When You Feel Like You Can't Go On - Waiting for the Tide 

It's been hell for me lately! Depression and anxiety can be so brutal!!

Please know, or be reassured, that you are indeed saving lives out here my friend! Simply by being a friend to absolute strangers. It’s difficult to make people in our lives understand what we feel SO deeply but can’t seem to articulate into anything relatable to them. I appreciate hearing your perspective and your heart. Thank you for being a great human being 🌸

Ugh. That’s where I m at. My meds, books, nothing works…. Nothing. I’m numb right now…. Nothjng matters…. So I just wait.

The world is now a cold, cruel, selfish, competitive place...

I think it’s because we feel lonely in our minds and we feel like we either still don’t know our true self or that your friends or other people you know don’t know or understand you deep inside enough to the level you desire. It’s also a bit of boredom, lack of feeling safe and loved and feeling unsatisfied with everything because we don’t feel the intensity of love we want. But I think the only way is to lower our expectations, live with gratitude and keep exploring. Another thing is maybe your friends and family don’t talk to you in the same intellectual way. Maybe you want to talk about the universe, more abstract, more philosophical and theories about anything such as life, certain events that happened etc. Which sparks thinking rather than the talks about mundane topics but what I learned is to not care so much and enjoy the time with your friends. If you don’t have any, I know how it feels, I only have two friends and I see other people with social activities all the time and I’m just at home alone with my parents all the time and it makes me feel like I’m unloved especially when I’m not with my friends, but it’s okay, just pray. I just graduated from University and I noticed that I began to have developed this void from time to time in my heart and it’s honestly scary, I would feel empty, bored and don’t enjoy anything at all, usually I don’t know if it’s because I feel lonely and miss my two best friends or my intuition is telling me to aim for something bigger or I need to change.

Ive been working this out for 41 years. Im damn tired.

This is depression. It comes when you least expect it, it doesn't allow you to breathe, to smile, to think clearly, to meet new people, to have new friends, to have friends, to have a relationship, to have kids, to be good at your job. I've wasted too many relationships (girlfriends and friends) because of this shit, and that costs me so much. That is the most horrible thing, I cannot get anyone back. "There should be some kind of thing you can do", that is what my father says all the time. He doesn't get it. My mother doesn't even know what that is. She cares but she doesn't know, she's completely obsessed with work and getting things done. My advice to all of you: please do not lose touch with your loved ones, and with friends as well. This is of sum importance. Do not let depression win, because if you let it, you will end up like me: not being able to do anything, only work in a job that pays but I don't like that much, go to the gym to try to gain confidence ( can barely speak with anyone there ). Just rented an apartment now to be with myself, don't want to go there. No sign of enthusiasm, no will, no nothing. Bad times, so many bad times. Desperate. I cannot even imagine how can people without support can pass through this hell. Because this is hell. Hell on earth. It's summer, 35 degrees Celsius, everyone at the beach or at the pool or whatever, just being happy. And here I lay, watching RU-vid and crying myself to sleep because of what I did, because of what I did not do, because of depression. This is a real disease, unfortunately. Hope you all have a wonderful and meaningful life. You can and you will find the good times, they will come. At least peaceful ones. 😊

crying uncontrollably and completely exhausted. the intro alone already brought me comfort and i started crying again not out of of pain but of relief because its OK to feel this way... thank you so much

Scott, I speak for many people when I say "We Love You". Thanks for the years of helping us all feel a little better a lot of the time. God Bless You!

you're putting words to the unspeakable thoughts of my soul

ive been stuck here for 20 years wirh hopes for change...now i cant anymore....now i am ready for this to end

Scott. It is so great that you are sharing your story. I am a Psychologist. I feel like I connect with people who are struggling, suffering even because I have been through depression, trauma and anxiety. All still come and go but I accept this is just life, my life. I do not fight it or run anymore. I wrap up in my feelings whatever they may be at any given time. I, for sure prefer happy, fun, joy and deep peace. They come and go too. But everything belongs. I'm less afraid of the un-preferred emotions. I believe I am better for all my experiences. You are courageous and a warrior in a world that blames and shames a person for not being or appearing happy all the time. God Bless You!!!!

