夢のまにまに (At the Mercy of a Dream) English Subbed 

今後の人生にどんな転機が訪れようとも 一生好き

知ってる人少ないけどほんとに神曲だと思うから有名になってほしいなあ…

I've struggled with severe depression for about 6 years, and Id return to this song every now and then. When I first heard it, I felt surprised by how much I could relate to the lyrics. And most of all, it captured the melancholy perfectly. Im so grateful to Powapowa, for making me feel seen. That im not alone in my struggles. Wherever he is, I hope it's a better place. Rest in peace.

中3のときどハマりして課題やりながら延々とリピしてたなぁ… なんで最近まで忘れちゃってたか自分でも分からないけど、さっきふと思い出して探し出して聴いてる。 やっぱ神曲。私の中でこれを超えるものはこの先一生ないと思う。

2012年ものとは思えないほど映像が動いてるしほんとに才能の塊だと思う。 声の調整も上手だし。。

これを10代で作ったもたさん、やはり怪物すぎる… この曲がボカロの曲で、もたさんの歌で、1番好きです。 まだどこかで生きてるんじゃないかって思ってしまいます。

ねえ、きっと彼は罪を犯した。 不完全なままの言い訳を 並べた彼の口を塞いだ。 そう、言いそびれた言葉 紡いだ。 君が言うことが全て嘘だったなら これから僕は ぎゅうぎゅう詰めの中に 紛れ込んだ「それ」を探しだします ずっと醒めない夢を見てた 負けて嬉し花一匁 君は… 僕が沈む前、吐いた息を 白く染めた日に 刻みつけた 朝が来る頃に泣いた君も 蝶を追いかけていた 僕が見ていた夢は 僕が見ていた夢は 君が見ていた夢だ。 君が言うことが全て本当なら これから君は、からっぽな夢の中 逃げ場のない「それ」を捕まえるはず。 きっと「それ」を見つけられるはず。 きっと敵わない恋をした 負けて嬉し花一匁 ずっと… ずっと。

何回聞いても飽きないし、自分の人生曲って思うよね。

リズムは良いのに音が切なくて哀しい。 こういうの凄く好き

This was my favourite PowaPowa song. Well, I suppose it still is, but it's bittersweet now. RIP.

powapowap was so fucking talented oh my god. i hate that he’s gone. also… the concept of this song is so cool. or rather, i don’t even know if there’s a meaning to this song and that’s why i find it cool. dreams can mean nothing and they can mean whatever you want them to mean. you just have to let them take you away for as long as you have them.

自分なりの考察。 最初の場面に枯れた花と消えたり現れたりする蝶（多分）の 蝶が消えたり現れたりするのはその枯れていた花が枯れていなかった頃にその花の蜜を吸っていた蝶がいたけど、もうその花は枯れちゃったから、その蝶ももういないんじゃないかな、、、 そして、女の子はその蝶で、女の子が湖みたいなところで船に乗ってるのは、その蝶が死んじゃって水溜りに浮いてるのを表してるんじゃないかなって、、、。

this was my first siinamota song, wow. its been a good 2 years since I've listened to this. It feels bittersweet but nice to look back at his music every once in a while.

定期的に聴きたくなる…

今でも時々ここへ聴きに来てる人がいることが嬉しい

One of my favorite things about Vocaloid is that the “singer’s” tone is very deliberate, and despite language barriers, it’s as if just listening to way the Vocaloid “sing” is enough to understand the feelings of the song’s creator

I personally believe this song is actually about unrequited love. In the beginning Miku (or maybe even powapowap) sings about how the person they were in love with were quiet and didn't say anything and made up a lie to excuse themselves after she confessed her love to them. she goes saying that if everything they said to them before had to be lies (such as compliments and maybe even friendly I love yous) then she'll keep searching for those lies because that's what she's believed in for so long. She later on sleeps and dreams about them being together and the chorus, "you are.." can refer to the one she loves being her dream and 'that' of which she was looking for. Soon after that, they call her crying and quite possibly they may have broken up with their significant other, Miku believes she has a chance now as both of them have been dreaming of the same thing. Love. Yet, in the end, they still refused to be with Miku, as it was more than likely considered taboo (they could both be girls, or from Powapowap pov both boys) but their love for Miku is true but only on friend terms, which is when Miku loses complete hope causing them to become an "empty dream". Still desperate for love, Miku tries to stay optimistic knowing that she can still find "that"; love. Soon, the disruption starts happening, and Miku emotionally breaks, belittling herself saying it would never work either or. She then falls into a pit of depression, where she feels as though she's lost pieces of herself that can never be recovered.

