chat, you make me feel like I am listening to a friend. I don’t know any strong willed women and I certainly am not one but I have roughly the same issues as yourself. I look forward to hearing how you cope in the New Year, I know you will motivate me! 😍

Caroline-love your honesty and completely respect your privacy, just take care of yourself and your family and hold on to "without health you can't do anything" so true and I am sure you will find a way through this.

I'm 57. My wrist hurt. I went to the doctor for the first time in 30 years. They discovered my blood pressue was 185/130 and I was immediately put on 4 kinds of medications. I had no idea I was that sick. 2 months later I feel better, blood pressure is fine, weight is down. So glad I went.

Caroline, do what is best for you and look after yourself xxx

Oh Caroline I'm feeling just as you are and also need to sort my health and weight out for the new year the stress of this year has been so difficult. I must visit your friends shop as I live fairly close to that town. Like you I love candles so must take a look at those. Looking forward to your future blogs and take care of yourself x

Great video really appreciate you taking the time to vlog at this busy time of year. Great that your son is home with you this Xmas it will be great to catch up and spend quality time together. Love the garland and the Xmas trees and that your cat thinks that’s his new bed❤️❤️

The garland with the lights looks so nice! Thoughts with you as you start your health improvement journey. I hope you find what works for you, that brings you comfort and positive results. You have thousands of cheerleaders behind you... we are here to support. ❤️

The word for 2020 ...useless the word for next year ...positivity 💕

Garland is lovely and agree a real tree is more festive. I remember the days when I used to love writing cards out and wrapping presents find it such a chore now..... always glad when its done. Hope your health issues get sorted and you start to feel brighter soon.

Hopefully you will feel better after your appointment with the scan next year and the operation you mentioned will help you feel so much better..Have a nice time with your son coming home..and take care

Hell Caroline. I agree with your comments on dealing with life. I feel that I prioritise me last!! And I agree next year has to be different!! Take care of yourself!! Thank you for your honesty. Hope your issues are dealable. X

Love your cat, would like to see more of him.

So sorry you have these issues to think about. I’d write down all your possible solutions on a piece of paper, put it in an envelope and then leave them in a drawer - enjoy your Christmas and then see how you feel about them in the New Year xx

Hi Caroline, I thought that I thrived on busyness and perfection, that was untill I was 45 and ended up in hospital with having a suspected stroke. It turned out I hadnt had a stroke it was stress caused by my lifestyle. Not a very nice feeling I can tell you so please please please take it easy and take time out for you xx

Only you will know what is right for you, take time and decide on what and when to change. The most important thing is your health, not other peoples opinions. Take care and keep safe x

Oooh!, i could spend ages just pottering around that Curiosity shop, what a fantastic treasure trove of goodies! Enjoy having your son back, it's wonderful isnt it? My son has just moved into his own flat and even though he is only about 5 mins away, he just doesnt have as much time for his old mum anymore so i really treasure the days he pops in for a cuppa and a natter! Sorry you are having a few health issues, that sounds tough. Stress is difficult to manage.

Bless you for your honesty. I think us virgos get burnt out trying to hard. If it’s not physical it’s mentally, if you find the answer let me know. Love and hugs x

Keep being you Caroline you bring us all great pleasure in your vlogs. Take care of yourself you are a very special lady xx

I suffer with anxiety which has been out of control at times and quite severe bruxism for years all stress related. I always take too much on and then just feel overwhelmed. Then if i do too little i just feel bored and restless..just can't win :(. Hope you get your head round your health issues, it's alot to take in i know. Best to take it week by week and take time out for yourself regularly x

I just want to send you big Christmas hugs! It takes a lot of courage and strength to talk about your personal challenges and I admire the way you keep it real. You are amazing.💕

Time to take care of yourself. You deserve it. So what if you change to just one weekly presentation instead of everyday. I hate to be sick or have health issues coming up. I’m 67 and I take pressure pills as well as need to lose weight. It’s horrible to have to plan to lose weight when till your late 50s you were slender. Menopause came and went and left me with fat belly , no waistline and too much of the back porch ! I am back at cutting down on snacking even though it’s still lockdown and masks. In middle of night I catch myself tearing up and then think cheer up old gal. You are still better off than many many people. Your staircase looks good. Love the lights. Take care love n kisses !

