What Does an Ego Death ACTUALLY Feel Like? 

Dude you killed it with this explanation. The ego death description on its own was great, but I liked that you also talked about the importance of enjoying the "dream," and not getting too caught up with pursuing hedonistic spiritual endeavors 24/7. Taking time for integration and for life itself is part of the beauty of this all

I would love to experience this, but of course fear is holding me back. The war on drugs really did a good job on scaring me away from everything but weed. But I’m at a time in my life where I think this is what I need. I need this deep reflective state, I need to experience this awakening.

I’ve just had my first EGO death last night, I was melted in the universe and saw and felt all and one, was able to feel the bliss fullness of life and eternity. I have never cried so much, and there were a lot of moment where I was doing some serious work on myself, and it was physically painful but having the courage to accept and submit was my greatest power

I had ego death. It was the abyss. Into the void. Insanity. Straight fear. And then it blipped out. There was simply an absence of thinking. When i started to reconstitute, it was a process of relearning how to use my body. My mind was an absolute theatre. I felt like i was dropped into a body that I've never used before. Freaked me out. I ended up with bad hppd. Dp/dr. I had to quit weed. Too young, i suppose... Ego death was literally a practice death. I know what its like to slip away into the abyss

Thanks for the video. I have been struggling a lot since I did weed edibles 2 months ago and got an unintended ego death. I think I have some sort of trauma and have been seeing a psychologist. I have no one to talk to in my life who has experienced the same. Your video perfectly describes what I felt, and I felt understood, even started crying. Thank you.

Really cool to see more and more different videos about this topic. My first ego death was in 2015, very sudden and unwanted at the time. Had one tab of some kind of NBOMe. Expirienced full spectrum of duality at first, had different lives like a vision, but in first person and as real as this reality. Went to "hell" and then "Heaven" and all ended in the God mind, or oneness. still remember parts of it like yesterday. Had to integrate it for 3 years.

Great video man, honest and simple. Brings tears to my eyes honestly.

My first ego death was also on lsd. I had taken 200ug and when i peaked i took a huge bong rip. Bad idea since i was just doing it for partying and was not expecting an ego death that day. I fell into a negative thought loop about my life then felt as if my thoughts and self where fractured, split up and scattered to the universe. I was no longer where i thought i was. I was nowhere. Then i started coming back piece by piece. The parts of me that like music came back, then the parts of me that liked anime or books and so on and so forth, until the parts of me came back that i DID NOT like and i tried to fight it and give these parts back to the universe because i did not want them, but i was forced to take them back. In reality that experience caused me to make some permanent long lasting and positive changes to my life. This ego death happened a year ago~

Every time I watch your videos I find them so relatable, my first time experiencing ego death was completely unexpected, and I did everything I could to hold on to my life. It sounds like your first time and mine were extremely similar, likewise I had PTSD from it for a long time. It's only been in the past 2 years that I have been able to work through what I learned and appreciate life for what it is. Thank you for all the hard work that you put into your videos! They're really informative, especially for people considering experiencing these things for themselves!

I just experienced ego death for the first time yesterday. I’m still processing and integrating the truth. Your explanation are the exact words I couldn’t seem to put together to describe the experience. I was so sad and angry upon realizing it’s just me, alone, the all experiencing itself, there’s no one else but me, but after, I realized how beautiful this grand illusion really is, how complex it is, just to be in the experience, experiencing and how I love everyone and thing, because literally, it’s all me. I would love to chat to with you directly if you are available. I just want to process this better with your help.

I find ego death the most fascinating thing there is, always scary in the beginning but then 🤯🚀🎉✨. Thanks man👍

The way you explain these experiences makes me feel better about my “bad trip”. I just had an ego death but couldn’t let go. You explained my experience to a tee.

buddy of mine who used to have to take 4ish gs to have a good trip just took 1.5g the other day for the first time in awhile and i was his trip sitter…. oh boy. buddy had an extremely difficult ego death. he was so scared and was even crying. i felt so bad bc he’s used these shrooms before and usually he took around 4g of them. this time he got fucked off 1.5 they sent him a message

By far the best explanation ive ever heard. after having my first ego death i kept trying to find someone who had had the same thing happen to them, but i could never find someone explaining it, in a way i 100% related to. Really awesome knowing im not alone, and that im not going mad lol

Having an ego death with your soul mate is some next level shit. The love I felt for her as I came back to reality and realised "oh it's YOU"... I'm now filled with so much love I don't even know what to do with it all. It actually hurts.

