When you put yourself out there on RU-vid, ppl may come along and gaslight you and try to put ideas into your head or give you unsolicited advice. Like me being one of those ppl There is a website called "embrace autism", and there's an article on there called "It’s not BPD; it’s autism", maybe read that. Congratulations, you just got manipulated into thinking you're autistic + heavily traumatized 😅. But funny enough, it might as well be the truth. I'm not just saying this because i read it online. It's a thing being discussed online since years and I know ppl offline who agree or look like Autism while having a borderline diagnosis (or both autism and borderline diagnosis) and people IRL agreeing with borderline being about exactly a rather edgy variation of autism or at least some serious😅 neurodivegence like severe ADHD.