Hi Caroline, l understand exactly what you going through. Specifically around your parents and being a terrible worrier so hard to change a life time of old habits but let's hope next year will be a better one. Take care love your vlogs.

Hello Caroline, your videos are always interesting, and I do love that puss has found a new snoozing spot below the tree. Kirsten's shop is wonderful, a real Aladdin's cave of lovely things, I wonder if she does mail order, I must look her up. Please look after yourself and try not to worry about things that are not really important in the grand scheme of life, but perhaps this is not easy if you have that personality type. Enjoy the time with William home for the holidays - will he be able to find all his stuff since you had the big tidy-up??

The only thing you HAVE to do sweetie,is be good to yourself.You will work it all.out. Love the tree and the garlands,Your friend`s shop is wonderful,just up my street and it will definitely be a visit when we are able to get over again..oh happy day.Enjoy your reunion with Will.

Oh Caroline. I can so relate to you and health stuff. I realize I'm old enough to be your mother, but after raising my youngest daughter alone, working 2 Jobs alot of the time, I thought when I retired I would do all,sorts of fun things. I retired at 77 and what's happened is I now have a terrible back and hip, , lifting patients for years and years, my hearing is bad now, and I don't sleep well. I can only laugh. So much for being extremely busy doing all fun things in my retirement years. Yes, health is vital, so address all those things health wise while you are still young. Yes, 50s is still young. I love your videos, and you still inspire me to try and do more fun stuff. I bought a treadmill, so I try to walk on that 4 or 5 times a week. I'm trying to eat better and bad back or not; I'm flying to visit daughters in different states. Take care of yourself. It's nobody's business what you are going thru health wise. This video is a couple of years old, so I hope your health has improved. You seem very well in the newer videos. ...take care.

Hi Caroline, lovely to see you again! What a lovely shop Kirsten has, I could look for hours in there. Your comments resonate with me greatly. I’ve had a pile of diagnosis’es ( wrongly spelt!) this year resulting from stress. At 50 we have parents and children to worry about. I care for my adult autistic son and my housebound father. A prescription for relaxation is needed!! Take care xx

Medical stuff is always scary , I feel for you . The only thing I’ve found if you want changes to stick , do a little bit at a time and you’re more likely to keep those changes .

Praying for improved health. Please don't stop vlogging!!

Oh.. I so hear u. I have bad arthritis in knees, feet and hands and someday I get so upset that I am not able to do what I want or use to be able to do. Is arthritis life threatening..no..but it does affect so many things. Worry is my middle name. I would love to know how to shut the mind off at times!! Lose weight? Every year I say "this is the year of health", and ....I start off well and then I use food as comfort, especially this year! I used to be able to walk hour or more at a time, or do aerobics. I cant walk mire than 30 minutes at the MOST without feeling so very achy. I keep trying and I know if I even took charge of eating better I'd feel better....so Caroline, if you would like to do this together starting the new year, I'm right there with you!! Look forward to your videos. Take care!

Awwww the cat looks so cosy under that tree 😍. We’re just about to watch the last episode if Queen’s Gambit and have really enjoyed it too. She reminds me of the Villanelle character from Killing Eve! I don’t know how you manage to get a video up every day for vlogmas ... very impressive 👍

Great vlog Caroline I think 2020 has been a right off looking forward to moving on I think this year everyone has just done what makes you happy weather it's food. Alcohol, watching net flicks series hopefully we can all have a better year and lots more things to look forward to!!

