Why I Quit YouTube 

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Food for thought: You look back now at when you were 20 and started your channel and find it laughable how little awareness you had back then. Maybe in a few years time, you will look back at this video with the same mindset. This kind of thing happens over and over again. Somebody gains a little more awareness, realizes how limited their perspective was before and how "wrong" and misguided their worldview was. They then preach to everybody their new and better way, which is obviously the right way of looking at things from their current perspective. All the while, they are not realizing that, while their perspective is wider than before, it is still limited. If you continue on your path, your worldview is going to keep changing. Just because you had a revelation, does not make it the ultimate wisdom in the universe.

Why I quit youtube... Subscribe for more videos like this. I might have missed the joke somewhere.

I was thinking about that yesterday. I deleted all my watch later playlist after realising how pointless 99.9% of the content is, even apparently good videos doesn't make sense to me anymore. All this personal development is endless and I got myself in a self-help loop that leads only to more and more consuming. If you're try to be complete, you're not complete. If your trying to be confident, you're not confident. We don't "need" to do anything of that. Just reflect and listen to your inner self (beyond ego) and you will realise the illusion you're living. I hope people understand what do you mean with this video. I've seen many people knowing things like living in the moment and stoicism but cannot handle their own toxic emotions (theory vs practice)

"The journey will start robbing you of your delusions, and without delusions, it is very hard to convincingly lie, bullshit, and fake everything. And without that, you'll have a very hard time integrating into society." This is a powerful quote. Great video and great way of explaining it.

This was very honest :)

You are back🙂👍 This is the kind of videos we want to see👍

Yeah. I myself am working hard at helping people. So I can make lots of money. So I can use that money to help other people. So I can feel good about myself. Helping others helps ourselves. The ego of wanting to help ourselves does not invalidate the fact that we are helping others. It's a biological/social contract that allows society to exists. It's good.

I totally feel you... So now what?

A lot of truthful insights. I can relate. During my break from college, I had the privilege of day after day of free time to research whatever I wanted on the internet and spend all day thinking. I went "down the rabbit hole" on many topics. Long story short I know what you mean with regards to not being able to lie or self delude and having difficulty integrating into society. Ignorance is bliss.

By that same token the RU-vid and content revolution is transforming education and entertainment in unprecedented ways. Quitting RU-vid isn't the solution. It's making better content. Which seems to be your goal - so there's nothing wrong with that as long as you genuinely avoid the trapping of overnight RU-vid success and you play the long game.

Exactly!!! I am a nurse for my W2 and a year ago I started my journey of starting a business online, and that is what I have discovered that MOST people are not real, or tell people the truth with what they really are doing or know, but yet they say they know and do whatever they are saying on RU-vid/online. I appreciate this video and at least for you trying to keep it 💯

Thank you for this truthful video! It feels good not to be the only one with those thoughts. I liked your other videos, but I guess that was because I believed that this is what other people think and this way the only way, but I found myself distancing with your point of view more and more, while watching them less and less. I feel this new video is finally the one that reflects what all of us actually know deep down to be true. I enjoyed that "awakening"! Good job!