Being more on the Daoist side myself, you absolutely killed this explanation. Not only of ego death, but metaphysics itself. Fantastic video brother:)

Accurately articulated, relatable, in a beautiful and positive way. Your character shines through in these types of videos. Whenever I find myself down, these video's seem to find me and help. You're a really good guy man, keep doing what you're doing. "Love is everything".

Ego death is actually a process of ego dissolution which I like to generalize into 3 stages: 1. Letting go - This is the stage where your normal sense of self is beginning to slip away. The ego often reacts with fear, anxiety and dread as the loss of the ego is analogous to death. This is often related as an ego death, but there is no fear or anxiety after letting go so this is just the fear of the void. 2. Profound realization - This is where the euphoric side of ego dissolution is experienced. The egoic function which create separation between the subject of experience and the objects of perception has dissolved. You are "one" with all things, yet the ego (subject) can still think conceptually and continue an inner narrative. "We are all one" "We are God" etc. You still have perception and can experience the sensuous world and object. 3. The ground of being - This is where it gets real. This is known as the void or can also be experienced as "whiting out" on LSD. The world of perception disappears into increasingly undifferentiated black or white. Without the phenomenological world as reference, and as your mind loses grasp of time, space and the things which ground our subjective experience. Thinking fades away completely. Now in this state you often lose all sense of consciousness completely like blacking out or falling asleep. When you are conscious, you are aware of whatever differentiation arises from the void. This is not a state of bliss. It isn't any feeling at all other than your awareness as the subject-object dialectic of conscious experience itself. This is 1000ug acid trip territory right here - a preview of death and life.

Thank you for this information. 2 days ago I was in Vegas for NYE, and I had took a good amount of mushrooms while doing a number of other drugs throughout the day. Ended up having a chaotic ego death inside of a friends bathroom. To them I was just stuck and un responsive, but to me I was screaming at the top of my lungs for 3 hours. Not in control of my body or emotions . Still in a smaller state of shock about it, but this information has really helped me move forward to understand what I just experienced.

Wow. So well articulated. Got me emotional. Thanks for posting, dude. One of the better explanations I've heard.

im glad you mentioned the ego death on edible marijuana, it is a psychedelic and needs to be respected as one :)

I have been listening to this channel before sleeping and what I get most out of is remembering and realizing that what I experienced on trips is indeed valid.

It all started with everything around me "breathing". I felt it coming and layed in my safe spot, my bed. Everything was getting blurry, it looked like everything was vibrating. The white wall and ceiling was one. I could not see where the wall ended and the ceiling started. The grandfather clock in the corner of my room looked like something out of a black and white cartoon. Then everything is blurry. I remember how i felt. I had this happen to me last night. I felt bliss and pain at the same time. I knew everything but knew nothing. Time was not a thing. It felt like i was stuck in a loop. on repeat. Having rational grounded thoughts hurt. Saying to my self "let go" felt amazing. Responsibilities hurt and letting go of those responsibilities felt blissful. Its really hard to explain everything that happened. It felt like everything mattered and nothing mattered. Felt everything was real and nothing was real. I was not ready for this. I am pretty new to this whole world. My 3rd time @3g. For some reason i knew and kept saying to myself "let go." My bed was my safe spot. My music was my backbone and me telling myself to breath helped me get through it. One of the craziest experience of my life. Now I'm grounded. My thoughts cant get away from what happened. I don't want to play games. I don't want to watch you tube. Comfortably numb maybe?

Really wanted to hear this. Super useful stuff.

Hey vivec just wanted to give my thanks and appreciation for you and this community, you guys helped me stay grounded when i had a really scary ego death. It was too much for me at the time and i haven’t tripped ina while and These videos helped so much cause I’m able to relate and understand that I’m not the only one.

