Why I Hated Minecraft Growing Up

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How did Minecraft went from a game I've played since my childhood into an existential horror game?
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@XayXayYT Год назад

̶M̶o̶r̶a̶l̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶s̶t̶o̶r̶y̶:̶ ̶D̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶t̶a̶k̶e̶ ̶A̶ ̶l̶e̶v̶e̶l̶s̶ Huge thanks to everyone who participated in the community poll for deciding the title of this video. After reading the comments, I felt that titling the video about fear about Minecraft in general with "Why Minecraft is Truly Terrifying" would've been disingenuous or too clickbaity, and I've scrapped that title idea for a future Halloween video. This is a somewhat different video where I talk about Minecraft to me personally, the next few videos will be back to a format similar to the video about diamonds. I've also moved the subtitles lower down the video after seeing a few comments saying they were too distracting. But do let me know what you think of the video, or whether the originally voted title of "Why Minecraft is Truly Terrifying" would've been fine. Once again, happy new years and here's to 2023. :)

@HURR_EMERALDS Год назад

Happy new years :))))

@WhompTheBunny Год назад

You are the only youtuber i wait to watch so much that i dont forget about channels you are just a really good youtuber :D

@XayXayYT Год назад

@@WhompTheBunny That's really sweet of you to say, I thank you very much for the kind words but it does make me feel a little bad that I'm making you wait so long between uploads heh

@Bloonsmonki Год назад

@@XayXayYTanyway you have a lot of dedication 3k subs and 5k subs in 1 VID? Always worth the wait tho :)

@MinorLife10 Год назад

I really understand you when you say about crashing from highest grades to barely studying. It really hurts and kills all the self-worth. You are not alone with this problem, though, and there are people who can help you with getting back in life and restoring the happiness. Hope your darkest times have passed, and the better is ahead to come.

@Hero_Halo Год назад

This video genuinely changed my views on what minecraft and even life really is about

@XayXayYT Год назад

Glad I could provide a new perspective!

@seurn7801 Год назад

As soon as you said, "each time I would boot up the launcher, I would receive a small sense of dread" I instantly knew what you meant even though you hadn't specified it yet. I'm the same age as you and I totally get this feeling. Apart from feeling like you're not alone in your own world, I also get the existential dread whenever I play minecraft. Sometimes it's sunsets that get me, or new years, or the sound of my keyboard when I start typing.. I have specific triggers, and I really couldn't pinpoint why I also had it whenever I play minecraft until I watched your video. Not gonna lie, I expected another "herobrine" minecraft video but this totally blew me away. I'm also in university studying Architecture right now and I'm struggling and trying my best, my life went to shambles at the start of the pandemic and I'm slowly trying to get back to how everything was before. It's a huge struggle and I don't think I'm ready to let go of my childhood yet, but I'm trying. This video is truly a good motivator and I hope people get the same spark and inspiration as I did after watching this. As a fellow 2001 kid, we'll overcome this :)

@XayXayYT Год назад

I think it's perfectly fine to feel as though you're not ready to let go yet, honestly I think identifying that you're not ready is a good first step. What matters if you're trying and you should be proud that you're taking steps. I'm glad that I could give some sort of motivation, you got this, fellow 2001 friend :)

@piperpanda6587 Год назад

Honestly I think this is never why I play single player anymore.... I didn't even think about it till now, but even if it's a small server, expecially if it's a small server. I'm doing everything I normally do in survival, but I'm not alone, and I can chill out with new friends and I can help them when I'm bored, or get help when I'm doing a big project. Also the /home, /rtp, and /back commands are really nice. The only problem probably is that if the server shuts down I lose my progress, but also chances are I forgot about it all before it shut down. I can't even remember the last time I played single player and each time I have, it's been a strong feeling of dread. Probably because I abandon my worlds so fast, or I get bored too easily by myself... Anyway we (I'm 2002 baby) are a generation that grew up on video games. People are still playing animal crossing, I used to play that on Gamecube XD millennials who came before us are still playing Atari and Tetris. Our elderly generation feels elderly because they carry on habits from their time periods, the short hair, the dress styles. I'm pretty sure when we are old we will still be playing Minecraft because it's a habit from our generation XD

@Arksin21 Год назад

As a 1997 kid you guys start to make me feel old. It's funny because i don't have such feeling, i love Minecraft but i don't play it all the time, i take long breaks but it's that one game i know i end up coming back to anyway because of it i know it might be the last block in a while but it never feels like it will be the last block.

@piperpanda6587 Год назад

@Sasha05 I mean I was talking about 60s short hair styles, like a bob or something. Google 60s hairstyles and think about the elderly women in your life, while maybe not as much hairspray and poof anymore... I still see women with these styles, my Nana has the one that curls out at the neck. Many short female hairstyles are newer, like the Karen (starting to grow older), the pixie, the A line, etc. As for the games, of course they are getting better. I'm saying old habits die hard, and we will be a generation that plays games into the future. Like I said with animal crossing, I played it on GameCube and DS (still do when I find my DS....) But most now play it on mobile or switch. It's still animal crossing. Same with how you play the new versions of Pokemon. It's still Pokemon. And people make newer, better ones because they know you will keep buying them to play. Our grandparents probably didn't own a computer for half of their lives, but now they do. Also I don't think you play Minecraft 1.7.10 anymore, you play 1.19. the point is, you still play Minecraft. And some games we'll play forever without updates, like Snake, or sudoku, or solitaire, but heck I'll still try out Killer sudoku and variations, the point is we will still be playing games. And when we're older we will still be playing games. That fact is never going to change. Our grandparents went fishing because that was a fun thing to do, they take us fishing because they want to share their experiences with us. We play games and will probably show our children and grandchildren how fun Pokemon, Minecraft, and animal crossing are. No doubt they'll be outdated, or have adapted to technology be you our comprehension right now. Can't wait till we get laughed at for still playing on ancient computer PCs, instead of the latest Meta world Google Microsoft VR reality. Because in the future chances are, what we are using, our best tech, will be outdated like how the GameCube is to us. And then laptops that look like the ones we have now will be associated with old people who can't adapt to technology changes, and oooh we don't know how to fly in the metaverse, keep up grandma XD

@tarukaja8 Год назад

What do you mean by "feeling you're not alone in your own world" ? I'm very interested to know, please...

@Itzallclover Год назад

I'm dealing with these existencial fear thoughts, thinking that i'm not spenting my time wisely, not being a person who's making his own parents proud, i'm trying to improve myself but sometimes it's hard enough for me to give up. This video was really special to me thank you, and sorry for any writing errors, english is not my native lenguage, i just wanted you to know that this video helped me somehow. Thank you, you deserve everything.

@Imytheone Год назад

Honestly its the emptiness of the game that gets me, I never play minecraft alone. Nothing interacts with you, most things ignore or atack you. Nothing talks to you. There is no one else around like you in the entire world. Its empty, you are alone. The feeling is really uncanny valley for me.

