I'm Reed, a 32 year old transgender guy from Boston. I have been documenting my physical transition from female to male since 2009. I have been on testosterone since 2011, had top surgery in 2012, and had a total laparoscopic hysterectomy in 2017.
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I’m experiencing this same pain. Can I ask if the hysterectomy worked? Last update I saw on that was 6 weeks post op. But years later, had it helped? And which hysto did you get? I live in the south, and I don’t have doctors that have experience with trans men like me.
I relate but for me its hard to stop thinking about transitioning when everyday i have dysphoria i also had to wait for 4 years to finally start transitioning so i constantly feel like my life is on pause as everyone else's life moves forward.. I know this video is old and im not sure if they would come back to the channel so... Does any other trans person relate?
Love your take on this. I think women’s college should be a space for women to grow.. including into men! It’s already a part of their mission, where they train women to accept and excel at roles that aren’t traditional. But I can see another.. conception of what it means to be a women’s college, and that would be to grow in an atmosphere free of masculinity or attraction- that might kick out butch or lesbian concepts, in addition to trans-men, but be more accepting of trans-women. I find both concepts more interesting from a societal perspective- perhaps a modern definition of toxic masculinity can be traced to men being excluded from socialization with women. Just a few ideas- I hate this bifurcation of society. I know Darwin solves all problems in the next generation, but I’m conceited enough about the abilities of the human mind that I hope we solve most of these problems during my life time.
I know this is old but thank you so much for this. I am transmasc agender and get questioned alot because I love makeup and feminine clothes. The trans care in my country doesn't allow you to be feminine IF you are a afab person so I always have to hide it there so they don't think i am not trans enough. Thank you <3
I was just looking for trans videos because I'm struggling with my identity and your initial experiences and fears are so similar to mine! I really do think I'm a trans man, but there's some part of me that's still fighting it. Thank you for this amazing video!
Insane gender cult reaction to a woman disliking her female body: "oh, this means you're not actually female! Your body is WRONG, and you were always meant to be a man! Now, let's put you on wrong-sex hormones with awful side effects and a virtual guarantee of a drastically shortened life + ample medical issues down the line. And.. let's amputate healthy female body parts + hollow out your reproductive system, because AESTHETICS! All so that you can LARP as a man, by emulating one, looks-wise. In spite of the fact that you can never actually be one." Actually sane reaction to a woman disliking her female body: "that sucks! But you're still female, regardless! There is no way for you to become a man! Instead of glorifying your self-hatred..? Let's try to actually help you accept yourself, and come to terms with your female body as it is! Perhaps with a good side helping of radical / GC feminism! Which might help you further understand WHY you hate your body so much." You are not a man. You will never be a man. You are a woman with internalized misogyny and self-hatred, that these supposed "gender therapists" won't even explore where really comes from. Because reckless, depravedly immoral "affirmation only" therapy, to affirm people's delusions, in the name of political correctness. Even though it makes said people, (usually young women with ROGD, more often than not), severely, irreversibly harm themselves. Because profit, big pharma, capitalism, and wanting to be "progressive", and "uwu, be kind"! I hate this sh*t SO f*cking much! If no one had entertained your delusions, in the same way as no one agrees with anorexic women that they're REALLY fat, or with body dysmorphia sufferers that they REALLY just need more surgery to fix their supposed ugliness, or with schizophrenic people that the government REALLY is watching their every move, or with BIID sufferers that they REALLY should just go ahead and have their limbs chopped off..? Freaking NONE of this mess would have happened! And you would instead have been on a path towards, (hopefully), self-acceptance! But instead, you're made to identify with your mental illness and suffering as: "this is who I really am!" Just because "trans"! Say that word, and suddenly ALL sanity goes out the window. It makes me want to scream. Used to be a believing gender cultist for more than a decade, too. Only been full TERF for a bit more than two years now. I spent at least four years researching this sh*t from ALL kinds of different angles, and was basically dragged to my current position, kicking and screaming. Funny how, when people REALLY do the research, it tends to end in them becoming gender critical, more often than not. Whereas it is SO exceedingly rare to see people go the other way! Makes you wonder why, does it not? I always realized, even as it was in the course of happening, which was exactly why I fought it so damn hard, I think. That: once you FULLY see the gender ideology stuff for what it really is, and you end up on the other side..? There you go, there's no way back, and you can never unsee it. Yet it's so addictive, further pulling at those threads. as it all unravels before your eyes, you just can't stop doing it. It's like watching a slow-motion car crash. Then you go back and try to "listen to the other side" again, and you see.. THIS. F*cked up, pointless, seemingly completely avoidable car crashes that ALREADY happened! And you can't rewind time to stop it. I should stop looking. Seriously, though.. We need non-affirming, GC, "gender therapists"! And we need to present you gals with some actual feminism, (NOT the "fun" lib fem kind), and gender criticism, so that we can hopefully prevent the evil mind virus that is this ideology from taking hold, and making you harm yourself! I know it's always like: "oh, the evil TERFs are such awful bigots, blah blah." Yet if instead of falling down the gender ideology rabbit hole, young women had instead become rad fems, TERFs / GCs, etc..? That would have hands-down, 100%, saved them from this destructive horse sh*t! And you would have seen SO much fewer young girls permanently f*cking up their bodies, because "trans"! And instead..? You would have seen them fierce, empowered, owning their bodies and their female experience, and fighting like HELL against exactly these kinds of regressive, deceitful, patriarchal LIES! I so want that for the next generation of women! And I want this ideology 100% GONE, in the trash, where it belongs. And yeah.. if you ever wake up, irollwithit..? Just know that there are tons of detrans women, (some lesbians, some bi, some straight, some still unashamedly gender non-conforming, and some more conventionally feminine now), who would gladly accept you as a sister! As would the vast majority of rad fems and GCs! Doesn't matter what you've done to yourself. You're still female, and you always will be. Whether you like it or not. It's all about whether or not you'll be able to come to terms with it. Simple as that. I'm going to stop rambling now. Probably no one will read this stupid rant, anyway. But it's just what I do, when I get upset by stuff, or I need to emotionally process something: I rant.