.... Sometimes in life you diagnosed with a disease, Parkinson's feature's, that tears your world apart... And brings about depression and anxiety. Life is not fair. I guess I just have to deal with life the way it is right now. Sure wish things were different. I guess that's called wishful thinking right? Thank you Scott. I too cry.

I feel so trapped & crippled by fear that I cannot be myself because so much rejection has broken me.

Thank you for being gentle and non-judgmental. Thank you for the kindness I didn't get from those around me. Thank you for understanding. I am grateful for you. God bless you.

I cried every minute of the video, I didn't even knew I needed to hear this. Thank you for every word and for being here ❤️❤️

You made me cry... u r an angel... I´ve got the most awful depression in my entire life

Being broke with no way out is real depression. Not really fixable.

If u cannot go onn!!! Just pray!! Pray and wait!!! Wait...

it's been heavy for me lately 🥺 completely agree with you scott, thanks for sharing ❤in the name of the father, son and holy spirit and pray, like you did, i always do this. whenever i feel restless. god bless you❤

I HAVE BEEN ALIVE THANKS TO YOU

Thank you. Waiting is surrender. Surrender is liberation…and peace❤

Thanks scott brother i've been really hopeless mostly all of the time this year.

Thank you for being so comforting and compassionate. Needed this kindness right now as I’m struggling with unaliving thoughts.

Thank you Scott, you're a very wise and sensitive soul, it's so evident! And what a beautiful voice you have also. Thank you for providing much needed comfort ❤

I’m so grateful that I didn’t stop searching for the message I desperately needed to hear. This message. And the one on feeling lost. Your messages are life saving. Very deep thank you!

Back again Scott. I come back here every time I am in crisis. It’s like a stab in the chest, I feel frozen but this time is different. This time I am choosing to let go of control. I am choosing to accept myself. I know that things will work out for me and I pray for all of you. Life can be absolutely brutal but you are strong enough, you can do this, even if in this moment you feel like you don’t. You are not alone my friend. Darkness does not last forever and I am sending love to you. Please be kind to yourself❤

Thank you. I found your channel at a time of pain and great need. You helped me so much! I know God led me to you. You are providing a great blessed service. I pray God will continue to guide you and multiply your blessings.

Love and warm hugs to all. Thank you Scott.😢❤

Great chat brother. This helps A LOT. Perfect metaphor for depression. Going through a horrible time right now.

We need your cover of the song on spotify. Keep singing, you have an amazing voice

There have been times when I’ve thought I really really can’t do this anymore. There’s too much pain and it’s exhausting to even begin to uncover the layers. Just driving down the road and breaking down in tears because of a deep sadness you can’t even really explain.

I just break down and cry without any judgment - deep sobbing - go through it rather than try to shove it under the rug. don't be afraid to morn - just dont' hang out there too long.

Ah finally! A freaking friend!!!!! 😢😊

I can not tell how grateful I am to discovered this channel... I have a really hard time right now.. And nothing calmed me down like your videos.!

Thank you, thank you, thank you for understanding. Depression is just unbearable. Appreciate your sincerity and honesty.

You are an angel and your videos are so valuable. Thank you.

Your voice and your words are so soothing. Thanks for your work and for sharing your soul and your personal experiences with the world. So appreciated! I am going through depression caused by many things which I do understand but still, the sadness and the depression just don't lift. I am learning and growing with your channel. Thank you

I know that feeling... It's been rough. I hope you can deal with it in the best way, sending you a hug 🤗

Hello scott thankyou for your humanity,James /Ireland

i feel like the universe guided me to your page. thank u

Thank you for this. I feel so scared and lonely right now. I feel completely trapped. It is so hard, anyone who is going through this I am so so sorry. Please try to be kind to yourself. I have returned to this video so many times over the past 6 months when I feel like I am on the edge. I hope one day I won’t have to return here again. I will never forget your kindness, one of the only things getting me through.