@crow2989 Год назад

I always imagine that’s what Hell would be like. Sure their are “entities” in the game but nothing that truly interacts with you. You are responsible for every single change that happens in the world besides creepers and less so endermen. You are alone, sure you have a whole beautiful world to explore but you are still alone. Sure you can interact with Villagers but they are pawns with no real initiative. This is hell. Alone with your thoughts and no one else to share them with. Everything you build, accomplish, do, see, it’s all non-existent the second you die because no one else is there. A universe without an observer doesn’t exist

@Kittymayo12 Год назад

I can only play multiplayer because of this even if no one’s online at least it’s like… they’re part of the world at least I’m not alone in it

@dream_walker9726 Год назад

I never thought about it like that, now I can’t not think about it 😅

@flavertex658 Год назад

This is the comment I was looking for. I started playing Minecraft with a friend, but then I moved away and lost touch, and was without company for the majority of my pay time afterwards. I would load up single player worlds and play alone, but...I stopped after a relatively short time. I got very into Minecraft RU-vidrs after: why? Because then I felt, even parasocially, that the world of Minecraft was something I could share with someone. Otherwise, there was just the eerie feeling of a world without meaning and without anyone, rendering all actions meaningless. It makes you realize just how much of the reason why we do anything at all is so that you can share your experiences with others.

@crow2989 Год назад

@@flavertex658 humans are social creatures after all, even the most introverted of us. Im very introverted but over a long enough time period, you begin to wish someone could see what you’ve made

@mr_unstoppable Год назад

I feel as if this game is a curse more than anything. I’ve been on and off with Minecraft for 11 years now and I highly doubt this cycle will ever end for me. I wouldn’t be surprised if i’m playing this game in my elderly years lol.

@XayXayYT Год назад

honestly that would be a nice thought, imagine playing it with grandkids and they're like "this game is ancient"

@dekcraft262 Год назад

Couldn't have said it better myself

@danielrosado3213 Год назад

Totally agree. On and off for 8 years. Whenever it burns out, I’m always back a few years later. I doubt I’ll ever be strong enough to leave forever.

@Fauxchemill Год назад

My grandparents okay Command and Conquer, and Battletanks on the N64 almost everyday. They are in their 80's.

@macmcleod1188 Год назад

I'm almost 62. I play Minecraft with friends and my grandsons. The modded game is infinite. But I played unmodded last summer. I recommend, "Wear Sunscreen" by Boz. It's a great philosophical song.

@ABYSYAL Год назад

I can actually really relate to this, it’s probably due to the huge gaping emptiness in Minecraft that you feel when playing single player. You are alone the entire time which makes even the slightest noises really off putting and can even be sort of jump scares sometimes in a way, not to mention the cave noises that occur from time to time at random. Overall this video made me cry in a way because it reminded of how really empty and uncanny Minecraft feels in single player

@Astr7lNG Год назад

you just changed my entire view on life. We're in the same boat depression and academics. And minecraft. Thank you so much Xayller.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm happy to hear that it did, take care my friend.

@Astr7lNG Год назад

@@XayXayYT I will until the next video I'm on a streak of saying hi

@SpectrumByte Год назад

Yeah me too I still don't know the reason I to life and I'm now 18 and in 1 month I'm one year older.

@SirNobleIZH Год назад

@@XayXayYT mine too, also currently in the sigma male college grindset and while not battling depression, i am battling ADHD and have had depression in the past, so I know how hard battling mental ailments can be. We're all in this together.

@Stormmblade Год назад

@Draven's Cringe Gaming Who cares if it matters 'in the end' or not. It matters in the here and now and there's no sense in worrying about the rest. This is going off on a bit of a tangent, but the "Butterfly Effect" is the phenomenon where tiny changes in initial conditions end up creating extremely different outcomes in the long term. There's a really cool video example of this effect on youtube using a simulation of a laser line reflecting off of a bunch of spherical mirrors. As the laser line changes in angle ('statistically insignificant' 0.0000000001 of a degree), the ultimate path of the laser bounces around quite drastically and unpredictably. This Butterfly Effect phenomenon is what makes long term weather forecasts so difficult to predict accurately without constantly updating the prediction as new information comes in. Needless to say, any actions you choose to take (or not take) within your life will fundamentally change the course of the distant future in ways that are quite literally impossible to comprehend. Interesting food for thought

@bonnieandfoxy7039 Год назад

I used to play Minecraft as usual, but since about 2019, I struggle to play without the overwhelming fear that some kind of creepypasta entity is watching me Edit: I just want to make it clear that I meant I feel watched in-game, not irl

@ketch10 Год назад

well, nothing is, its an irrational fear. I hope you are able to overcome your fear though.

@musclechicken9036 Год назад

well, by the 0% nil chance that it even is watching you, what will it do? It's just your computer in your fake Minecraft world, and you can just leave the game, turn your computer off, or just leave your pc. I would personally be exited to find such an entity, in the same way some people are thrilled by danger and unknown, exept I dont have to worry that the entity could genuinely hurt me.

@mariotheundying Год назад

I remember hearing about a game where you're searching for someone and have to save them at the end of the game, while also the model of the lost character is behind you at all times, you just can't see it because you can't look behind you, and even if you did it would still be behind the camera, just watching you

@ketch10 Год назад

@@mariotheundying bro thats creepy

@silver180 Год назад

I recommend playing with friends you trust! You usually wont be alone, and there's always fun things to do. For example I have a sever (sadly inactive cause I have no friends that want to play anymore) but you could start wars, build collab bases, make a group/team and so much more. It helps for me at least

@DogEye69 Год назад

I've been playing Minecraft for a long time now and I've lost many worlds that I've worked very hard on. I would usually just shake off and have a new start but in the recent years everytime I play sometimes I just feel an unknown overwhelming unexplainable fear... This. This is exactly what I needed...

@icantthinkofagoodname8002 Год назад

The dog disappearing at 4:24 is one of the saddest things I've ever seen. Makes me think about all those times I tamed one while playing, only to eventually leave that world, never to come back. To those wolves/dogs, I'm so sorry :c

@XayXayYT Год назад

Yeah, I felt like that would've been a perfect way to convey the message of leaving.

@smokebomb024 Год назад

@@XayXayYTit probably would have been even sadder if the dog was still sitting there

@wayward_spud922 Год назад

They're still waiting.

@evoke97 Год назад

its ok they're not real

@kaizo4217 Год назад

That's why I stopped tameing dogs😭

@Hydrachaze Год назад

Parents always say all this stuff about how games don’t matter, but I feel like minecraft has made a huge impact on me 👍

@Rudxain Год назад

Definitely! I feel like MC has teached me about how to deal with responsibilities, time management, resource management, automation, machine maintenance, facing fears, discipline, exiting my comfort zone, kindness, etc... all of that by playing Survival normally!

@tamax229 Год назад

Huge

@atropa6053 Год назад

Parents don't know what games mean to kids. It was bad enough when i was a kid, now its gotta be a 1000 times worse - parents didn't change that much but kids have full lives on the internet thaat can be taken away at a whim because some powertripoping asshole gave them a bad grade in the failed education system. At least when it was taken away from me it was PS1 and offline games.

@ShadowDeathMiller Год назад

Same

@Hydrachaze Год назад

@@atropa6053 I agree with you so much bro

@veronicabyrd1200 10 месяцев назад

This is such a masterpeice of a video. The way you styled it, the voice over, layout, everything. Amazing!

@puppixy Год назад

I dealt with depression myself, and videogames were the one thing that held me together during those times. i am doing much better now, but throughout my years i've learned that not everything you do has to be calculated. you don't have to stress about your future all the time. sometimes, what keeps you sane is enjoying the moment you have now.. so instead of thinking about your past actions, or worrying about your future, try to live a pleasant present

@Judocake Год назад

This video is so underrated and I'm so happy it popped up in my recommended. This is beautiful, and beautifully written. Absolutely beautiful; great job.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad you enjoyed the video! And thank you, it took a while to put my thoughts into the script but judging by your comment, it paid off :)

@greatorial1672 Год назад

I wish I could have that feeling I felt during that first dark abstract night and then the beauty of the sunset that gives you this nostalgic vibes

@3.33-w2m Год назад

I came here looking for a deep dive into the horrors of Minecraft but ended up with a free therapy lesson worth it

@arichiquabtd8092 Год назад

Oh yeah mad wish I found this during my own confusion, this gem will save a lot of headache for many people to come.