Hi Caroline, I think this year as been stressful for most of us let's face it we are not living our normal lives. I also think in your situation with your dad and mum it's harder for you to cope with because you feel you can't help your mum as much as you would like, that stresses you out which is not good for your health.Thank you for your blogs I really love them , I hope you don't have to give them up but your health comes first. I must say I started following you at the beginning of first lockdown, but I love going out with you because I'm locked up with my husband who is shielding. I hope that when your son gets home you will feel happier and less stressed then you will be able to enjoy Christmas with your hubby and soon.xx

Well another nice chatty vlog...thank you! I hope you do know that most or all of us who follow you care about your real life as much as we do about your vlog. You will do the right thing for you and we will all support you and try not to be too intrusive. Meantime look forward to your dear boy’s visit and how grateful you are to have your little family unit together for the holiday. Being an older person who has lost her good health I urge you to make whatever changes are necessary to make your life better for longer. I wish I’d made my necessary changes earlier. Hindsight and all that. It has been an awful year and we’ll all be glad to see the back of it. You will have massive support from these lovely people that follow you from what I’ve read in the comments, whatever you choose. Be well dear girl and thank you for your care and efforts 💕😷🇨🇦

I love watching Ron sleep. He is such a handsome boy! I have a soft spot for ginger cats. Take care of yourself, Caroline. 💝😺🎄🎅🏽

Appreciate your honesty you need to take care of yourself. 2020 has a lot to answer for. All the very best

Hi Caroline,I’m from Salt Lake City just wanted to comment on the show of real housewives of Salt Lake City it is so...fake I’ve never seen anybody look or behave like they do on that disgusting show!dont believe what your watching!That being said I love your videos I look forward to seeing them it makes my day!Thanks!xo

it’s amazing how much a body can repair with a healthy diet and lifestyle, many things can be fixed . I now have an autoimmune disorder that has altered my life completely over the last few years, but whatever happens in our lives if we can’t change it we have to adapt to it. not easy .. always find a plus.. I will get the C vaccine soon only in my 50s but my condition pushes me up a few rungs !! see that’s my plus for now... take care make every good thing count x

Hello Caroline, I love your Christmas lights and hope you have a wonderful holiday with your family. Hope everything works out well with your health issues too. Take care !!!!!!

What a year this has been. Let’s all hope it’s a better one next year. Lovely blog Caroline.❤️👍

Oh Caroline, high standards seems to be common with us virgo's and you are a very busy lady! Make 2021 a "be kind to yourself" year. Take care xx😘

Caroline, I have learnt the hard way, recently, to slow down and try to do 1 thing at the time... easy to say but hard to do...I wish you so much luck and send you love xxx

If you don't want people to comment on your health, don't mention it, that sounds a bit harsh but at the end of the day this is u.tube xx

First of all, all good wishes for your tests. Many years ago I had 'important blood tests too'. It turned out that I have Systemic Lupus (SLE). It's quite serious - but here's the "but"...a lot of dealing with it is about managing it., So don't think that your whole lifestyle should change - you might just have to tweak a few things. You're such a warm and competent person that you'll have it all sorted soon. It's your health - share or not. And well meaning people, without training, will be eager to "advise". I avoided that like the plague! ❤

Your honesty in your videos is inspirational Caroline it's the reason you have so many viewers kind regards

Caroline I’m so sorry to hear your having health issues. I’ve just turned 58 and our 50’s have a lot to answer for with menopausal issues affecting more than we realise. The feeling of overwhelm is quite debilitating and you feel out of control with everything. I know you don’t want to be inundated with advice but as you said you need to change your lifestyle. May I just suggest the possibility of a personal trainer at least to set you off on the right path as I don’t think you can change overnight on your own. I know it’s a extra expense but you’re not going away due to Covid so that would offset it? Even if it was just to get you started on your change it might just kickstart your “journey” (god I hate that phrase!). I’m sure all will be well and that this is the wakeup call needed to help you change. Here’s to a positive 2021. Take care Jane x

As a fellow virgo I completely know how you feel about everything, sometimes things get to much, but somehow it all gets sorted in the end, keep strong. X

The decorations look lovely Caroline. You need to look after your health xx

Good Morning Caroline, I am sorry to hear of your health concerns but just wanted to say how sensible not to share details with us, your followers. Everyone has opinions and you really don’t need to add to your worries. My only advice is only change one thing at the moment but hope it isn’t giving up your RU-vid channel. I decided at the beginning of lockdown, I would walk half an hour each day at 1.45 and it gives some structure to a tedious routine. Sending best wishes.

