Why we won't be trying to get pregnant… 

This is a beautiful testimony of surrender and God's timing. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 7 years. We have never been able to get pregnant and there is no answer as to why. But 5 years ago, God called me into a season of waiting and surrender. We felt called to foster care and we are now adopting our son (whom we got as a newborn). He was born drug addicted and he is a miracle. We surrendered our family to the Lord's will and He has written our story so much more beautifully than I ever could have. Thank you so much for sharing your story- it encouraged me today! I am praying for you.

I remembered a cool passage. Isaiah 56:3-6 Neither let the eunuch say I'm a dry tree.. for to them I will give within my walls a place and a name better then sons or daughters I I will give them a everlasting name that won't be cut off...thanks for sharing God bless u

Wow, for me it’s the complete opposite but the same root. My biggest dream has always to be a mommy, and my biggest fear was infertility, so I saw that I was letting my fears try to control everything. I am in the process of letting go and trusting.

I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels this way. I'm only 17, but ever since a painful experience a few years ago I have told myself that I'll just adopt, to protect me from pain and the heartbreak of losing a baby. This past year God has been slowly teaching me that I can't control my life, because it isn't mine! If he wants me to be pregnant eventually, he will give me the grace and strength to make it through.

This is amazing… and convicting for me/ but the opposite. We have two babies and it’s been so hard and we’ve said nope we’re done. Without even considering the Lord and his will for our life. 🤯 thank you for sharing Kendra! Thank you for being so raw!

I just love you!! You are a sweet soul. Guess what ,you are not the only one afraid of child birth. I've been since I was in high school. At the age of 16 I came to the conclusion that I wanted to adopt. I brought it to someone's attention when I was 18 and they was against and it and saying it wasn't normal. But what is for you is for you! I love and admire the strength you have in God and in how deep your trust is in him and I definitely need help in improving my trust in God. Something bad happened to me 3 years ago medically and some nights I have panic attacks and last night it lasted 3 hours. If I see a lady doctor instead of a male or a swab I'd see flashbacks of what the lady doctor did to me. I'd really love to chat with u so we can be there for each other

Hi Kendra! This is a difficult topic, and it's good that you have the courage to discuss it. I'm watching your video now, but any plans and timing that God has you will be worth it. God bless you! 😊

Phew at first I thought you were about to say you were going to "prevent" having kids. But yeah just trust God His timing is always best :).

This is so good. Can’t wait to watch God work in your life.

We’ve been married for 25 years and my wife was never able to stay pregnant. We’re in a stage in life where we’re OK without children. We fostered for a short time but dealing with the state is horrible. We used to go to a church where people would “prophesy” over us that we would have children. Between that false prophecy and other false teachings we left that church. Thank you for this video.

Amen on being open to God’s will on forming new life and motherhood, or being open to him not choosing that. “Trying” to have a baby is a truly modern category, made up after birth control and the mind shift from - a baby is a natural result of sex - to - a baby is an “accident” because she was on birth control. “Trying” is more a reference to birth “control”, imo. CONTROL being a key and false idea... Aside - I never much liked holding other people’s babies. I will do it especially if the mother is wanting me to, but I don’t really enjoy it much. I never liked babysitting either. But, it is completely different when God calls you to love and care for and daily disciple your own baby. Love and care comes from Him, and He will give it when the time comes. Pregnancy and childbirth is definitely not my favorite (mentioned in Genesis 3 😉), and I have had 3 full pregnancies and 1 miscarriage. It is a service and an act of love, and a submission to God’a will. I have not met anyone who enjoys pregnancy, including friends with 6+ children.

It's not control to have sex when you are ovulating that's using common sense and knowledge. If you were having sex when not ovulating you wouldn't get pregnant. It's not sinful to have sex when go created you to ovulate it's when God designs a Woman to conceive. Don't you think you are now asking g God to make you conceive against the way God made you? This is not a healthy spiritual view please seek counselling. As a counsellor in this area this video says to me there are deeper things going on which ❤God can help ❤

A couples real views on having children should be fully discussed before marriage or it's not fair on the other partner. You share on other videos your love language for touch or intimacy is zero. It would be worth exploring that with a counsellor as could be linked and may well have impacted why your wedding night was so painful. It's very unusual for a hymen to still be in place at your age and with lots of foreplay, fingers and oral and lube a woman should be wet enough not to hurt unless emotional issues. Please see a counsellor?

