FTM Transgender | Pre-Transition to 5 Years on Testosterone Timeline 

I am one of those that didn't now until later in life. I didn't understand why I couldn't stop watching trans people on RU-vid, including you Reed, but one day it hit me and the jigsaw of my life finally fell in place. I have been on estrogen for 18 months and I have honestly never felt better. And yeah, I'm 48 years old, it's never too late.

This really hit home and it feels so liberating to hear someone talk about the same worries and fears I'm currently struggling with. And it's even more liberating to know that this isn't just me being silly and in the long run it's gonna be worth it. Thank you so much for sharing!

OMG we have the same T day 😱 Congratulations on five years on T! I'm one day on T while I'm writing this and very excited for the future 😊

I can't wait until I can say this about myself, I have my first gender therapist meeting on monday morning it's not for getting on T it's just for support and helping me to get my family to accept my identity. But I'm so exited it's the first steps to getting where i want to be! Plus I loved the video it's a spin on the usual transition anniversary videos you see :)

im in the same boat that you were and this is extremely inspiring to me, i dont know if im trans or what but i know im anything but a female. im terrified of detransitioning or being a transtrender or doing anything like that but i look at ftm youtuber and my trans friends with such vehement jealousy. thank you for this

Im 17 and I should be starting T in about a month and I'm so excited ☺️ my family have finally come around about it I related to this video so much Reed, thank you for sharing it and being so inspiring!

I'm always crying at your timeline/montage videos. I love the way you talk about your transition and share your experience with us, so thank you very much

holyyy crapppp its crazy how much i relate to this. im at that point where im really thinking im trans (im 16) after identifying as nonbinary for 3 years. im currently on that big youtube hunt for ftm videos and honestly this is one of my favorites. thank you so much man :)

this is insane because when I was 15 I stumbled upon one of skys video one day and had the exact same experience . From that day on I never questioned who i was again . I've been on T for 4 years now and never been better :) its really cool that you shared your transition in detail like this man its definitely made me feel not alone and your vids are giving ppl the same feeling keep it up man

I really love your story and the way you were able to express what you were feeling during different times of your life. You're awesome!!!!

Thank you for sharing your story so openly and honestly. Congratulations on 5 years, and here's to many more!

Great video! Its amazing how everyone gets to the point of transition differently. I came out as trans to family at 14 and it took me till 29 to finally take the steps to start.

Hi!!! I just found your channel, and I am absolutely LOVE your videos! Keep being yourself, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

From my perspective as one of your viewers, I've gathered that you're a fantastic role model, down to earth, unique, and a generally awesome person, Reed! I hope one day I can meet you and share the influence you've had on my life.

Honestly how he was at first is how i am now and im extremely confused 😐

your videos have been so helpful and important to me, especially this one. Your journey almost completely mirrors my own, except i am only just now looking into transitioning and this has just been so inspiring. I'm so happy for you and thank you so much for putting yourself out there in these videos to help guys like me. :)

When you mentioned feeling upset about male pronouns in the past and how they could see you for who you really were but you couldn't, that resonated with me. I had a pixie cut when I was 13 or so, about 4 years before I started transitioning, and it made me upset when people would call me "sir" but now here I am 10 years later, upset when people call me "ma'am".

amazing! so happy for you!❤️💙

I was just looking for trans videos because I'm struggling with my identity and your initial experiences and fears are so similar to mine! I really do think I'm a trans man, but there's some part of me that's still fighting it. Thank you for this amazing video!

Am a CIS woman, trans-ally and I want to thank you for posting this video. It's very enlightening to hear what you went through and continue to go through. I know someone transitioning and as an ally, I want to understand what he's going through and to know what I can do to support him if needed, even if it's just to listen. Thanks!

Happy 5 years! 💕💪🎆🎈✨🎉 thanks for this video. I needed this today.

Love you Reed! This was easily the best video you've ever made. I've been watching you since your first video and I'm just so grateful for your friendship. :)

It's very emotive to see you talking honestly with all your heart! Oh, God, I hope I can friends like you... greetings from Argentina!

Your story resonates with me sooo much, a lot more than most trans guys I've watched on RU-vid. I'm in that same "in between" stage where I'm not sure if transition is right for me. Hopefully I'll get to a point where I'll feel ready to move forward!

