you exist for a reason || a dreamcore/oddcore/internetcore/traumacore playlist 

Very considerate to leave that there, you are amazing

@@bio8333 ty!!

this playlist has saved me a lot of times thank you :)

Oh the title originally was "You dont exist" i suppose

@@indrejalam idk. Traumacore is more for coping. And in my opinion dreamcore is more just very relaxing

Hey that helps....

All I have.

nice clover pfp

@@templecatt thnx

@@xxbittersweetxx3332 Glad to know.

Especially with virtual school....

@@ma.jbrony1754 yep... its really stressful. If you want to vent or rant to me you can

@@idfk695 I'm actually feeling better, but thank you! I appreciate that. :)

@@ma.jbrony1754 of course! Glad that your feeling better :). Just know that there's always people that you can come for help. Stay safe homie

@@idfk695 😊💖

@@listlessdandelion3587 Right ? Like oh yeah this is actually MY body 😭

Yeah, been there. I exist inside my head more than the outer world- At least, to me.

İ kinda live in my mind, daydreaming. Y'know about another universes and questioning if they exist, if they can after i die i want to enter them without any memories. Would be hella cool :>

@@haphephobia The answer is either "no" or "theres no way to take anything over, including evidence".

Same! I get those moments every once in awhile and it’s like “oh shit, I’m really here”

Im afraid not enough people realize this. Life is not an uphill slope, it’s like waves, there will be all time lows, but there will also be highs

different is better

Sometimes you’re up here, sometimes you’re down here, but as long as you’re going up and down, you’re good, that’s human

I like that. I hate when people say it gets better. I never made me feel better.

​@@wickedchild8501 sometimes but not always

You do exist!!! You are valid! You are a human!! I had the same thoughts as you! I get how you feel! I wish you the best! ❤️

@@mxlion awh thanks, unfortunately I do believe we are government studied aliens from a far away plant of Azorp, (just kidding lol) but I do appreciate that I’m not alone.

@@etherealjupiter6944 hehe

@KØI_Flow glad to see I’m not alone...on a good note, I was diagnosed with some sort of scizotypal disorder which explains a lot of these rapid and reoccurring thoughts, (and much other symptoms that are far too complex to write all on here) hopefully you get some sort of well being or coping system as well.

Oh, my God. As a person with depersonalization disorder, I can relate so bad with your comment. :( I'm happy I'm not the only one.

Hehe 🙃 yeah I didn’t make the artwork but i love it!! The character is called Poka blind girl. It’s a very sad manga but you can’t get a copy anymore. I’m not sure why but it fits so well!

​@@mxlion probably because of the multiple polemics concerning Poka and the original artist popopoka, some people are trying to censure their art and the fact that bullying exist now apparently :/

1k like

WAIT I DIDNT EVEN KNOW

Yea lol

Dont worry, i have issues with my family haveing conflict and everyone generally being a complete asshole to each-other, my family is an uncivilised cluster fuck. your not alone, i get my comfort from knowing when i have the chance ill just dissapear into the night when i have my own sustainable source of income, with just a note, "Dont worry im not dead or kidnapped, just fuck you is all." and a calculated amount of my debt or what they have given me free after charged rent, plus 200$, then i probly will not do that and just leave like a normal person but it give my comfort that i could and would do that. possibly adapt that idea to yourself, thats just how i get comfort, idk. just my shareing of my experience so possibly it could apply to you. and dont worry you not self-centered or even coming near attention seeking, your great and i wish you luck. you matter.

You are not alone. Everything is okay, wanting to be alone in quiet place is normal. My family was fighting since i was born, and my father was the real satan my whole life. Even now he got me that much traumas, that by the 12 years i already got to understand something in my mind is not normal. I won't speak about this now, because it will take me a couple of hours or smth :) Everything is going to be alright. I know, you was living with all of it for so much time, and I know you will overcome everything, you are strong, and i believe in you. One day, you will understand then everything is already far away, behind on the road, and by the time you'll look at this you might be calm and lonely.. More time would pass and you'll fing somebody who will care and love you!!! And everying is going to be alright!!!! I believe in you! You'll overcome everything bad, you are strong! A lot of people, even on internet (like me :P), believe in you!

its fine to talk about your feelings here

You do not sound selfish I relate so much it'll hopefully get better. You will get away from those people at one point and be free from those that just chain you back.

Don't worry, i think everyone here that is listening to this music can relate to that and feel the same way as you but I'm sure things will get better. You know what i like to tell myself? that life is like a rose to get to the flower (being happy) you have to get trough Thorns (feeling sad or having bad moments) it may seem stupid but after crying i feel better, you just habe to be ok with yourself, don't mind your familly fighting, think about YOU before thinking about the others. I don't know for how long you've been living that but i'm sure that eventually things will get better!

me too, everytime i am sad, angry, I came here

same tbh, its pretty good

Bendecidos somos nosotros, siempre volvemos a esta playlist porque representa algo muy poderoso en casa uno de nosotros.

i was first introduced to jack stauber with this video

Dementia

same

I kinda do too

I just wanna run away with my friends and make a new life with them

Same, I even dreamt about it last night and it felt so amazing to run away from everything/-one.

Fr, like just go change my name and live out on a barn

that's the best, moron

both are good imo- numbness feels better than feelings going: ➡️↘️↙️⬅️↖️⬆️↗️➡️↘️⬇️↙️⬅️↖️⬆️↗️➡️ but also the crying thing is also cool- but then again if anything happens then i just spiral so yeah- but i think we’re forgetting the emotionally rebooting and then feeling better, and then spiralling again and then emotionally rebooting _again_ and feeling better until an inconvenience happens lmao

that's when you fill that emptiness with some good ass dreams or something you enjoy doing

@Elright 2 please stop

I think you are right

Yo same💀

Same

Same

Same!!

