I didn't need to watch to know that it hurts. I've been crying since I finished this and I also wanted Kumiko to get the soli part. The moment she played the euphonium I knew that somehow it was her and that somehow I knew that Reina wouldn't choose her. I bawled because I too know how frustrating it is. But, when the soli started to play in that concert hall I knew, I felt lonely, betrayed, frustrated and yet somehow it seemed beautiful. I will probably never forget this anime just because.