@alphachicken377 Год назад

same

@PintoBeean Год назад

Facts

@TheDay4You Год назад

My two main games since I was 10 were the two Crafts, Warcraft and Minecraft. When I was 9 my diagnosis of Depression became official. It is no stretch of the imagination that these two games kept me alive and going. Two years ago I "placed my last block", but not by choice, in Warcraft and I have still not recovered. I started with Warcraft III and got interested in World of Warcraft. The problem was, as a broke child, I did not have money for a subscription. A friend in Minecraft offered me an account that he bought. It had all the expansions and someone was paying the subscription. I played on that account for a year before the subscription was canceled, but convinced my parents to continue it. Over time I became one of the top players on my server and eventually my region. 15 years, record kills, items, achievements, and well over 10,000 hours later, the original owner reclaimed the account. I lost everything. Yes, I should not have used a stolen account or transitioned to another account. At the time I did not understand the implication when I was young. By the time I did understand, I have put in too many hours to change accounts. It felt like I lost a loved one. Many tears were shed, many gaming friends were lost, and many memory reminders were destroyed. I still ask myself what the point of all that time is if it could be lost in a moment. Just like you, it is hard not to draw comparisons to life in general. What is the point if it is all meaningless? I have not touched any Warcraft games since. I tried, but the empty feeling kept me from enjoying anything. Games are supposed to help ignore the inquest of life, but some of them end up asking even harder questions.

@IG_ArticleParticle Год назад

This video makes me wanna cry man. Minecraft was such a huge impact on me, my high school life and my high school releationship. Remembering all the maps, skyblocks, rpg, and mineplex servers that ive spent hours and hours only for me to never long on again and leave it empty with all those happy memories there is just such a odd feeling.

@CMoneyBounceHouse Год назад

Dude. This was an incredible, deep, and beautiful video that I did NOT expect when I was reading the title on my recommended feed. I did not expect to relate to this so much and feel the emotions you just made me feel. Incredible video. Well done brother. You just earned a subscriber.

@XayXayYT Год назад

Welcome to the community my dude, I'm glad to hear you enjoyed the video!

@mysticsaru8577 Год назад

It’s not that deep

@CMoneyBounceHouse Год назад

@@mysticsaru8577 ok 👍

@vidal9747 Год назад

@@mysticsaru8577 the ability of someone to relate to something defines it's profundity. If you're as me, someone that has very similar experiences to the author of the video, related to the same topics, the video can resonate with you in a very fundamental way. If your experiences are different, it will not be deep for you. That is why some music makes you cry. The human experience does have a lot of constants, but it is different enough that not everything makes every human tick. That's okay.

@fansee1368 Год назад

These are the best kind of RU-vid essays. I came here thinking about scary cave noises and Herobrine, and ended up reflecting about my entire life lmao

@XayXayYT Год назад

Ay, glad to hear that! I will definitely do these of essays in the future if I could come up with a topic that fits it :)

@theisgood0 Год назад

I know this feeling all too well. I’m slowly getting over it and accepting the good times I had. Maybe you will go back and place one more block.

@pancakesareawesome3121 Год назад

Man, this hit me in the feels. As one who has already sort of been burned out of games for the most part, this relates. I still love Minecraft and keep up with it on a regular basis, but things like the biggest and one of my favorite RU-vidrs ever passing away (you know who that is), all of the questionable decisions from Microsoft, and just overall liking different things as of late, I can say that there maybe is a chance I won’t come back.

@dkY_YugDaKing Год назад

I didn't expect this and I now love you-like seriously this video made me so happy and sad, idk how to say it, but this is just such a great video

@O_Otoche Год назад

I fucking cried watching this. I’ve never felt so related with something before… Thanks man, I am still passing through my depression… I hope I can feel happy someday, but things just look… Terrifying. But I will try my best, I swear! And thank you again, REALLY!

@XayXayYT Год назад

You got this my dude, take your time. It's easy to fall under the "C'mon now, everyone goes through this, why haven't I" mindset, but it's important to know that everyone walks a different path in life and everyone takes a different length of time to recover from their grievances. Take care my dude. :)

@O_Otoche Год назад

@@XayXayYT Thanks dude, growing up might be scary, but I know I’m able to overcome this shit 🌹

@fridex_x445 Год назад

Tip:play with your friends and you will not be scared

@aiden_table Год назад

I cried too, I needed to hear this.

@OversizedPringleToe Год назад

Sometimes I feel very sad about my worlds on my moms old computer and iPad. I feel like the worlds are lost to time. Never to be seen again. I’ll forget about them, no history to pass on… it’s like another world. Sometime when I make a new world, and delete it, I just feel a sense of dread. All the mobs, all the blocks, every imperfection in the world never to be retrieved again…

@XayXayYT Год назад

If it's any comfort, don't be sad that it's gone, be happy that it happened

@JoBot__ Год назад

But remember this - There are a limited number of possible worlds in Minecraft. In some versions, it's 4,294,967,296, while in others, it's over 9 quintillion. The point is, some day in the future (and possibly in the past) it's quite likely that someone will stumble or has stumbled upon that exact world. The exact time they do that is completely up to chance though. Just trying to make you happier. ^-^

@headwreak1768 Год назад

so we are all lonely gods in a sense.

@kricku Год назад

@@JoBot__ That's not likely at all! 😂 Also, that must be the number of possible INITIAL worlds. It's not even likely that two shuffled decks of cards have ever been the same. (🤓)

@JoBot__ Год назад

@@kricku I'm just taking into account how long Minecraft has been around and how long it will continue to be around for. (Thanks for the compliment.)

@kimbisdoes115 Год назад

I can't describe how much I feel this

@itsgirlcraft5842 Год назад

My god, I love this. I've always had similar thoughts and experiences. Maybe not so much the lingering fear, but full-blown "oh my god, I don't want to lose that part of my story, my life, myself" kind of thing. I keep finding analogies within the way I play the game that help me grow into a better person. I love creating stories and characters within worlds, it's made me realize deep down that's all I want. A story to tell. This really touched me. I don't struggle with depression, but anxiety. I've still had those moments of helplessness too, that just melts away when I play the game. Where I'm not the anxious, weak child I think I am, but a survivor and warrior that can take on zombies and dragons.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm happy to hear the video spoke to you, I hope that me speaking from my own experiences helped with yours :)

@krazios9099 Год назад

I'm 22 currently and started having thoughts of death and feeling as if i wasted 1/3 of my life, so that part of the video hit me right at home. Life is short friends, enjoy every moment while you can. It all be okay in the end

@Nikola7.62 Год назад

Weird how this is the only comment that put me somewhat at ease, precisely the "It all be okay in the end". There's been some stress over faculty, but now it's gone lol. A toast to you, bro.

@transgenderbender Год назад

Man, I know how you feel, I'm 20 and having the same feelings. But you're having those thoughts right now, in the only moment that matters. Do what you care about now, do what matters to you now, and nothing will be wasted.