This song makes me sad because it reminds me of powapowa. I really miss him . . . Rest In Piece, Powapowa. I hope you're happy in heaven.

3年？4年？ぶりくらいに思い出した 間奏がたまらん

3:47　デオキシス登場

この曲を初めて聞いた時から、なぜかずっと前から知っていたような懐かしさとどうしようもない寂しさを感じる。この気持ちは一体なんなんだろう。とても胸が苦しくなる。

To try to understand the meaning of this song, I looked at multiple translations so I didn't miss anything important. This translation is good, but GetProphetic missed out on an important part of the song; it doesn't say, "I lost a small amount of flowers," it says, "I lost one monme worth of flowers." A monme is a type of ancient Japanese currency. The song is alluding to the Japanese children's game "Hana Ichi Monme," which literally means "a flower is one monme." (Look at the Wikipedia article for more information about this, that's where I'm getting my information.) When Miku says, "I lost one monme worth of flowers," it kinda means, "I lost to you." Based on all of this, I believe that Ryo Mizoguchi was trying to convey that he was in a relationship with someone that continuously cheated on him. He knew this, but he pushed the thought of it away, essentially living a lie, or in this case, a dream. The "that" that he was referring to was true love from his significant other, but it was all a lie. In the end, the character in the video seems to be in distress as she is waking up, which symbolizes the distress Ryo Mizoguchi must have been going through when he came to terms with the truth. And yes, I do believe this must be part of what Ryo Mizoguchi was going through before he died, mainly because the only way someone could hide such a deep message so subtly and thoroughly is if they were going through it themselves. I hope he is happier now...

みんなが知らないからそこ良い (?!)

映像も音も何もかも綺麗でこの世のものと思えない 人生が終わったらエンドロールで聴きたいな。

高校の夏休み田舎のおばあちゃんの家で畳に寝っ転がりながら聴きまくってたの思い出す🥲 そらのサカナとか、もたさんの曲は聴いてると色々な思いが浮かんでくるよ…

なんか切なくて幻想的で知らない世界に来たみたいな感じがする

何回も聞いてられる

一生忘れない曲

この曲を聴くとなんだか映像も見たくなってしまうよね。

この曲はもたさんの曲を聞くようになったきっかけの曲だし、定期的に聴きたくなる

I miss powapowa :(

0:45 ここの音ハメで映像もバグる感じが好き………

2年間学校登校中に聞いてるけど飽きない

これもたさん？ え？ 好きな曲が殆どもたさんなんだけど 😭😭😭 愛してます

めっっちゃくちゃ懐かしい。一時期狂ったように聞いてたすき。何年か越しに聴くとなんか来るものある…

I think this song is about fining yourself, what life truly is. 'that' is meant as the truth here, "From now on I will begin searching for 'that' " - she is searching for the truth in life "I lost a small amount of those nice flowers" - Lotus Flowers, which can be found in the video, are associated with Purity in japanese culture, so I think you can interpret this as that the more and more she finds out the truth she looses her Purity. The dream is meant as the opposite of truth, "I was forever dreaming a dream from which I would not awake" - she was living in those lies all the time, so it seemed like she would never awake from this 'dream'. "When mooring came, you, who had been crying, was chasing after butterflies as well" - Butterflies can be associated with the souls of the living and the dead, so maybe this phrase means to, yet again, find the sense of life, catching your soul, finding yourself. "The dream I dreamt is the same as you saw" - They are all trapped in the same dream, the same lies. The Beginning could meant that someone says he found the truth but actually he doesn't know better so the the words he said "spun their own tale". This would explain the next phrases with "if all the words you say are lies..." -> She will keep on searching for the truth /"if all the words you say are true..." -> The dream wouldn't be a dream anymore, it's empty, but still you can't fully escape it, but she will be able to finally surely find the truth. Idk if this makes any sense haha. I hope you get what I meant, my english isn't the best and the way I wrote is a bit confusing. The only part I don't understand is " Yes it was love which would never come true" It doesn't go well with my theory. But maybe I'm at least on the right path? I hope I helped a bit with understanding this beautiful song!