I feel like you dont actully exist until like 4 or 5

ty

Fun fact, the song New Flesh is a reference to the classic 1980's surreal horror film "Videodrome" by David Cronenberg. Long live the new flesh!

Thank you for creating this time stamp

Who was the artist for oblivion? I'm having issues finding it online without seeing anything else other than Skyrim

​@@ihavenoname4139 it's Rufi-o

as someone with memory issues I love this hehe

@@--_j_-- awh thank you? I wrote this as i was realizing that most of my childhood felt like a dream rather than actual events :o thank you very much for relating, it made my day 💗💗💗

I don't remember my childhood i just have 3 or 4 memories from it and idk if 2 or them are a dream or that really happened

@@ri-gz6ye aww ur so sweet xx

Wow... that's some heavy words, for right now I can remember a lot of events from my childhood (including all the fighting) but I can admit they are fading away. 😔

I have 6 siblings so it's kinda nice when that happens

I hate my brother cause hes an asshole

same

Everybody gangsta till he forgot to add "Step"

@@Nerochanx Please use they/them😎👌

I'm the same way right now. I hope you feel better!

indeed, the feeling of emptiness, one i am o so familiar with, the sound of a clock moving, the sound of the ocean. All o so emty and dead to me, if i could take one thing away from this world, ironically, it would be the feeling of emptiness, for all we gain from it is a lack of feeling, and rarely does it ever amount to change. It just drags you down deeper into the lake, till you no longer see light, and all you are left to do is to choke at the bottom.

I just feel that a bother and i feel useless plus my problems are always with me in my house

The only way i can scape is trough anime feeling some ones Happynes as my own knowing perfectly well that its not real

Same. I have no friends and I’m too shy so that sucks. I wish I had friends. The only friend who actually understood me and was kind to me was an online friend who hasn’t talked to me in awhile since she is depressed and wanted to take a break from her phone. I miss her (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

Just remember to not allow that to be a shallow reason, make sure you give yourself a little credit, friends no matter what have a chance of coming and going of course. Thanks for being a good person despite life though.

if only there was someone there for me

yo antes era así, quisiera ser tu amigo la verdad

@@Depressedweeboo algún día bro, no te desesperes

@@axe4590 sorry I don't speak hablo espanol

You are not alone! I’m here if you ever need to talk! Also I’m live right now if you want more! Also we can talk In chat!

@@mxlion Ah, thank you! It's okay though. I got a therapist to talk to :)

@@crowsinoto7889 that’s awesome!

same here, it makes me feel validated for what happened when i was younger.

you're not alone, friend

Same.

So so same

turning 19 in a few days life has lost a lot of meaning the last few years

@@hidethecrowd I am sorry to hear that.. I hope you're doing okay on your side And hey you made it this far, There is something waiting for you.

@@Josh-qb9co of course! if life aint got no meaning you gotta look for it thats just the way it is

"Ugh are you depressed or somthing, fucking get up you lazy piece of shit, wakey wakEYYYYYYYYY!" ughhh.... - My family

oh shit this one hits way too close to home

@@thesaddestdude3575 I'm sorry:(

@@funcionario So am i... Its wierd they used to be supportive.

@@thesaddestdude3575 when we are children they are then we grew up and started to understand (I'm sorry if I don't understand what you mean, I'm br)

Its not stupid! You are very welcome! I’m so glad it helped you!

No it didn't. They put 6 sad songs they've heard on a sadboi lofi playlist on RU-vid and are making money from it. That's all this is.

@@auraelbarkeater471 cease your tomfoolery you dastard fiend

@@auraelbarkeater471 cry about that

@@auraelbarkeater471 may be, but this playlist means a lot to me, regardless

I do this too. I rethink my whole past, to the point where I don't even feel anything .

About the future too

same here

I either don’t have that sinking feeling, or is feels like it’s been sunken for a very long time.

İ remembed staying up and wishing for, like, changing the past lol

same bro. I'm privileged as fuck, but still I often feel like shit. I can't even name one single reason for why there is so much hate and anger inside of me. Whatever. Hope you have an okay day. Bye

I feel the exact same way, have family that love me unconditionally, friends that are always there for me, yet all I want to do is die, really wish someone else had my spot in life and took advantage of it instead of me.

I understanddd I feel the same way, but just know you don’t need a reason to have issues, mental illness can effect anyone it doesn’t matter how good your life is it’s okay to feel bad and you’re just as deserving of help as anyone with trauma. And you’ll never ever be a lost cause I know you’ll feel better one day with the right help and people. You’re doing amazing and your struggles are valid I love you and have a really amazing day or night

Same. Both loving parents and great friends but somehow I just turned out different. Like, really really different. Both messed up and guilty. I don't even know if I can return the love I was shown because of my own flaws. But even so, the fact that they still care about me after all these years makes me want to tear up.

I feel the exact same way.

Please don't go, even if she dies. I know i'm just a stranger on the internet, but I care about you so much.

I know it may not seem like it but people care about you, I've never met you but I care about you none the less. Please don't go.

Bro u aint immortal

@@iforgotoputausername but maybe we are so fight me :)

Oi, gotta eat some healthy food cuz queen seems outlive everyone

I don't know what's going on and this may be late and also may be kinda stupid since you don't know me and I don't know you, but it would be nice to know that you'll still be here when new years come...

If you read this, happy belated new years. May this year bring you peace.