Hi Guys i have suffered from depression too for like over 1 and a half year during 2018 to 2019.I can still imagine that how bad and worst time that was,i was on the brink of emotional collapse, couldn't sleep, left job, doesn't wanted to go outside,constant negative thoughts, panic attacks, sadness, suicidal thoughts to etc.I had tried so many counseling sessions, mindfulness,yoga but nothing doesn't seem to work. My turning point was when i went to a very good psychiatrist and he prescribed me the exact medicine which i needed in that time after suffering so much but that was a little slow progress towards normal life. I decided to push myself as hard as i can,First and biggest thing that i started was turning myself to my God,started praying regularly which brought massive peace of mind inside me. I started going for jogging and gym which was extremely difficult thing to do but there was no option left for me honestly,was literally crying while exercise but didn't lose hope coz i knew that it is the way to peace and life. The last and final thing was to start going to work and it was like pushing a mountain with one hand but hung in there for my betterment. Now for last 2 years no medicines,no panic attacks,no anxiety,no sadness etc nothing,Yes i still have some bad days like once in a 2,3 months but i guess that's totally normal as this happens with everyone. My massage is to Pray God (Allah) five times a day which is a key,Stay active,Work or go to job u can stay focused and stay away from bad thoughts,do most difficult tasks that makes u more stronger mentally and emotionally.If someone needs any guidance i am available to help,thanks

You speak directly to my soul, you sound like the muted voice deep inside for which I lost the volume knob, thanks for reminding me that I turn up the volume again 🙏🏼

In a world that encourages you to use your pain to "self-develop," it's hard to feel like anyone sits with the pain but rather runs. I've done that many times, with great success, but this time I couldn't run or "self-develop" out of it. This is the first video that felt like a breath of fresh air after drowning. So thank you for that, you are worth more than gold.

You definitely went through it because you were on point with what I am going through. Unfortunately, I just don't see myself out of this one. Thanks for doing what you are doing.

As I contemplate the "why go on", this pops up. I will listen and HOPE for a speck of why.

You are so beautiful. I wish I had a friend like you. I’m hanging on by a thread, feeling like I can’t go on. Thank you for your time in recording this. ❤

I love your channel so much Scott, always eternally grateful for your insights & inspired to give my own some day. THANK YOU 🙏🏾

You’re an angel Scott✨🫶

Its 2:00am and i m feeling like shit....my heart is pounding fast and having difficulty in breathing.....

Thank you beautiful Soul!🙏❤️

It’s beautiful that even though you’re still going through it, you still benefit our lives with your support. We need that kind of connection. I truly hope you find yourself one year not having had any depression all year. I want you to be well. Yet, while you’re here in the trenches with us, fighting this war with depression while at the same time just accepting it and allowing healing, we are grateful for you

Some how this is everything I needed right now. Thank you 🙏🏻

Mental Health Helplines: www.helpguide.org/find-help.htm

Your voice is very calming.

You need to be in it. To feel it. To let it be. And when you release it by feeling it, without any intervation, it comes out as light

Hi Scott, I asked spirit what I needed to know and here I am seeing you. I am going through a massive change in my life. This change started 2020. During my anger, frustration, humiliation, fear, self loathing, depression and grief to name just a few emotions, I was introduced to a wonderful analogy. When you're waiting, it's like spirit planting you for a new journey. Just like a seed that lives in the dark, in time it will grow big enough to push through and into the sun. I'm at the new plant phase. I've reached big enough to see the sun. Now I am growing into the plant of this new journey. Getting bigger and stronger. I've learnt the lesson, it is happening for me and not too me. I understand what was no longer in my best interest has now been removed. I didn't pay attention to the sign posts spirits gave. So I ended in a dark night of the soul. A journey that has taken 3 years to find the sun. That's ok, I'm ok that it did. I've learnt a lot about myself, my loves, hopes, desires, needs and wants, and embracing who I am. I no longer feel the debilitating feelings I did in the beginning. I'm in a better job, I have work life balance. I'm selling my house and looking forward to a new journey for my daughters and I. You still seem to be struggling with the why of depression. Have you looked at what brings you joy? Are you doing more of that? Following intuition? Clearly from today's video, you're able to channel. Maybe it's time to explore more of your spiritual gifts. 🧡✨️🌈⚘️

In the misdt of a new depressive episode! It's soooo hard. 3rd one in life but it's incredible anytime! I know the mind lies, but the suffering is coming from actual struggles I have in life and I need to address those.. When seeing no solution for them. I also struggle a lot with decision making and need to decide something ASAP about a career progression at work, when I feel completely exhausted with work. So many things going on in my head, and can't trust ay thoughts.