I haven't listened to this song in years, it is great to come back and still enjoy it :)

One of my dogs just got euthanized after he mauled me. I loved that dog and I still love him. We had such a complex relationship. He had psychological issues from before I met him, and i'd had him for 6 years but couldn't fix his mind completely. My house feels so empty. I feel like a limb in my heart has been amputated. I didn't get to say goodbye to him. I listened to this song the night before my mother took him away. Somehow it feels connected. I hope my dog knows I forgive him, and I hope he forgives me for not being there for him. I'm sure he was terrified to die, and I wasn't even there for him.

16歳で作ったとは思えないんだよ。今も大好きだよ〜。生きてて欲しかったな。😞

時々無性に聴きたくなって戻ってくる いつまで経っても最高ですもたさん

dont u love when she says zutto the subs for forever become larger and larger

You got the "small amount" wrong. It doesn't represent 3.75 grams, it represents a coin that had a value of 3.75 grams of silver. I think 匁 is in reference to the Japanese game 花一匁. It's very similar to Red Rover, and children play it a lot when they're younger. I think "losing the monme of flowers" is referencing a loss of innocence that is present in youth? It would make sense, considering that a lot of his other songs have similar themes about losing the innocence of childhood and becoming an adult. I might be reaching but that's what I think, at least!

I love this. As expected from the highly talented PowaPowa-P.

After what I’ve experienced the past two months this song feels like it’s about a breakup and the character coming into terms with it. All the promises and feelings prior to it feel like lies and surely he’s the one committing the crime for having his “mouth blocked” and never being vocal about the issues beforehand. The butterfly head means she still holds feelings for him, she’s trying to sew the relationship back together. The dream she dreams is being happy with him in a relationship, the nice flowers she lost is another signifier of the love she lost. She mentions him crying, and both of them searching for butterflies, perhaps he still has lingering feelings for her, it gives her hope, thinking theres a possibility that all his words from before were true. In the end she realises her love would never come true. Maybe she still has lingering feelings, it flashes between her normal self and butterfly head. But it doesn’t matter anymore, because both the flower and butterfly are dead, the love between them and the feelings he had for her are both dead. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense, it’s probably just me self projecting and I’m not a great analyser, just wanted to put out my throughts

I was thinking, maybe the girl is dreaming, possibly in a coma? Maybe the gray world and the gray moth represent the real world, and when the moth flies to the flower and dies at the end, is the "death" of the dream and when she finally wakes up from her dream/coma. The lyrics don't seem to have a clear meaning, aside from the beginning and the ending of the song, almost "dreamlike." There's also the title: maybe the girl is depending on this dream to escape her reality or is living inside a false fantasy?

The video is interestingly abstract...as you would expect a dream to be...and the song is soothingly catchy.

Man, I'm back to this after so long. The sensation you feel listening to this song after forgetting about it in childhood is surreal. It's like the meaning totally becomes mine

every time i listen to this song i get so excited when it builds up to the part near 3:45 i absolutely love the eery tone it has and its very different from some of the other songs i love by siinamota rest in peace my guy thanks for creating these beautiful works ♡

9 years already

GOSH I FORGOT THIS EXISTED AND NOW IM SO HYPED??