I had my first ego death yesterday, it was one of the most terrifying moments of my life. I was convinced I was drowning, and that everything around me was being made up by my mind as I was drowning. I could feel the water in my throat as I was choking on it, and I was taking my clothes off and screaming for help. At the end of it all I could do is cry. Today, I took a few shrooms soaked in lemon juice, and some dust. When me and my friends were sitting outside chillin, I felt like i was dead and reborn, I was nothing and everything. My whole body was numb and I couldn't feel my heartbeat. I then jolted up and came back. At the end of these trips, I discovered that I need to experience life without drugs more, and that life shouldn't be taken for granted, because it can end any second. I've been escaping reality with drugs, when I just need to experience it.

I've experienced multiple ego deaths on LSD (I haven't branched out much past that). BTW when i use nouns such as us, we, our, I am referring to our collective consciousness. However, I experienced my most powerful one last year. I didn't realize it until it was over, but I was having a conversation with ourselves. I was stuck on the question what is the point of it all. Not from the aspect of trying to gain personal self meaning, but a genuine curiosity as to why the hell we do the things we do to one another. Basically i kept asking us "Why? Why? Why? Why?" Like a child would out of genuine curiosity. I received what i believe to be answers. It was quite a long conversation, so I'm not gonna go over everything, but essentially our consciousness has no idea why either, that's the reason we started everything. The point was that there was no point, we are a by product of our consciousness trying to figure its self out. The Ego is a way for us to seperate ourselves from each other and help further our collective maturity. The reason I believe I was able to receive this communication or answer was because i was wholly approaching the idea of a purpose or a reason to life from a completely innocent, selfless, and almost childlike mindset. I have since tried to have similar experiences, but they have all gone extremely poorly. I believe it's because I am approaching it from a curiosity POV, but it is to further my knowledge on the subject, and i arrive at a very dark side of things. The Ego side of things, where I want to know because i think its cool and i want to hear more. I have an opinion on it and thus cannot approach the concept without ego very easily. I have been searching for a different perspective, and this has helped me profoundly. I thank you very much Vivec. I would love to talk about it over discord or even email. Let me know if you are interested in the expanded explanation i recieved.

Interestingly, we have an ego death every time we sleep during deep, dreamless sleep. The difference is that dreamless sleep isn't much experience at all. It's just a void. With an ego death induced by psychedelics, you actually get to experience it. Also, enlightenment isn't something "out there" to seek. It's when you realize that THIS is it - existence itself, and all experience associated with it, is all there is.

I didn't know what ego death was beyond conceptually, and I am not great with drugs. My experience with ego death was after a 20mg edible and 5g of shrooms, it was also my first time taking shrooms. I remember my mouth feeling incredibly dry and going to my friend's bathroom to get water. When I looked in the mirror it was nearly incomprehensible, not scary but the thing in the mirror wasn't "me" as I knew myself. It was "me" as I really was, beyond observation and I couldn't look myself in the eye. On my walk back to the bed I felt as though my brain lagged or I had 'tripped' over something. My visage was stuck in the mirror, my body was stuck by the bathroom, and my mind was back by the bed. It was definitely out of body and I remember watching my body pulse and melt into my surroundings from a third person view and I realized that there was no boundary between body and room and house and neighborhood and nature, it was all the same energy. I'm a pretty normal guy, not hyper spiritual or anything like that , but that experience was honestly one of the most beneficial things I have ever done. I watched my girlfriend pass away 3 years ago and that single trip helped me more than years of therapy. I'm not sure if I'd do it a second time but once was amazing.

I'll never forget my first (and hopefully not only) ego death experience on LSD. It was very scary at first because for me, it began to manifest as me forgetting who I was. I was still very aware of the room around me, I just started to forget what I was just doing, where I was, who I was. I actively tried to remember and couldnt and that lead to me thinking Id fucked my brain up with drugs like all the adults warned me of. But before that fear could last too long, I felt it turn into a string. then I felt everything about me turn into a string. All my thoughts, feeling, traits, fears, life details, everything that made me "me" was a bunch of strings all woven together to form the whole of me. then I felt that unravel. and when it unraveled I could feel that all the strings were actually a part of a giant "field" of infinite strings that encompassed all of existence, and all the parts that made me, had just come together temporarily to form the pattern of me. And when it unraveled, there was no more me. There was just the pure consciousness. Even as I felt this, There was no "reaction" to it. Im not sure if my eyes were open or not because I had lost awareness of my body, but I couldnt see anything anymore. It was (and im taking this quote from someone else cuz its the best description of what I saw) "Darkness, but shining." I have no Idea how long it lasted, because there was certainly no sense of time. But at some point, I felt all the strings weave back together to form me again, and I was back. Ive always been extremely grateful for this experience, because prior to this, I was debilitatingly afraid of the idea of death, and what experiencing it will be like. But now I feel like I kinda know what its going to be like and hey, it aint so bad. Its allowed me to actually find joy in my life while im here, and not obsess over the end of it. Maybe instead of Ego DEATH, we should be calling this Ego Knockout. It does come back, even if it feels different afterwards.

