Sometimes I’m more bitter, and other’s I’m lost and miserable like a child when I think back on everything. The army was a cake walk compared to going through this.
@@togtart Not true. I’m an active duty army vet who stayed stateside in the signal corps, got a lot of buddies who were in combat and were shot at who have gaming channels lol. They’re regular dudes just like you. I used to go hang out in the barracks with an e4 who was in a call of duty clan.
I’m so happy because my gf is just so perfect. I’m feeling like a king with her but I am sad at the same time because I don’t feel like i deserve her like I feel like I’m not enough, she’s what I always dreamt about I love her so much
I feel that bro. Not alone. She is just so perfect and it doesn't seem right to have her. But just keep it real man. She clearly sees something in you, that you don't see in yourself.
YE IM FUCKING TIRED of really caring ab someone and wanting to get to know them. And they start disliking me because "i respond to quick" to there messages like wtf. Im not desperate i just want to talk to you im not gonna pretend i didnt see your message for 2 hours, im gonna respond how is that my fault. It doesnt matter anyways whenever i start caring ab a girl too much she starts to get bored of me. LIKE WTH why is it like this??? In the end there always looking to trade up anyways. My life is fucking washed
I'm having the same problem to be honest, they don't aprecciate you, I know that feeling, anyway, you care for them but they don't do the same for you, is the truth
I just feel like I have lost the person that should be meant to be with me forever. We have been friends since kindergarden, in Summer 2023 we met again and everything went perfectly. She was lying to me the whole time about so many things, but after I had found everything out I couldn´t be rough with her and I told her that I wouldn´t care that she lied to me. I really wanted the best for her. We created the best memories together and on Halloween 2023 we first kissed. It was my first kiss ever and it was far more beautiful than I had ever imagined. After that night she told me that she needed a break from me. I didn´t want to be rude and just accepted it. All my friends and family told me to leave her, but I couldn´t. After a week or so she began to text me again. I stayed up all night calling with her only for her not to cut herself. I was so scared because she began to hurt herself more and more and threatened to k!ll herself and started to drink alcohol. This whole thing made me cry every single night. I was so scared to lose her.. but I couldn´t let her be on her own. I was there for her all the time. This is a thing she didn´t know, but at this time i would have taken my own life if she did so. This person meant life to me. I loved her imperfections, her scars as well as every other aspect of her. In November or sth we suddenly got together. I was happy, but also tired of all the previous months. I cared about her and made her feel like a princess, while she was treating me like shit. But I was too scared to lose her, so I wouldn´t say sth. After her birthday in December, she broke up with me. Suddenly. I saw the breakup text, and couldn´t realize it. My soul was screaming. My heart was beating. I just collapsed. Well, you want to know what happened next? I thuged it out because i am a man. Everyone always says: you can talk about your feelings i am listening, but in reality, it's all just a lie. Now half a year later, I have tried to get into a new relationship, but my heart is crushed. I can´t love anymore. I even can´t love my mum anymore. No one. I feel so bad for this because my mum is the best person in this whole wide world. But the lover boy inside of me died. I am not attracted to anyone anymore. I am scared that this will never change. I am not holding on to my ex, but I am scared to get hurt like this again.
Stay strong bro you are a strong boy. Just love your parents and study first make your life better. Dont do those mistakes that i am did. Family first and your life after can go the girls.