@marcosaenz4719 Год назад

i’ll be 22 in two months and my life feels like it’s already over

@pranav3151 Год назад

Can I get any advice to make my life better I'm 11 plz

@anormaldude127 Год назад

i hade a same feeling, thoughs of death. I got over it eventualy. I found the anwser to my problems that I dident wanted to die rather i wase frustrated of my own existence, and wanted nothing but just exist as far as I wanted, I then promised myself i whoud never ever take my own life to then make me remember the words I had: "you don't want to die, you are just simply frustrated of your existens, your existenc is enouth, keep on existence untill the end. remeber your grates enemy is YOURSELF"

@LukeNasti Год назад

9:27 my soul. Man you struck me with that. I should relax in my heart, thank you unknown friend

@thenerdasaurus3717 Год назад

Dude, this video made me cry. i’ve been struggling with depression and that existential dread that i’ll never mean anything for my whole life, and Minecraft has always been there. So you’re brilliant for finally figuring out what it is about Minecraft that sometimes makes it so scary: that some day it won’t be the constant anymore-although I think the emptiness of it (particularly the lack of birds) contributes to that feeling of dread, too. Anyway, you’ve earned a new subscriber here and I can’t wait to see you succeed! Although I think my solution to worrying about when i’ll quit minecraft-is just to never quit xD that’s probably immature of me, but I hold on to things I love like that. i’ve always been scared that like the kid in toy story, i’ll just wake up one day and not care about any of the cool stuff I grew up around, just like all the adults say. That i’ll “grow up.” But screw that. That will never happen to me, because without those things that bring me joy, I don’t “grow up” or “become an adult.” I become nothing. An emptier than empty void. And I’m not going to be that just because somebody else told me to. *sir, this is a wendy’s drive thru*

@AzzRushman Год назад

Being an adult just means that you know how to deal with difficult people, you can earn money, and you understand the reasoning behind paying taxes. What people somehow always forget to mention, is that you can still be yourself, even more than ever. Adults who know what they are doing aren't as boring as they appear. Good adults know how to deal with difficult people, they tend to choose who to share their hobbies with. The meta is to look like a boring and straight forward person in order to get accepted by the highest in rank, which will most likely be a grumpy elder. Keep the facade when needed, and be yourself the rest of the time. This new generation of adults is really into gaming, sports, anime, and reading fiction, much like any other kid, with the difference they tend to keep it to themselves half the time in order to avoid arguments about the standard meta of being 'mature'. Edit: If your tastes change and you stop liking survival sandboxes, you'll still be yourself. I used to love turn-based RPGs and MMOs, but I realised I like pretty much any game, and if I want to experience new exciting adventures, I'll have to learn to identify when I want to stop playing a certain game, even if it's a game that marked my life.

@fortnitesexman Год назад

@@AzzRushman to me becoming an adult/maturing has ruined any chance i had of a truly happy life life is an endless cycle, with every bit of fun you'll have, returning as pain in one form or another once i realized that nothing i did would ever matter, and that i had no purpose in life, i scrambled to tape together one, so i just live to have fun and that's a great reason to live when life seems specifically engineered to make that reason suck as much as possible i'm tired of being stuck in purgatory, listening to music, talking to people online, sleeping, eating, etc i wanna go out and experience the world, but not only will my pension run out after 6 months if they find out i've been gone that long, but there isn't even that much to see, the world seems huge, but when the pyramids failed to impress a younger less cynical version of myself..what could? it's really just a question of when i'll decide i've had enough of life's bullshit p.s i'm trying out D&D with my friend and his friends sometimes soon, so that's cool i guess

@AzzRushman Год назад

@@fortnitesexman I felt the same when I was 20. By the time I was 25 I realised what I wanted to do with my life. Finding a purpose and a personal long-term project is just as important as to not forget who you are. All I had in my life were my dreams. Small events that happened in my sleep and that I would soon forget minutes after waking up. I started quickly writing them while waking up, and later that they I would fill the holes in the plot to reconstruct said dream. Doing this I realised I wanted a more creative life. I had quite some money saved because I wasn't even interested in material stuff, I just payed my taxes and living expenses. So I quit my job, gave myself a good month or two to administrate my dream backlog, and tried to hunt for a job with less time and less pay. My new goal was to exploit my creative drive. Rereading my old dreams fills me with determination to fulfill my role. I want to create stories, bring my dreams to life one way or another. It's a spark that managed to drive my apaty away. One day you will also find a purpose and drive that is strong enough to fight life head to head. I guarantee it. But you need to look for it. Learn to meditate and seek within yourself what is lacking in this world for you. Seek for something that inspires you and explore it. Try and create that something you want to see. Once you find it, life will change for good. I've been feeling miserable for more than half of my life until I found my purpose. I'm currently 30 and I'm nowhere near to my goal yet, but it's feels great to be on the right track.

@chadfisher1537 Год назад

@@AzzRushman I think you've covered everything I wanna say. Minecraft can't be replaced, but it doesn't have to be. Minecraft is a sandbox of infinite possibilities, but we are the ones who booted up the game, watched all those videos, enjoyed what we wanted to enjoy. There were, are, and will be so many things in life that will ignite a spark within us, and even if they're temporary, fated to fade away one day, we will have something else to get excited for, eventually.

@tokai5390 Год назад

Depression isn't real if you don't believe it. (don't be sad)

@hyperdrive282 Год назад

This feeling I’ve been intensely struggling with for half a year. This video touched my heart, thank you.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad it helped, you got this my friend

@_roxy_4801 Год назад

I had same problems, just from different games, minecraft too, and to overcome it, I've just learnt that we play for the moment, it is in fact an adventure, once you completed everything you can do on the base game and every of your own achievements in these kind of games, you will just get bored of the world and consume another one, it's a blessing, after completing so much you can finally complete the world, the adventure ended, and now it's time for a new one it's kinda cathartic

@lordspejson8871 Год назад

I love this video and its very emotional, i was also always afraid of quiting the game one day, im so sad that minecraft is somewhat dying rn in a way which makes it all even worse. Also the fear of making an impact I think isnt so big issue for u anymore, look at how many fans u gained now and how well ur doing on youtube, rn u rly are making a change and an impact for us and yourself, im glad u started youtube. Also I have this weird feel sometimes after I accomplish a goal i get motivated for one day But then just stop straight up next day and quit. Also I wasnt able to text u on twitter for some reason, ima try again today ;-;

@akaczism Год назад

This hit hard... I failed out my final year of college back in 2011. That was the worst year of my life. Just, indescribably dark and miserable. I would end up going back and finishing my degree, but minecraft was one of few comforts I had that could still bring me joy. I wish you well in life, [unpronounceable name].

@XayXayYT Год назад

Imagine having an unpronounceable name amirite I wish you well in life too my dude :)

@fazilyous8622 11 месяцев назад

@@XayXayYT do you know about ddlc ?

@teamok1025 11 месяцев назад

@@fazilyous8622omori is scarier in terms of atmosphere DDLC gives me PTSD after someone commited sudoku.

@Iconicmulcheater 10 месяцев назад

⁠@@teamok1025go back to daycare

@ssjkaryuusennin 9 месяцев назад

@@fazilyous8622I recently checked DDLC Steam reviews and there was someone with like 16,045 hours playtime and a week after that he already had 100 hundred more. I really enjoyed the game but how could you possibly play it longer than 5 hours

@duck1742 Год назад

This video made me cry and I thought i was gonna talk about creepy stuff but nope. I had the same fear and after watching this video me and my friends started a server to play! thank you for this video

@CosmicCreeper99 Год назад

Jesus. I was not expecting the answer to be that existential

@ontj Год назад

How are you so underrated? You are better than 95% of channels that are over 100K i follow, keep up the good work!

