Part of a series originally posted on Instagram (@search_for_silver_linings) for FND Awareness Month 2020.
...wait a minute, I need to explain something.
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I used to say things like "I won't let anything stop me! I’m not a quitter, I’ll keep going until I drop"... etc etc
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Until I did drop. Literally.
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I won’t let FND, or any other condition, stop me being me but I have to be so careful, with the type of personality that I am, not to blithely say things like this. Instead I’ve had to learn to listen to my body and be careful with the narrative that I use.
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Because of that, I don’t subscribe to the “Warrior” mentality. If it works for you then great, this is just my perspective but if I try and go into something where winning is a possibility then so is losing. And I don’t cope well with losing, I’m just not built like that, no matter how much personal development work I do, it’s still inherently who I am.
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I give myself permission to stop when things get too hard, to rest BEFORE I’m exhausted. So instead of saying FND (or any of my other conditions) won’t stop me I say, actually, some days it will.
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And I’ve had to learn to be ok with that.
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There are definitely days where I can’t do the things I want, even when they’re modified to be accessible.
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And that doesn’t mean I’m losing. That doesn’t mean I’m a failure.
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That just means FND is a BRUTE of a monster and is capable of knocking the strongest person off their feet.
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I know, because I am one of those strong people.
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Give yourself permission to react if you’ve been hit by an illness, you’re allowed to FEEL pain and sometimes it knocks you down.
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But don’t let FND, or anything else for that matter, stop you living life. Change the rules, rewrite the setting and the way you go about it, yes, but don’t let it stop you living.
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Life is full of opportunities - open your heart and mind to the possibilities.
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LIVE 🧡
9 окт 2024
