I wish I could cheer you up somehow, you are the best and he didn't deserves you, perhaps also that illnes of his wasn't completely an illnes to begin with, but anywho its already tomorrow so if not happy for the moment then at least birthday to you Alex.
I mean it sounds like he's not mature/open minded enough to deal with your problems so maybe it's for the best. I mean i don't know the guy but i sincerely doubt the guys problems are on the same level as yours. From my own experience i can tell you the paradox of trying to date when you're a broken person. You either end up dating someone that just straight up doesn't understand what you're going through or you the up dating someone that's also broken and things turn toxic because of course they do. I'm sure your arm doesn't look that bad. My arm has so many scars on it and now that it's the summer the older ones sort of reappear as white lines against the slight tan that i have. There are so many overlapping lines on my arm it's kinda ridiculous. I don't think it's ugly anymore though. I do worry that it will attract people that want to take advantage of my bad mental health though so there's that. I looked up what 37kg is in pounds and stones (I'm English) and that seems extremely low although i dunno how tall you are. I also kinda feel like its probably the minimum weight you can be without being at risk of dying or getting into that territory anyway so i guess it's good that you draw the line there and not at a lower weight And happy (?) birthday for tomorrow
@@davelewis8270 thank you so much for all the kind words. I know that 37 is extremely low, but I'm so obsessed with that number I even dream about not being able to reach it
@@Alessia_talks yeah no worries, I get it. I don't have any scales in my house for this exact reason. Right now I have a "system" where I eat whatever on days I go to work and don't eat if on days I'm not going to work. I've got weight to lose so it's ok and the only indication to me that I lose weight is that I reach another hole on my belt. I still visually body check all the time but I'm also very aware that I can't rely on my eyes because of the dysmorphia. It's not ideal but it's better than weighing myself 15 a day and panicking about the number constantly.
loving the platinum blond look. it really works for you. I'm also glad to hear that your boyfriend is feeling better. I had a video idea for you, but it slipped my mind. if I can get it back, I'll let you know. thank you for the update
@@Alessia_talks what about a video about the differences between American slang and Italian slang? (that wasn't THE idea, but it just hit me as something that could work) also I like the idea of a mushroom video
Hi Alex. I wanted to tell you that there are many vitamins, minerals and amino acids that can be given intrevinously. I have been taking a B12 shot each month for several years and it has helped me. Also these intravenous nutrients have less calories than a cup of coffee so you don't have to worry about them causing weight gain. They will give you the nutrients your brain and body need to function properly. They will help you sleep better and reduce your depression. I promise!💝💝💝💝
This is a very touching story so far, and your accent is getting better. Also I like the glasses; they look good on you. Thank you for sharing. I’m looking forward to more
cuore vai tranquillo, sei bravissimo ❤ ti auguro il meglio fr. so quanto queste parole possano essere futili, ma sappi solo che sei più che abbastanza, in quanto sei A DIR POCO formidabile. non sei assolutamente noioso, anzi. anche io ascolto video sul true crime, che solitamente sfrutto come "sottofondo", visto che li trovo estremamente coinvolgenti e interessanti. ecco, faccio lo stesso con i tuoi video. non so come fare per esserti particolarmente di supporto, in fondo ci stanno già lavorando dei professionisti, ma sappi che ti capisco molto e ti sono vicino❤ buonanotte, sogni d'oro. spero che tu legga questo commento vedendo almeno "8 ore fa", visto che vorrebbe dire che stai dormendo. lysm bro❤
I mean i hear your accent but your English seems pretty perfect (i am English btw) I'm not sure i should even say this because i don't want to enable you but i struggle to sleep when i don't eat. Your body is telling you to get up and go hunt or gather which makes sense.
I'm hearing a lot of good things: you've decided that you don't want to sedate yourself because it will only make things worse and it won't get you what you really want, and you decided to not let your difficulties with mental health get in the way of your life and your education, one example being that you made a RU-vid video even though it activates a lot of your anxiety about whether or not people are judging you. I wonder if you can recognize these things as the small victories that they are. The thing that worries me is that you say that your boyfriend is your only source of happiness, which is a huge burden for someone to carry and a sad thing for you to deal with during the times he can't be around. I wonder if there's something that you can do about that, like leaning into hobbies or interests that bring you joy and that are just for you. Be good to yourself and don't believe everything you think.
Congrats on 300!! I'm very sorry to hear that your boyfriend is still sick. I'm praying for him to get better I'm glad your new therapist seems good and is helping you could do vocabulary, translation and pronunciation videos. teaching Italian to amaricans could force you to use the english language more, and vocab and pronunciation could be a good chance for you to practice english as always, thank you for sharing your journey, and it's always wonderful to hear an update on your life
Omfgeez! I love the blond hair! Congratulations on 300 subscribers!! Also the earring is amazing! I’m glad your bf’s eye is okay I’m sure you can get the C2 certification. When you put your mind to something, you can do anything
Ok, Alex let me see if I have this right. It all started back in the day when the illustrious Mr Marco Polo went on his big adventure to China and came back to Italy with all those tasty spices. Which eventually led to you having the Hot Air Balloon hanging from your ceiling. I'm cool with it. Mystery solved! 🥢🥢🥢🥢
Ok ....I simply can not take it anymore. I have to know about the Hot Air Balloon hanging from your ceiling. Where did you get it? How much did it cost? Where can I get one? Please come forth with the information that will solve this mystery! 🙈🙉🙊
Question. Why has the silicone chew necklace for Autism, ADHD stopped working for you? I remember your biting the cactus necklace during a video you were filming when you could hear church bells in the background.
I'm very sorry to hear about your boy friend, and I'm sorry that I haven't had time to catch up on your grinding vids, but my plan for today is to catch up on your vids. I'm creatively blank at the moment as well, but if I have any video ideas, I'll let you know
You don't need to put out videos every day dude so no need to apologise. I know you don't want to hear it but your boyfriend is probably ignoring you because you're very intense. I mean, it's not your fault that you are but it can be pretty exhausting for other people sometimes. I know this because I can also be pretty intense sometimes. And I'd say try to channel the anger into something creative but I also know that there's a limit to how angry you can be before it becomes impossible to be creative. Personally I make music as my creativeb outlet but it's impossible to make music when the feeling in your head could only be interpreted as one big ugly sustained discord. I'm not sure about video on ideas as I've just woken up myself but if I think of something I'll come and comment it.
@@Alessia_talks yes it’s very selfish of him doing that luv. Could you do a video on your background like an over view of your life from childhood and interests etc etc ❤️💙