Butterfly is probably reference to a story of a Chinese philosopher who had dreamed of being a butterfly, and wondered whether he was really him dreaming a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming him. The butterfly symbolizes uncertainty of the reality and dream

I miss him. Rest in peace, my favourite Vocaloid producer.

mvもサウンドチョイスも好き

rest in peace, i hope you found 'that' in the end

Not to get philosophical, but I get that this is the dream of a girl trapped in a coma, the beginning has some visuals that may represent the conception of a child, while at the same time talking of "crime" or "sin" (as noted by the translator). Later in the song she mentions that it is love that she cannot find. Also, the ending of the song has an eerie similarity to the sound of a heart-rate monitor flat-lining. So, I guess this girl perhaps conceived a child with a man who broke her heart and was less than honest, something happened and she drifted into a coma, perhaps her "heart strings", tendons in the heart, were severed by the severe emotional trauma and she went into a coma. Just my views on the whole thing. :)

The melody is so catchy and contains so much melancholy at the same time

今日見つけた。｢言い訳｣しか覚えてなかったけど聞けてよかった。 奇声発したけど仕方ないね。 だってこんな神曲見つけてしまったんだもん。

No matter how much time passes and how many times I give this song a listen, it still always is able to leave me a little breathless. It's just just a beautiful, beautiful song... and so layerd , too. I adora most of PowapowaP's music, but this one is something else, on another level.

Nee, kitto kare wa tsumi wo okashita. Fukanzen na mama no iiwake wo Narabeta kare no ku wo fusaida. Sou, iisobireta kotoba tsumuida. Kimi ga iu koto ga subete uso datta nara Korekara boku wa gyuugyuuzume no naka ni Magirekonda "sore" wo sagashi dashimasu Zutto samenai yume wo miteta Makete ureshi hana ichi-monme Kimi wa .. Boku ga shizumu mae, haita iki wo Shiroku someta hi ni kizamitsuketa Asa ga kuru koro ni naita kimi mo Chou wo oikakete ita Boku ga mite ita yume wa Boku ga mite ita yume wa Kimi ga mite ita yume da Kimi ga iu koto ga subete hontou nara Korekara kimi wa, karappo na yume no naka Nigeba no nai "sore" wo tsukamaeru hazu Kitto "sore" wo mitsukerareru hazu. Kitto kanawanai koi wo shita Makete ureshi hana ichi-monme Zutto ... Zutto .

いいよな

When you win Hana Ichi Monme, you sing "Katte, ureshii, hana ichi monme" (I won, I'm happy, hana ichi monme), and when you lose you sing "Makete, kuyashii, hana ichi monme" (I lost, I'm upset, hana ichi monme). So what she says is "I lost, I'm happy, hana ichi monme".

外国人が多すぎる件

The song is about finding out lies about your loved one, and about believing in an ideal version of them and of the relationship and living in this known fake world for your own convenience and fear of it ending

I actually kind of like Akidearest's video, but i don't like it, she's free to do video about everything she likes, but the thing that i don't like is her viewers coming every time on the comment section and say "Am i the only one that came from Akidearest?". I don't like it because i feel like that's an insult to Ryo Mizoguchi that did his best to do wonderful songs and had to leave this voice just to be aknowleged after his death by people that didn't even tried to look after him. I'm pretty sure that every people that comes from aki didn't know that Ryo Mizoguchi existed, and he his one of the most popular vocaloid producer.

Jesus Christ listening to this reminds me of how badly I miss powapowa, gorgeous drum and bass track

BEST vocaloid song! (Powapowa is sorely missed.)

曲も絵もおしゃれでええな

This the most beautiful song ever

Very difficult to interpret song, but it seems a little like the song is about truth and lies ? the beginning lines about "committing crimes with a mouth blocked by words left unsaid" sort of implies that people lie and spin their own tales, though we still know theyre lying. "that" which is referred to might be the truth. "if you're always lying, then i'll have to search for 'that'". dreaming could be literal, but perhaps it refers to the "reality" presented through lies? she can't wake from the dream because she can't find the truth. she's surrounded by butterflies (which are apparently symbolism for the soul, though many butterflies are a bad omen) so perhaps she feels like people's inner selves are exposed to her, but continually flit away and disappear before she can grasp them. the dream she sees is the dream "you" see--because they're all living the same lie. and if one only speaks the truth, the dream will be empty, and only reality will remain. this is probably really off base but... yeah . either way, this is one of my favorite powapowa songs. it's really just magnificent in every way.