THANKS 4 DEPRESSING ME

I don't know you and never will. This video has so many problems with it, but I don't want to explain those as they distract from the source. You are struggling right now and have been for several years, its the reason you left youtube and also the reason you came back. So stop focusing on other people, stop trying to force yourself to live according to some naive 8 year olds unattainable expectations. Do not believe the fables you tell yourself. I hope one day you look back at this video and are embarrassed and can laugh about it, because that means you have grown as a person and are in a better place. Motivation is useless, be the person who does not need it because you have purpose. Purpose comes from meaningful responsibilities. There is no secret to life, honestly no one understands it. So stop listening to other people preach their motivational buillshit and start doing and self teaching yourself based off of your experiences. If you do not know your purpose then help someone who is important to you accomplish theirs until you find your own. If there is no one important in your life, then get a pet and do what is best for it. This will not always be what it wants. Now you have a reason to go to work to wake up, something depends on you. Learn from this experience and you can start doing what is best for you (this will definitely not be what you want but you have something that depends on you and a reason to make your life better because it will make the pets life better.) I used to think the WHY was the most important thing in life and the WHAT and the HOW did not matter until you had a WHY. So I became paralyzed and did nothing hoping the WHY would magically manifest itself. It never did and never will. The most important thing is DOING. The WHY does not exist until you create it. You create it by doing. WHAT you do every day becomes you. The HOW is the measuring the result of WHAT you do. It is normally terrible at first but will improve itself through experience and skill you learn from doing. I wrote this in the same style as a book I read. It overvalued the importance of WHY and the author made a lot of money selling the idea of it. But other people's ideas will not help you in life. Its like copying someone else's test, they might be right and you get a good grade but you did not learn anything. The score becomes meaningless and isn't that the whole reason we are here? Learn by analyzing yourself not by mimicking others. If you want to be good at a game you should watch your own replays not the experts, if you want to be rich you should look at your own financial decisions and not others. Some videos that really helped me start doing over talking, complaining, and dreaming. ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-NI_tyAduoJo.html&list=PLhSGPESbRzexf7AcX9pNRtp2SIWqvfAp8&index=5 ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-PE0u7-SX2hs.html&list=PLhSGPESbRzexf7AcX9pNRtp2SIWqvfAp8&index=3 Another good one that I believe FightMediocrity would take alot from is Terry Crews speech on becoming your wins/losses. I couldn't find the exact part and have already spent too much time on this. I want to say I hope you get better and things work out, but the truth is I don't care. So start caring about yourself, you are the only one responsible for your own happiness. I am never anxious about speaking and the only reason you are is because you overvalue others opinions (granted this is probably easy to develop when you made a lot of money from public opinion aka youtube videos). I took the time to type this because your old videos helped me to start doing, aka reading which helped me start taking responsibility and improving my life.

Exactly what I've been thinking and you put them into words for me. I feel like if I were 100% honest, I literally don't really want any of my "dreams". I don't need them, they are just there because of this society. I've always known that deep down I seriously don't want 99% of my "desires", I just want to feel happy and follow whatever happiness looks like for me in the present moment.

This is one of your best videos. Thank you for making it! I know exactly where you are coming from. All of my goals used to be materialistic BUT if you asked me what was important in life, I'd give the standard token response "my family, health, and helping others". Yet all my goals were "I want a black BMW", "I want to make 6 figures a year" "I want to be a "C level executive" etc. I spent 3 years and thousands of hours studying to get and MBA and an accounting designations (CPA) so I could make a lot of money and achieve these goals. I was well on my way to having all those these things then just like you, I realized that I was full of shit. I wasn't living to my values. I was really just chasing ego and status. I wanted others to think I was successful. After this realization, I did the old man test which is...if I was an old man looking back on my life on my last day, what would I be proud of? how would I spend my time? what would I do? I quit my high income corporate job and now work at a not for profit. I love the work that I do now (everyone around me thought I was nuts for quitting my corporate job btw). Now I volunteer more, I donate more. I eat better, sleep better, and feel better than I ever have in my life. I no longer buy stupid shit that I don't need. I no longer compare myself to others. ALL of my relationships are all better especially the one I have with myself. There is a great moment of clarity when you realize that you no longer give a fuck about what anyone else thinks of you and you are REALLY living on your own terms.

This is the best stuff I have heard anywhere. Please don't stop. It's helping me be more aware, most of all understanding I am learning. We all are

If you take this journey long enough you either become a Monk or stay in society and be a living contradiction. Beware.

I kinda quit too as I hit 100k subs, that was during my 7 month long existential angst when I had similar thoughts. 100k meant nothing to me, as did any other activity I did in life like watering the plants or reading a book. Out of that phase now though. I create stuff, have fun with it, all while impacting others.

