I really appreciate that you are out there sharing experiences and making connections 😊

I share a lot of the same feelings and thanks for putting that out there putting words to those feelings I think it helps all of us lay diagnosed folks especially understand what we're going through

As I still hadn't had my official diagnose (but now have a first apointment in october 25 paid private) I can't answer that question. But for myself KNOWING I am also autistic I learned a lot. With every new vocabulary I get about all my "strange" feelings I feel like "Ohhhh, THAT'S it, okay, now I have a word for it, nice" Listening to all of You explaining Your experience helped me a lot. Still does. I am not "something akward different" any more. I am very graceful (is this the right english word for overwhelming thankful?) You autistic YTers opened this new world for me. But: how is Your back now, Jenny? I imagine it will need a while to recover, how is it at work, sitting on a desk? My best wishes, honey😊

Hello, my friend! I am sorry for falling behind on your videos. I have had 5 birthdays, including my own in the last two months. So, it's been a lot. I stim with my body, more than stim toys. I walk on my toes, bop up and down with my toes, and yes, my hair is the best, for stimming.. It was fascinating to watch your journey, I can understand being comfortable behind a camera, you take beautiful pictures, without having direct eye contact. 😮😊❤🙏

Just waiting for my diagnosis. Your videos are calming and reassuring. Thank you for sharing your insights Jenny :)

Learning that I am autistic has been a very positive experience for me. I now have an understanding of myself that explains my whole life since my earliest memories starting at about three years old. Literally hundreds of times in the last two and a half years I have remembered events from my past and I have been able to make sense of the difficulties I have had relating to other people and why my interests and my feelings both positive and negative have been so intense. I am autistic and I now know that I am not the only person in the world who has a brain that works like mine does. There are many others who I can genuinely relate to and it has made the world a friendlier place for me. Thank you for your videos Jenny. I very much appreciate you and your channel and everyone who shares their thoughts and experiences here. God bless.

Life is a constant learning journey. 😊

I've learned that I was right to trust my instincts, and I've learned to better validate my own experiences. I've managed social integration well enough, but I know now that my desire to please everyone has caused me a certain degree of damage. I'm currently learning to be more strategic about my social circumstances, and I'm learning to be kinder to myself.

Thanks for creating this channel! I hope you are in less pain.

how is your back doing?

Hi Jenny ! Are you better ? Thank you for this interesting idea ! I didn't really take the time for a retrospective (yet), but I'd say more or less the same, I stim a lot, I do more shutdowns than meltdowns, I try to prevent sensory overload as much as I can, instead of just suffering from it, and I finally understood many of my life long problems come from executive functions issues. I think I'm a little bit more kind to myself. But there's still a lot to learn and to do. I have to say it, I love your T-shirt !!! Take care !

Oh yeah i manipulate fabrics too. I have a big thing for textures. Growing up i alternated between being shutdown for a long time and being really hiperactive making crazy jokes. I cried a lot in my life but ive also laughed a lot. Yeah meltdowns are a big problem for me. Im trying to live with less triggers. Recently got back to listening to music and realize i can actually dance quite well. Im shocked 😂

I think it’s so important for me to embrace that I won’t immediately know everything about autistic me. And yet I feel the urgent need to get there at the same time.

Praying for you, Jenny! ❤️🙏🏻

Aaaand that’s why I hate being autistic. Cause EVERYBODY THINKS IM ANNOYING AND WEIRD

calling anyone an over-reactor, exaggerater or a drama queen is invalidating. hyperconnective brain wiring = big feelings = big meltdowns. we can control our emotions about the same way epileptic people can control seizures. sending healing wishes and the common humanity of knowing what paralyzing back pain feels like.😢

Some people tell me im a very calming presence, and other people tell me I'm overly dramatic, it's very confusing for me. When my marriage ended, I was assaulted shortly after, my best friend told me "your life is one crisis after anther, I've had enough of your drama" and cut me out. I think perhaps the expectation is that we don't experience emotions at all? It sounds like you're experiencing a difficult and painful situation right now, I think it's a perfectly reasonable response to be overwhelmed and distressed, not "dramatic" at all!

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You're exactly right. We don't want any attention. We just want to be left alone.