I think this song is about being traumatized and realizing she was under hypnosis for so long. Please take note of the symbolism in the video, especially the butterflies!

I wish people would show some damn respect. We don't care if you came from "Aki" or whatever the hell her name is.. Some of us hold this song very close to our hearts and just seeing a bunch of comments about Aki is enraging.. Rest in piece.. 💔

Perhaps this song references Chuang Tzu. He was a Chinese philosopher who once had a dream where he was a butterfly. This dream helped present the theory of simulated life.

This song introduced me to PowaPowaP, sadly he's already in heaven when I heard this. I love this song so much, but it hurts me everytime I listen to it... I really miss him

rip PowaPowa you made this masterpiece of a song

You deserved more, man

0:46 suddenly gave me huge goosebumps

Look. Can we enjoy the song and think about the producer and how great they were? Let's stop bringing out so much controversy over Akidearest and saying "She ruined the song and now nobody knows the producer died!" Don't take this the wrong way, I never knew either, I came from Aki's video, without it, most of us wouldn't know this song, because not everyone knows about Nico Nico existing either! and I apologize if you take it the wrong way. Basically, please stop the Aki ruined it all controversy here and just enjoy PowaPowa's legacy! It's sad to hear about a producer (Or anyone!) dead, we can all respect it and just think Aki put this in her video as 1: A way of having much more find out about this song and 2: She liked it! I hope you guys understand, and still end this. I checked the times, it's kinda gone, but just in case. I'm sorry again

I read in the Vocaloid Lyrics Wikia that the line that talks about losing flowers is actually referencing the Japanese children's game "Hana Ichi Monme" (a game that is similar to the American children's game "Red Rover"). According to the wiki page for this song, "The name literally means 'a flower is worth one monme.' A monme was a Japanese coin that existed during the Edo Period, worth 3.75 grams of silver." I don't know if this fact will actually help with trying to understand this song though

I was searching for that! Tysm!

so if you search up what butterflies mean in dreams, most websites say that they represent change for the better. If it's true that PowaPowa-P wrote this song after a bad relationship, maybe this song represents how he wanted change in said relationship. Also at the end of the song, it sounds like he was trying to come to grips with this love that never was. Rip PowaPowa-P

絵とかもめっちゃ好き…

Here's my line by line interpretation of the song, sorry if its a little confusing I'll try to condense to solid points at the end. I think that the song is a story about a girl who's boyfriend has cheated on her since she knows that "surely he committed the crime" and when she confronts him he is shocked and taken by surprise, thus "his mouth was blocked". But when he finally gained his composure he gave her a "faulty excuse" and she knew that he really did cheat on her so "the words he neglected to say" spoke for him and confirmed her suspicions and they broke up. Now at this point the girl is reminiscing and wondering "if all the words [he] spoke were lies" but she decides to move forward and continue searching for "that" which would be love. a love that he threw away "into the tightly crammed packing"; which could be a metaphor for the trash or unwanted materials sealed away to be forgotten. But despite all of this she would continue to wish for love ("dreaming a dream from which I would not wake"); although because of the relationship she "lost a small amount of those nice flowers" (lotus flowers) which can symbolize her losing some of her purity and she blames him for this loss by saying "you are.." repeatedly. Now here I notice a slight poetical turn where it seems like her emotions shift toward being more depressed (possibly due to loneliness) and sighs "expelled breath", so she continues to think about him and their love and she takes her sigh and turns it into a wish for true love by "carv[ing] it into the white colored day". Here I feel the white colored day is a metaphor for a wedding day, a day she wishes to have one day. But then suddenly the boy "who had been crying" comes back and wants to apologize to her and wants her back. He tells her that he wants the same things she does since he "was chasing after butterflies as well". Here the butterfly could have multiple meanings, in the boy's case it could represent a promise to change, while for the girl it represents a hope for the future. So then she becomes elated and takes him back since "the dream [she] was dreaming is the same dream you saw". But as time went on she realized she couldn't love him after what he did and questions "if the words [he] say are all true". Thus, she comes to the conclusion that even if he is telling the truth he would be the only one who sees them having a future together ("from now on, you will be in an empty dream"). But she realizes that even if she lets their relationship go she will still "be able to catch" love ("that"). Here the girl accepts that their relationship was over (thus the "it was love that never came true") and she comes to terms with her losing "a small amount of those nice flowers....forever". So, overall she accepts that she has lost some of her purity over the span of their relationship and she grows from it. Thus bringing a new meaning to the lotus flower, rebirth. Alright so, this was a little longer than I thought it would be but; basically I find that the song is a coming of age story. Where a girl realizes that life doesn't happen like it does in your dreams and that no matter how hard she dreams for a future with her first love some things may just get in the way of that to make it impossible (her inability to trust him again, as an example). So this ties in with both symbols of the lotus flower, where her realization that life isn't perfect is one aspect of her lost purity and her wish to continue searching for love anyways is a representation of the second symbol of rebirth. Furthermore, this symbol of rebirth and purity is solidified with the images of the light colored lotus flowers rising from a dark (murky) background; where here the color of the flower represents her purity and its rising from the darkness a symbol of her rebirth and prospective to find love again. Again sorry this was so long, hope you enjoy my theory. Sorry if its a little jumbled too.