Thank you so much for sharing this. It touched me deeply. I will be praying for you both. God bless you. x Jer 29:11

Soo beautiful and raw. Thank you!! You encouraged my heart and this displays Gods power to change our hearts 💙

Thank you for your transparency

Great video Kendra I’ve had to learn that God is in control because of events that has happened this year and I’ve been doing better with that and with other things to that I had to learn that he is in control and when he sees that it is the right time to do it he will do it

Kendra, I've been watching you for a while now and I just wanted to tell you that you are definitely letting your light shine bright and glorifying God's kingdom! I have been and will continue to pray for you! All in God's timing!

Thank You!! Kendra for this testimony!! It’s so encouraging. I can relate to this when it comes to desiring marriage and wanting to move to a new home. Instead, just staying content and trusting His timing and will for these areas

Thank you for sharing your heart once again sister, this is so real and raw. I've been helping my mom with seeing she needs to release control, as her refusal to has been leading to terrible anxiety and depression. God showed me this too in my relationship breakup, I really had to delight most in Him and completely let go of the man I love even if he never came back. God has brought him back- but only after I was willing in my heart for whatever God wanted and I would not be the one to ask to meet together or talk about us. God's way and God's time are perfect and He does so much heart work in the painful times of waiting and uncertainty. And you're so right in that surrender is a moment by moment and day by day thing. May He bless you with His peace and increasing delight as you wait on him ❤️

Oh Kendra, I am so thankful I found your video. This is one of the reasons I think Christians should be on social media, to share God’s provision, the convictions He’s giving you, because it IS encouraging. Similar story with some differences. I have wanted to be a mom since I was a very young girl. I was saved in October 2018 and little by little my desires for motherhood and family grew exponentially the more I knew Christ. My husband and I were not on same page about when to have kids. I prayed relentlessly for that. God gave me my miracle in my husband’s mind slowly changing. So we also went from trying to not have a baby to me going off the deep end tracking every. single. thing. Here we are, 6 months after starting that journey, waiting on the Lord. But I, too, have gone through that surrender, and then running to another area to seek control of it. This is so good Kendra. Thank you for sharing!!!!

Two minutes in and your experience growing up and lacking that passion that seemingly every other girl around you had are MY WORDS EXACTLY. "Am I really a woman? Am I broken?" Through a series of events--sinful choices which God allowed me to learn from for good--I now understand that being a woman is a beautiful gift, and that it is possible to love a man and trust him in such a way as to desire children with him. But the fears of pregnancy, childbirth, my body and life after birth...they are still there. I am a little over two months away from my wedding, and even though my fiance is aware of my fears to some extent, I think I still manage to play down what I really feel inside when I have vocalized it to him. I know I should be able to give this to God. I should be able to so easily trust that He has always had control of my life and has the BEST life for me. But I. Am. Afraid. I have read several places before, "Do it afraid." I'm trying to do that, and I think that's the problem. /I'm/ trying. I don't know if I've ever brought these fears and pain and sins to God, directly. I'm going to right now. Thank you, Kendra. Thank you. I've only watched three of your videos total, but we seem to have a lot in common. I'm subscribing now. Thank you. ~Brooke

God bless you and I’ll be praying for you! 🤍Thank you for sharing and it very well helps us shape our perspective. Surrender. That is powerful. Many blessings to you and your family! 🙏🏼 Hebrews 10:36 ❤️

I relate to this so, so much. I have a toddler, who was unplanned. I didn’t think being a mother would come naturally to me either, but it definitely does. Now, two years later, I want her to have a sibling so badly but it just isn’t happening right now. I’m also in school & full time SAHM so it would be A LOT. I confessed to God, my spouse & some family and friends that I was feeling jealous of mothers with two or more kids, especially with babies back to back. That was something I really thought I wanted & could handle. I realize I am not in control of that. Also, my daughter will be a great big sister as she already cares so much for other babies in our family. It’s a blessing to see! Thank you for this video. Truly an eye opener.

I am someone who can’t have kids. I do watch my cousins kids and I am around kids at work so it doesn’t really bug me that I can’t have kids. I hope you can adopt if you don’t want to actually birth. Prayers to you and Nick.