Hey man I'm worried about you Are you okay?

Bro, you still alive or chilling with Tupac

I... I just want to say "hi" to all of you, guys... Have a good life...

Thank you for enlightening us with this information.

LMFAO

thank you, i thought nobody was gonna mention it

OMFG I THOUGHT THAT WAS A MOTORCYCLIST

i thought it was a car or somn-

Oh I’m so sorry! I’m in the same boat as you so I know how you feel! I’m glad it helped!

I get yelled at a lot to the point that I'm used to it, it's weird hearing someone cry about it when for me it's nothing new.

Sheesh I got yelled at to before I fell asleep on the bathtub

@@misschuckito1311 Some people are more sensitive and it's an okay thing to cry about. But I feel you, if it happens a lot you just stop caring. It's still stressful and annoying but you get numb. The sadness turns into annoyance. That was actually how I got the courage to get the police involved. I was mad and wanted to do something about it

I get yelled a lot by my family and sometimes by my friends people even call me a crybaby

yeah, why am i not rich?

Damn thats my current mood

ooooo WAIT WHERE'S MY MONEY

HEAVY cringe

@@sofof9846 Shut, remember the person behind the screen

Thank you!

@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ oh, this! you put it into words perfectly. i couldn’t agree more. but for the sake of “optimism” and us having the capacity to go forward, i think it’s vital to think we’re special in a way or another. the idea of consciousness is so strange, how the minute your heart stops beating your consciousness will be shifted elsewhere we don’t know of. but being alive is definitely not worth it in all honesty. we only live on for people, our emotions and our existence to keep being. we feel happy when good thing happen, and sad when bad things come. so ultimately, we live on for ourselves and to feel happiness. but what would you do if you still wanna die even if you’re happy? even if you have people that love you and you love them back? we were never asked to be here and the only reason i get out of bed is because i have to- and i won’t even have any gains at the end. or maybe there is a gain? who knows. whatever that gain is i don’t think it’s worth it either way. lmao whatever idk why this turned out to be so lengthy. maybe i should stfu and stop thinking u.u

@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ yeah, i guess so. we’re not special as in anything extraordinary, but maybe we’re a bit special in being extra unlucky for being born, y’know? yet no matter what we do and how high we go, we’ll never find a meaning or an answer, that’s just how the universe is constructed, i think. growing up religious then thinking this way suddenly- that yes, gods and traditions and ideas are constructs we created for own solace, it’s quite a turn. it’s a bit depressing too, thinking everything humans have ever reached is ultimately pointless. so living with meaning isn’t the right answer because there is no meaning. killing yourself isn’t the best reaction to being alive either. what the fuck :)

@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ i don’t think killing yourself is bad, but like i said, it’s just not ideal. i’m not talk about staying for the sake of others, but for the general concept of life which is to keep on going. i will never find a meaning, and frankly i don’t think any human will. “meaning” as in what life TRUELY means, without including your own opinions and prejudices. therefore, the only wise thing we can do is to go on, regardless of how much happiness or pain we’re in. to me, dying is the only thing i actually look forward to. i can kill myself right now, it really isn’t that hard. but it’s so easy, had i killed myself when i was like 12 or something it would’ve been fine but.. i’m too far into this and i think you are too? idk ahhah. maybe it’s wishful thinking, but i would like it if all this misery doesn’t go in vain hahaha. how about you, though? if you think that killing yourself isn’t bad, then what makes you stay here? what keeps you going? idk if this comes off with a mocking tone but i’m genuinely curious, because a part of me thinks just like you do

CRINGE

@@plum8810 hope is what makes ppl stay, if u didnt have my faith idk what i'd do tbh

@@tehepookie the fact that you cared enough to take the time to type this is actually really comforting. thank you, my friend. i'm doing a decent bit better, especially since his killers got their dues.

i’m so so so sorry that happened to you, just know that you are absolutely beautiful and i’m sure your father was too. nobody deserves to be shot because of their skin color. nobody.

@@user-0613 thank you, my friend :)

It’s so disgusting what happened with this beautiful planet that people die because of their race,what isn’t even important. I’m really so so sorry for you I know I can’t do that much with my words but I just want to tell you that I’m here for you if you have any problems. Lets not wish this happens to your family again even if it’s so sad again that we can’t just forget racism because so many racist exist on this world and I want to burn them down so bad. All bad persons need to go to jail so the peacefully ones can life their life’s, but I also think not racist or not homophobics or not murders have their bad side let’s just all die and let the earth regenerate because it’s a unique planet and people don’t care about that. Ehem yeah I write another poem again sorry for that. I love you and we all hope racists will get jail for 10000000000000years. Stay safe

@@glowingnettles4689 people have been killing each other in the name of such irrelevancies since the days of Babylon... i don't really have any family left for the most part anyways, mostly for the same reason my father passed. i absolutely agree with you though, people who do such rotten things for such rotten reasons deserve an "equal and opposite reaction"... can't say i agree with everyone dying though, humanity is capable of living alongside nature instead of on top of it if we just remove the malefactors keeping us all down... you don't have to apologize, i appreciate you taking the time to write a response, my friend. thank you, and stay safe as well

Spooky scary skelemons.

Ha, Doot Doot

theres alsoo a person in the background.