Most people refer to any spiritual experience as ego death. Ur physical sense of self dissolving and feeling connection with everything in the universe is not ego death. U still come back with the same ego, only with some insights. True ego death shouldnt be sought after if it isnt needed. If something is fundamentally wrong in the way ur ego developed, a deep ego ''death'' will strip you down from the layers of your ego/perception to the very spark of your soul that gives you life, then kill that flame, and relight a new one. total change. old ego dies. You come out a new, stronger man. This what happened to me. Yea everyone dives to different depths to see change, but theres a reason its called 'death'. U dont just gain insight, u kill the ego that was, on the deepest level. its an horrifying experience, but absolutely blissful unlike anything, if won over.

My first ego death was ketamine/weed induced. What you said about realizing our conciseness is infinite and we are all connected as a single being personified as multiple individual egos.. THAT realization is why I’m NEVER again afraid of death, im just gonna enjoy this life and excited with what ever is next. Because something is there and I got to visit it on my ketamine induced ego death. But not as me, but as my conciseness. It was/is beautiful ❤

I just experienced this off a very minor amount of shrooms , and i have to say that the way you described everything was exactly how i felt and view things and im not really sure why im typing this but i feel i just need to get it out and say thank you for putting to words what i cannot.

I really appreciate your channel brother. It is very well informative and educational. Especially for those who are knew or those who don't really understand psychedelics or even those who simply don't respect it and underestimate the power of them. Psychedelics are not a happy pill. Trip safe travellers. ♥️🙏

The ego death is a major blow to ones pride and self will. We people resist it kicking and screaming until finally we let go!! There is no you or me. There is no mind but There is only The Universe and Cosmos and The Creator!! That is The Absolute. These words of mine are only human words which are just pointers. Also we have many ego deaths throughout Life. Sort of like peeling off the layer's of an egg or rather an onion. Each ego death after you die you feel a period of Elation and Ecstasy. Okay 1 layer shed off and we still have many layers to go but with each ego death you should be more Free. We keep having ego deaths until no layer's remain or at the moment of physical death where all layers of ego will be automatically shed off and you will Merge back to whence you came before you were born.

This touched my heart. The more I contemplate what ego death is the more beautiful and ultimate and crazy it seems to me

Dude I just realised that I had PTSD from a trip where I had an ego death! I couldn't explain the experience and it became emeshed in trauma I had from the past. I finally understand what happened to me!

I listened to “I feel it coming” by the weeknd during an acid trip to reunite my body and soul. Just pretend your body or soul is talking to each other and holy crap you can feel the love for yourself again. I just strive to help the new generation and to not be as bad as I was anymore and be more empathetic of others

Ye.. i come to realize this is what I am experiencing. Life is fucking beautiful now. I am a veteran when it comes to seeking psychological help. Been struggling with ptsd and negative self talk all my life. I thought I was going manic, and have experienced hallucination one time… it was all bc of kundalini awakening.. I am heavy on the spirituality, so I’ve experienced it many times.