Ironically I found this to be pathetic. It's hard to describe, but I get a nihilistic vibe from this video. "Ambition is ultimately bound to ego, ego is pathetic, hence ambition is undesirable/wrong/bad" is what I understand, and I might be wrong in my interpretation. Why is ego such a bad thing to you? I'd argue that everything we have today, has been built from a source of ego. If ego motivates innovation, shouldn't we all strive to be at least a little bit egoistical? Even laws of physics and math theorems have been discovered by people who were driven by ego. For instance Robert Hooke and Isaac Newton disliked each other and were pretty much competing for the privilege of discovering new physics laws and math theorems and getting credit for it. Math theorems are often called after their discoverer, and not something that describes it. Why? Ego. No monk has ever come up with a math theorem or built a space ship. If you think your old videos were pathetic and specifically that the review of "How to Win Friends and Influence People" was cringy - just know that it influenced both me and my brother in a way that lead to good jobs.

Damn. This is the most honest thing I have ever seen on youtube and I feel like this is true in everyone's life in general. Thank you for this man.

Very interesting video. You definitely come from a perspective that I haven't thought as much before. Thanks for that!

Nice and sincere content! Appreciate you for this one and I can really see the progress in your mindset and awareness since the first videos on this channel! We really need more people to think like this.

I honestly thought that something bad happened to you. Good to see you're back!

I stopped caring what people think long ago. I wear walmart, clothes, drive a beat up van, and live in.a small house... BUT I still work hard to make money, and I invest every extra dime in stocks. But I do it because I love it. People that know me think I'm broke, but I make more than all of them combined. When I die they will be shocked, that I was rich AF and left all my money to helpless disabled animals :)

It is such a great video, I will have to watch a couple of times again to truly understand it. It is so great that you're back. How can learn more on this topic?

I missed you :( It is good to see you back!! really there are tons of other similar kinds of channels on youtube now, but something isn't there on those channels which are in this channel. Hope you will put at least 1 video per month.

You were the one that Inspired me to start my channel. Thank you my man!

It's ridiculous indeed. Appreciate your decision to quit RU-vid for the sake of not being delusional ✨👍

This reminds me of Alan watts and he describes it as the game or play of life and that everyone plays it because if you dont play it you dont have a sense for living

Great to see you back! Always loved your stuff.

Sounds like too much focussing on yourself, and hanging around with the wrong people to me?

11-minutes later I still don't understand why you left YT.

Its so crazy man. I've had these thoughts myself. This internal drive to be "successful" and make money and how I tie my worth into it? I start to see some of the people that "have the answers" like Dan Lok, Grant Cardone, and Tai Lopez and they are all so victim based in their thinking. Is that what I really want? What is success to me? What do you want? Truly think about it before committing your invaluable time to something.

It is the journey from sleep mode, following the sheeple, to awakening, enlightenment. I have also “let go” of chasing people and things, simple is best for me. Clear mind and motives. Thank you 🧘‍♂️🦋🧚🏻‍♀️

But now what is your motivation behind making this video?

Yeah, I am really torn when it comes to that question too. On the one hand I love making videos and spreading some positive ideas through RU-vid. On the other hand you kinda become part of the problem. I will keep making videos for now, but really focus on providing the highest possible value to my audience and not just mind-numbing stimulation.

Great video. Thanks for making this kind of video, we're really excited to see.

Nice insights by the way. I just want to know HOW did you quit RU-vid? Thanks.

Welcome back... Value is generally defined by the recipient and not the person doing the giving. When people responded with likes and comments, it's because what ever you uploaded to RU-vid was deemed valuable by them. Otherwise, they would have gone elsewhere. You amassed almost 1 million subscribers because that many people and more valued what toy produced and helped. Everyone has semblance of delusion but what is the difference between delusion and hope? You can see those who are primarily delusional versus those who are hopeful. In many cases, the environment, people etc can help calibrate a person's perception of that.