i think i may be a non binary trans if that is even a thing my biological gender is female but from the outside i wanna look like a boy and i feel much more comfortable with he/they pronouns and being called a boy the only surgery id get would be top surgery and i dont really see myself being female or male now and in the future
The only confusing part of this is that you've never tried coconut water before??? Lol 😄. Thanks for sharing considering a hysterectomy for my agender transition and am so happy to find other trans folks sharing their experiences
All I needed was a mindfuck dream and a sock to push me here. I've been trying to discover my gender identity for half an year, when I think back about it, everything really started to bother me atleast 2 to 5 years ago (it varied a lot from my voice to my name to my chest) i'm absolutely certain that i am not a female. And I am very possibly transgender or atleast trans masculine.
This video has helped me so much! Thank you so much dude, the part about not necessarily feeling completely comfortable with he/him pronouns but also really not being comfortable with she/her pronouns really resignated with me.
is this why people are turning everything into a gender? like catgender? I don't care if neurodivergent people invented it. it still doesn't sound like gender at all
I once told my friend who thought they were male at the time ( there nb ) that I felt like a boy but wasn't sure and they looked me in the eyes and said "your always welcome to join the boys". Too bad they turned into a jerk now
honestly I hate going to therapy. it'd be one thing if I wasn't sure of what I was trying to do but when you know it's just tedious. wish there was a easier way to get things done but i guess it's worth it in the end
Can I just say, when I was questioning myself in 2018 I came across this video, and after watching this I knew exactly that I really was trans, I started T a few months later. I’m scheduling my top surgery consultation soon, I just want to say thank you for this.
how do i come out when i figure it out? im having the same thoughts as the person that asked the question. and i’m 70% sure i want to be a boy so if i do end up being trans how would i tell my parents?
I'm so confused. I do show signs of being transgender, but I think I started questioning my gender "out of curiosity"... I mean, you can't be trans if you were just wondering "I wonder if I'm like them", right? Does that mean the way I started questioning my gender mean I'm a confused cisgender person? I also liked being a girl before questioning my gender, so that means I'm cis right? The longer I started questioning my gender, the more I think I felt trans. It's so weird. Things that used to not bother me as much bother me a little bit more now. You can't just "feel more trans" or "become trans overnight", right? Am I just lying to myself? Why am I like this?? :C
I'm a 12 year old "girl" and I dont necessarily *hate* my body but I really dislike not having a flat chest (I purposely wear bras that are too small and oversized shirts so I dont have to see them). I also have this feeling of anger, not regular anger, but it is some kind of anger mixed with annoyance and a feeling that something isn't right, and this angry voice in my head screaming *I'm a boy* whenever I get called a girl or by she/her pronouns or by my birth name. I had some of my friends call me by a different name, call me a boy, and by other pronouns and I dont have that same feeling, it felt right to be called a boy. The reason I don't know whether I'm trans or not is because 1. I'm young, what if I regret everything. 2. I love pink and pastel colors and "girly" stuff. 3. I don't want my parents to push the same gender stereotypes on me that they do on my brother (you can't like pink, you can't wear bracelets or necklaces, etc.) 4. I'm my parent's only "daughter", and they always talk about how they love me as a daughter and I don't want to disappoint them by saying I'm trans. I really feel like I am trans, because before my chest started developing, I still felt like something wasn't right, and I was devastated when my chest started developing because I didnt want to look like this (which is why I wear oversized shirts and tight bras). I also remember always having thoughts like "it would be fun to be a boy" "what if I was a boy" and I always looked at boys in a way that I wanted to be them (and I still do). I need some help figuring this out because im getting super frustrated and I dont want to tell my parents unless I'm 100% sure about this.
