What Cops Don't Tell You. True Emotional Stories From Police Officers. Part 1 of 2 || Episode 19 

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I'm a felon and have done some time. Been on the wrong side of the LEOs many times. But now that I've turned my life around Many years ago, I have the utmost respect for you guys.

I had a one year old die in my arms while I was in FTO and I had just found out 2 weeks prior my wife was pregnant with our first kid and we get to the hospital and I hear the doctor yell “Fuck” and called the time of death and then I hear the moms blood curdling scream from the ER waiting room….that haunted me for over a year until I finally told my wife when my kid was about 3 months old because I wouldn’t sleep

I'm a UPS Driver and I support Police. Listening today made me even more SUPER grateful for everything y'all do. From South East Idaho. This show is legit

The worst thing I’ve experienced was the drowning of a toddler my second week on FTO; it was the first time I actually drove code 3. Thank you for sharing your stories. It will always be with me, but knowing other cops felt/feel the same way as I did/do helps when that incident pops up in my head.

Stumbled upon this, 20 year old here. I start academy in a few days. Thank you guys for your service.

I only just found this podcast and it’s a revelation. Kyle, I can relate to your story about the drowned 2 year old. I’m a PO in Australia and attended a very similar job. When I listened to you describe it , I was immediately taken back to my incident. It was uncanny how listening to you recount your experience and feelings, during and after , were almost identical to my own. I had a 3 year old at the time and exactly the same feelings went through my head . As soon as I think about it I’m immediately taking back there and have this instant feeling of sadness come across me. It took a lot of therapy to reprogram my brain to process it. I feel ya brother, stay strong!

Shoutout to you guys being so open about what you do. It’s important people understand the cops perspective and the kind of things you guys see

These guys are still holding back. Why you ask? Well, because Officers, Deputies, Troopers etc., are openly denied their 1st Amendment right, on or off duty. We can't tell you what we really think, unless it's done with anonymity. If we (Specifically Veteran street Cops) really told you what we think and know, feelings would be hurt all around this Nation.

Just got listening to a couple episodes and I feel like I just read a dark dark book and it reminded me of my days in war. The peace that I got from hearing u warriors speak with eloquence and selflessness made me feel human again. I’ve applied to an agency in Los Angeles and I can only feel comfort if I get in I will be trained by a gentleman like yourselves. Freaking amazing podcast. Good for you guys !

I had a very similar experience to Kyle. I went through the police academy un-sponsored at 19. I got a similar pre hire talk. It was a risk but I'm thankful to be where I am today. Was also thankful that Ohio law allowed me to carry off duty prior to being 21. I'm sitting at a little over 3 years experience now and have gotten the ability to dip my toe into one of the big three things that every officer wants to do. Couldn't be more thankful than I am for how its shaped my adult life

This is great! I want to go back to my hometown to finally be a police officer after I’m done with this contract! (Active duty Navy.) “the adrenaline, the rush” I couldn’t have said that better myself. Literal dream come true when it’s my time! Take care.

Thanks for your show. I'm not a cop or a dog handler but I was a firefighter and now I train the military working horses that do the funerals in the Arlington National Cemetery. I have sustained quite a few traumatic injuries from reactive horses and I started getting symptoms similar to what you were described experiencing in Mike Ritlands podcast. That EMDR works wonders. Thanks for sharing the knowledge!

I loved listening to this. I had wanted to be in the police force for most of my childhood but the worries for something unfortunate to happen while on duty made me question. I wanted to learn more about it as I am now 17 and wanted to make sure it’s what I wanted to do. This gave me great reassurance, thank you❤

This broadcast specifically is great! It is a way to see things from a different perspective that is important! This goes a long way in showing people what good policemen are all about without bragging or self congratulating. It is such an honest and open show! Thank you!