@XayXayYT Год назад

Thanks a lot my dude! I've always felt that subs or not, quality comes first and people will subscribe if they enjoy my videos, which is why I only included the subscribe call to action at the end of the video :p

@RangerBloxs 10 месяцев назад

Almost a year later watching this, in a bit late but what a great video and you made an impact!

@jeanjaille1062 Год назад

I can't express how much I love your videos! I discovered you a lil while ago and instantly liked your content! Know that, by being here, you're already having an impact on all of us, and I'd be glad to spend another year watching what you have to say :) The editing and script is on point and, aw man, that's relatable. So thank you for what you do :) And remember to drink water. You're doing amazing!

@XayXayYT Год назад

The videos will keep increasing in quality as I experiment more and more, I'm glad to have you along this RU-vid journey and I'm glad that my videos are enjoyable for you. :) I feel like if anything, I should be thanking you! Don't forget to stay hydrated yourself too, take care.

@thecluckster3908 Год назад

I have never related to a video more in my life, this feels like a view into my future, exacts same feelings, thoughts, and fears. But seeing that your okay make me feel okay. This video made me less scared of the future so thank you for making this.

@DrPsychotic Год назад

this video was beautiful omg im crying 😭

@GoldKnugget Год назад

I haven't played the game since november when my first ever survival world got corrupted (it was the only world I've ever created). As you have mentioned, I feel like everything I've made doesn't matter. I am sacred of making a new world, full knowing that I might lose it again. I didn't knew how to backup a world. I am trying to encourage myself to start a new one after my final exams. Because this is the only game that sticks to you over years. Btw your video truly describes the feeling of insignificance. Great work :D

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad it did, I really wanted to bring the audience along with the story and make them understand why everything felt so insignificant, and how I found significance with a simple change of mindset. :D

@GoldKnugget Год назад

@@XayXayYT Wow, you actually read my whole essay. Well, hope you have a great day ^_^

@horizon2825 Год назад

Definitely go forward with starting a new one! The first world must have taught you so many things.. and there's still so much more to learn and build!

@GoldKnugget Год назад

@@horizon2825Thanks for your support :) well I have definitely learnt a lot of things. But there are still more to explore.

@allcapsoff Год назад

wow this reminds me of how people talk of losing a pet.

@sandy_nes31 Год назад

9:40 It really touched me, damn man, you made me feel so emotional, it's something I feel, in my country (Brazil) we use numbers to rank our grades in school, when I get less than 9.0 I feel let down and that I didn't do enough, even if I got a good grade Schools here are really something complicated, I hope I don't end up collapsing and madly wanting to end with myself in the future

@XayXayYT Год назад

Yeah, do try not to let your grades define who you are as a person. There's more to you than just that, and I think they aren't a perfect gauge as to how intelligent someone is

@chickennoodle320 9 месяцев назад

This is really good

@ynirox Год назад

Strangely enough these past couple days i've had this weird feeling of dread creeping over my shoulders, even while playing the game. When you talked about not knowing if you had left an impact, or something to remember you by, it summarized everything ive been thinking these past couple days. I never know what the future will hold, or what if im doing is worth it. All I am doing is just playing this strange block game and for me its peaceful, but as soon as I log off for the night i keep thinking: What if I never open the game again? So I keep playing more and more, and then I go to work, and I come back, I play the game again to think of something else, but everytime I log off I keep thinking of what I could have been doing instead, stuff I could do for others, whether or not I will die tomorrow. Currently I am 19, but the future has always been kind of scary, because I do not know what my future will hold for me, nor how I can change it, or if others expect me to do something amazing. I still have doubts about myself but funnily enough everytime i open Minecraft this feeling kind of disappears for some moments.

@Automobile7777 Год назад

Even though I am considerably younger than Xayllernste himself, for some weird reason I experience most of the feelings of existential dread he described in this video that he experienced while playing singleplayer. I've never realized it until now, but now that I think about it, the reason why I've always dreaded singleplayer survival is because of the feelings of loneliness it evokes for me.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I hope that speaking about my experiences helped you with your own fears though, honestly identifying these fears in an earlier age is both a blessing and a curse

@overtheatlas Год назад

That's wild cuz its the opposite for me, I despise multiplayer

@skull6096 Год назад

Great video! I personally used to be scared of the nether and dark caves. However, I found speedrunning to help me to overcome these fears. Additionally, I have recently been playing horror games and I've noticed that your imagination is what scares you the most, not the game itself. I think that is where the speedrunning aspect comes into play; ignoring your fears and just going for it. Life doesn't have to revolve around making an impact on Earth because all things will end eventually; that is what the heavenly place above us is for.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I think you're right about the horror game stuff, a lot of it is just overworrying about when the scare happens rather than the scare itself.

@thatboiandy Год назад

I turn them off

@HivelordTempura Год назад

i used to be scared of the ambience lol

@entertainmentanimations Год назад

Life isn't about making an impact on Earth...It's the red world that matters! Or the gray moon? Or the tan cloudy planet?

@-GeoR2- Год назад

Ok the cave and cliffs update I didn’t know new cave music ok? I made a new world then I went into a cave was about to mine some iron heard the scariest music I heard, I froze in the cave then ran out of the cave As fast as possible

@albingrahn5576 Год назад

Everyone has different goals when they play Minecraft but to me it has always been about automation. When I'm done with a world is when I can proudly look upon my farms and redstone creations to see the game basically playing itself, and this goal is usually enough for me to keep interest and have fun. But it's those quiet moments when I'm absent-mindedly gathering resources that I'm sometimes hit with the realization; "why am I doing this?", and my inner monologue usually answers "well, you need to mine iron for the hoppers to make..." and then I think "no. why? no one is here, you're only doing this for yourself so why does it matter?". And when this moment happens in more linear games like Mario I can always fall back to the rulebook and the goal already set out for me ("get to the end of the level, that's how you play the game"), but with Minecraft I can never hide behind that because I always know that at the end of the day it's just _me_ following the rules _I_ made for _myself_ and pretending it's progress. Then I begin drawing the parallels, "isn't that just what life is?", and a part of me begins wishing I was raised religious just so I could have that rulebook even though deep down I would know it would all be a lie.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I tend to tell myself that "it's part of life to figure it out". We usually ask why we do things and what's the point of what we do, as someone who was raised religious, I walked out of religion because I felt like spending life looking for that answer is much more meaningful than having it handed to you. It's okay to ask yourself these questions, but it's also important to know that "it is okay not to know". Why do this? I don't know, but maybe I'll know one day. Or maybe I can look for a reason why. That's just my two cents though :)

@slappbassnow Год назад

This video really made me think about Minecraft more deeply, and I always though that Minecraft is like real life, but not in the way you explained. I am amazed by your content!

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad you enjoy my content!