Please keep making videos about your trust journey. I’m exactly where you are, wow

So I have never felt called to " have a baby". My own mother even told me that if I love my husband enough I would want to have a child with him. I still never had those desires. Now the Lord did give me the desire to adopt. The Lord convicted me and I just kept thinking why is adoption always someone's plan B. There are millions of children out there living outside of God's design for family and they need parents whether I can get pregnant or not. Also just reading the word and reading adoption throughout the Bible and God's heart for the fatherless. It just made sense. Fast forward we brought our first child home from India Oct of 2021. It has not been easy but we are not called to live easy lives we are called to live transformed lives. Motherhood is definitely the most sanctifying thing in the world.

Thank you for your transparency! You never know who this will help!!

I appreciate this! ❤️ Thank you for sharing it was very helpful to me

I am on the same page…. As much as I want to have children I won’t be trying to have kids if it’s in Gods will than I will if not I can always adopt or foster.

Kendra thank you so much for sharing this area of your life with us. This was definitely a timely video for me, I really needed to hear this today. You helped me realize how much control I’ve been trying to have over this area, and honestly it was so encouraging to hear from someone else who is also desiring to be pregnant but is surrendering to the Lord. I’ve been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster with wanting to get pregnant again. But you’re right - God knows what our hearts desire, and He is the one who creates life. I will be spending more time in prayer about this. Also praying for you and Nick!❤️

I think we as humans have a tendency to over correct. When we release, we are wrong or hurt. We tend to try to do the exact opposite which normally is just as unhealthy. And we needed to find more of a middle place. It remind me of how The Newton's cradle works.

Surrender….I truly enjoyed this and learned from it. I’ve had to surrender, and trust God, and once I did that such an overwhelming peace has been felt in my heart. Yes, I still have questions, and sometimes experience hurt, BUT my trust in Him, and His love for me is soothing, peaceful and a better way to live. All in His time…praying for you Kendra!

I am only 17, but I was diagnosed with PCOS. It can be saddening sometimes and it was hard when I first found out, but I trust God and His providence if He allows me to have kids in the future if He provides me a spouse. If not, I will be content to have Christ.

This helped me so much! I've been tracking and trying for years. And interestingly both times I got pregnant was not planned the first we just moved into our first apartment and the second one I was sick that month and didn't official try but conceived our little boy. I really needed this and I was going to take birth control to help my hormones and now I feel convicted about doing so.

We stopped trying to conceive after a couple years of trying. I put it in God’s hands and he has not made me a mother and I’m 38. I’m at peace with this. My purpose in elsewhere, and I’ve accepted that. I hope whatever happens you feel Gods love and have peace over it.

Thank you for sharing your heart and your journey of surrender, Kendra. It is so beautiful to see God working in your heart ❤️. I am praying for you and your husband ~ God bless you both 🙏

Mi esposa estuvo embarazada hace 3 años, nuestro bebe nació de 6 meses pero después de 22 días falleció. Fue un duro golpe para mi esposa y para mi, especialmente para ella. Realmente fue algo muy duro para nosotros pero Dios ha sido bueno con nosotros. Mi esposa es hipertensa y durante el parto y días después del parto estuve a punto de perderla también. Es muy arriesgado para ella volver a quedar embarazada entonces no se si algún día tendremos un hijo. Que Dios los bendiga y perdón por escribir esto en español pero en Ingles me cuesta un poco. Gracias a Kendra por compartir su testimonio. Pd. La bebe en la foto de mi perfil es la hija de la prima de mi esposa, el papá de ella no se hizo responsable y no vive con ella, de hecho a mi me dice papá porque desde bebe he compartido mucho con ella, no se si esto sea parte de algún plan de Dios pero amamos a esa nena, ella nació un mes antes que mi bebe. Using google traslate: My wife was pregnant 3 years ago, our baby was born at 6 months but after 22 days he passed away. It was a hard blow for my wife and for me, especially for her. It was really very hard for us but God has been good to us. My wife is hypertensive and during the birth and days after the birth, I was about to lose her too. It is very risky for her to get pregnant again so I don't know if we will ever have a child. May God bless you and sorry for writing this in Spanish but in English it costs me a bit. Thanks to Kendra for sharing her testimony. P.S. The baby in my profile photo is the daughter of my wife's cousin, her father was not responsible and does not live with her, in fact she calls me father because since she was a baby I have shared a lot with her, I don't know if this is part of some plan of God but we love that girl, she was born a month before my baby.