I found this podcast, when tried to ask for RU-vid a video high quality content with new vocabulary for me, and different accent and other kind of topic podcast regular that I used to listen. Im from Colombia, sorry for my Grammar, actually Im student English, but I feel a big respect for those people who are in the Army, Law Enforcement and watch us and care of us everyday without condition. Thanks!! HEROES

Where I work, I’m on 12 hour shifts (corrections) and with that, you have 15ish days off a month. The vacation time that is earned racks up super quickly because it’s very easy to plan around your schedule so you don’t have to use that time. It’s not equivalent to a month out of the year off but it’s pretty sweet.

Cops have such a big impact in society. Kids do look at you guys like hero’s. I hope each community can work together to bridge the gap between policing and community.

Thank you for the content. I stumbled upon you watching Mike Ritland podcast My son is in law enforcement in Colorado. I am extremely proud of him and have gone to work with him several times. Just wanted to say thank you and let you know that people other than law enforcement but family of law enforcement watch!

I love this channel 💙💙 thank you guys for your service!

I pulled the pin in 2021 after thirty years working two different agencies in Los Angeles County. It was the best career in the world I don’t wish on anybody. Stay safe, Brothers.

I just found your channel and instantly subscribed. I spent years in law enforcement (corrections including our Hostage/Crisis Negotiation Team) until injuries on the job have permanently disabled me and ended my career. I’ve got mad respect for your stories.

New subscriber here. Thank you for talking about your life experiences! Thank you for your service and being real with us!!

Did 17 years as a FTO in LAPD. Patrol is bad enough, but there is no other job in any Department that is more dangerous than the FTO position.

First time listening. I can honestly say this is great therapy. I would recommend this to current/former LE. Thanks guys.

Thanks for this. I’m US Army and also a writer working on a superhero novel and wanted to research some of how real law enforcement works to infuse some reality with the fantasy. Thank you very much gentlemen for what you do and for sharing your experiences. Hat is off to you.

Super insightful guys, thanks. I wish I could listen at work but it’s too busy. It makes for a good commute though.

Unbelievable. The story about Smile Generation was incredible. He is 100% without question a hero.

One of the best podcasts I’ve ever listened to, amazing job and thank you.

Listening while on duty ….. From on K-9 Handler to another ….. I appreciate everything your doing and PLEASE keep up the phenomenal work.

Thanks for sharing these stories. Listening to peoples stories is the best way to humanize their experience and better understand. Been trying to practice this for the folks whose walks of life I may have over looked/didn't take much time to deeply understand. Take care of yourselves gents!

This stuff needs talked about more at stations. We need to stop pretending we are robots that don’t have emotions. I am sick of losing friends to the war in their mind because they thought it would make them look weak talking about it. If we are going to call each other brothers we need to act like it. Stay safe fellas and keep putting out this channel is helping people.

Man this is amazing, thank you for sharing.

I love how they mess with the guy about paw patrol and being 12. We know it's all love. :) The differences in generations really gives this a different dimension which I appreciate. I was not expecting the story about the 2yo drowning. I've got tears. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing that. The guy on the right's story about the teeth - you guys got into this for the adrenaline, because of your personality types - excitement seeking. (Look at the 5 factor model). But your fulfilment in life comes from doing something you feel is meaningful. And whether you can help someone thirsty have a drink of water or help a 1000 people not get killed by a terrorist, it gives you the same dopamine hit. You're right, it's not a competition. And we are thankful for your personality types. =) Only found you guys today, but I know I'm going to love your content. Subbed~!

I just found you guys. As someone formerly involved in law enforcement, this is a unique and cool look into the profession. 👮🇱🇷🚔

I started my career when I was 19. Now 18 years later I am an instructor and Patrol LT with at least half of patrol older than me. I had to grow up fast at that young of an age but it was interesting.

I graduated the academy one day before I turned 21. That being said, I work for one of the largest agencies in the US l and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I’ve seen a bunch of crazy things so far, but I have good guys on my shift to help me out when I have questions or don’t know what to do. You can do the job at a young age, but you just need to be eager to learn.

