This is how I feel - I fight so much for my life, everyone depends on me and I have too many things going on. I deserve this cosmic rest. And even if ever get to that point, in that perfect rest, I can't take off my armour because something will invitably happen again... :((
Be honored you have such a fate. For there are those who do not have the ability to fight and those who have given up and turned to a life of drugs and degeneracy. Keep pushing for the ultimate goal of us all is to go further.
i am a soldier. i am a soldier that has recently fought one of the hardest fights of all the time. i am a soldier who trained long without eating or sleeping properly and mostly without ever relax. the fight ended but not the war. another enemy is coming to face him but he is not afraid. not allowed for him, a strong warrior who has no choice but win every challenge the fate will give him. i am a soldier. i am a soldier resting for the first time in weeks, wishing it could be forever but i will get up. unknown enemy is coming and i must get up. for my honor. for my family. (i am studying for an exham and this music is the only thing keeping me alive right now.)
I struggle with post-breakup depression and going to sleep is probably the worst moment of the day... but these videos are like campfires that warms me up on that arduous journey, I am happy that I made it through another day. It gives me strength.
As a human being, a young man taking the torch my father left me after his passing when I was just a tike, to grow from an ember to a blazing flame to protect my mother, my sister, my loved ones, and guard my bond with god himself, I know I’m not perfect, I know I’m not invincible, I’m not even all that strong or capable, falling into pits of temptation, wrong turns and mistakes, but one thing is for sure as it reads in Ecc 9:10 “whatever your hand finds to do do with ALL your might, for there is nothing in the grave where you are going” I shall never stop growing and improve to the man I want to be and once that journey is over, whatever may take my life wether an act of selflessness or injustice or even on sickness I will not have an ounce of shame on my conscience or life for I’ve done all I can as an imperfect man and this music is what helps remind and inspires not just me but to all of us as men women children everyone to keep pushing forward with all our might.
A friend of 5 years sent me a message and she just left me out of the blue. No explanations. I tried getting a hold of her through some apps, but she blocked me. On everything. What makes it worse is that even mutual friends of ours blocked me too. I did nothing wrong and yet all this just happened.
Life is an ongoing series of wars, be it spiritually, or physically. Everyday its own battle. I keep thinking about that, and, half the time, I think I'm winning, but for me, it's actually my God, Christ Jesus, that is fighting my battles. I am the battleground. The mission field. Everyday for me is a fight to maintain my faith, and to abstain from sin, and evil thoughts. Even when the words are so clear in my head, "don't do it, it's not worth it" I still do it, and I regret it. I repent, and a new dawn, a new day comes. The sun, shining, a crimson red, like blood, the blood of Christ, paying for my salvation. I will continue to realize this, everyday, with His help, that I may be sure of salvation, for he promised it in John 3:16 Soli Deo Gloria
She left me. I’m not surprised. I did whatever I could, but it doesn’t matter anymore. I suffered a lot in my life since childhood that I don’t feel pain anymore. I never what got what I deserved, and that’s fine. Whoever reads this I wish you are alright, and things are better for you in this world.
Brother, most of us experience the sort of pain you are describing. I myself was dumped after 6 long years with her just 8 months ago. You feel like the biggest part of you was just ripped away. That you will not be able to re-emerge from the dark chasm of misery that has seemingly engulfed all of the happiness in your life. But you are wrong. There is so much life ahead of you. And when the day comes that you get to experience true love, you will look back on your previous relationships with a different set of eyes. It's okay to hurt. It's okay to rest. You're injured. Just don't allow yourself to be in a state of rest for too long. The beginning of a breakup is like the coming of a big storm. The waves of emotion crash against the vessel that is your mind and body but no matter how much those waves threaten to pull you under, it won't happen. You won't let it happen. Why? Because you are too strong. You are not alone, my friend. You WILL get through this, I promise you. I believe in you and so do we all.
@@RebelRouser91 I don’t where you are, but I want to say thank you much brother! I appreciate your help and time to write this. These words meant a lot to me. You are strong too, what you said was brave to say it out loud.
@@Sven-Mjölnir You're welcome. Just give it time and know that healing from a breakup is never a linear process. There's days where I'll rise up early and get things done. Other days, I'll be lost in the fog until past noon. Do your best but know that your best and your limitations change each day. Be good to yourself, my friend. You've got this and again, you are absolutely not alone.
for this whole nine months, i worked and worked harder then i ever thought i could, especially that i'm never the kind of person who'd work hard on studying, i'm lazy and very nonechalant about school, but on this exam i really worked and studied more then i possibally can, for making my parents proud for once, making myself proud of me for once, to actually feel good about something i did for once at least...eventually, i failed, misserably failed, i feel so dissapointed now, and i'm much worse then i was before, it feels like knifes digging into my chest whenevr someone talks about my exam, whenver one of my parents even bring up smthg about the exam, my breath fastens and tears form down my eyes, it hurts that my best was never enough, all the nights i didn't sleep and those days i spent at school doing all i can, they are gone to waist now, like i never did any of it, now i'm left with no degree no nothing, due to some kind of law in my country i can't redo this exam nor repeat the school year, i'm feeling scared and hurt, afraid that mybe those voices in the back of my mind were right, mybe i am a failure, mybe i'm never worth anything, i don't deserve my parents, i don't deserve the food and bed i have evryday, i'm nothing but a dissapointing mess...
Keep your head up, soldier! Don’t put yourself down because of an exam. I know it’s disappointing-you put so much effort into it and nothing came out of it. You are not alone in this! Don’t fall into this vicious cycle. Don’t listen to what your mind is telling you; it’s lies! You will find your way eventually, I promise. You should be proud of yourself for the effort you put into it. Don’t give up just yet!
Rest as long as you need my friend, take the time to acknowledge and feel all that has been part of your journey. Sit with all your feelings so not be afraid to feel that is what makes us human. Let go of that which no longer serves you and keep that which does, celebrate your victory, aspire for ten months. Do not let fear diminish you for your strengths are far superior. It will whisper lies and poison your belief but you must remember to have faith in yourself in that which drives you, the question of who you are that only you can answer. Rise and join others along your path, together is how we survive. One day you'll be able to not just stand but raise those around you too and show what strength and might is found within. I believe in you Soldier.
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (book I)
I don't know if this is a good thing to listen to. My head starting to go through imagined scenarios of family and friends after they found out I ended myself...