LOLL

its a train im pretty sure

I freaking know i saw a skeleton 😂😂😂 i started doubt myself until that comment

Fuckin knew I saw doot. Thank yiu for pointing this out

Where does that quote come from?

that quote sounds nice

How I became close with my best friend!!! 3 years ago we saved each other's lives at our worst points and we've been each other's favourite person since.... I love them more than anyone or anything else /p

My chemical romance, right? How to know your tired of breathing is by listening to them. They acknowledge that your tired. They acknowledge that its okay and that you deserve better. They acknowledge that it doesn't always get better. But they also let you know that you aren't alone. Idk i may have even got your quote wrong but I know that Gerard said that in an interview and he really helped me. He helped so many. It's just nice to think I found another heh.

YEP

I don't even think it is some trauma that they have, but some lack of meaning/purpose. Only a few come here to listen while feel sorry for themselves for some problem. But I wish they find the way to change, because it's not only about solve problems, but how you see them and all else (appealing to knowledge of philosophy, here).

i love u for saying that man u are certified cool

thanks

reading this genuinely helps, so thank you. i doubted myself a lot after i tried going to a therapist for the 1st time, and when she realized i didnt suffer from trauma (just lots of anxiety) she told me I didn't need to be there lmao

i feel empty but whenever i say that my brain thinks im saying that to myself for attention. my parents are nice. my sister is nice. home is good. school is okay sometimes. im spoiled, i shouldnt feel empty so maybe i am hogging the spotlight

gucki

ascend and achieve monke

@@won2600 i dont think i understand sorry

If you can’t remember then you can forget you just did it.

@@Hannah-um4gh there are things i cannot remember and there are other things I cannot forget, i do not know which one is worse

I feel you, no idea where that came from, but only recently I noticed that my natural reaction to any emotion, when I'm not by myself, is to repress it immediately, to not show I've been moved by anything. How does that even happen? How to rid of it? I want to be more truthful, more myself, not hide

You too huh

same

Here

Im here 💀

Pretty much, we gotta look out for each other because no one else will

@@Foible mhm

True

the mofo'ing island of misfit toys

@@Foible yep :(

hey sameee.after all shes done she thinks she Will get something back of me but either way i have to give her something back like a hug or kiss but i feel guilty or overwhelmed idk.its like i cant do anything and im just being controlled

me too bro,, except its dad for me

Attend only the expectation and nothing else helps?

Everything’s gonna be alright dude. It’ll get better soon, I swear :)

same except it's my dad, so i get how u feel ♡

i thought i was the only one

...Just sitting, back against the wall wondering if theirs something behind me, Evan if I know it's nothing

Damn paranoia is more common than I thought

I am literally doing the same

Hahaha 🤣

SAME OMG I WAS LIKE WHY IS NOBODY TALKING ABOUT THAT!?!?!

The flash of lgiht going by is a skull too byw

Im focused on the doot doot skelly

Omg I’ve never noticed that!! 😭 and it’s dark where I’m at why did i have to see this now of all times ... 😖

Same, idk if I should be commenting this, but it’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Hope everything will get better one day

yeah same. i dont have a reason to be sad, or anxious, or angry so why do i self-deprecate myself :/ i feel you 100% ur not alone

@@qualityname2055 this is literally me- I really want to know if there's a name for this because I want to get rid of it

same boat.

same

Omg! I’m so sorry! I’m in the same boat as you my friend. I’m glad this helped! I’ve been really depressed recently too. If you want to talk I would love to listen! No pressure to though! I know how it feels to be pressed into talking to someone.

@@mxlion TYSM!

@@ballisticbee2114 np!

Sigh, seems like this is happening to so many people ❤

i just wanna be freed from this curse (bpd)

This is like (almost) exactly how I feel, it’s so frustrating. The worst part is I know it’s going to happen and I know even after I fall asleep the escape will only be temporary

Wow

I like to call this "Crowded solitude"

now that i recall, i remember feeling less lonely when i lived in the countryside, life quality wasn't that of great but the friends, the neighborhood, the animals, lord... the mf landscapes..

Feel alone in a place full of people is the worst that actually be all alone, in solitude at least you can heal, you can work your way to the top.

they don't know you though; most of those people don't know you, but being just there will cause consequences, just as everything else here

having a rough day, this playlist appear out of nowhere, i read your comment and feel chills in my back, thanks

;_;

i love sleeping

Honestly if you thought out of an 80~ year lifespan that the prime of your life would be when you are most hormonal, riddled with acne, self conscious, confused, and undergoing drastic brain and physical development, and still not legally able to do most things you want on your own you're kinda weird.

@@pandaprince7677 I don't see it like that, I think is most about how we perceive the word when we were younger, and how it was easy to find reasons to feel happy, but time passes and everything change and now is more complicated, but it doesn't have to be, and it's worth it to cry in a comment section of a RU-vid video and say to a complete stranger that one comment makes you smile when the world is falling apart

omg yeah

Don’t get sick-

do it if its safe, its pretty nice

Id do it in my driveway if I were you-

I did this when i was a kid

I feel u : )

Ik. Its depressing not the fact my life is great. I have nice friends although my parents are on the line. But it's not as bad as other peoples lifes.

Nagito: *I'd like you to repeat that again* * loads gun *

Your to young to understand that despair until later

@@eunoiamorosis xD

oh god i can relate to this one more than any of the other replies lol. you're not alone friend!! good luck out there

this comment. this comment bruh. it took me so long to come to terms that my parents (who i still really love ect for a reason idk) did not raise me and me two sisters especially my younger sister who is 14 'and as someone who teaches martial arts ect to kids with aditional needs' is showing symtoms of being on the spectrum. iv begged my mom to take it seriously but their stuck in the mind et 'you just trying to label everything'. i struggle and so does my older sister but my little sister is the one swho struggles most. she gets into unbelievable arguments with my mom and it does get physicle sometimes. iv been so used to it all my life that i still can barely come to terms ith it

I know where the trauma came... society

As a victim of severe domestic childhood abuse this comment triggers the fuck out of me. How do you even know you have a trauma then? Do you know the meaning of trauma? Stop trivializing these serious matters by trying to earn pity points and snowflake points. Get a therapist. Grow up.