Thank you so much, this is what I needed to hear today. ❤🙏

Thank you!! I really needed this validation and compassion.

Man I can't go on. Living this way. In grief it seems. For the little time we call life.

this is beautiful. thank you

This helped me a lot, thank you for doing this and being you!

I NEEDED THIS THANK YOU SCOTT

Wow you are gifted. Of all the videos ive watched of late , this one took my breath away a little! Thk you love from Ireland 🇮🇪

Thanks Scott 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Thank you for this 🥺

Thank you for sharing your videos, Scott. You don't go unnoticed, and you've helped so many people.

Great timing to hear this message, have had a rough couple of weeks. Thank you Scott. (Been subscribed for many yrs, since your D2E days. 🙂)

Beautiful reminder and message, thank you💙

this explains everything i was searching for a long time. thank you for this ♥️

Great talk, much love

thank you so much ❤️❤️

I just found your channel and you’re amazing. Thank you for what you’re doing and keep on going :)

THANK YOU! 🥺

This is very authentic. Thank you.

This is so authentic, thank you sir 🫡

Hi Scott I just found your channel and i understand perfectly what you're talking about!!!!!Send you a big hug from Italy.

I needed to watch a video like this ❤ Thank you ❤✨🥲

Dear Scott, thank you once again for your podcast! I’ve only recently found you, and I’m so glad that I have! I love that you are not only so down to earth, but so incredibly inspiring at the same time! Thank you for your amazing authenticity, and insight. I’m going to share some of your talks with some friends of mine, and one guy in particular who has a heart of gold, but tries too hard to be there for everyone else. I worry about him, so I’m hoping that he actually takes the time to listen to you tell your stories/experiences etc. Thanks again for your discussions, and caring for your fellow man (- and women)!! Namaste 🙏😇🌹💜💕💚👍👋

You literally saved my life with these videos:) thanks Scott ❤️

Thank you Scott. And we hope you are well 🙏🏾

Thank you, I just found your videos and just sitting at the park in tears and really glad that you made these video.

Thank you. I’m really struggling and just came across your channel. Might be just what I need.

Scott I am so proud of how far you’ve come, you are an inspiration, and your so comforting I needed to hear this

Now days almost every one is busy to spare time to listen to you. Also I have been depressed and anxious for so long that now I feel I'm just going to be irritating people by talking to them about my problems. Finally I have come across your videos. I feel like someone is listening. Thank you very much

Thank you Scott.

cried, felt, thank you

Scott thank you for positing ! You vids make me feel a bit better

you are saving my life

Beautiful, and the closing with the song, awesome...❤

Scott, you are my reassurance during this lonely, painful time. Thank you 🙏🏽 for your vulnerability and emotions you shared. Your permission to do nothing, just give it time and wait is what I needed to hear. Please know that I really 😢needed hear this. I thank God for you ❤

Thank you so much

Yes, totally agree with the last person's statement. Love to you, friend

Thank you.

I am so glad I came across this video. I could relate to each and every word that you said. Was in tears the whole time. This really gave me hope. Thank you!

My brother! Wow! This is the 1st video that I've seen & watched of yours, wasn't even subscribed (untill now) but i can't tell you how much I feel i was meant to see this in the news feed as i opened RU-vid.... i am try grateful! Namaste brother 🙏🌏✌💗

Listening to you Scott makes my day, i am always so grateful to you bcz you do such a good job of making the audience feel so warm n caring. I swear if i was there, i'd give you a nice man to man hug n sing "Seems like a long time" with you. Thank you so so much for sharing this!🤘🙌🤗

insightful. thank you.