"Why I quit youtube" with message in the end "Subscribe for more videos like this" hmm

Wow, what a come back, you are inspiration for just not me but for many.. and thanks for coming back.

Hi there, I'm glad you're back. I enjoyed your previous videos because you summarized books succinctly and you shared your own experiences and perspective which was interesting. There were also a few that were just really funny. And I thought you had a good voice that was easy to listen to. It was good during my commute and when I didn't have time to read those books but wanted to get a quick version and then decide to invest more time into reading them. I got value out of them if that means anything to you. Thanks.

These are the kind of thoughts I've been having recently, and it's giving me depression of sorts.

this is the kind of stuff I want to see on my recommandation feed

I love your stuff please make more ha. I even let adds play through to help support.

Ive appreciated your channel for a long time already. I hope you find the next part of your journey and continue learn and help others as much as possible.

We often think that ego is something "bad" or has to be controlled.. But if it is there in all of us, there has to be a reason. What if it is necessary for survival? Maybe it is!

Your most thought-provoking video imho, I resonate with this through and through. Just be careful not to descend into nihilism.

I missed you man! I want you to know that you are one of the few who saved me when I was so depressed and don't know what to do in life. I am 24 years old from Philippines working overseas. Your videos inspired me a lot to do better. Thank you from the bottom of my heart

Well done! This is quite thought provoking

What program do you use for creating this kind of animation? Thanks in forward

Nice to hear from you... 1. I think you should focus more on your audience the people you motivatie to improve and less on your feelings / thoughts. Your videos helped me in complicated time I had few years ago. And yes I do appreciate you worked hard and upload them for free regardless if you made some $ on the way from youtube. 2. If some one main focus is to get rich to buy fancy car so he is a child playing with toys. There are many goods things to do with money like open good organizations to make impact and make a change in OTHER PEOPLE'S life... Again you are not the main focus here, you can become a flow of good deeds. If it's happen that on the way you also enjoy life and drive nice car, living in a nice house, and having nice family, social life it's just the bonus of the good work you have to bring light to this world. Balance is the key here. Not been like a monk in the mountains that have nothing and possibly affect no one and also not like these materials greedy ppl who worship money and pleasure. Bill gates can be a good model

So good video ! Thanj you so much are usual ! Thanks to you I created one of the first channel like this on RU-vid in France back in 2015 and I think I ran out exactly to the same problem :) Totally recognize myself into this video !

Dude, I love you, I'm glad you're back !! 1 thing though - I'd love a simple summary or your thoughts in the comments in a sort of provide-value-first before you immediately go into audiobooks recommendations and selling ;) Again - so glad to see you're back, I was very sad to see that the channel subsided and was wondering what happened to you... So.. Welcome back Malkhaz 😘

decides to quit youtube...makes youtube video about it.

"The absence of challenge"- country life. Oh my dear beautiful soul...when you live in nature challenges abound. Direct cause and effect, no more removal from "reality".

Been long time looking this channel and didn’t find new video of... kindda miss you - Glad to see you back 😇

So insightful! Gosh! I can’t relate to most content I see lately, but this... relate.

I rarely comment on these types of videos and when i do its short and to the point. I find people get the most value from me this way.

Видео откровенное и самоосознанное. Рад, что ты снова в игре.)

Dude, you are the most original person I've ever known. Your channel and content are awesome. Your ideas and videos are captivating. Thanks for creating such videos.

I learned a lot from your videos and I started listening to audio books as a direct result. I remember your tip of reading along with the real book and audio at twice the speed. This has been a great benefit to me; I've read more books in the past three years than probably my whole life combined. So, while you seem to be negative now about the motivation behind why you published content, let me say that I'm still sure glad you did! Having read so much has changed my life and I have you to thank for being the seed that started it.

Miss you man!