@DALYLA LUDWIG for me it’s more so I don’t want to come to terms with the fact that that is where I got my trauma from.

hiii, I know how you are feeling, it feels like shit, but I hope your doing ok! you can vent again if u need, remember u are valid💗

I can relate, nice wording.

Are we the same person? You put my thoughts into words

exactly how i feel but remember you have a chance to restart everything once you're an adult

@@shangelaton9136 that's the saddest part bc i don't think i have a chance 'cause i live in a fucking russia and we are all kinda hopeless here,, i believe we'll get through it and it will be better tho p.s. i saw quackity and i knew i want to answer you.

thank you man ily u are also very cool and valid :D

ty!

I understand what you mean but I'm not sure if I can follow. It seems that those who go through the least pain have the loudest voices and I feel like that's me right now. There are people who get beaten on a daily basis and I'm here having existential crises because someone yelled at me once. I don't know, it feels so egotistical of me to do it considering that those who get beaten don't seem to cry about it constantly, even though they should be the ones doing it. I have a lot to go through but it still doesn't feel as bad as other people have it. I'd like to stop but I just can't.

@@end4567 oh, i understand what you mean. you are correct, at times some people speak over others experiences and invalidate theirs. this is not something people should really be doing, rather taking the time to listen and empathize with one another, along with educating ourselves on certain debilitating issues. i was not trying to imply that people with not as significant trauma should be speaking OVER others, rather being able to acknowledge their own problems and not bring themselves down. i don’t want you to feel bad to reacting a certain way to yelling based on how others react to more severe abuse. this is somewhat of a bad mindset to have for yourself, as you might end up hiding your own problems/isolate yourself as a result of feeling like you have less trauma. it is only a matter of enforcing the normality of talking to others about these issues, especially in the extremely severe cases in which you mentioned. we have to be able to achieve this without speaking over others. i know this is a long message, but i hope you understand my point! also, you can talk to me ab anything anytime. my user on insta is x_emilyyxoxo_x if you want someone to vent to :)

Being loved doesn't make me happy, only sadder to be such a cinical mess.

@@adriaen3538 i'm sorry you have to go through that... I wish you the best 💙

It feels so awful but I'll make it. Thanks.

I dont think so, but okay

I think I can appreciate the thought here. but I don't think it's true. I've been sick and homeless, occassionally getting by and doing well, but now I'm ending up on the streets again. the friends and girlfriends I used to know have all moved on. alive=/= not loved

This is hella scary, good thing i can't see it-

thats what i keep saying...

I thought I was the only one

Also the thing going by the screen is Mr Doot

Yes. its my demons

i love this comment it made me open my mind for a sec

@@hyperion7419 oh yeah same

holy crap you just made me realize that and think about that for a while

Yeah. These last few months I’ve been living in a hazy state. I’ve been maladaptive daydreaming a lot, almost constantly. I’ve just recently realized how fast these months have been passing. December felt like yesterday but also at the same time like it was years ago.I feel like this is wrong and I want to get back to who I was but at the same time I don’t want to leave. I just feel so safe.

this just made me sob and hit me with so much realisation bc i really do live in my mind and in different reality’s more than my own

finally someone who i can relate to

Same but idc at this point im tired caring about things.

@@vanessale1903 no lol

I experience the same thing. I was scared of it for such a long time, but now it’s a comfort. They don’t change, they don’t leave, they’re there for my best and worst moments. I’ve named them, and I sometimes talk to them about life and thinks that've happened. Sometimes I lean back, close my eyes, and think about how it’s like I have so many silent, secretive friends protecting me.

I think that's schizophrenia-

thx

hug

hugs

Ty..

Hugs to everyone 💜

noo! You are valid! All emotion is valid!

I don’t think anybody would feel undermining by this comment, it’s okay have the feels, better than that then keep them in

it's okay.. if youre feeling sad, it's okay, it's valid and i hope youll get through it luvs

I understand how you feel

please remember you dont need to be traumatized to watch these videos, your feelings are valid, you arent hurting everyone by trying to heal yourself.

good luck man

if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here for you, alright? from one internet stranger to another, we’ll get through this together. you’re doing great, i’m proud of you and how far you’ve come.

I just had to search up maladaptive daydreaming, this is the first time I’ve heard of, you sounds like you have a rich imagination and I’m sorry it’s been such a burden for you, I hope one day you can use it to your advantage.

Hey. İly:3

Take it easy home slice. We all are going through something and sometimes it’s just nice to know that you aren’t alone in your pain. Take it easy and take care of yourself. I’ll see ya on the other side

get some help

@@c3r.j theyre trying to cheer some ppl up stay quiet

@everyone in this comment section Touch some grass and get some sleep also drink some water

@@ifuckingloveyou4703 i will gladly go touch some grass and drink water thank you

@@ifuckingloveyou4703 Your advice is pretty handy.

Yooo I can relate to this comment so much :((( Im also in a ldr with my gf and we’re both trauma victims, but our traumatic experiences are quite different haha :)) Hope you’re feeling alright tho stranger! ❤

I love the fact that you have a girlfriend and i hope you two will be happy together. A pillar of respite for each other. God bless your relationship

@Beep boop Boop bop I hope you are feeling better right now, please take care of yourself, if you need a reason to live, pls let it be me 🥺💖

is that an omori quote? like, it is, but did you intend it to be

@@Alpacnologia yea, it was something I once say to myself before and it is also an omori quote

@@bubblyyy6235 what is a "omori quote"?