みんなまだ聞いてるかな

The video for this song is super cool

Thank you for the translation! Love the PV :D

I’ll be honest, I did come here from a youtuber, but I’ve put them in the past as this song itself means a lot more to me than them now. Now I come back to this song because I love it. I still give them props for introducing me to this song, but I don’t associate this song with them. I associate it with the person who made it.

It's already 23rd of July here where I live. Have a nice dream, Ryo Mizugichi/PowaPowa-P/Shiinamota. I miss you and your works.

Don't hate me if i don't write a comment saying that i miss Powapowa but... What if to be awaken was to be asleep and vice versa? i mean..we all know how much he loves changing the word's meaning. (Thank you is when you are irritated etc.) "when morning comes, I will fall asleep, good night" "When morning came, you, who had been crying, was looking for butterlies as well" There are lots of quotes that make me think so...

Though powapowa is gone this now bittersweet memory of a song holds a special place in my heart

to all the fans of aki who repeatedly comment about being from aki: i know that yall are fans of aki (me too, her vids are awesome owo), but this isn’t the best time to be commenting “Who came from Aki??”. I know that you’re excited to say that Aki brought you guys here, but the majority of the viewers are mourning over the loss of powapowa-p and remembering him by listening to his songs. Posting comments about Aki here will trigger lots of fans of powapowa p as some of you don’t know that he had passed on, and don’t know how much his songs mean to many of his fans. Please refrain from posting such comments, thanks :))

This is my favorite song by him, I can't believe it was by him! And I heard we can't be sure how he died.... or even if he did, he maybe just feeling a bit depressed. Nothing was proved. ._.

Beautiful! Just, beautiful!

Is no one going to talk about that amazing animation AND cool scenes like OMG!!!

一生の最推し曲

One of my favorite music videos!

Finally! I was able to find this song! I loved it so much and still do! I love Powapowas work and music. And yes I do know what had happened to him, I was extremely upset when I heard the new a few years ago. But anyway, I am in love with this song! aahhh!!!

今日で6年、早いですね😢 これからも聞き続けます

どんな曲よりもこの曲が昔からずーーっと好きです

I read nijigahara holograph recently and it reminded me a little of this song. The butterflies constant presence, hana ichi monme and the seeing a butterfly within a dream/"living a dream" stuff. The association between butterflies and dreams though could just be chocked up to both works being referential towards the butterfly dream poem. But even the whole ending the book like it started/ending the pv like the beginning... and loops and repeating cycles of life... there's also suicidal intention as a big plot point in nijigahara holograph. I don't know all of the symbols and ideas in that book just seemed a bit like this song and siinamota's work as a whole.... though I don't care for inio asano personally it's really interesting to me.

Years later still he is missed...😢