I realised, after finishing work, that your health is a tool that enables you to do everything else and live your life, and because I'd allowed my weight to get to 14.5 stone, I decided to start looking after myself by joining Slimming World and I'm now 11 stone 12lb. Its coming off slowly but surely and I feel a lot better. It also gives me something to concentrate on when I'm feeling anxious (which is happening more and more). I also promised myself I'd get more fresh air and walk more and that helps me too. I've been spending my time going through my kitchen cupboards and getting rid of all the stuff I've accumulated over the years because I just cant sit still. I recognise its a coping mechanism but I'm off for a health check now so I hope its keeping my blood pressure don't. My word for 2020 is that it was PANTS!!! lol . The garlands look great by the way. xxx

100% right, if you haven’t got your health you have nothing is so true. I found the gym in my 50’s, not for everyone, I am still overweight but the health benefits have been so good. Feel healthy and full of energy which I need to also walk many miles with my dogs. It’s finding the right changes that work for you isint it x

Hi Caroline. I’m 61 so I know where you’re coming from. Just when I get to be at peace with myself and the world around me, my body decides to start collapsing. Youth is very definitely wasted on the young. Lol.

Hello Caroline, I'm new to this vloging thing, really enjoy watching you & seeing your lovely home. I've just managed to subscribe to your channel. I really enjoyed the Xmas lights tour. Your cat is lovely . I live in Scotland , just incase you want to know. Hope you feel better soon, bye X

Garland and lights look fab, love your videos, down to earth, I hope all goes well with your health issues, xx

You will l get your health issues sorted in your own way in your own time , in a way thats right for you . Treat yourself like you would a best friend sending hugs xxxx

Thankyou for sharing ❤ Garland looks pretty ❤ sorry to hear of your health issues, agree, health has to come first ❤

I know exactly where you are coming from Caroline. I had breast cancer last year at 35 years old and making the lifestyle changes needed since treatment has actually been one of the hardest things. I've finally significantly reduced my alcohol consumption (and I LOVE a good drink!). Reducing my sugar consumption is still a massive work in progress as I'm an absolute chocoholic. The only advice I can impart is to make small changes along the way and these will build up to big changes over time. We're all a work in progress right?! Sending best wishes 💖

I have had similar issues with health in my case I realise its to do with loving myself more and not expecting alot from myself orthers.I am working hard on this I tend to drink and eat to much because I dont love myself enough and think I am not worthy.However I dont blame all on Covid pandemic I have have always had issues with self love.I come from a middle class family with high expectations and they have never hidden their disapproval andd disappointment in my life and career choices.However distance helps and I am working on my self I try to forgive myself and others not easy.I have days when I fail miserably but I acknowlege it and get up and try again.I have learnt over the years that money comes and goes , health is wealth without which we have nothing.I am grateful to be alive reasonably healthy during this challenging time.The Pandemic for me is a teacher forcing us to look within and face all our shadows too.It is teaching us things we need to learn but dont want to.

I wish I could 'pop' over to Ottery St Mary to Kirsten's lovely shop but as I live about 400 miles away from Devon I guess popping is out of the question. You're so right about living through 2020, it's been pretty bad, wouldn't have wanted it to be any worse. Your health is your own business but remember a lot of us are of an age, and are going through similar, so we will empathise with you :-) Get things sorted when the time is right for you.

The eclipse of December 14 is said to be about change. Now is the time to make your changes to your life style. I'm 71 and have mobility issues because I didn't slow down on my OCD habits. 52 was when I was found to have a low grade rheumatoid which in seven years turned into fibromyalgia. So now I have little deformity but major joint problems. I've started a keto diet to lose weight and have sent for some leg /knee supports. I hope to be able to walk more. Hope your changes work for you.