@@Hes_Gone It’s a quote in a rlly depressing game

Yeah I don't know I'm just existing.

It’s fun to exist sometimes. *lol*

Hey, I just wanted to tell you that there's no point in beliving that, there's only 1 life, try your best in doing the things you like with the people you love, remember that you matter in this world even if you feel like you did nothing, and you know it's not true, because then how do you managed to get this far? it has to have a reason, please continue with your life, it's the only one you have and you don't know what comes next to it, take every little drop of joy it gives you. Hoped that you understood the messege :) Pd: Sorry if my english is bad, i'm just trying my best to give advice to other people.

Feel you:(

Same I hate it here :(

Fking finally! Someone else gets it!

CRINGE

His name is doot doot

@Mikedev there is also a scary shadow man by the light post

The city is abandoned and crumbling I think.

I didn't realize that it was a skeleton until you told me. Thanks. And there's a dude under the streetlight behind the kid.

ever had street lights turn off while you pass them? happens every night...

@Emma Schwartz ❤️❤️❤️ of course

This comment was on time

thank you a lot. Ive been really struggling with validating my own emotions and i keep finding reasons as to why im suddenly feeling like shit all the time despite having everything go really well for me. Hearing this coming from someone else gives me a lot of comfort

i will save this♥

my roblox girlfriend broke up wit me

It really does, doesn't it. My laugh used to be sweet, but now it's cold and hollow and quite frankly villainous in my mind. But yea hazy summer days are nice.

I myself do fine enough in school and life to not be a disappointment, but I feel like one. What unique qualities do i even possess? None I feel like. I feel forgettable, and like my life is just a huge waste, no matter what I do. Work or fun, it all feels pointless and unfulfilling. I can relate to not seeing anyone anymore. I went from seeing friends daily in the summer to hanging out with my friends twice total in the next summer. Compliments feel fake when I receive them, just like people are sucking up to how lame I am, I repress myself all the time because I feel like no one would accept me as I am when people already do... Idk why I decided to share my experience rn because who cares lol

i just feel so empty and alone these days...it’s so tiring to sit at home all day worrying ... i want that good feeling back too... i want my life back too.. you’re not alone

@@mariet7055 hopefully you can get it back, it sucks being alone the whole summer

We all would love a restart but we have to focus on the now hang in there

i dont believe you should ever say that. you give so many the fear of growing and that can actually push people to teen suicide.

its not growing up that sucks its the time that passes that sucks like if i was 7 yo with an 18 yo body i would still be 7 with the expirenses of a 7yo its the people you lose the body that dies the traumas that suck not the fisical act of growing

Lmao I thought growing up would be fun but now i finally realized it’s hell

Ok if it gets worse than this bye lmfaooo 😜😜😜🤞🤞🤞🤞

@@heylol9166 No please stay! We love you.

You are very right I’m going through hell with my family and by the time my childhood will be gone I’ll be married and I don’t want that. I know my child hood won’t be happy because of something and I wanna get through it but I can’t just skip 5 years of my life and look back and have nothing to tell my kids abt how I was I WANT THIS TO END. And I don’t want anyone to go through what I’m going through this shit hits different.... sorry I ranted to u idk I felt like I should comment this to ur comment

i literally feel so safe here i never wanna leave

Reading 'em at night makes you smile, gotta try it today :> İ don't know, staying up with this kind of things lowkey fixes my problems lol

It gets better babe. I promise you. Ya know, I honestly get jealous of when people talk about how they just randomly cry. I wish I could do that. It's completely okay to cry without reason. Your brain just needs a break :)

Dude...it's scary how relateble you are

“i don’t wanna die but i don’t wanna live like this”

yo

😔✊🖤

i’ve found myself escaping through dreams. i do everything i can just to dream a little at night. it’s the only way i’m able to fall asleep

I’ve always wanted to shift, but it really just felt like I was imagining something while setting out scenarios and rules. I still don’t know how it works. How does it work, and how do you do it?

@@xpxthy I'm really bad at explaining things but the way it works is that your subconscious {you can even think of it as your soul} isn't bound to a body and can go into different realities and timelines. there's an infinite amount of realities as similar as one decision different and as different as an anime world.

@@lolamcrae8186 I see. I’ll try and look up more about it sometime, thank you for the explanation!

Aa this is me-.. Good thing i am not alone, mostly when i stay up everyday i daydream while listening to musics, creating different worlds. Even making myself a new body, only if it was real lol- Sometimes if i try hard enough it helps me to sleep once a while which is kinda impossible? But yeah! İ mostly like putting myself to universes from movies. İt's hella fun.

im so sorry you feel this way, i and many others care deeply about you, keep going you're trying your best

I can feel this so much, I'm untalented, uninterested and uninteresting. I'm such a boring person I got no hobby, no goal I'm just existing. What if I don't wanna do this ? I've never had a reason to stay anyways. But I'm too much of a coward to do something to myself so I'll just keep wandering aimlessly I guess.