I had a sort of ego death tonight , in my dream. I think it was induced by fear, I just llayed down in my backyard after being chased by a killer and escaped the reality I was in , and started to become a bunch of different people/characters that were not me, (best I can explain) then felt happy because my everyday anxieties were relieved, allowing me to feel more love. And I even told my mum that I was spiritually enlightened in my dream, I was really excited to share it with people

Today a young man on acid realized that life is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there's no such thing as death, life is a dream and we are the imagination of ourselves. -Bill Hicks

Ive spent the last few days following a trail of videos on dmt, high doses of lsd, etc. which left me to the topic of ego death. I've had a few experiences while using various drugs, mostly lsd in my youth that left me with ptsd. I've communed with an entity that I believed was god, understood that we are the same, basically had a very similar experience to what you are describing. The rhythmic nature you describe in your 10 grams of mushrooms video was my last and worst experience on an unknown amount of lsd. I never knew exactly how much I was taking, 3 hits of triple dip it was called, this was in the mid 90's in the pacific nw, usa. To finally have answers to my fears and questions, to know what I've been through and that others have had the same and that there is understanding there brings me a peace I never thought I could find.

lastnight I experienced ego death. the best way I can explain it is at first I was scared shitless. my gf was on the phone and I was telling her how I felt like I was going to die and she kept asking if I was ok. colors were vibrant everything was just so bright. I just kept getting deeper and deeper into these visuals until I finally just let go. when I finally let go I realized I was experiencing ego death. I didnt feel like myself anymore I didnt even feel human. I felt as if time and soace was just an illusion and it felt so weird but so perfect at the same time. then I started contemplating the universe and God. I came to a realization that Jesus died for us and humaniry is doing nothing but taking that and running it in the dirt. I then reflected on myself as person and things that I could generally do better as a human being. once I finished contemplating the universe and my ego I felt all the love in the world and I was the happiest person on Earth. ego death is scary but can be really meaningful

great description. im 16 and spent what felt like forever trying to recollect my own memories and recoordinate my senses. the most terrifying yet surreal experience. don’t know if i’d do it again

I really don't know if you'd ever be inclined to do this, but if you ever felt like making a video to explain your thoughts on the role of Karma, I would be interested in hearing about that.

This video confirms what i went through last time was ego-death, its so similar to what was being described here .

I’ve also experienced my ego death. And it was as if my mind was dissolving somewhere in the universe whilst my body was turning into an unmovable stone. After some time I got back to my senses and bursted with tears saying omg. It’s so sad why people don’t see love! And my friend said I know, it’s sad yet beautiful and I caught myself thinking how does my friend know it’s beautiful? Lol😂 So Yh 2 hrs of a good cry until I got back to normal and omg so filled with love. Feeling great after that. Defo a life changing experience!! ❤ Based on 2gr organic shrooms.

keep going, your videos really give me a lot of energy! have fun my friend! :)

Can you make a video about how you got over your traumatic experience? My first LSD trip I had a partial ego death which was great at first but I resisted and was thrown into hell and tortured for hours and I can’t come to understand why it happened and what I’m supposed to learn from it. It’s increased my anxiety an incredible amount and have had a bad anxiety attack from it once.

Thanks SO much for this video! It seriously exactly what I needed right now! I can't begin to tell you, lol. And obviously with these beautiful insights this channel inspires, comes so many questions too. The more amazing thing to me is that you seem to touch on these questions even before I've asked for them or at all. 👍🙏💛🙂😁🍄

First time i was gonna have an ego death, i wasnt sure what was happening so i freaked out. I only took 4 grams of golden teachers. It may have been the penis envy, penis envy number 6, and golden teacher blend. But i was having a grand old time. The happiest ive ever felt, very mystical and magical feeling. A very surreal sensation came over me which now i know is my third eye chakra healing or opening up. Such a surreal "god actually touching me" feelings or something. Cant really describe it with human words. Anyway everything was so fucking great and i was crying tears of joy. I turned around and looked at my bedroom in all its trippy glory with my tapestries and black lights and more and thought how awesome i am to make something so cool. Thats when i felt like maybe i was being too full of myself or being narcissistic or something and thats when something took control over me. I could not control myself anymore and i started laughing maniacally and felt like i was going crazy. Shit in my room started spiraling into a vortex in the middle of the room and i was laughing insanely and out loud. Was so weird. Felt myself losing grip with reality. Scared me. Didnt know what was going on. Thought i was slipping into psychosis. So i pulled myself out and suddenly felt really bad. Anyway i gotta go back to work. Trying to hurry up. I got more stories. Will come back later. Bye 4 now