I relate to your story so much. In high school, I came out as a lesbian (but the label didn't feel quite right). I came out as trans to some people during my freshman year of college, but I got really scared and pushed it to the back of my mind. For the next few years, I did everything I could to accept myself as a female, but of course it didn't work. I am currently entering my senior year of college, finally going by my preferred name and he/him pronouns in my classes :)

I relate to you so much. I recently came out as Mason and go by They. But I just really wanna be male but i diffentley feel as i will never fully commit and im terribly scared. Finding the courage and termination is so scary.

Probably your best video. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

Thanks for sharing your story. You're an awesome and introspective guy.

What you're saying really hits a spot for me :,) I am SO unsure, so confused, have been for a few years now and all the questions omg... I hate being unsure. I want things to be clear. my mind is like, "I don't hate being a woman enough, so i can't be trans", stupid stuff like that. But you and your stories make me feel a lot better about myself :) I'm 25 now and I think I might be at a point where i want to try it for real. Starting with my best friends and talking about pronouns etc. So, yeah. Thank you, you rock :D

I think you just helped me discover who I am. Right now, I'm feeling all of the things that you felt when you were questioning your gender. I was/am jealous of other trans youtubers like MilesChronicles and Sam Collins because they knew their gender and successfully transitioned. I am still in school so I'm really not sure yet, but I've been feeling this way for almost a year. I know you talked about how people always just knew, but I remember one point in my life where I was about five. My brother and cousins, who are boys, were walking around my aunts house, shirtless. I asked my mom why I couldn't do that, and she told me its because I'm a girl and girls can't do that. I think this was a small hint for my future. Once again, I'm not completely sure about this. I feel like it's extremely scary to come out to everyone at school if this is correct because I know that most kids there are homophobic and have teased me about being gay because of my short hair. I really think that I need to see a gender therapist, but I don't know how much those cost, and my mom isn't exactly a wealthy person, not to mention that my dad makes me go to church where they tell you directly that homosexuality is a sin. Do you have any advice? It would be greatly appreciated.

Happy 5 years Reed! Thank you for sharing your story and videos. :)

Man that sounds so much like me. All that questioning and confusion. Im still trying to figure it out tho but just hearing your story really helps

Thanks for sharing your story, I can really relate a lot, so it's really reassuring to know someone else went through something very very similar to what I'm currently going through :')

honestly I hate going to therapy. it'd be one thing if I wasn't sure of what I was trying to do but when you know it's just tedious. wish there was a easier way to get things done but i guess it's worth it in the end

Your story sounds a lot like my story. Though we are the same age I've only started T 6 weeks ago

I really love this video ! Happy 5 brother

you look great my brother and I agree it is not easy but your loved

Fuck. This video is super old but I just stumbled across it, while I'm starting to explore my own identity, and this... ugh. For me, the only thing I'm REALLY scared off is losing my husband. I think I might be a gay trans man, and I want to be with him and we have an amazing relationship... And I'm so scared of losing that. I don't know yet. The confusion you talked about really hits home. I don't know what I want to do yet. I don't know how to talk to him... I'm just very confused. I really appreciate this video and sharing your experience, though.

1:15 omfg the beatles posterrrrrr

I haven't even finished this video yet, but I gotta pause and comment here 'cause you mentioned you went to Smith, and I just graduated from there. (Quite the shock to suddenly hear it, since this is the first video of yours I've clicked on) It didn't even occur to me that I might be trans until about a month ago, and since then I've been struggling with it a lot. Anyway, I really identify with your story and I really appreciate your sharing it.

I need to do one of these basically a lot of the things you said I was the same way.. trying to fit in, the first short hair cut was like a bob cut but I made it look like a Justin Bieber look. I didn't come out in my jr year tho, found out about trans being a thing through Jayden wale. I still kept it to myself until I was 17. My experiment name was Hunter but changed it to Logan. With me I knew I was different when I was young young but thought I was just a weird kid so pushed it away. You are amazing and I hope I can meet you someday! Idk if you ever come to Maine with sky

God your story is so close to mine it’s eerie

Thank you for making this video. Awesome transition, btw. And I might show this to my mum if she is not ok with me (most likely) being trans. What you have said resonated deeply with me. I'm still figuring out my gender identity, and I have told a couple of people about me not being able to identify as a woman (I'm AFAB). After going to a trans* meeting with a friend of mine, and looking up more videos on YT, I'm becoming more and more certain that transition is something I want to undergo. But, y'know, I also want and need to be 100% sure. Looking for a therapist currently.. anyway, awesome video and you look happy (: and also very handsome.