Good old-fashioned FightMediocrity. Very nice content. (-:

I'm so glad you are back! your videos were tge start of my self improvement 😊

Happy you’re back. I like the motivation of this channel. I try to fight mediocrity within myself. Your perspective is definitely helpful.

This is too DEEP , take it off RU-vid This kind of Content is why I RESPECT this dude so much . I too had a existential crisis last year , before that I had so much delusions , and a fire in me to achieve those goals , make new friends ,( I'm in high school BTW), read new stuff. But after gaining awareness and even attending a 10 Day Meditation course . BOOM!!!! it all fell apart , I dont see any point in the meaning less chatter of my peers, lost that fire that pushed me to succeed . Later I met with a motorbiking accident , after which I got addicted to internet . And now here I am , with my final exams in 4 weeks , highly unlikely to get into a good college . Complete downward spiral of life materially happened , Now I'm trying to reclaim my narcissism. ( in a healthy manner) . Trying to be more delusional . The Writings of "Illimitable Man" greatly helped me to discern between with spiritual pursuits and material necessities. random thoughts but hope malkhaz(fight mediocrity guy) reads them.

Maybe so, maybe not. We'll see. :) Отличное видео, спасибо!

I'll miss your videos , you had some great advice.. good luck on your journey..

Being a kid who grew up watching all your content, you made me cry. Lots of love to you.

So basically, self-awareness is not recommended.

TRUTH IN YOUR FACE!!! And then I see the ads in between the video about people he is talking about hahah :D

Your videos inspire me. It's been years man! Welcome back!

Well I have always enjoyed thy content that you have uploaded. All the best in the future.

I don't get it. If you do what you do for money, power, fame, social status, then you do it for the wrong reasons. You should do what you do, for others... For society, for mankind, for tomorrow, to leave a legacy, to make the world a better place, to transform something that sucks. Look for example Elon Musk. Does he do what he does for money? He's already billionaire. For fame? He's already famous. Why then? He does Tesla to solve global warming. He does SpaceX to make manking a multi-planetary specy. So find your "why" first and everything will follow.

Nihilism isn’t the answer. Ego is essential to achievement in life, yet exploiting ego with the intent to harm others is wrong. I’m with you in ego and narcissism being disguised as humility for social reasons, and it is annoying, but it doesn’t mean that sitting on the ground and meditating for your entire life contemplating your own existence will bring you any closer to fulfillment.

Perfect! Thankyou for this,you seemed to articulate what im thinking 😄

I cant believe you are back. Now i realize why you was so succesful on RU-vid. There are true emotions in your voice. If what you say is not the ultimate true at least you believe it is. And thats valuable and relatable. WELCOME BACK!

Hey bro ! You INSPIRED people like me to start my own RU-vid channel. Hope to see more of you. BEST WISHES ! ! =) #FightMediocrity

I think you're projecting a great deal. As you say, life is more subtle and complicated than it seems. And there sure is a lot of BS and self deception going on. But you admit in the video that you are inexperienced. You still are. There are many motivations and frameworks for life between avaricious consumerism and a life of mendicant meditation. And other factors that you overlook influencing the behavior of each of those and everything in between. You cannot say "It's all BS" until you've seen some significant sample of "all" to evaluate. And you really haven't. I look forward to your thoughts in five or ten years. I almost guarantee they will change.

Glad to see you back, I was one of many, wondering where you went. Keep posting content that people need to see and can benefit from.