I like how real you guys are I can tell in the hesitation before you say something and the tone that you don't know if you should but you're going to anyway

Bro what you did for the 10 year old girl + mom, is incredible.

I actually came here waiting for your Bigfoot encounters! (Scratching my head). 🤣👍🇬🇧

Interesting to hear this perspective, not surprised there’s a podcast specifically targeting this profession. After all , a god police chase or story intrigues people from all communities and walks of life, for good reasoning surely. Stay safe, and thank you for your service gentleman. 🫡 Salute.

Former cop here. I came from a law enforcement family (grandfather- my hero) but that didn't influence me. What did it for me was my cousin was murdered in 84. After I graduated high school I spent 4 years in the Army infantry and saw combat twice. This was pre 9/11 so combat was pretty rare. I got out and worked corrections at my grandfather's former sheriff's office. The day my wife badged me was one of my best days. I'm medically retired from policing but I love listening to cops banter. Be safe, check 6.

stay up stay safe thank you for doing your best to serve the community.

Very nice studio, super good information. Keep up the good work.

Loved the video, started listening because I am interested in law enforcement and this really helps

Police PTSD is one thing Military service - especially combat offensive MO's will truly put you on your ass In PTSD world.

I’m about to go to the academy and I’m 32. Can’t agree more about the age thing. I would have been a major liability at 20

The story about the girl and her mom made me cry

I'm in grad school to become a Police/Forensic Psychologist. I am pro-first responder & military & was a nurse for 20 yrs.

The same experience with being able to carry a firearm while on duty but not off duty is experienced by alot of younger guys I work with in the military. It's really a shame. Thank you for your outlook on the value military experience and how it should weigh in on someone being selected for a position as a police officer. So many departments I would like to apply for will not hire anyone without a degree and the military experience means nothing to them.

Great podcast, just subscribed. Former marine infantryman, been out 18 years and looking to join my cities police department who is in desperate need of officers. This gives me a small look into what I’m getting into. Thanks for by the info gents.

49:19 that actually sent chills down my spine, horrifying story honestly

Good job guys! Great topic - from The Gray Line, The Story Behind The Blue Line podcast

I'd love to come on your podcast and talk about my experience. 6 years on the job, k9 handler, shot 3 times including one in the face. Just shy of one year ago and still in recovery.

As a CSI Technician, collecting evidence from a deceased infant, toddler or teen, was always hard for me to do. I always carried a baby blanket to cover deceased babies until the Coroner arrived. I too had to wait in a hospital room with a deceased infant for several hours until the funeral home could get there. So hard on 1st responders.

awesome podcast! I just became a law enforcement officer in Wisconsin.

The family leave time off is interesting. When my son was born in 1989, my Sergeant called me and told me to get back to work the next day. Times have changed.

Hey Fellas, Really appreciate the transparency. I’m a medic with an EMS agency that recently submitted an application for a police department. Looking to do a career switch. Do you all offer any 1-on1s , if ya have the time for some questions ?

Honestly this made me want to be a cop one day

That is probably the best & sickest intro I've ever witnessed on youtube.

I think what I benefited in my first 3 years on the road with a sheriffs office was being deployed to Afghanistan when I was in the Marine Corps was the combat stress and firefights allowed me to control myself when I got into my first OIS during an attempted murder suicide call. I was able to breathe threw it and process everything…

Great pod! Greetings from Sweden 🇸🇪 Currently undergoing police academy which is two and a half years long here.