I started T two weeks ago. It's so nice to look up to this.

I’m still in the questioning phase of all...this. I’ve already come out as Bi to my mother and friends last year, too scared to do it with my step dad and siblings. I remember once when I was casually laying down on a swing and these three girls thought I was a boy, I actually felt myself smile and it genuinely made me feel something different and warm. I’m still not sure. I’m too scared to admit it to anyone but my internet friend. Feelings are just...hard to process.

wow, this video is so helpful, thank you

I’m watching this in 2021 and totally connecting to this. Low key scared lol.

God bless your mind. My lil sis was a tom-boy, my granny was too. Loved baseball/basketball/soccer. They are also beautiful women. Liking things dont determine gender/sex. Dont let your mind corrode what you came out the womb as. Its not chance. By are decisions can corrupt us, focusing on outward appearance is vanity & is a corrupting focus. Long or short hair you are beautiful. Dont alter your body & play science. Love yourself, dont love the self you think you should be. This leads to your mind-will racing traveling thru anxiety. Lets live life by overcoming challenges not giving into challenges. When are thoughts & body dont agree we arent meant to abandon it but to reason thru it, and apply empathy to cushion the blows. Just like turbulence for a plane, it gets thru as it is & not give up the path, sometime the pilot gets coaching for the control tower & other times has to land to delay the flight path until things settle down BUT it rises up against the winds & rain...or whatever it is. It staus the course. Please young ppl stay the course & refuel or repair to get u thru. Dont destroy the plane b/c of the turbulence. We shall change our mind/thoughts not are bodies. Blessings to all challenged with this flight. Overcome this b/c there is a greater power out there playing God w/ our minds & bodies. We are not lab rats to be operated on. Love God. Jehovah created u & powered u to fight to show these psychologists, therapists, drug companies & surgeons that we aren't their playing ground.

Sounds a lot like me to, thanks for being honest trans can be a tough life.

Cheers man, really helpful!

five more years! five more years!

Inspirational

Im exactly in your shoes right now :( crap I'm twenty and still in highschool, fuck what do I do? I have to take all the time but my head really wants to try it all out so badly still, but Im scared....

Hey Reed! I just wanted to say that this is an awesome video! I've been subscribed and follow you on instagram for about three years now. It's amazing seeing how much you've even changed since then. It would be amazing if you could check out my timelime video on my channel being one year on T. Thanks for putting your story out there it has helped tremendously!

I feel like you described my feelings and like thoughts..:))

Oh God It's so relatable

Thank you.

DUDE. I relate so well. I relate SO WELL holy fuck it's scary. I don't want to realise it yet... I am 19. I dbt know how I feel but I know that I need... I NEED TO do something. And it feels right but I am still uncomfortable because everyone here knows me... my mom doesn't know much about it... she thinks that it's a "lesbian thing" (even though I am bisexual) and- She outed me to some of my family which is AWFUL because I am very uncertain myself. I will talk to my new therapist soon. But it can't move quickly enough. I don't know if I would make a great man... if I'd fit in... I am very dissociated from my body and... ugh

Wow. I never thought about ftm’s at a women’s college. How did that go? Kind of accepting, very accepting?

why is this my journey too? lol. thanks for this.

Do you have a full video of the haircut from 2008?

of course you went to Smith tho #noshade btw i'm obsessed with you

Do you have any advice for people struggling not nessisarly with gender identity but someone struggle to figure out what there sexual identity is?

I'm sure now. I'll take T

how about your parents? what they think about your decision?

Ηow many Hollywood great stars are of this breed?

My sister just came home from college as a lesbian, but whoa, come home as an ftm... surprise!

I'm that person who watched 1000s of videos before I could accept it.

Wooow! As an adolescent you wanted to fit in and had a hard time with that? What was that like?? I’m sure no-one can relate

He kind of reminds me of Jesse Tyler Ferguson

Hi

left-field-esque, but wowww....love that hair, hair, and hair....rrrrr! 😈😁💗

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On your ‘male privilege’ video (which had a technical problem so the comments were turned off): I’m a bit confused: if a CIS-labeled ‘woman’ transitions to a man and rapes a CIS-labeled ‘man’ that has transitioned to a woman, who is the oppressor

such a cutie :D

What a disaster. Criminal mutilation. Ugh.

anti male bigot tho