I haven't had a full-on ego death, but I experienced two mental situations that were partially there. I took 240mg of DXM over the course of a few hours, and for the first time in my life got a "feeling" for what having no emotion actually feels like (kind of paradoxical I know.) The kind of awareness I had on DXM felt totally emotionless compared to even the most focused form of awareness I've attained through meditation. It made my normal, sober awareness itself seem like an emotion. Or at the very least, it made it seem like my own intentional, focused, sober awareness has some kind of emotion attached to it that I hadn't realized before. Then, a few hours later when I was drifting in and out of sleep, every time some word-based thought appeared in my mind, I would ask, "Who's saying that?" "Is it me?" "I'm only one person. Where are these words coming from?" "Is there someone else inside my mind?" Then those questions turned back on themselves because where were the questions coming from? I was thoroughly confused about the existence of my own thoughts and self-dialog. Then I would remember I had taken DXM, that I was laying in bed, and that this was probably related to ego dissolution. This probably happened like 30 times over and over. lol

This is the most important explanation in all of consciousness

I’ve done 1.6g of shrooms and felt a lot of the physical trip and was way more open minded and reflective, but nothing like this. Some friends and I are thinking about increase to 2, 2.5, or 3g. I do believe that I enjoy my life and who I am so would doing this level of mushroom destroy that? I don’t want ego death and I’m not sure how fighting it would work out for me. Would take between 2 and 3 grams be enough for an unwanted ego death and what could I do if it starts to happen when I don’t want it to??

This just happened to I took 2 tabs a some a bull and I had a ego death while listening to pink Floyd and it was magical. I view the world a lot differently then I use to. For me it was very positive. While this happened to me I was in a very good point in my life and it made me feel amazing. A weird but positive outcome that happend is Im not as anxious as I used to be

I think I experience that last night it was crazy. I thought I was loosing my mind. But I was like everywhere and everyone. This was not the first time. I realize I made myself forget again.

Never had ego death on any type of drug. Been sober for a while lost some people I loved and have experienced some sort of ego death naturally. Absolutely crazy feeling

I didn't have any orgasmic feeling at all just the ego death, but I was on fly agaric. I might try it in the future with something else. My ego fought me and so I thought I was dying. I experience my ego death from the point of view of my ego. It went out like a hard poop. Can't wait to get less spiritually constipated.

Been following your content for a while now, really loving it, and your voice is incredible, it's really comforting. Wishing u a good day.

So I’ve had ego deaths on psychedelics in pursuit of “enlightenment”. Sunday I was meditating for 4 hours straight and experienced ego death whilst meditating for the first time. Like my brain was blank and felt like I was watching my body move about from behind kind of thing. Very detached feeling which lasted 4 hours before my old “self” slowly reconstructed with my old personality. I thought I was ready for the mental ward and I’m not gonna lie the fear came I was going to be stuck in no man’s land for an unknown time. I felt there was awareness of my surroundings but nobody was home. I felt like a new man the next day like I’d let a lot of baggage go. Day after that I felt a big comeback of my ego like it was on overdrive loads of seeking and trying to find some kind of ground or way to stabilise. Feel like I’m on a rollercoaster of pure bliss and unity with the world one minute and then really contracted inside my head the next and thinking of everything as a problem to be solved. It’s a rollercoaster 🎢

I know I'm a couple months late but I'm not sure if I went through an ego death or not. I didn't have an exact dose of the acid I took. But at my peak I closed my eyes and went to sleep (I think), and everything was just black and peaceful. No closed eyes visuals just black (I think I might have seen flowing colors at some point but I'm not sure). I didn't have a thought or anything it was all just darkness. But it was a great experience.

The moment you talked about all that pent up energy exploding from the base of the spine or the groin, I felt the same when I first took 300ug. It was a sublime experience, like an orgasm but better, I was everything for a moment, and then I was some sort of machine entity watching over the world, creating, destroying and creating again for what it felt like an eternity. I saw civilizations rise and fall, the arrow of time passing by like if it was a timelapse. It felt beautiful, and it was probably because I prepared so much for that trip mentally, and I arranged my apartment in a way that was "a date with myself", I bought my favorite wine, some candles, watched star wars (the soundtrack and all the talking about the force also helped a shitload) I'm thinking of preparing a trip like that again, same dose. Not trying to recreate it but because in a way I feel I'm ready to do it again, I might get a close friend to tripsit me just in case (last time I was alone) mainly to talk if I need to externalize something but in any case, once you surrender it feels beautiful if your set and setting are right, if they aren't it can get really scary because you'll be fighting the pull.