As a cop i could relate to all of this enjoyed it subbed

Hey how’s it going, kinda a random question but would you know if in California you need to have signed the selective service paperwork when you turned 18 to join a career like a police officer? Hope that makes sense lol, but I guess I heard in order to work for a government job you have needed to sign the selective service paper work. I’m thinking about trying to be a cop but that is my biggest concern because I don’t think I ever signed it, I didn’t even know what it was till recently I moved out of my grandmas when I turned 18 so I’m sure that’s why I never got a document. Thanks Also I’m 28 now so too late to sign the paperwork now, I was never opposed to it, just didn’t even know it existed

Wow you guys are so young to have all that experience...crazy...I'm named after my uncle a fallen police officer in Phila..RIP Uncle Al...stay safe, and THANK YOU. it's sad we live in such an insane world...My question is does most crime have a financial aspect to it, like one way or another money has to do with something connected to the crime? Example a domestic dispute where they can't afford the rent, they end up crazy fighting. Or like a drug runner trying to make a buck? But what is wrong with this occupation is the arrest of criminals by basically a system that cares more about putting people in prison than helping them. I've known lots of police most would be considered criminals in one way or another. And to get adrenaline rushes for arresting people/chasing cars and pulling them over for the chance they will run, makes me sick, yea I get it, it's a rush, but again it's wrong. I remember working with a Lieutenant once who said, Mike the worst criminals are the police, made me think at 22, I'd never want to do this. It's sick that we have criminals arresting criminals and being ok with it, it's a system that is just wrong. And I'm not saying cops are hard criminals, but even a DUI, and I know many cops that have drank and drove. Everyone is human people, what gives you that right, it's what's wrong from the start... When you talk about a woman in the bushes with her 10 year old kid and blame that parent, "made bad decisions, burned her bridges, didn't really care about the mom", shows how naive these people are. (Like we haven't all made bad decisions, just most have come out of decent enough lives without their own childhood trauma to understand this.) Folks the prisons are filled with humans that have had very little assistance in their lives (mentally) and very MUCH childhood trauma. These 3 gentlemen have not (obviously), listen to their stories,(power rangers lol). I am not mad at them they "think" they are making a difference and 20% of the time truly may be. However, crime is going up not down in this country and people are profiting from it, including these 3. It's got to end, we need more mental health awareness, financial help and drug addiction help. This country is where it is because of 3 things, the politicians profiting, the police and detention profiting and the terrible medical care and social service profiting with absolutely no improvement in 30 years...Putting more of these people on the streets is not helping the situation, it's hurting it. Mark what you did was wonderful, 15 people plus their kids new teeth, but that adds up to about 1/2 per year of 1 person incarcerated. This country is so upside down it's pathetic. Instead of arresting people, we need groups of these people doing exactly what Mark did. The police should set an example that they are there to help the public. I will end this with a person's record after being incarcerated, they get out had a felony, and can't get a job, what do you think they are gonna do? It's truly ridiculous, another example of a system that is allowing themselves to continue to feed right back into the greed of themselves. I can't believe it is allowed to continue. The WHOLE system needs to be reconstructed from the prisons to the local police force.

My very first call in patrol was a 3 year old that drowned in a pool. I hadn’t ever had a chance to talk with my FTO prior to that call. I mean right out of the gate. Afterwards, my training officer said that was a bad call. To make it better, he said we needed a felony arrest. Felony arrests always make things better. No psych services talk, nothing. I guess I got my hard core nature from the beginning.

I don't know who made that flag on the wall behind you guys but it is dope af. Would love to have one. They did a fantastic job

I’m not gonna lie the silence in the podcast is kinda heavy, this helps me, if you guys get a bit irritable. Imagine your looking at the sky or a rainbow when you talk to your brothers or just in general

Leave a comment and let’s hear your “why”?

We still gotta work those Off Duties in Texas, And I work in a major City.

I did a year in a half of corrections. I hated it but also miss it

So what department do you work for because I want to apply there and get a month off lol I’m also in California but Los Angeles

Will you share a SWAT workout please ? 💪🏼

You guys go through a lot I have a 3 year old boy and I was quenching my teeth about the 10 month baby drowning and that piece of 💩 dad just not caring smoking a cigarette while his baby was deceased in the bath do to his negligence. I hope he got life in prison for that, it would've taken everything in me if I was in your shoes not to hurt that dude.

I was gonna be a cop until I was told a re -do of the ok corral wasn't happening, became an artist.

