"Where are you?" - Life Update Dec 2021 

As we get older ailments start to add up. I am 70 and whats happening to you is natural. Some are very lucky, other's even start at a young age. Congratiolations with the marriage. God blesd

Lovely lady, nice of you to update us considering what you have been through.

Congratulations

Hi Tammy, Great to hear from you again. You were a great help to me and great comfort too. I just wanted to wish you well in the future. xx

Commenting as I listen, 2020 and 2021 has been a roller coaster for me also. I totally shut down to deal with grief. Thinking about peaking my head out back into life.

Thank you for your heartfelt share. Sorry for the loss of your dear grandma. You are such a kind articulate person .

New youtube identity when commenting...you know me as Ann. It's so lovely to hear your voice and to see you getting out in nature between storms. I can see sparkles in your energy field that I never noticed before, so maybe they're new. Thank you so much for sharing with us. You provide a gentle opening for me to just sit and let my own experiences get sorted out. Bye for now.

Hi Tammy, I am so sorry for the loss of your grandmother ! I'm sure it brings back memories of your brother also. I hate how the jw's steal the time we could have had with our loved ones 😪 What a roller coaster ride since we last saw you ! Congratulations on your wedding and know that I wish you and your husband the best. Thank you for sharing these thoughts with us as hard as it was . Love and hugs ❤🌻

This video is like having a sundae on a Sunday. Thank you for such a cathartic, insightful and candid video of perseverance and positivity!

The shunning is tough. I’m shunned by my kids. My wife stayed in so the marriage dynamic is definitely changed. I pray everyday for them to be able to wake up, leave the org., and come to Christ for salvation.(Joh.10:9.) So sorry T. I think it just goes to show you how much difficult and intense stress can affect even very healthy ones.

Hey you. So sorry to hear this ❤️

So sorry for your lost of your dear grandmother, she will always in your heart and memories. And congratulations on your marriage. And thank you for sharing your news to your community of EXJW’s. We all have our own stories and issues and again thanks for sharing.

Heartfelt video .. thank you Tammy .. with all you’ve been through .. and you’re still thinking of helping others .. you are a beautiful human! 💖

It's really great that you trust your inner guidance. I'm sorry you lost your gram and your doggie. 😢 And a tough year on your health, too. Sending positive vibes and hugs.💗

Greetings from Wales, UK. Lovely to hear from you again and sad to hear of the passing of your Gran, she was a good age and you made up for the time lost, you will welcome her back in due season for sure, I remember having to take my dog to the vets to have her put down, and it was a painful process, didn't realise at the time how attached you get to animals, hope you get over your health issues soon and wishing you and your husband all the very best going forward after finally tying the knot.............💖

Congrats on your Marriage!

Hi Tammy! Big hugs from here! 💔

Nice to hear from you again, you are brave and a real inspiration to others who are struggling with various problems. These things happen to us sometimes. Best wishes, dear one.

I know how it is to lose a family member. My beloved uncle died in Hamburg the 25 of December 2014. The important thing is to remember them in a good way.

sorry my beautiful friend 😔😔

I missed you x

Hi!!! Glad you’re good! Sorry for your loss.

Wow, when I (promo) contacted my sister (still in) about helping our mother (left JW) with the advancement of elderly care to procure.... I was still POMI and hadn't been on any WEBSITES for information. I had gathered from the JW library information on care for the elderly and had accumulating evidence for 1. Asking for help to care for mom. 2. Never thought it was possible for their (sister and brother in law) response be "I will intervein only once mom is not of sound mind and reason".

I'm sorry that you lost your grandma! I completely agree about the regrets and memories flooding in when you lose someone. CONGRATS on getting married!!! Good to see you back, I enjoy your videos!

I am so sorry for all your recent losses and health issues. I was worried about Rio when I didnt see him in your last video. 😕 And I am so sorry about your health issues. I have always been sickly and have no energy whatsoever. But, to go from being super healthy to feeling unwell overnight would be so hard! I truly hope you feel better soon. ♡

Hi. Im from South Africa.

It’s weird how the body reacts to stress and grief!