It's very nice to hear you again... I'm sure will start watching ur videos again

First. Was wondering where you went

[Note: I couldn't stomach watching this mess to the end. If their was a big ironic twist at the end, I apologize. Otherwise:] Dude, this was one of the most cynical and ego-based accounts I have ever heard. If you want to talk about overcoming ego, you should maybe look in the mirror, as you have some work to do. Where to start? Instead of specifying at the beginning, you lauch on this general rant on RU-vid in general. I watch many things on RU-vid - cooking shows, videos on movies, videos on learning languages, thinks on philosophy, history etc. Your rant obviously doesn't cover all of these. I am getting a recipe I might want to make for dinner. I understand how RU-vid works and understand that another model works to generate revenue - in this simple example, they are all the same. So there are many RU-vidrs who don't push self-help books but may be selling their own content which you are free to buy or not. Then you launch into ths attack, apparently on being too PC. Bottom line: 1) If you say something homophobic, racist misogynistic etc., you are likely to be called out on it 2) You're going to be getting harsh criticism all of the time, justified or not, on social media. If you were too delicate to endure criticism constantly, you are probably not meant for RU-vid. 3) Most people do not have their lives "destroyed" - Yes, if some people say some really bad stuff online, they can be fired. Celebrities who say really agregious things can lose everything, but the equivalent was having an affair 2 generations ago. But most just have their bad 15 minutes of fame and the incident is forgotten. Again, part of the territory for RU-vidrs. Then there was the part where you railed about people not knowing anything around them - dude, that's always been the case in the world. If I take a hike to enjoy a park, do I have to be a specialist in botany, zoology, etymology, astronomy etc. to understand everything around me? It's kind of common knowledge that what we know is dwarfed by what we don't. It's always been that way and people always have said ludicrous shit, it's just that some people have a much bigger reach now. And then, to greatly summarize, you completely mischaracterize what mindfulness is and limit it to what you do. I used mindfulness techniques, from many sources, some from RU-vid, to deal with the devastating stress of caring for a parent with alzheimers for over a dedade. Mindfulness can be so many things to so many people, starting with even meditation and self-care, not only what you prescribe or defined mindfulness as. And lastly, you talk of the evils of the RU-vid model and how people can push their shit for profit, yet still have your own link to your book here for purchase. Was this whole video for ironic effect?

Great video! Thanks for your honesty. I feel the same

Powerful. I saw a good number of my RU-vid favs quit for similar reasons. It also happened to me, more so on Facebook. Are we really doing it for the reasons we believe? It takes a while to see that the thumbs up don't always mean that the people we try to reach, being as genuine as possible, agrees, support or will take action in their lives. Depression soon comes into play in one form or another if there are no likes, comments or shares. If not careful, we can become so consumed by others expectations of us, we no longer recognize ourselves. Your content is really good. But take all the time you need to find you again. Work and enjoy life. Do videos whenever you feel but not out of compulsion.

I think you are depressed. And I think you are depressed because of taking everything too important, you take yourself too important. Life goes easy, if you real understood, that you and all you are do is not importend. And thats makes you free, free your mind, you are not importend -> you are free.

He’s lost the plot. Spiritually and being an entrepreneur are different things. You can have ethics and both, but generally making money requires massive ego and confidence. Unless you are running a charity or social enterprise.

So why did you go back? How will you deal with this problem from now on? We want to know.

I’m glad you are back making videos for however long it lasts. I really enjoy the content and I’ve gotten so much out of them I can’t even tell you. The channel serves as a great starting point for anyone who wants to improve themselves. Frankly I don’t care if your motivation was 100% ego. Who can separate themselves from that primal stuff in this age and society anyway especially as a young enthusiastic person. It’s actually a big part of the charm that you were so into it. Anyhow all I know is that it really made a difference to my life and for this I’m really grateful.

Nothing a wrong with a Rolls Royce. If you are unable to believe that people are good, can be mindful, yet have stuff you are very naive.

Click bait

I have been following you from the inception of fightemediocrity and then suddenly you disappeared but I am still so much able to connect with you. Keep sharing your thoughts

Thank you for this. Much respect for sharing your journey

Seek some therapy. You are a very confused young man.

You are too woke, go back to sleep you will be happier.

I like your take on why we go to the gym, so true.

So much has changed for me, and am sure for everyone who watched your videos since you left, thanks man, and this video was a new perspective