you're at a ball with someone who isn't real [ dark academia playlist ] 

To the person reading this, Good Luck! Don't stress, everything will be fine. No matter what difficulty you are facing right now, you can overcome it! You are strong and brave.

I twirl her around the mosaic of dancers, our steps intertwining, timed perfectly to the waltz. Even so, the music seems far away, when my gaze is locked on her eyes, when our breaths harmonize. We dance forever, and then forever ends with the last strike of the strings. I swear I felt her in my arms. But as I turn around, her dress twirls into dust, the stuff I choke on when my memories play to their end. Sometimes, when I walk here, in this vined ballroom, I can still see hints of her smile. Hints of something real.

The title of the video is probably the best title to describe some dreams of mine It's sad but yet so beautiful, When you can't find love in real life, Love will find you in your dreams But doesn't it make you even more broken and depressed when you wake up and realise it was all just a dream, But you still have a little bit of hope, That the dream will continue ... Maybe in dream maybe in real life

This is great for water painting while recovering from surgery! Thank you for this!

This playlist is perfect for writing! Great stuff :]

you're falling in love during an eternal spring [ dark academia playlist ]

Perfect for my writing sessions! 💛

another wonderful playlist, thank you!!

PERFECT timing ...thanks 🥹

Listening to this while reading the unabridged journals of Sylvia Plath at 4:46 am

Side step, look back and listen to the buried treasure of music as you face everything we once could have been but wasn't yet happening. Feel this ride of our lives as you slowly disappear from mine

Exquisite... as usual. So good to play as I try to unwind, working through a stressful morning. I picture a couple dancing in my head, in near dark. Thank you!

just found out about this channel yesterday. and now, this is my fav youtube playlist :)

I really like this kind of music. It made me feel like I was in heaven or sometimes in a strange, foggy place, cold and uninhabited. Or sometimes it is the feeling of relaxing on the surface of the lake and the vast sea. It fits my personality and life very well. It's sad but so pretty

I'm studying for my GRE test for graduate school, my last semester of undergrad and training classes for work. This video helps me stay focused so much so I wanted to say thank you for making these! Good luck to everyone studying for exams

the gentle touch that I felt for the first time caressing my bruised body, the touch that healed the wounds i inflicted upon myself, the longing in my teary eyes-was it a fantasy? did you just disappear and snap out of my reality, or was i chasing my own shadows? i hear screams while i lay in bed, but i'm bewildered-is it the sweet sensation of your voice, your melodious giggles in my dreams, or is it me wailing while I fight for my life under the rubble of agony? will i be able to hold the lovely charismatic face of yours, or when i dare touch it, will it slip through my hands and become a sand dune, leaving them empty and in despair? am i overly obsessed with the wistful image of your blurry, distorted face? if i chase you without caring for my life, will you lead me through flowing, sparkling streams and caves with fireflies? will your voice, the harmony of which drives me into hysteria, lead me to a pleasantly scented garden of roses? or is it a mockery? a filthy joke? will you lead me to haunted forests and abandoned churches? will you push me into one of the graves in the eerie cemetery if i keep following you blindly? with my bare feet now a bloodbath, and thorns pricked deep into my heels, but still, i run, tears rolling in my eyes as i chase you. and when my heart is beating like the painful yet soothing notes of a piano, overwhelmed by all the delusions and fairy tales i have woven with you, yet i wipe my face with hands rough as scales, hardened by the trials of my relentless pursuit, and lift my half-torn dress to passionately chase you until the world blurs into obscurity. will you lead me to a kingdom of fairies, or trap me in walled dark rooms where you would watch me suffocate while you laugh at my misery from your rocking chair?

Really amazing ❤

* _slides in from the side_ * aaand we're back!

A world of swirling skirts and coat tails The music taps and tingles in the air Through it all, you and I blaze our trail Our steps and connecting hands cease to fail You’re so beautiful, love of mine I breathe you in and close my eyes Though there’s something about the time How the clock hasn’t moved or chimed Our feet start faltering The notes are dragging To you I am clinging But your hold is slipping “Go.” You say “Why?” I delay “i love you too much to keep you insane.” When my eyes open, I am home Safe and warm and all alone But I remember dancing with you And that I never told you ‘I love you too’ -random little poem this title made me want to write. Thanks for the playlist, I use it for writing my book :3 much love ❤

Helderrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! 🔥

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momento de abrir mi libro 😊

All these emotions that I cannot process, all the hatred inside me that has been burning for ages, all the love I had for the people I held dearest, all of my sadness I wanted to cry out, all congested into this one big lump of mess in my heart, that I cannot let out. I asked God for many materialistic things in the past. Good grades, better devices, better physique, all these never really did please me. Now, I'm asking for a new thing: mental peace. What I got instead was love developed for a person who would never see me as her ideal man. Heck, no one ever sees me like that. I've been telling myself that it's because of my ego and inability to socialize with others. But deep down I know that is not the case. I have a bunch of good friends. I know a few good women and if I take my chances, maybe they'd fw me fr. But still, I don't know why I can't feel the connection with anyone. I don't understand why I don't feel attracted anymore. I've tried to find the reason many times, but nothing actually came up. Now, my love, who is herself a bigger headache for anyone, is doing things that feel very weird to me. Like, not texting at all even after she's back online, but she interacts with all of my posts and stories. It's not like she's doing all this without knowing that I'm seeing everything. She knows, she definitely knows that I'm feeling confused. Many would say that this is normal for her, that she's beyond love and I should try my luck with someone else, but still I'm stuck in this and can't get out. Actually, I don't wanna get out. I still can't get attached to anyone, but I'm attached to her so badly that no matter how much I try to throw off all of my emotions for her, I just end up loving her more. All the plans that I've made to approach her, the plans I made to keep our relationship alive (if it ever happens), all the plans that I've made to address and fix the issues between us so that we can bond stonger and become better versions of ourselves and, eventually, take things a step further, may not work out at all. But still, I'm willing to risk it. I do have other options, but my heart says no, there's no other way. We into this no matter what, and have no regrets. It's just me and my thoughts, fighting through all the mess, to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It might be heaven, or hell that's shining on the other side. But we, I, have to find it out myself. It's up to me what I decide. I need to find out if she's willing to take the risk as well. I'm not attracted to her appearance, intellect, coolness, personality, fame, empathy or career. I'm attracted to her heart. Honestly I have no idea why I love her, but I guess it has to be her heart that my heart is attracted towards. God has put me into many tests, and I believe this to be a test as well. Although I don't know what the proper answer is, but I must find it out myself. Either I'll find my soulmate, or end up learning a huge life lesson. All I ask God is for strength...

Probably with Astarion

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I just wrote a poem based on this :)

What is the name of the first music ?

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Como se llama la primera cancion

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ما اسم المقطوعه الأولى؟ ❤

Who else is here from the Discord?

I’m so tired of you helder! Get more piano pieces and make something more romantic instead of gloomy!