Get Tickets to DEAR EVAN HANSEN: www.broadway.com/shows/dear-e... Jessica Phillips, who is playing Heidi Hansen in DEAR EVAN HANSEN at the Music Box Theatre, performs the tearjerker "So Big/So Small."
When I saw this my dad cried and I've never seen him cry so I grabbed his hand and squeezed and cried too. My mom decided that I was not worth her time and my dad has never left my side since that god awful Friday after school. I couldn't thank him more I love him with all my heart
Shoot - I was the new wife 20-years ago (they were divorced two-years before I met him). This really did make me sad for a woman I have never really gotten to know. I have (obviously) only ever heard one side of the story and have been too caught up in my own life to think about what she went through. The boys are adults now, and have good lives themselves, but to think of her, and them, on the first night my husband left breaks my heart. This song is beautiful, sad, and hauntingly performed.
I had the privilege of seeing her perform on Broadway a couple of weeks ago with Jordan Fisher as Evan, and boy, what a performance! I cried throughout the second act.
weeniehut _jr My cousin who went to see the show with me is also a single mom. I live with both parents. So she could relate while i could relate to Evan minus the lies or the girlfriend.
Had the privilege to see Jessica in the role of Heidi Hansen on tour. She blew us all away! She, and the entire cast, poured every last ounce of emotion into that show. We were all bawling at the end of act 1 and throughout act 2. Cannot wait to see her again...this time in the Broadway cast!
I saw this on Broadway in previews. You could hear the emotion from the audience. People were openly sobbing & sniffling. Definitely hit a chord with every parent in that crowd. I was an absolute wreck. I still lose it every single time I hear this song.
This was literally my Mom talking to me when my Dad left her 40 years ago. I haven't cried like this, ever. I'm calling my wonderful Mother right now. God bless this talented woman. Wow.😭😭😭
Her voice is so smooth and soothing. It really sets her apart from Rachel's rendition, both are amazing in their own ways but I love the way Jessica puts in her emotion in the song.
I can’t believe I’m only seeing this now. I saw her in this role on tour and remember crying my eyes out when she sang this song. It was boohoo waterfall tears and my friend was making waaaay too much noise trying to find tissue paper in her purse for us to wipe our wet faces. 😭
This is by far my favorite performance of this piece. I teach voice and vocal performance for a living, so my ears are perking up at all of the nuanced things she's doing. And it almost sounds like she delays the diphthong on the word "house" where she lingers on an "ah" (like "at") before eventually moving to the "oh" (show) of "house." Typically, I would blend the transition between the two vowels or linger on the midpoint "aaah" (like "cot")** instead, and then finish the lip rounding for the brief "oh" before the "s." I wonder if she has a Southern or Midwestern accent? Anyway, who cares!? Her acting is SUPERB! I'm just a voice nerd listening to Jessica Phillips singing this on repeat. *SHRUG* *SWOON* ** I know it's a diphthong (as in two vowels) but there are other vowel sounds that are passed by when the tongue moves from the first to the second position for the diphthong. Perhaps no one who knows the term diphthong would even call me out on this. "If a pedant makes an argument in a forest and no other pedant is around to debate it, does it still sound persnickety?" - ME
N2N is the last broadway (tour) show i saw that made me ugly cry...this past January, in NYC, I was front row center for DEH....jessica and andrew....i was an absolute mess by the end of it, i mean destroyed...i was privileged to meet her after the show...what a gifted performer she is...would love to have seen her live as Diana, but thank the theatre gods for youtube, bc her Diana is flawless...and i got to see Alice!
She is absolutely stunning! I've only heard of her before this because she was the u/s for Alice Ripley's Diana in Next to Normal. She kicked that show's ass, too!
I can’t make it past, “Is there another truck coming to our driveway? A truck that will take mommy away?” I could never imagine my son feeling such confusion and sadness. I can’t imagine him not understanding why the people he loves would be leaving him. Just this thought crushes me. Little man, you will always be my everything and I will always make sure you know that.
One year ago today January 5th 2009, my cousin Crystal took me to see the show when the tour stopped in Costa Mesa. Jessica Phillips here was playing Evan’s mom opposite Stephen Christopher Anthony as Evan. And she has a lovely voice here. This is one of my favorite songs in the show! Crystal my cousin relates to this song and Ms Hansen struggles because of her being a single mom and trying to raise her son Noah who will be ten years old this year. That day was worth getting the winter cold over with my cousin!
ambman911 Personally i can relate to Evan because i have autism and am in despeeate need for friends around my age. But luckily i have time for my parents, brothers and our extended family of friends. Its been eight years since I graduated high school and one year later, I still wish this beautiful show was around during my four years at Long Beach Poly. Would have been timlier
Jalen Brown I dont have a passion to act anymore like in my high school days. But that would be almost fun as a masterclass with Idina Menzel even before she became known to the world as Elsa. I saw Jessica last year on the DEH tour
Saw her on tour in Boston last July. Her performance of this number was so moving I was incapable of applauding as the couch she sat on disappeared into darkness.
This is such a standout Broadway performance for me - you feel every single word. When she sings ‘your mom isn’t going anywhere, your mom is staying right here’ it makes me weep because you know how damaged Evan was at that point - he needed someone to love him. An unbelievable performance from an extraordinary actor.
So my Mom and I saw “Dear Evan Hansen” out of pure luck, [a family friend and her wife gave us their tickets since they couldn’t go], I didn’t know the musical much- and my Mom isn’t into musicals at all. But this scene, my goodness- she and I bawled because it gave us flashbacks of how my Dad left us the same way as Evan’s dad did. I’m not a fan of the musical’s storyline, but man this song packs a punch.
Joseph Salvoro-Patterson I dont blame you. Luckily i live with both my mom and dad. This song and Evans resolve in the end was pretty forgiving for his lie about Connor and break up with Zoe. Luckily i came prepared for the bittersweet ending.
@@manuelorozco7760 I don't know. What was exposing him to the entire world going to do? Punish him for the rest of his life? Have the public turn on him? That wouldn't have changed what he did or made the Murphys feel better. Ultimately the Murphys didn't do that because they chose to be better people. Besides, it's not like he didn't get any consequences. He lost the Murphys and more importantly, he lost Zoe as his girlfriend. You could tell that Evan still wanted her at the end, but she was not having it. As we grow in maturity, one of the things that we realize is how all of us have done bad things that we want forgiveness for. None of us are so good, perfect, and pure that we can sit on a moral high horse and look down on others for messing up. If we want grace and forgiveness for ourselves, we need to learn how to extend it to others.
Agreed. I don’t love the show but as a child of divorced parents this song hits hard. I even remember playing in my dad’s truck the day he left and having my mom stay my rock. They really captured the ethos.
"your mom isn't going anywhere, you mom is staying right here, no matter what I'll be here" I almost lost my Mum to cancer ten years ago, and to this day the idea of her not being around terrifies me. So these lyrics always break me when I think about how unlucky we could have all been and how lucky we all are that she kicked it's fucking ass.
