I think it’s so important for me to embrace that I won’t immediately know everything about autistic me. And yet I feel the urgent need to get there at the same time.
I've learned that I was right to trust my instincts, and I've learned to better validate my own experiences. I've managed social integration well enough, but I know now that my desire to please everyone has caused me a certain degree of damage. I'm currently learning to be more strategic about my social circumstances, and I'm learning to be kinder to myself.
Learning that I am autistic has been a very positive experience for me. I now have an understanding of myself that explains my whole life since my earliest memories starting at about three years old. Literally hundreds of times in the last two and a half years I have remembered events from my past and I have been able to make sense of the difficulties I have had relating to other people and why my interests and my feelings both positive and negative have been so intense. I am autistic and I now know that I am not the only person in the world who has a brain that works like mine does. There are many others who I can genuinely relate to and it has made the world a friendlier place for me. Thank you for your videos Jenny. I very much appreciate you and your channel and everyone who shares their thoughts and experiences here. God bless.
Oh yeah i manipulate fabrics too. I have a big thing for textures. Growing up i alternated between being shutdown for a long time and being really hiperactive making crazy jokes. I cried a lot in my life but ive also laughed a lot. Yeah meltdowns are a big problem for me. Im trying to live with less triggers. Recently got back to listening to music and realize i can actually dance quite well. Im shocked 😂
Hi Jenny ! Are you better ? Thank you for this interesting idea ! I didn't really take the time for a retrospective (yet), but I'd say more or less the same, I stim a lot, I do more shutdowns than meltdowns, I try to prevent sensory overload as much as I can, instead of just suffering from it, and I finally understood many of my life long problems come from executive functions issues. I think I'm a little bit more kind to myself. But there's still a lot to learn and to do. I have to say it, I love your T-shirt !!! Take care !
Thank you Cecile❤ it is a jourmey for all of us, isn't it?😊 i am feeling better. Trying to be careful and do PT exercises. Thanks in the shurt. I ordered it last year on etsy, for my 50th birthday
I’ve realized I’ve been dissociating in a variety of different ways throughout my life to tolerate environments that don’t suit me. I fidgeted a LOT, but no one around me stimmed, so I didn’t have any idea I had tools to help myself. Now that I stim freely, I dissociate less.
I share a lot of the same feelings and thanks for putting that out there putting words to those feelings I think it helps all of us lay diagnosed folks especially understand what we're going through
Congrats on your 3 year anniversary, and thank you for sharing your journey 🧡 (I've still to discover stim toys but I've a beanie baby Grover on my desk that I often fidget with)
As I still hadn't had my official diagnose (but now have a first apointment in october 25 paid private) I can't answer that question. But for myself KNOWING I am also autistic I learned a lot. With every new vocabulary I get about all my "strange" feelings I feel like "Ohhhh, THAT'S it, okay, now I have a word for it, nice" Listening to all of You explaining Your experience helped me a lot. Still does. I am not "something akward different" any more. I am very graceful (is this the right english word for overwhelming thankful?) You autistic YTers opened this new world for me. But: how is Your back now, Jenny? I imagine it will need a while to recover, how is it at work, sitting on a desk? My best wishes, honey😊
Thank you😊 it also helps me watching autistic content creators. I think many of us feel like "something awkward" for sure. My back is making it. I'm having to adapt how i film and edit. About to go part time at work and ready for it😂❤
Hello, my friend! I am sorry for falling behind on your videos. I have had 5 birthdays, including my own in the last two months. So, it's been a lot. I stim with my body, more than stim toys. I walk on my toes, bop up and down with my toes, and yes, my hair is the best, for stimming.. It was fascinating to watch your journey, I can understand being comfortable behind a camera, you take beautiful pictures, without having direct eye contact. 😮😊❤🙏
I am having to just change how I do a lot of things for a while. I am back at work. I'm editing videos on my stomach or back until my back heals better. You know I still gotta make videos tho'! It's my hobby LOL
Hi. I'm figuring out how stimming works for me. I'm similar, I stim for excitement or for anxiety. They look the same but they feel different. It's interesting we women gravitate towards socially acceptable stimming. I wonder how many of us would stim differently as late diagnosed adults if we were never made fun of for stimming as a child.
That's true. I did suck my thumb until I was 6 and carry a pillow and people did start making fun of me and my mom said I would look like a chipmunk if I kept it up. LOL I ended up dropping that one and stimming in other ways.
@zebranothorse-EmJ I would love to have you join my upcoming Creator Collab! I just posted a video with details. Also maybe in the future we can do some sort of video together. I love skits if you ever have an idea. I love scripted humor. I'm up for any ideas!
