Xtrullor - Breakthrough 

Thanks so much! You have no idea how much that means to me.

@@xtrullor can I ask how do you find the power and the emotions to create your music? Everytime it feels like that energy creates the will in myself to be better every day that passes

@@micpyrex7289 It comes from being immensely inspired by existential and somatic psychology, philosophy and the concepts like heroism and its myths. I'm very fascinated by the nature of the psyche of an individual, how it can grow tall, pushing through obstacles, creating alongside nature. In my personal life, my psyche was in shambles for the longest time. Identifying with being weak, not having the best role models, not getting along with people all that well. It lead to a crescendo of mental issues that I was forced to confront. It was at its worst a decade ago, which is when I first decided to actually do something about it and get better. It led into a long, long rabbithole of research because I didn't find the solutions that I was given working all that well. I felt like there was something more that was being left out. There was a lesson I had learned through music, is that there was an authentic way to do it, and then the inauthentic way to do it - you do it for yourself, or you do what others want. In this split, I started wondering if this duality extends to bigger themes - and so I started discovering the psychological nuances of authenticity and inauthenticity, some of which you can read about from Arno Gruen and Alexander Lowen for an example. There is a deep set psycho-somatic aspect to authenticity. The less connected you are to your body and its visceral felt emotional system, the more you start acting more or less unconsciously through a prefered self-image, behaving according to a perception instead of how you genuinely feel (feelings you are also partly unconscious of due to having "trained" yourself for so long). You then try to maintain it for the outside world and yourself. It might not be as noticeable to the usual person because it feels like your normal everyday personality, but at worst cases we see it as the pattern of narcissism which makes it very obvious to everyone (but not to the narcissist due to this lack of self-awareness). At the core, you find subconscious fear of going inward to deal with what's in there, so it is founded upon autophobia. But what if you learn that there IS such a thing as a false self, and you decide to go forward, deep into the dragon lair of your mind and body, despite how nervous and uncomfortable you feel? Wouldn't that establish in yourself bravery you never had before, culminating in heroism? The psycho-somatic releasing, owning and processing the repressed memories of events as a wiser self today breaks the false self and lets you live in the real one. The one that is not merely an image trying to shield you from the external world (and with its presence, burning yourself with neurosies), but the one that is genuinely outward looking and wishes to create ever so more. The one that naturally enjoys itself and knows to be capable of dealing with the challenges of life. You are capable of doing way more than you'd think - "you" just need to get out of your own way. There is great power in knowing this. The better you know yourself, your authentic values, authentic likes and dislikes, your background, your skills, your talents - you enable a visionary state of mind. You can begin to think of plans in your mind that give you butterflies in your stomach, or even make you nervous thinking of doing it. Follow the goosebumps, because that's where the leading edge of your humanity resides. It brings focus to build up exactly what you need. From a fool to a magician. You become bright star spreading the light into the world, a flower striving to spread its petals and blossom in all its splendour. You have all the freedom to engage in it or not. So why not go for it? You never know where you find yourself over the years, especially when you follow your natural individual tastes and intuition for what is right for you personally. I certainly didn't expect to find myself at this point in life, feeling great, self-assured, and doing exactly what I love and living by it - I didn't even expect my style to become what it is today. There is an interesting mystery to your own being and its potential. It takes character to truly engage in it, but you've got all the tools and information around you to make it possible. It's a golden age of learning, with many paths to the deep knowledge of yourself, so let's accept the challenge and become a hero in our own myth.

The reality being that Xtrullor is so nice and dedicated he spent 30-40 Minutes writing this message. What a chad.

@@xtrullor I couldn't have a better answer than this, I can't thank you enough for dedicating your time to me, thank you very much!!

My mouth agape, I can't thank you enough. It's a lot of hard work, but knowing I receive messages like these makes me ever more so reassured I know I have taken the right turn my path. All I have done is just getting started, so we'll see where this is going to lead. And I have the mountains on my sights. Thanks again, I'll make sure it will go toward creating ever so bigger things that I have done before!

Facts, he's been straight slaying since Instant Reaction, and he's gonna only get more goated from here on out….