You have no hobbies? Do you scroll the internet? That’s a hobby. Do you like gaming? That’s a hobby! Do you enjoy listening to music? that’s a hobby. Do you like thinking about how the world is a rock in space? Fuck it, that’s a hobby. Even if you have no hobbies or interests you have something to keep fighting for don’t you? Even if you don’t find somebody to keep fighting for in this messed up world.,Even if it’s a plant or memory. Also you do not exist for the sake of existing? Do you think you have no reason what so ever? You think I’m wrong? Even if you do, prove me wrong, change the way I think. Change my outlook on the world, give me another perspective to why I am wrong cuz even I’m wrong or you’re wrong that is fine. Being right is sometimes not all that great. Change my future, you’re molding my future, you interacting with somebody, smiling at somebody, saying thank you, saying a compliment probably stopped them from doing something bad. You have the chance to do something, you don’t have to do anything by all means, you just need to have the right to remain a beautiful person with meaning, you can get into anything, it’s not too late to do anything, learning a language, learn how to draw, learn how to code, etc whatever is happening in your life I guarantee it’s not a reason for you to stop existing, if anything you deserve a reason to keep existing! OUTLIVE THE PEOPLE YOU HATE!!! DAMMIT! Don’t wait for that spark. GIVE YOURSELF THE SPARK! Don’t wait for it, GET SOME FLINT AND STEEL AND MAKE A SPARK! no matter what you can start at anytime, you deserve your golden spoon and give yourself that reason not as a lumpy potato. Even if you are a lumpy potato be a happy lumpy potato. Adding on, how do you know don’t have any talents? I don’t believe in talent, no such thing as natural born talent. You GIVE yourself the talent it’s not like god is gonna come up to you and say “hey here’s the ability to control the ocean and talk to marine animals” YOU ARE MAGNIFICENT!! Even if you don’t have the motivation to do anything, make a couple of friend even if you’re a awkward lump, if you feel better by yourself that’s fine too DONT FORCE YOURSLEF TO DO THINGS THAT MAKE YOU Feel bad. give yourself a reason to keep living everyday. Finally, if you don’t matter then how come you came on this world hm? You have a lot ahead of your life and a lot of time, don’t wait till the candle burns out.

Man, worst thing is when you want to do "something" But you're too scared of going to hell. Sorry, i am just not best at explaining nor comforting. İ am depressed but my wishes are not because of it, i really don't know why do i exist. But i guess... Sometimes daydreaming, listening to music, suffering everyday, having emotion changes and being happy after the last thing. My every year routine lmao.

Holy crap, this thread is such a mood

I was 2 Spooked to Realize

_doot doot_

Hah it makes me giggle a little

@@activesocialmenace idky but that’s adorable 😭🥺👏🏻

I read DROOLING instead of dooting- help my dyslexia is really kicking in-

i don't have past trauma only current trauma which is my family mentally torturing me (my parents and siblings calling me names, only yelling at me, and only hitting me 24/7 i know nobody cares i just had to tell someone, anyone

@@randomusername9991 That's sad.. I hope you become successful when you grow up and take revenge on your family, even though i don't know you. I can tell you're a kind, smart and a beautiful person, and keep fighting so you can achieve your plans! (Sorry for my bad english-)

@@tiffanytarrazona4176 this is one of the nicest things anyone has said to me in a while, thank you :) and also your English is fine don't worry lol

I’m really sorry :( your situation is just awful and I know that this sounds clique but please know life will get better. And I read somewhere something that stuck with me my whole life “You can’t heal in the same place that you were hurt” I don’t know if this will help you at all but I wish you the best of luck moving forward in life goodness knows you deserve it

Wow I really felt you on this one, we both changed after my sister was born. She started mentally abusing me like crazy and called me terrible things. My stepdad doesn’t even help me, he just watches tv in the living room, while my mom yells at me that i’m useless. That I have to try harder for perfect grades when I can’t even handle the emotions i’ve bottled up, I can’t understand my OWN EMOTIONS I just- I don’t know if I want to go, or if I want to stay. I don’t have friends, I don’t have a family. I have nothing...

I hope Everything gets better for you! My best wishes for you! Don't give up!

_doot doot_

Such a nice meme

doot doot

I WAS WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO MENTION THE DOOT DOOT

I was crying but this comment made me giggle, thank you for that

Aww! TYSM!!! its also oddcore so i love the errie-ness hahaha

its cute in a way an abandoned child's room or nursery would be, its cute but unsettling

Abstract?

makes me wanna bop along with a little smile on my face with tears streaming from my eyes!

nostolgic? i understand what youre describing

It's never too late. Also you don't need a lot of friends to be happy, but you will have some of them don't worry. The moment that you live now isn't permanent. The pain will vanish, and better times are to come, take my word for it.

@@theend6188 wow thank you, that actually made me tear up. thank you so much.

My mom told me the same thing it hurts so much especially cause she said she doesn’t recognize me anymore that I’m not her little girl anymore it hurt so bad to hear that I’m so sorry I’m very very sorry

@@notsenpailol1300 it's okay you don't need to apologize, it's not your fault. i hope you're doing okay though, it really does hurt.

@@grave. I’m alright, hope your doing well to. I know we’re going through something similar. And I can relate to the pain your going through, hope you do better.

Same.

yea, you dont have to *have* trauma to realize that this world is turning into a absolute shit show.

I was suposed to have a trauma but somehow what happended didn't affect me at all lol. What hit me was what happended after :/

thats actually really funny :) imagine just walking down the street and somebody just says "you exist."