G,Day Tammy ,sorry about the loss of your grand mother and Rio. Congratulations for your new husband lucky man your gorgeous a real dish and you look good enough to eat. 2021 has been a roller coaster ride for you Tammy and I,m hoping 2022 Will be full of fun. I,'ve been watching your videos since 2017 and thank you Tammy for helping me and so many others wake up. You beautiful human being thank you. Justin porter ex jw

We have many friends that we love so much but they will not associate with us, simply because we have recognized that "Savage wolves (GB) have risen, distorting the truth to draw away disciples after themselves. Be alert. I never stopped warning you night and day with tears." See Acts 20 29

Hello Tammy, I recently heard this on a podcast and it blew me away. I hope you find it and as eye-opening as I did. “People who believe false things can’t be around honest people. If you believe things that are false, you can’t have freethinking people who are skeptical and curious and who care about you enough to tell you the truth and free you from the foggy, narcissistic death grip of error and falsehood and delusion. Who is content to let you live in a delusion?? …..People who share those delusions and who don’t care about you. Delusion, fantasy, falsehoods and propaganda are solitary confinement. The reason propaganda is so dangerous is because it isolates people. And through isolation people go crazy. If you are isolated and you know it you experience a peculiar type of agony that will motivate you to do whatever it takes to get contact with people. If you are isolated and you don’t know it because you’re only surrounded by people who share your same delusions (cults) …..you are isolated because the only thing you have in common with the people around you is shared delusion. Collective madness is not emotional intimacy. The isolation that separates us from each other when we get wrapped in falsehoods is the worst thing of all because it is without obvious symptom…. Yes, you become unstable, defensive, inoculated against any truth teller and will attack anybody that tells the truth in your environment, but you can’t love, you can’t be loved, you can’t relax. You are always on guard for whatever might puncture your delusions which provokes rage which drives good people away and anybody might rescue you from delusion will be driven away and you are left alone in the foggy devil ribbed cage bosom of falsehood… That which is not real, that which is not true, that which is not proven, that which is the opposite of truth. You are full of peculiar hatreds, instability, vanity… because anybody who just repeats lies and only listens to lies is vain because they won’t submit themselves to reason and evidence. So, the vanity, the narcissism, the isolation the peculiar hatreds…. to be falling without even knowing that you’re falling, to be ill with no symptoms….. is the most dangerous thing of all. And to be lonely in a crowd of thousands of people cheering all the same falsehoods, to be certain, pompous, to be vain, to be full of rage at anybody who threatens these delusions…. to be told that the pursuit of truth is the acceptance of evil… to be isolated and thereby easily manipulated. People who pursue delusion and end up wrapped in delusion are saying… I can’t be loved, all I can do is pretend to merge. I can’t be loved for who I am so I will hide in a room full of photocopied people with photocopied opinions and pretend that I’m part of something. I will dissolve my individuality, I will shred and eviscerate any original thought I might possibly have, any curiosity, any skepticism I might possibly have so that I can dissolve into the nothing of the photocopies around me. I can’t have love, but I can self abase and self erase into proximity. I can nod, smile, agree, and praise who everyone praises and hate who everyone hates… I can be a shadow cast by the tombstone of my mind. I can’t exist, I can’t excite, I can’t be unique, but I can blend. I can submit I can conform and then I will have physical proximity combined with unbelievable isolation. I can’t approach the truth so I will just burrow into empty people. We can only ever meet in reality itself. We cannot meet in fantasy we cannot meet in lies we cannot meet in propaganda. We can only meet in the truth. When you are with the truth, you can do without people because you are with yourself and with the facts and reality. When you don’t have the truth you have a bottomless desperate need for people that you could never connect with. If all you have in common with others, with those around you is a mutual agreement to slash your mind into ribbons and accept whatever lies come rolling down the conveyor belt, you’re not with anyone, and you will never feel loved. The price of conformity is the absence of love. The price of conformity is terror of solitude. Truth tellers can handle the journey from the town of the dead to the outposts of the living and the thinking. It’s a long journey across that desert. The ghosts can’t make it. You can’t love a character in a video game because they are programmed. You can’t love people who don’t think for themselves because there is no one to love, thought is the only individuating characteristic that we have. The only thing that we have that is uniquely our own is our capacity to think for ourselves, and that is the only passageway through which the light of love can reach. They suffer in the worst possible way which is to not even know what they are missing… Avoid it if you can at all possible costs.”

My mother hasn't communicated with me for nearly 4 uears. I ain't DFd of DAd but apparently still worthy to be treated like a criminal. Not been to a meeting for 13 years...

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If dogs have a heaven ? There's one thing I know old Rio has found a wonderful home. Old shep, Elvis Presley 1956. Justin porter ex jw

Have you found being an exJW gives you a slightly nihlistic outlook? It for sure has for me. Not so much that everything is meaningless, but I tend to see/expect the worst in people because of the JW betrayal. I also take note of the outlier people who are truly good.

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