@@xtrullor I found you through GD like most of the people but somethings with your music was really different from the others. More unique and this stayed like that since Supernova. The quality of your Songs are the most important part. So i'm glad you liked my comment and hopefully made your day a bit better just like you did to us yesterday :D

@@xtrullor What mouth? 🤣

WDYM both his logos have a mouth XD@@ErinFloyd7

SO TRUE! Both his old music and his newer stuff are awesome beyond words in their own unique little ways, if there's any genre that describes X's stuff best it's the "art" genre.

couldn’t have said it better myself

Speaking as someone who does not have the possibilities to make a donation, I feel immense happiness in seeing that there are others who can support with donations and support Xtrullor. When I have the chance I will also make a donation. Xtrullor doesn't just create music, He creates music and experiences.

How did this pass under my radar? Wow thanks so much! It's always freaking amazing to hear feedback like this, something's been done right when it comes at this amplitude. You can be sure I'll carry on the torch just as before, you have heard nothing yet.

hi agente! you're both GOATs please collab :3

Fr, for me it’s OCD.

Полностью согласен! :)

Согласен! Туука молодец, его каждая песня это ещё один шедевр, наполняющий этот мир

Xtrullor does truly get better with age. I love 3rd era so much. He's the GOAT

Fr tho, this third era is like the first and second combined with that metal gnar-shredding we love to see to boot@@alephcake

Поддерживаю!

Try?

@@mikenicholls6119turkish dollars

Try

It's Turkey currency, 1.57 USD / 237.22 jpyen

Also happy new year :))

I do believe his first track was "Thrilled Cream" lol Also merch? WHERE?

@@Itz_GamePoint thrilled cream? Love ittt. And I know we need that merch drop

Wow whoa. Thanks so much! This was such a nice surprise to wake up to, first time I ever seen something on this level coming from anyone. I'm still working on the merch stuff in the background. I want it to be good, something even I would want myself. I don't want it to be just some quickly thrown together stuff that's just a some cheap advertisement you could wear, but something legitimately interesting and stylistic. I'm putting together the designs myself over time, and when I'm ready, I'll unleash them to the people whoever desires them. But yeah, thanks again, I'll make sure I'll put the donation directly to the production work itself. It means a lot when someone is so willing to share some of their own to what they love - it brings assurance to knowing I'm doing exactly what I should be doing. There's more to come at greater intensity, that you can be sure of.

​@@xtrullor thank you so much and it's awesome to hear from you! 👏 Glad your doing merch absolutely take your time. Whatever you create will be amazing. Edit: Hate Everything and Authority are some personal favs:)

That is because you don't released.

Don't worry, I'm just finishing up the Intravenous 2 OST at the moment! I'm essentially 90-95% done now, then I'm free to do Xtrullor stuff again.

​@@xtrullor have you started anything new for Xtrullor stuff? Or just waiting till after you finish Intravenous 2 OST? Your music, especially the orchestrals are GODLY... I'm hella excited for the OST and of course Xtrullor stuff

@@silentvega2004 There's a decent backlog of good ideas I've laid out already. I just need to get them produced. I think I can get to them within two months time for sure.

@@xtrullor OK, that's cool, can't wait to hear em. Every track is whole new amazing journey

Wich is your favorite song after A New Energy? (Xtrullor's 3rd Era)

Agreed

I'd say it went more random > aggressive > relaxing > energizing, he hasn't really stuck with a particular formula for his music which I like.

Yes. I'm waiting for an another new masterpiece 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃

Your comment make me cry a little :""'(

Naw his quality was mid when he made his most well known tracks in geometry dash it's just true. Its wayyy better now

Yeah, if I were to "catch up" these days, I should be making riddim. Turns out, I am really not a fan of riddim, instead I am diverting into metal if anything else. I still have a soft spot for electronic music, just that the musical taste developed into a direction where the culture I belonged to left me. I still enjoy the elegance of sound design, just that something like Tipper and Koan Sound are what I still enjoy, instead of this new breed of composotionally straightforward headbanger stuff. I don't even get the headbanging nods to today's electronic anymore. I do get it from djent now though. There is something I always thought about chasing trends, compared to making music I like personally: Maybe it's not that I am lacking behind the culture. But that I am preparing for culture to catch up on me when the time comes. The cultural conditions shift and change constantly. It used to be dubstep, big room, color bass, what have you over the years. You never know when people get bored of one thing or an another, how they grow up and change their music tastes, and whatever else could occur to shift the interest of the listener. But there was always that one guy who created a style that the culture at one point noticed and got obsessed with - and others began copying it at large. I am taking my years to work my craft and patiently meet that point in time. And when the time comes, I stand a king among many of the style.