@@chillcat1454 LMEHDJSDJ

@@chillcat1454 just a random child runs up to you and says in a way too deep voice for a child- “Y O U E X I S T”

@@Moetron_V2 LBXHXPXGOOYX

Honestly sometime ya just need a reminder

"family that thinks giving birth to a child and feeding it is enough to make it treat you like loyalty" Holy crap wow I'm going through that exact kind of thing. Crazy how that works, huh

@@d-righty yeah its ashame too cuz it happens so often

okay consider me called out here but kinda glad that how i feel is justified and same goes for u people

I was scrolling and I just wanted to say just because it isn't as bad as others dosent mean that you arent allowed to feel mad or sad about your situation. And I'm also jealous how easily you can type this out when I over think and dont say anything. :)

yeah, sadly when you're in a house with 7 people, you can't do that. Which means every single god damn fight this family has, i can't do anything but keep quiet and keep it in.

best feeling frr

@@freyr2558 yeah same but now I have six people also so so sorry for you

Haha i do this in front of everyone because this is who I am

@@domjoao7245 hell yeah keep that confidence

Oh you can't know how much i relate- İ went to the point that i don't even join those anymore, i'd rather repeat the same things. İ don't care about being bullied, i have that much bravery to atleast yeet them.

Dang, I'm the complete opposite. I love online school and the freedom that comes with it, I can mute myself and do whatever I want. If I want a snack I'll turn off my camera, eat one quickly, and turn on my camera after I eat it, If I want to listen to music, who's gonna stop me? At lunch I can eat hot food rather than paying for it at school or bringing a sandwich, as for friends, I am not close to anybody so it doesn't really affect me. I'm also an independent person so if I have problems I'll try everything in my power to figure it out by myself.

Yea same, I prefer in-person school

I'm laughing at how crappy you are, not how crappy your life is but how crappy YOU make it.

Same, this made my whole life break apart ahah

I believe in him! Do you?

"I'm gonna be a great pilot!" -my naive younger self who hadn't been in the real World.

Не волнуйся, ermm English not good, I appreciate you, I've tried become officer after move to United State. Very Hard, achievable. Моя мама сказала мне, что я могу быть тем, кем хочу. I did it late.

I had the same ambition like you.

@@ekxtx_12.22 What happend?

Ty!! Yeah I’m the same way!

It makes me not remember anything and float

I use to feel this way all the time. I lived in a abusive household, my parents hurt my mentally and physically all the time, I didn't feel I had a purpose, I hated my existence. I know you want to disappear and not have be here, you probably cry in your room as I did, bleed to make sure you're still breathing, but please don't give up, your existence is valid and someday you'll find a way your of there and love any way you want, wear what you want, listen to what you want. Your are infinite ❤

Trauma shouldn't ever be compared between people, unless it's a psychologist who decides what treatment will fit the person best after their individual needs. It's so subjective, and what really hurts my heart is how so many with trauma compare it to some imaginary worse-off person, rather than compare it with what they actually deserved instead of the trauma: A stable, healthy life with supportive adults and a good childhood. Deviation from that is never a child's fault. The pain is there because you were treated wrongly. Your emotions are valid

@@sugoish9461 Thank you, kind stranger. :-) Not gonna lie, I needed to hear this. I tell myself it gets better every day, but sometimes it feels like I'm just getting worse. And like I'm slipping further and further into a really dark void. I'm trying to get help, but it feels like it's taking an eternity to figure out what's wrong. I've only just figured out why most medications never worked for me, (or severely backfired, causing violent outbursts, dissociative episodes, nightmares, crying fits, etc.) because I actually require *waaay* lower than the average dosages of... mostly everything, or else my brain goes boom. Sometimes I think I'll stay the way I am way forever. But as long as I have breaths, I'll have hope.

​@@eieiojklf712 I'm so happy if my words could help you somehow! Finding the right dosage for medication can be really, really tough. It's okay to feel frustrated about it, and the emotional reactions to the effects the wrong dosages have on you are absolutely valid to let yourself feel. I don't know exactly how it felt for you but the side effects must have been exhausting, and it's okay to be sad about that. When you get it right, it will be amazing! It's okay to have bad days, and that you feel that things are going worse lately is still okay, as weird as that seems. The only thing you need to do is stick it out until it gets back up, just like you said, just keep on breathing. That of course can feel tough enough, but I'm just saying that even if you can't do any more than that, you're still okay. You're not worth less as a person, you're still worth just as much and you are just as precious of a life. It *will* get better. You have so many bright and warm moments ahead of you, just waiting until you've figured out this moment. We are always changing, so please don't worry. You won't stay that way forever, you will be able to get through this. You don't have to believe me but I really, really believe so. I was actually afraid of the opposite for a long time, but I realized when I had changed for the better (after things had been worse for a while) that we always change, and even when *we* don't, our surroundings change. Time passes. So eventually, that change will affect us too. Stay strong, even if all that means is having faith in your future self and doing whatever you can to take care of your body in this moment, and wait out as much as you can. Sorry if this is a bit long and rambl-y, I hope it makes sense! I hope you have a really nice day! Feel free to write back if you want. I have an IG if you ever need someone to just listen to you (just tell me and Ill write it here)! Take care!

very true

Man good comment! Its hard to think you've been through trauma and even harder to see it as something to feel bad about,and the only reason is because so many people have been through it aswell, so many extreme stories so it feels right to compare them and see if it truly stacks up, but when it doesnt it makes you feel like you have been in heaven compared to their story, and thats a sad thought since now you cant get over your trauma since you feel like you never had it.

same. i have high functioning autism and it really sucks not to be able to be as socially aware.

I really wanna help you but I forgot emotions... why? Cuz some ppl dear to my didn’t think twice....

im probably being a total moron but maybe you could try orientating around facial expressions? just a brainstorm

@@ionisator1 It's hard if you feel anxious when making any eye contact XD

Read non-violent conversation by Marshall Rosenberg, it is a guide about feelings, social emotion, self-control, and a lot of things that we need to stay alive, at first, start with empathy with you and each others.