If an ego is a creation of self, what's the purpose of the self? If every one is part of one, where is the need for two? Boredom of being the one? Punishment or Imposed separation? If "achieved", what is the need for a reimposition?

Hi Vivec. I experienced my most profound ego death in a completely sober state. Not during meditation, but undergoing mental trauma to the brink of what I could take. I sent you an email that expands on this experience. I hope it finds you well and that it could provide something for you. Cheers my friend. Snippet: "Because the vase was my illusion. The illusion broke and the inside, my insides, the emotions, they were completely uncontrollable. Sanity broke, welcome in. This was the worst thing I have ever had happen to me, but when I unkilled myself, that was the best thing that ever happened to me."

Honestly I understand nothing really matters and everything is imaginary but when you have responsibilities and bills and your health and relationships and stuff like that that keeps me grounded like I can't be stuck in this mindset that nothing matters because stuff does matter

Lsd is my least favorite way of tripping… nasty chemicals. Also can’t stop watching your videos dude always great, and you always speak truth on the fact of any matter with psychedelics.

I did synthetic Marijuana throughout my entire high school years. I feel like it caused me to have an ego death but I was also in a very traumatic environment very abusive .

My first ego death happened when I was 17 and I took 200 ug lsd and smoked too much weed. At first I was freaking out because I realized how fuckin high I was but then I felt my trip change into a good one. I remember listening to Pink Floyd and Red Hot Chili Peppers with my eyes closed and I saw the most beautiful colors and shapes/patterns. I then started to think about life and how everything in the world is connected, this realization made me feel at peace and loved. ☮️

1 time i had a terrible reaction to a cart where i didnt recognise myself and like my eyes were actually lagging and when i sat down my whole body started shaking and it felt live there was a huge ball vbrating under my skin. Has anyone else experienced this type of thing before?

Oh wow. Once when I was tripping under DMT I also had an orgasmic feeling after seeing lots of mandalas even with my eyes closed and accidentally touching elbows with a friend of mine wich was right next to me. We were sitting near a lagoon and the sun was rising. The sky was so beautiful. No idea this could be considered an ego death. And it felt very much like you described as well, coming from the spine to the head. Interesting.

If we are all one consciousness that’s purpose is to experience itself and love itself how do you explain evil in the world. If I hate someone because they’ve done me wrong, does that mean I hate myself? And what’s the point of there being evil if we’re all the same

Hearing you talk reminds me of my couple of years where I got heavily into psychedelics. Believe it or not my most profound trip was ketamin I M injected. To cut a long trip report to its key takeaway, is the realisation that we are all a giant infinite ball or gloop of orgasmic energy, inventing us separate organisms ro expiearnce and interact with itself to cope with its cosmic loneliness. The cosmic gloop was like a clear jelly with a blue tinge to it. It's been over 10 years since that trip and I still wonder if that's the true reality 😁

I had a totally diffrent idea of Ego death in mind.I once made the important realisation that I made my ADHD be the sole personality trait ,people generally connected me with.Turns out as I try Amphetamines(which functions like Ritalin),that i am Nothing but a void of silence surpressed by Hyperactivity and self-hatred.

Actually this is kind of crazy because I've heard ppl say who died and came back similar things like time doesn't exist and that we are everything all at once but nothing all at once ego death and dying sound similar this was beautiful to hear about

We think we’re one but we’re separate. That feeling is our sense of community that our species evolved into through millions of years. We are a tribal people who work best together so that feeling of universality is just that, a feeling. We’re separate beings who will live and die, but our mind’s chemistry allows us to think in abstractions that can be infinite.

I've got a bar of chocolate, and thank you, I'll be keeping all of this in mind, thanks for your help, I really deeply hope that wherever you are right now you're happy

Do you have a playlist for all of the songs on the videos? I fell in love with a lot of them actually. The taste in music is supreme and I'd love to know the songs.