@@xtrullor i dont know what to say. probably cant add anything meaningful to your good words. but i commend your consciousness and grip of time and philosophy. Creates a great confidence. Keep that heavy chin up!

​@@xtrullorWhat a beautiful outlook on life... I think this can be applied to everything, not just music... I think Orchestral Dubstep is the peak of music because it combines the best of real Instruments and the best of computer generated sounds

​@@xtrullorAs an aspiring musician who also takes pride in their compositions, I share your exact sentiment. May we all get a moment on the throne, yet always remain in the present moment, ever moving in the choirs of music.

yea people should try to make more creative stuff instead of just intro drop break drop ooga booga, and most of it is just awful repetitive sounds i dont really understand the taste, but yea for me its either just going full creative or just be more unpredictable and pick the most satisfying patterns@@xtrullor

Indeed we are!

Y E S

Yes!

Me too!

Yeah, had to rush the sound design a bit due to having to leave to a plane within days. It's not exactly what I wanted, but it's good enough I thought. I always have the next project to do it better next time, I thought. I think I should do something heavier next time. Thanks anyway!

Paradigm Shift 2 perhaps? :O

Wow.

BRUH I need to draw a fanart for this.

It's not even out yet ???

​@@acflmobile Está loco 💀

The prophet 🙏

So did we need it? ​@@bloponic

And was it THE ONE? XD.

lol, tho they weren't wrong

LOL I lost count of how many times I've listened, not that I've listened a massive amount of times it just doesn't matter Xd. It's just a free ride to another world I don't need to keep count of and tracks like this especially somehow make me feel every emotion simultaneously lol.

You're the same as me - I am more of a fan of metal. But I still like electronic elements when used right. I even started learning to play guitar just to make the metallic aspects sound better. Djent is too good to be overlooked. And thanks!

Of course, it was clear that this one is almost 1 month ;)

​@@xtrullor If you are so proud from the others... I'd say yes :)

It's okay ;) 👍👍👍👍👍👍👌👌👌👌👌👌

It in fact is. Kaibler I believe, then he interpolated it and did some heavy liquifying editing.

Especially when you realize the fact that they're both in C Minor. And the tempo's close.

@@uxvellda1112 They also have similar instruments :D

Just one step closer to that real life Dubstep orchestra.

​@@uxvellda1112 I am with you :)

​@@XVendevion Yes. Usually Xtrullor have playing the violin parts in his soundtrack of Neophyte. I remember that :D

Yeah, Kaiber AI in particular.

FR! Man just said "what if 1st Era+2nd Era then add an additional uniqueness packed with metallic power".

​@@Itz_GamePoint Yes. Unfortunately Xtrullor have anyone of his songs very hide because he didn't upload them.

I can't believe how few visits the track has given the enormous quality that Xtrullor put into it. The world disappoints.

@@vcreator1696 Yeah, you're reason. It is now the 1 PM ;)

Xtrullor 1 million percent deserves this performance, this track alone is better than 10% of most the music on RU-vid collectively.

I'd say Tria had a meaning, tho I could be trippin XD. Just thought maybe it marked a turning of 18. I also remember reading somewhere Supernova was a celebration of him conquering depression or something like that :P

About 60 hours. ...after you've been producing for 15 years relatively messily.

Just don't think of the result too much. I know it's hard but just try to be in the moment rather than focus on how long it'll take to finish it. I don't know, that worked for me @MasterMindBricks :P

Ey same :D

Actually a user knows very well what have to do.

After the Intravenous 2 OST is out, I'm trying to stick to a schedule of publishing a track every 2 weeks or so. I finally have time for it.

​@@xtrullorthanks for the information! 🙂

which one in specific?

Alan Becker's remix of Pigstep, i guess

To me it sounds more like C418's non-Minecraft tracks :P