@foxtrot2284 Год назад

I think I like it so much because of its liminal feeling. I love the concept of liminal spaces in their purest form. No monsters, just a quiet in-between space. Like going through an empty church or school when no one is there. Also the pool rooms idea is super cool

@dream_walker9726 Год назад

I *live* for empty schools. I don’t know why, but they’re wonderful

@glassofwater281 Год назад

@@dream_walker9726 You're not having to constantly dodge out of the way of thousands of students not looking where they're going

@duckified. Год назад

@@dream_walker9726 going into empty schools with a group of 2 or 3 friends sounds awesome, but i would never do that shit alone. it hits different with all the lights off, completely silent. you're so used to crowded hallways with people yelling and talking, but with all that gone, it's very off-putting

@wildcard9671 Год назад

@@duckified.my school is dead quiet, and full of natural light, so it's not that much different when empty

@rhynderprod.7917 Год назад

Tysm for this video, you pointed out a feeling i had but couldnt describe!

@XayXayYT Год назад

Glad I could help!

@mathybt Год назад

Another great video! Sadly I can't find anymore the fun that I had playing Minecraft. The time changed and almost no one plays games anymore. But it doesn't matter, I still find happiness in what I do, and I am happy that people still find happiness in Minecraft. It still is one of the greatest games in my opinion, and I hope it will still stay like this for another decade. Thank you for this video!

@XayXayYT Год назад

Thanks my dude, glad you enjoyed the video and I'm happy that you're happy

@tomatoprincess2709 Год назад

No one needs to be special to give thier life meaning, everyone is special, because they were born into this world

@dgarcia3 Год назад

Erehn Jeagaahh!

@meemo9657 Год назад

i love this video :') i definitely relate as minecraft has also been a staple throughout my life since my elementary years. im going through a lot of existential dread atm as i make it through uni while juggling my passions, and this is a perspective i certainly needed to hear.

@Lewsyther Год назад

In my 19 years of life i've now passed the point where i've been playing Minecraft longer than i haven't, so i really connected with this video emotionally. It was really profound, Minecraft has been the one thing that has been there for me no matter how much i change as a person and i could never imagine leaving it behind, that's truly a scary thought. Thank you for making this video!

@XayXayYT Год назад

Glad that the video resonated with you, and I hope that the video's conclusion helps you with your fears as well :)

@PintoBeean Год назад

I have been playing Minecraft for well over the amount of time that I didn’t (7 years)

@slappbassnow Год назад

"I don't have to fear change, because change is good" - Xayllernste 2023

@Swarl281 Год назад

I've never just broke down in tears,but this one hit the spot man I've been playing since early 2010 and this video just hit a switch. The fact that most of the memories I have with friends and family have to do with this game just makes it even harder to accept the fact that one day you will place your last block and walk away. I think that maybe putting up worlds as world downloads might help with this share your creations that you've given up on or are bored of. Because someone like myself will take inspiration no matter how little and it will make an impact on other people and release some of that dread that you feel when you feel like it was for nothing.

@p0gamerhdgames6 Год назад

I can’t thank you enough. I really needed to hear this. Exactly how I’ve been feeling for a while. I’ve always had extremely good grades and now I can’t seem to even study. Thankfully, I have a good memory and have aced most of my test thanks to luck, but I feel this exact sensation. I feel it might someday end or that somehow I’m wasting time. Change is difficult. But as you said it’s necessary to evolve. So really I thank you.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad my video could be of some help my friend! Do take care of yourself alright? Don't let results define who you are as a person, you're more than that.

@rae5164 Год назад

To start, this comment has been difficult to write, I keep debating if I actually want to post it. However with the way this video reached me, I feel like a simple like could never suffice to say how real and accurate this video was. First video of yours I've seen. Got chills listening to this because of how real it all was. It's sometimes hard to accept that the things that have always brought you joy may one day not. It's hard to explain that feeling and you did it in a very elegant way so I applaud you. I'm about the same age as you and went through a lot of similar things. Minecraft is an amazing game but it is sometimes difficult emotionally just due to the fact that in some ways it's so similar to real life. Thank you for taking the time to make this video and articulate this feeling that I'm sure a lot of other players also have 💕

@XayXayYT Год назад

Glad to hear that the video resonated with you my friend, and I thank you for writing this comment :)

@lightningterry Год назад

For those who are having an existential crisis, at 5:32 please remember that everything that you do is important whether you mean to or not. Death can be scary yes, but it isn’t something you need to be afraid of. DEATH IS WHAT GIVES LIFE MEANING. The fact that we know our days are limited is what makes every moment that much more precious. Please don’t let the fear of not being able to accomplish what you want before you die stop you from trying. Your experience on Earth is an experience no one in the past or future will ever be able to experience exactly. It’s the way of the planet to change and sure they’re will be things that we won’t get to experience when we die but neither will those of the future or the past be able to experience what you get to experience now! You get to experience being whatever age you are in the time now, imagine telling your kids about all of the experiences you had growing up in the 2000s just as others have fond unique memories growing up in the 90s, 70s, 80s. Imagine telling your kids about what life was like when you played Minecraft as a kid and reintroducing that love to someone else. Yes we will drift away from our friends and we have and will experience heartbreak, but the love and the memories you shared with those people will ALWAYS remain even if you never see them again. You are not wasting time if you are enjoying it. Here in the US we have a mentally of living to work, rather when the whole point is to work to live. (Unless you enjoy that which is ok) You watching this video lounging on the couch is NOT wasting time nor meaningless in the grand scheme of things. Every pain, joy and excitement is a part of life and you get to be here for it. Yes losing people sucks but the fear of dying in mediocrity is IMPOSSIBLE, especially if you pass it on like that guy who finished Mozart requiem after he died. If I were to die tomorrow, it would be sad and I would not had not reached the potential that I wanted to reach, but I still got to live, to create memories to have a childhood. You change the world by being here regardless of what you do. You could be the defining thing that leads to a set of circumstances that cures cancer just cause you tripped and fell in front of a puddle and caused someone to miss the bus. People think that when they reach their dream that someone will change, but will be surprised that they feel no different than how they felt before. So push forward and don’t fear death. You are unreplaceable, you are blessed, you are important, and you DO matter in the grand scheme of things, whether you like it or not. Take care.

@arn3107 Год назад

thanks for writing this beautiful comment

@connorpfeifer9143 Год назад

On Valentine's day, I was sitting alone in my room playing Minecraft, and I beat Minecraft for the first time. Then the universe told me it loved me, and this comment is giving me a very similar feeling. Thank you.

@insertunoroginalnamehere6189 Год назад

ok but i would still prefer it if we didn't die

@arn3107 Год назад

@@insertunoroginalnamehere6189 me too though i wonder if people would get bored of life and wish for death but hey new things keep happening in life but at the same time the knowledge that our time is limited servers as a motivation for us to keep going i feel like life would be pretty dull without it but who knows there's no way to find out also overpopulation . . . yeah if we didn't die it would pretty much fundamentally change how we exist as living human beings

@pumeluh Год назад

i dont think “bored of life” is a big reason some people wish for death. for some of us, living is hard, especially if you hate yourself. it’s true a person assigns meaning to his existence, but not all of us can, or sees the point of it.

@G973_ Год назад

I was just having an existential crisis before i opened youtube. I wanna thank you for this video. That got me out of a rabbit hole that almost made me cry

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad I could help my friend, although you don't need to thank me for it because I personally think you got out of that rabbit hole yourself, I just spoke from my experiences :)

@yalkn2073 Год назад

What the hell man, I am 23 and literally have gone through the same shit. Playing Mc with friends, used to being a A grader, getting depressed from failure in college. AND the same fear of death and insignificance.

