Absolutely spot on this is one of the best descriptions of ocd , especially the part in the morning 😢there is not a day goes by when I do t think I’ve committed a evil crime and just waiting for the police to come knocking on my door , it’s absolute purgatory
This is incredibly validating to listen to. For years, I’ve had chronic chest pain, chronic neck/shoulder pain, much of which has been unexplainable. I suspected the cause, but now I feel I can fairly assign the cause.
This is how I’m currently feeling with health OCD/ Health anxiety. I feel absolutely stuck and convinced that I am currently dying of a pulmonary embolism/brain aneurysm/ heart attack/ stroke. I’ve been sitting in bed feeling impending doom for hours, yet nothing bad has happened to me in the weeks I’ve felt this way. Rob said it feels like a hook that keeps digging deeper and deeper the more you struggle. That’s very close to what I would describe how I feel
And farther on…it is a second layer which sticks to your mind permanently, making itself more or less invasive during the day, but it is always present. Funny thing on a gruesome level is that , when you for some reason are feeling free from it, you start searching for your ocd cage or deny yourself that little amount of peace by reminding yourself that you have spent many years with this disorder and that you are not allowed to feel happy. Some sort of meta cognition going on here. So it is as well the ocd itself or the meta cognition(shame and guilt for having these thoughts and sensations and for having wasted part of your life thinking them every second) or a mixture of them. What an infernal torture.
Right. You can’t go around life saying “I feel Iike shit” every time someone asks you. Everytime someone asks me how I’m doing I sometimes think, “I can’t really tell you, can I?”
Yes I don’t have exactly what you’re describing. That sounds horrible to be in that constant state of fear that you are just waiting for the life sentence. With me it’s an intense fear that I have blown it and I am not going to be saved. But the fear is just as crippling… I have to change this focus as it is a litteral life or death situation every day and like you say it’s hard to concentrate on life and others when you are facing a death sentence. I have to turn this around. I wanted more days of feeling like we are bathed in serotonin and not cortisol. That’s a good description.
Hiya! Just discovered your videos and they’ve been helping me a lot to understand what’s going on at a deeper level. I’ve noticed that you’ve got some books you recommend, however I’m going travelling in January and I’m worrying that because I haven’t read any of the books you recommend that my travelling experience won’t be as good. I feel this is just re assurance seeking but sometimes it’s hard to distinguish because my mind is telling me that I’m not going to enjoy it because I haven’t read the books you’ve recommended even though I’ve been travelling before and still enjoyed it despite having to still manage high anxiety moments whilst I was there. Any advice ?
Hey fynn. Take the leap even if you don't 'enjoy' it. It's also important to break down why we 'must' enjoy our vacations etc. It's also important to realize that we don't need to feel any particular way at any particular event. This was key for me.
@@aguywhohikes1271 thanks for your response it’s much appreciated. Could you break down to mean what u mean in regards to the things you said as I’m a bit confused. I’m definitely gonna go and not let it stop me from doing the things I want to do for sure !
Hi ..this year march I woke up and had a hissing sound in my head and I was in a bad way ,I didn't sleep again for 2 weeks .then started getting a few hours per night ..I've always been a bit obsessive and like everything neat and tidy..I developed earworm straight away and its been going on as past 6 months .I only have to hear a song or advert on TV and it will stick and repeat for hours until I hear something else ..its been 6 months of hell .I had one song stick for 2 weeks no matter what I did to block it out ..I've had a brain scan ,mental health team .hearing test. And was pit on mirtazipine and diazpam to sleep and regain some weight back as I lost all need to eat ..before this happened I was enjoying life and my partner and kid ..I thought my life was great but since that morning I woke I've been in hell ever since..seen a counsellor and it helped a little..im ashamed of certain things I've done in the past drugs etc ..but I quit all that and dedicated my life to the kid and my partner ..thing is even last night im getting really overwhelmed as past months ..I had hyperacusis aswell ...the doctor said I don't have ocd but all the signs say I do ..I enjoy your videos I get a clear view when I'm listening to you especially...if you see this could you maybe tell me whats up with me as you can spot ocd like you said in this video ..thank you
When one is trying to change one’s beliefs what does one do when the ocd says “how do you know if you really believe this” or you really feel your belief has changed but then you “check” or do rumination to check if you really know this now? Like reminding yourself what your new beliefs are or that theyve stuck?
Rob, have you ever been in a state where you feel incredibly overwhelmed by the sensations of chronic shame and guilt? It’s an intense sensation I’m feeling now. Exactly how you say it here. In addition, I’m battling between if this is even OCD or if I’m just trying to get off the hook for the intense guilt I feel. Is this OCD? Is this common real event? Coupled with moral and existential themes I’m having a real tough time.
You are trying to get reassurance as this is what I spoke about in the video. Reassurance won’t bring relief, you need to work through the steps to recovery. No event in the past warrants chronic guilt and anxiety but takes awhile to really feel and embody this!
@@OCDRecovery I’ve watched a lot of the videos already on the themes I’ve endured.. I think I may need coaching. Also, I may pick up a book from the reading list.