I got hired at a street cop in Oklahoma at the age of 18, and I was NOT the youngest officer at my department. I went to the academy at 19 and was NOT the youngest officer in my academy. Graduated high school in May 1979. By January 1980, I was carrying my dad’s .357 Magnum on the job. Not even old enough to buy the weapon or ammo. Spent 38 years on the job, doing SWAT, Motors and 30 years as a Bomb Tech, Worked the OKC Bombing, been in OISs.

Exactly why i didnt become a cop after the military Kyle. Seen enough trauma dealing with children over there in Afghanistan and having children of my own.

hell yea

6:15 yeah we’re all dumbfound right now

There's definitely a period on shift with college and trades in general. I retired 3 years ago after 25 years with a fairly large sheriff's office in the southeast. Back then it was college college. And some of the biggest dummies I know what to college. Including me. But that being said when you can't train for life experience that's really well put. Cuz I know plenty of people that have blue collar traits that make Bank as opposed to some of these morons that have student debt and they have a philosophy degree

The teeth story man 😭❤️

I am a correctional officer that is dealing with severe mental health issues. Any advice

When does the subject of this video start?

Praise to the Solid LEOs that uphold the Constitution, Protect the Public and care more about making their Community Better vs The ones trying to bend the rules to affect an arrest for the numbers game, or find BS reasons to arrest or tow vehicles just so they can do an "Inventory" Search incident to arrest for pretextual stops, regularly trying to assert "authority" to compel ID without RAS to run wants/warrents.

Lol a frozen beard is a true sign of a northern man lol. Grew up even in high-school with an isicle beard and I live in MA lol. Also just wanted to say I'm very close to becoming a police officer myself and I'm very excited. I'm glad to protect and serve. As much as police are dying and people may be negative or hateful towards the police nowadays, I'm proud to fill that need and help people. Back all colors not just blue

You should do a podcast on CIT and LE

Nowadays, I guess the department actually pays you to go to the Academy. I know I talk to a law-enforcement officer here in my local town, she told me that the sheriffs department will pay you to go to the Academy and for your training as long as I live in a 30 mile radius I am 35 years of age so I’m a little older, but I don’t think age really has anything to do with it it’s how you set your mind I used to do Landscape and I actually worked for a city cop. He had his own landscaping company and every morning he was dressed in his uniform, and I felt very safe at his house when we show up for work. I will be talking to him today personally about the job and go from there. I just appreciate you guys serving and thank you for your service. Hopefully I can join soon.

Being a Police Officer in 2023 is the hardest profession in America.

Im an ex Fort Worth Police Officer, 10 years. Now Extraditiion Officer. I have a lot to tell....

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Cops do the real work

I’m in MN state and I have to get a AAS 2 year law degree to become a cop I’m a year in. Do you think I’ll be better off having this education? The program is like half academy and half normal college. Some days it seems very useful and others I feel like I’m learning useless information.

Video has more views then subscribers, everyone make sure u sub great content on here!

It's the fact people can't talk freely on both sides is what causes all issues now adays in police public relations jus needs communication

How many citizens were murdered in 2022 by police who were then sued and were forced to pay damages?

They mentioned early on in this talk, that 29 officers had been lost this year already…I guessed it was about the middle of the year cause they mentioned it being on track for 50 officers lost by the end of the year. My question…how did those officers that had died so far, how did they die? (the recent one mentioned, had died in a motorcycle accident). In general, the majority of officers are lost in fiery car crashes…of those, the majority of them are not wearing their seat belts. Just wondered if these fit that same demographic.

What is going on with the camera 🤣🤣 FIX IT great podcast !

you can't compare a cop from somewhere in Colorado to a cop in DC, NYC, Chicago, Philly LA or Baltimore. . A cop with ten years at MPDC can be the police anywhere. The opposite doesn't hold true. A cop with ten years experience could be a high ranking official in their police departments just from the experience alone.

Ups driver out of Texarkana Arkansas. I make sure and thank our boys in blue around here every chance I get. God bless y’all!