@Squib-kb2tn Год назад

This video was not what I was expecting at all, and I feel blessed in a way for clicking into it. In making this video and posting it on RU-vid, I can tell you that you have changed the lives of everyone who has watched it. Also, 12:37 Technoblade never dies. o7

@XayXayYT Год назад

@EnerJetix Год назад

This video is so terrifyingly relatable. Almost every thing it talks about, I can resonate with.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad it did, I hope speaking about my experiences helps you with yours :)

@xLylaha Год назад

The motivational words at the end really hit me lol, you earned a subscription

@jayc7559 Год назад

Nothing lasts forever, but that’s exactly what makes these moments so special when we look back on them

@FaidoPlays Год назад

Don’t be sad that it ended. Be happy that it happened.

@thattomatoguy6 10 месяцев назад

i dont think thats the right context for this comment

@davidarvingumazon5024 10 месяцев назад

Minecraft is about You are Herobrine.

@Zenyx64 10 месяцев назад

and then you die and even if you lived the best life possible, you won't be able to look back on it i swear to god existential dread has completely broken me inside. i'm too happy with my amazing life to be at all okay with it ending :(

@bread_enjoyer141 10 месяцев назад

Welcome to your life There's no turning back Even while we sleep We will find you Acting on your best behaviour Turn your back on Mother Nature Everybody wants to rule the world It's my own design It's my own remorse Help me to decide Help me make the Most of freedom and of pleasure Nothing ever lasts forever Everybody wants to rule the world There's a room where the light won't find you Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down When they do, I'll be right behind you You might also like TOPIA TWINS Travis Scott 8am in Charlotte Drake making the bed Olivia Rodrigo So glad we've almost made it So sad they had to fade it Everybody wants to rule the world I can't stand this indecision Married with a lack of vision Everybody wants to rule the- Say that you'll never, never, never, never need it One headline, why believe it? Everybody wants to rule the world All for freedom and for pleasure Nothing ever lasts forever Everybody wants to rule the world

@beetleinthebottle4073 Год назад

Holy crap. I remember watching one of your videos when I was a little kid now. You know, the cruddy mic quality and goofy stuff. I’m glad I found you again. I struggle with depression too and have been playing minecraft since the time you started. I’ve recovered as well. I know it’s tough. Keep on changing and creating man.

@XayXayYT Год назад

Oh god I was hoping noone remembered those videos lmao, glad to have you back my friend :)

@Wearebro.s Год назад

@@XayXayYT :-)

@tretuz69 Год назад

"Don't Cry Because It's Over; Smile Because It Happened"

@CraizyMotion Год назад

I didn’t think this would go from a silly Minecraft video to an existential crisis

@spicytacomc1647 Год назад

It's mainly paranoia that you can lose everything by dying (especially in hardcore) that sells it for me. But the VOID is the most terrifying thing.

@JoBot__ Год назад

That damn void is the embodiment of existential crisis.

@lapiskingz 9 месяцев назад

Minecraft had a special place in my heart, bad times and good times, ive been through it all without deleting my minecraft world or even the game, even at somepoint i think like minecraft are the one reason i been able to live until today, the feelings of creating something, building something, playing with random people on server its just amazing, I can quit any game but not minecraft, its just...special.

@crockdog9838 Год назад

0:33 idk how but that actually scared me lmao

@XayXayYT Год назад

Damn, the Dream face worked lmao

@ysfteamsky6040 10 месяцев назад

Same dude

@BlueBanana. 10 месяцев назад

D r e a m

@A_Surpluss_of_Stupidity Год назад

Interesting I never had this feeling i already stopped playing minecraft I rarely go back to it but watching this makes me regret it and I think I might just go make a new world after all these years

@XayXayYT Год назад

It's certainly something that could be done as a trip down memory lane

@alextaylor5865 Год назад

This is a great video - it made me cry a little. Keep making videos!

@XayXayYT Год назад

Thank you, I will!

@jdmpanda5442 Год назад

I had a somewhat a similar experience with Minecraft because as a 20 year old I realized that there really is no point in doing all these amazing things in Minecraft and it was all a waste of time and I would be upset at how I couldn’t put the same amount of work that I put into this game into real life

@FairwellNoob Год назад

1:49 That really sounded like meth.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I really tried to emphasise the A in math but eh

@HexOverride 10 месяцев назад

I FUCKING LOVE METH

@culan_SCP 9 месяцев назад

@@HexOverride AYO PAUSE 🤨

@HexOverride 9 месяцев назад

@@culan_SCP i love you too

@ashdroidgamer3878 8 месяцев назад

Yea-

@yorgolawandos931 Год назад

Mojang just trying to make an innocent kid’s game : O-O

@cadmus2573 Год назад

Amazing video! A tip that might help some people as well is to try to tie what you do in Minecraft into what you do in the rest of your life. Suppose you're interested in history and you research some time period a lot, you could make your world have that theme. It feels less like an investment into Minecraft alone, and more like an investment into your interest, which will still form memories and let you have fun, but also let you do some extra research for a build, say, and feed into your hobby.

@helio3928 Год назад

i feel so proud of myself that i have gotten through all these fears without embracing ideas like nihilism ("nothing matters") or pessimistic hedonism ("what matters is avoiding pain, therefore we shouldn't exist"). if you think about it, it's pretty obvious that there is a hard problem of consciousness.

@henrytighe2375 Год назад

It is because you exist in this world of life that means you are important. No matter how small you think your impact is from the energy you put out, nothing is meaningless. Everything has a purpose. You have a purpose. Thank you for this video 👍🏻

@XayXayYT Год назад

Great words, I'm glad you enjoyed the video!

@tofferooni4972 Год назад

Everyone is special because they are born in this world

@KDRuetas Год назад

I was contemplating about this when I was playing on the server my friends have joined me in exploring and building, and suffice to say, I still am scared of leaving it all behind. But it is a great point that you said. Playing Minecraft (or any game for that matter) is not a waste of time, especially if you enjoy it. This video of yours has earned my respect, and my subscription.

@XayXayYT Год назад

Welcome to the community my dude! I'm glad the video resonated with you.

@ivanbadaev6621 Год назад

A delightful insight into teenage growing-up crisis through the prysm of the game we all love. Thank you 😁

@Nikk-ou3tg Год назад

I'm so glad I came across this video. I'm so glad I don't have to figure out this fear on my own. I've been forcing myself to play minecraft for so long, feeling like I had to. So much so that I lost all my creativity with it. I'm happy you shared this and saved me from continuing to have this fear. I now can't wait to NOT play minecraft and find what I really enjoy again. Of course I know I'll come back again, but now hopefully I won't be afraid if it takes a few years.

@SynnekoNya Год назад

This is too friggin relatable... I know the exact feeling, given the horror aspects that can happen, the fear that gets instilled by the silence and calm of the game... is to make you realize how much time has passed... how much time is passing... how much we're losing. The real thing about this game is the "nostalgia" it hits everyone, I remember doing my damnest to not play minecraft in the beginning... I gave in, I was playing on my phone by myself for the longest since it first released as PE, even sometimes in consoles, never wanted to touch servers, then I got on PC and got the taste of being with real friends and making those memories and wild ideas reality... Minecraft is a game... a game that becomes attached to part of our lives... a game that... becomes an overview of our lives, it really seems almost impossible sometimes, but that feeling is to real... it is what makes us who we are, and what can be defined as the Yin and Yang, Good and Bad, Light and Dark, its that path that defines people and what makes us tell who is a good and real friend, versus someone who's lying and trying to manipulate you, its just unbelievable how our generation is and the goods and bads that have come from it. We live in dark times honestly, and we need more good people to brighten up that dark path into a better future, its what us as humans have always been fighting for, but it will NEVER be easy.