Please, take your pain killers as long as necesary, don't wait for your spine to be worse, like I did. Cayenne pepper balm is also very good for back pain, but wash carefully your hands after using it, any contact with eyes would be very painful. You're absolutely right, most people have no idea how intensely we can feel, and in addition to this, people who never suffered from real back pain always underestimate it and can't understand how bad it is. And with your father being sick, you had every reason in the world to have meltdowns, this is such an emotional overload nobody would be able to control it. Of course, a NT's reaction would probably be different, but it's not better, just different. Take all the time you need to rest, spine issues are something serious. I'm sorry it's reducing your income, I almost forgot how bad the US system is about health... I'm sorry I'm late, I've been lost in time because of fever... But I'm beginning to feel a bit better. Take great care of yourself, my friend, I hope you'll feel much better soon, but don't forget to be careful with your spine even when you're better !💕💕💕

Iv'e sometimes found myself apologising for being angry aggitated etc when pushed to the limit, but why dont these dolts realise that its part of being autistic that its difficult to manage emotions. Oh yeah we know your autistic but we still expect you to act a certain way and not ever be problamatic🙋‍♂️

Sorry you're having such a rough time, Jenny. The 'drama queen' descriptor is such a lazy trope for those of us who feel and experience things more deeply. I hope you're on the road to recovery very soon. 🧡 (I have a desk riser and it is helpful - I just need to be careful not to stand too long as it aggravates my sciatica. I think a balance between the two is the key)

The mental health professionals thought that I was a drama queen apparently. They misdiagnosed me with Histrionic Personality Disorder for a month when I was 15. Which makes no sense because when I talked I guess that I seemed dramatic but I kept to myself most of the time and wasn't constantly seeking attention. I wasn't trying to be dramatic. I just feel things too strongly.

I get overwhelm a lot but you are lucky you have support. Everyone I have meltdowns in front of makes me feel like a POS and get yelled at. I've had to have injections in my SI joint and I refuse to go back to the hospital because they do the same thing. I always have to watch how I act, have to watch what I say and everyone calls us a drama queen and you are the one that has to adjust. I haven't been able to have a routine for years.

Oh boy, Jenny, I feel for you, and relate so much to your emotional overwhelm, combined with physical pain. It's extra hard when closest loved ones sometimes don't understand and cause our distress to ramp up instead of helping to ease our anxiety. I'm in a kind of similar situation because of my own problems right now. Really sorry about your back, but at the end of your video your own emotional strength seemed to be gaining ground. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. (and I thought your hair looked especially nice! 😊)

Being there, Jenny! It can be frustrating that some people still don't get it! Sending hugs and positives vibes!

Oh. The dolls. I hat a lot them. Every night i made them face the wall or i wouldnt sleep. Another memory that came back.

I understand what it is like to be overwhelmed; I've been there many times. We feel pain and emotional upsets more intensely than people who are not autistic and it certainly is real. We can't just brush it off and we do need time to recuperate. I also understand how difficult a disrupted routine can be. You are on my prayer list Jenny. God bless.

Sending healing 💜

Your husband sounds like a smart man. I hope you feel so much better in the morning.❤🪽

I've had valued interactions thanks to this channel, and I appreciate your perspective and the consideration you bring to your videos. Whatever you're going through, please know that you are very much appreciated. Don't fret about masking with us. You've done enough, and your feelings are more than valid. My thoughts are with you in this difficult time and I wish you and your loved ones all the best. ❤

Hi Jenny. Sending well wishes your way. Hoping your back heals soon. Loved the raw video, but not loving the circumstances for it. Don’t underestimate tummy time, it has helped me with my lower back pain. I spend most of my time in bed due to ME/CFS, so i try to do 10 minutes of tummy time everyday to stretch out the back and take some pressure off it. Take care. Sending love from Australia.

oh dear….. i do hope you find some light through this cloudy time you’re experiencing.. my son struggles. i’m aware of thoughts, feelings and processing of at least one beautiful soul. 😊 all you can do is be there in silence until you’re asked to be pro active, at their pace. sending you positive vibes, thoughts and a virtual hug. chin up hun. we’ll get you through this. we are your cheer squad too. ☺️😊 ✌🏻🇦🇺🌏🤘🏻

Now I am crying a little with You, honey😢. I just feel Your overwhelm. Okay, now You switched emotions in the end and I have to laugh. Ugh, Jenny, wanna give You a hug 🤗 Just so sorry for You😔 Best wishes and please believe me, we all understand and expect nothing from You. Just You being You❤ (And I was thinking all time and watching the thumbnail "her hair looks pretty"😅😉)