What's in Pat's Freezer? 

The war starts and is WON inside the mind. I'm also an addict. Just suboxone, cigs and cannabis these days... As addicts we are our worst enemies. I'm so mean to myself sometimes, abusive thoughts. We gotta be our best coach. STRONG SELF TALK. "YOU CAN DO THIS!!" look back at some of the battles you've won. Your a frikin WARRIOR📢. We forget about those times when we were so dope sick and STILL OVERCAME. Shiiiit...member all those times waking up broke and ill as f? Determined to get well...by all means, we will get our get well shot. Seemed impossible🤔 look at all those times you OVERCAME the impossible. Lol I know u know. W/e some how...some way...we make it happen. Gotta pull that same warrior out when it comes to the REAL WAR.But *BE 100% HONEST* Your built for this! Look at all you been through. YOU CAN AND WILL SLAY YOUR GOLLIATH. 🙏 Grew up in Baltimore city, sold all hard drugs...highly advanced addict as well. Oxycontin my doc. 320mg/day three hundred twenty.. and by ALL means I'll get it. Didn't murder, didn't do any sexual things...but everything else..I've done. Lots of violence and stealing, lying deceiving ppl 😔. Lie to everyone including ourself ..matter fact ESPECIALLY ourself. I know how you feel...BRING THAT WARRIOR SPIRIT TO THE SURFACE. declare war on yourself...takes repetition...but eventually the mind gives in and says..."ok, he's not giving in...well we gotta adapt and overcome now" -david goggins. FOCUS on how you will feel being 100% sober! See yourself that way, how you will feel, how you will think, how you will live. YOU GOT THIS! take the 1st step and POWERFUL SELF TALK...not BULLSHIIIAT...REAL self talk. I'm going to be praying for you. Idk u...but I so believe in you. 💪💪🙏

I have a suggestion that may help in a few ways, there is this documentary you can find on Google, sadly it's blocked on RU-vid. "The Greatest Story Never Told" It's helped a lot of people like you and me see just what's really important.

Brandon dicamillo

@@hermanthetosser4219 lmfao

thats exactly what i was thinking!

You’re on the right path, be kind to yourself. It’s your journey, everyone recovers differently. Don’t give up, methadone treatment works. I’m walking proof!

@@crystalschultz1241 I'm 42 been on heroin from 15yrscold and methadone from 16yrs I'm scared of withdrawals that's what scares me the most I'm so glad u found your way thanks for your message xxx

I can’t say it was easy tapering off methadone, I was at 120 mg and tapered 4 mg a week. Once I hit 25 mg, I hopped on suboxone and tapered off that weekly by a mg. When I got to the very last mg, I would take crumbs every second day, then third, then I just stopped taking it. I was very restless, anxious and couldn’t sleep well for about 3days. It wasn’t as bad as tapering off methadone though. It took a long time to taper but... baby steps, right?! You can do it, just prepare yourself because it isn’t easy, but neither was chasing a fix... be kind to yourself, there’s always hope 💜

I imagine he's in high demand, it's a pretty insurmountable task giving your phone number out globally. I'd say keep trying and maybe try one of the centres he works with to see if either they can help or help give you a better time to call him

U go see bam

He’s been trying. Only so much anyone can do.

Bam has to get to his last drink and drug before anyone can help him.

@@ccvjd3909 😘 He won't let me in the gate cupcake

If you saw Bam's IG video of him going off you can see that he said fuck novack and was going on about how Novak is a fake or something