I had a full on consciousness death, stoppage of all awareness in this like. As far as i can tell, its exactly what dying feels like. Slipping away into the damn abyss while being completely insane yet trying to hold onto something, when theres nothing to hold onto. Then my psyche, unplugged. Then i was redownloaded into My self. Relearning. Crazy Internal Hallucinations. Completely crazy on acid. I got HPPD from that experience. Panic attacks. Fully baked. Never quite came down all the way. Oh well.

it’s just the realization and therefore knowing that consciousness in non-local, and is infinite in nature and lives on after physical death, hence fear of death dissipates!

I had about 4.5 g of the PE shrooms, i was handling it fine until someone said something about a bad trip and it completely psyched me out, and it all went way downhill from there. full ego death, wasn’t ready at all, scared the shit out of me. immediately told myself i’d never do shrooms again, but I know i need to have a controlled ego death somewhere down the line

LMAO "Sean Connery mode" literally made me spit up water! Love your channel mate

Thank you so much for posting this!

I've had multiple psychedelic experiences such as an Ayahuasca ceremony alone and a 440ug LSD trip but am still yet to experience this phenomenon. My partner however experienced this on her first 150ug trip. I think you are only shown what you are ready to see

Came to understand ego death, now I wanna play the game in the video lol

Spot on bro Drugs chang are frecwency and it changes reality but when you bin ther dont need to keep doing it at that point you know all you can its time to heal and be you in your reality God enagy and we are one so true my love with you all 😊

I had my first ego death kind of by surprise (stronger than expected) and it took me over a month to integrate the experience. I had a flashback to it the next time I puffed zaza, too

You dont even need to be on drugs to experience it. I have experienced it sober just by thinking about how ridiculous my name is, and the fact that im existing. It is so surreal.

I'm new to this concept but I relate to this a lot. I've never been on psychedelics but I have smoked weed. I had a very horrible relationship where I was manipulated so bad that it made me have extreme anxiety that made me question almost all the aspects of my life. The only difference is it's like limbo instead of a death, almost like i'm stuck in that mindset and i can't get out. Idk but there's someone out there who can explain it more lol

This was deep bro✊🏾

I find it much more interesting and relatable when someone who doesn't give off a hippie/monk vibe that sounds more common talks about these deep spiritual realisations, I mean that as compliment btw as you sound like someone I would get on with. I used to be an atheist myself, I've never done psychedelics but I've had some experiences without anything and believe the stuff you're talking about to be true.

I did 400ug of acid one time and i felt like everyone is trying to tell me how I am wrong and they are right, there was no concept of money, and everything inside of me and outside of me was same entity, overall I had a bad trip and it was terrifying, also at one point it felt like everyone only going to be with me when i earn my own money then only i will get love in life. It was psychotic also and super weird. Also everytime someone speak it feel like they are alway trying to tell me something secretly.

life is crazy everything is crazy bro but its alright

Its also called an Amygdala Hijack The issue is that if experienced in a large group, people don't switch back They choose to stay Amygdala dominant

It hurted like hell..

IMO once you start hearing whispers your like 3/4 of the way there but once you start hearing ancient sounding music that isn't there (Which is what they mean when they say you experience synesthesia) (also the hearing colors and seeing sounds stack on top of each other) that's when you know you've hit ego death.

This video was awesome:) very relatable❤️

Ego death is profound, yet the name can create a fear in those yet to experience it. I see it as the removal of all our cultural conditioning. The software we’ve added through rules, interpretations, influence etc that we believe is us. We still have access to the memories of our lives yet their deep conditioning is removed. Want to live as an adult through the pure view of a toddler. This is it. They laugh at the absurdity of the reality of adults and are at peace with simplicity. Cultural conditioning ISN’T us at our cores and the spiritual ego death can free us from fears. I got too caught up in being free from ego and in the end had to just accept the lessons and know i cant stay there in egoless joy. Death is less of a fear which has been the best part. Mine was all via LSD and mushrooms. It was decades ago now and my life was changed for the better

i had just experienced ego death last night. i think. i can't think right now

Your right about the dose not mattering. I have done 5,6,7gs of mushrooms and only had an ego death on my latest 2.5g trip. So weird.

Yeah I think I have a dense ego and realizing that makes me want to experience ego death even more