@x10creeper52 Год назад

damn minecraft really is about giving the chills through existential crysis it's the first sandbox in history which enabled people to make memories outside of real life as well minecraft is as deep as the player wants it to be, it may be just the mirror to lay and reflect one's heart bare

@Jess-dm8hl Год назад

What a refreshing and unique take on this game haha! I’m also turning 22 this year (and graduating college ahhh) and I’ve had a few of these existential moments too. I started playing Minecraft near the end of 5th grade when it came out on Xbox 360. My dad worked for Microsoft so he got games for free here and there (Minecraft being one of them). I have no way of knowing exactly how many hours I’ve spent on Minecraft but it has to be in the thousands. The game was a huge source of entertainment for me in middle school and getting into Minecraft let’s play series threw me down the RU-vid rabbit hole overall. I don’t think I would be anything like the person I am today if Minecraft didn’t exist and that both scares and fascinates me. While I definitely don’t play the game nearly as much as my 12-14 year old self, it’s still always present in my head. Whenever I’m feeling stuck or sad it’s back to Minecraft. Perhaps it’s that feeling of nostalgia that provides a comfort that nothing else can. While the game makes me nostalgic and long for my carefree childhood, it also makes me reflect. “Look at how far I’ve come” I tell myself. “Think about how proud my younger self would be of me now”. It’s so strange how I still feel the same as that Minecraft addicted 12 year old I once was, yet I’ve also changed/improved so much. It gives me so much to look forward to in the future. So cheers to Minecraft. A game that has not only provided me with so much entertainment and creative outlook, but also a game that helped me overcome bullying, pursue gaming further as a hobby, helped with my mental health, inspiring me, comforting me in some of my darkest moments, and giving me these oh so loving existential crises.

@Poetthegoat Год назад

I used to rush home from school to play for hours with my cousin, back when life was just a game. Now I rely on games to escape life. Even hearing Minecraft music takes my brain back to 2012. I stopped playing Minecraft couple years ago, I think it was easy for me because like you said, the games changed a lot to the point where it feels different. thanks for making this video, congrats on following your dreams as well g.

@mylo445 11 месяцев назад

First video I’ve seen but I love the style and the narration was top-notch. Sending ❤️ love.

@kneenutnutter4943 Год назад

This resonated with me way more than I expected it to and now I'm crying like a bitch, thank you.

@XayXayYT Год назад

I'm glad that it did and I'm sorry I made you cry :)

@kneenutnutter4943 Год назад

@@XayXayYT Oh, don't be, it was the good kind of crying. I wasn't sad, just emotional. :)

@EZRAlaHARRIS Год назад

bro your videos are so well made the last 3 have been great and this will probally be another banger edit: 9:30 to 10:00 gave me chills we are all here with you man

@XayXayYT Год назад

I hope it doesn't disappoint my dude!

@silaspq Год назад

congrats, you just made one of my favorite videos ive ever watched on the 12 or so years ive been watching youtube.

@XayXayYT Год назад

Thank you, and I'm glad to have one of my videos earn that title :)

@Udo-sr Год назад

I feel so! Im playing minecraft since 2014 and i can a feel an unanswerable fear of the game. It fears me deep, and i dont know why... Its scray, and even as a veteran, i cant answer this fear.

@JustAnotherPerc Год назад

I hate playing Minecraft alone. Whenever I do, I stream because at least there is someone there watching me and I feel like that world has value then.

@jovifidelis Год назад

The line from story mode: "NOTHING BUILT LASTS FOREVER" fits perfectly this video

@shopnil4 Год назад

I remember feeling this a lot when I was a kid playing Pocket Edition. I had a survival world that I played in, then one day, I closed off the mines and barricaded my house. Took all my animals inside and just stayed like that. I'm still not sure why, to this day, I did that, other than some inate fear. It's still here with me, but a bit on and off. Like, if I'm focused on a goal, chilling in a village, or making some contraption in a modpack, I'm good, but it always slips in randomly.

@resentfuldragon Год назад

It might be the fact that either: A) you are the last one there and you are always alone, that liminal feeling is creepy B) you might not be alone and that scares you Those two facts always make me uncomfortable in sandbox games like gmod and minecraft. In gmod especially you can hear the ambience of civilization occasionally but no one is ever there in singleplayer.

@GlitchRez Год назад

7:42 Like this one :3

@XayXayYT Год назад

exactly the one I'm hoping for :3

@alidaaaaa7160 10 месяцев назад

For me I had the opposite experience. I remember finding minecraft really scary as a kid, between the cave noises, the strange isolation, and the zombies that would knock on doors. I didn't even look into herobrine and stuff, I just found the game strangely unnerving. Now as an adult I find it chill (though I play mainly modded because vanilla is boooring) But yeah minecraft is a very existential game, you spend so much time alone with your thoughts and you put so much work into it. Thank you for this video, it's quite sweet!

@TheImperatorKnight Год назад

Good video! I think the infinite world, coupled with the fact that your actions are ultimately pointless, and that the world will continue on with or without you, and that everything you're doing has no real meaning or impact, and that you will ultimately be forgotten by everyone and everything, lost in a sea of time, is what makes it scary. Every moment brings you closer to this final conclusion. And this applies to both Minecraft and real life.

@XayXayYT Год назад

Glad that you enjoyed the video my friend! In a weird kind of way, knowing that everything is pointless kind of makes it meaningful for me if that makes sense? Like now you want to find how it to make meaning out of it.

@TheImperatorKnight Год назад

@@XayXayYT True, there is that aspect to it. But what I discovered wasn't the idea of finding an overarching 'meaning' as such, but being lost in the flow of the moment as a meaning in itself. When I play Minecraft (which is rare these days, I'm usually too busy for games) I find that the infinite possibilities are too much. That's where the existential dread or nihilism comes out. However, when I begin carving a little cave hide-out, or a tunnel system, I forget about the big picture and focus on the small - digging the next block, or crafting the next item. I get into the flow of things, and find meaning in just doing what needs to be done to make a dent in the Minecraft universe. Well, the same thing applies in real life. I get lost in the moment when working on the next project, or reading the next book, and flow with whatever is required next to make a dent in this universe. I find that work itself sets me free from existential nihilism. And I've no idea if any of that made sense, but it was this video (not mine) that brought me to this realization. It might be worth taking a look ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-bsT8kHXJikk.html

@XayXayYT Год назад

@@TheImperatorKnight Will do, it is interesting to hear other people's point of views, thanks my man!

@simspawn Год назад

Wow man. That was an incredibly deep and meaningful story. I am moved by your experience. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

@crusade6918 10 месяцев назад

This video brought to light something I have felt for years because of minecraft. However, instead of my lowest times being me with poor grades or feeling like I will eventually leave minecraft behind, it's because Like many others in the comments the thing that gets to me the most is the loneliness you feel when you're in your world, the world you created by hand alone and no one will ever see any of it or ever give any response to how you feel about it. For me this is compounded by me never really making any friends so whenever I got these feelings I usually brushed under the rug but years later I would play minecraft and get hit by existential dread, loneliness, and nostalgia all at the same time making for a feeling so guttural it was on par with being publicly humiliated. I still get this feeling but now mainly from finishing movies/shows I loved and never being able to share how I feel with anyone.