3 months of depression, documented 

Even while stressed depressed lemon zest you continue to rock that flawless shampoo commercial hair

Feeling numb is the worst, today I cried for no reason and you know what crying is much better than not feeling anything.

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

The thing about hurrying is an American mentality. Yesterday I saw there was a line behind me at self checkout but for once I decided I didn’t need to rush to finish as quick as possible and could do the task calmly. It’s not rude to slow down, it’s about giving weight and energy to the right things. Despite what American society tells you, you don’t need to be exceptional at anything, you can just vibe your whole life and it will be a great one! ~lessons from an Italian expat

I cried so hard while watching this video. I genuinely know how BAAAD it feels to feel empty. During the peak of my depression, it felt so scary and disgusting to wake up feeling empty, fall asleep at night still feeling empty, and going through the day and facing people with a smile, ALL while still feeling empty. I'm just really really happy that you have found even a glimpse of light in that dark cave you are currently in, Kaiti. I also thought before that there is no end in what I'm feeling.. but I'm proud to say that I am here, after almost 2 years.. present and alive. Not fully happy, not fully at peace, but still breathing and existing. Love you so much, my Kaiti Yoo. 💗

So incredibly proud of you Kaiti for being brave and vulnerable. Hope you feel better soon❤️‍🩹🫂

This is 100% how i felt the last few years. Went from a job i worked overtime becauase i was passionate about it to barely able to get anything at all done in a day. Cycle of exhaustion, guilt, shame, fear

she is one of the strongest. the fact she took a risk and shared this with us, filmed it, and realize what she was going through. Take care, lots of support

I have been depressed for a long time, but after taking shrooms few months ago, l feel much happier and highly motivated and my ADHD gone , lost a ton of anxiousness and had a few epiphanies about how I should live my life. I decided to buy an ounce for backup, but haven’t yet felt the need to take any more since then.

It all sucks. I hate my job, I hate my life, no one wants to hangout, my family hates me, I have no time for myself I'm just a wage slave still struggling to get by. I do everything alone. I go outside everyday but it reminds me of everything I don't have. Seeing so many people enjoying themselves with tons of friends and then there's me, just some nobody no one cares about who's been completely left behind. I can relate to you so hard. Whatever days off I do have, I don't even get out of bed. My life is a complete regrettable waste. I wish I was never born.

The scariest thing is that you seem so okay. People can not see what happens within a person if it is not an obvious wound. So much healing has to come and it will. My dad died on this Christmas Day, I was only 14. My mum’s had serious mental health problems and has been unstable my entire life. I have been struggling so much and people can’t see it. It makes you feel helpless and invisible. I just want to let anyone out there know that you will get through this. You can and will. Even though you have a lot to get through, the light is always lurking somewhere in the dark, you just have to find it. Thank you Kaiti, for being vulnerable and sharing your experiences, hopefully everyone can grow and support each other. Smile at someone next time you see them, you never know how much they need it. ☀️

Been there girl. I was also superwoman until I got depressed and realized I was a normal person. Gives you a lot more empathy!

I have depression, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if I’ll ever find happiness. I feel so lost and hopeless.

When I search up videos of people dealing with depression to try to feel not so alone, I end up feeling even more alone. Even other people with depression seem happier than me. People can see my depression on my face and my body language and they treat me differently because of it. I try to hide it and it still comes through. I hardly have the energy and motivation to fake a smile. I feel so alone.

I had anxiety last year, Nov. 2022 and thought I’ll be in darkness for the rest of my life.. Started lexapro @ 5mg and it gets worse before it gets better at first.. But don’t give up.. comply to your meds and it usually takes 3-4 weeks to feel relief but in my case, I wasn’t sleeping well and feeling physiololigical symptoms.. it took me 5 months to really feel a relief. And for now, I’m back to normal Praise God! Therapy helps and don’t stop taking meds once you started unless your doctor tell you to do so. Try to change your routine. I know it’s really hard at first. You’ll get better. This too shall pass. Have faith!

aw my love you have so much support behind you, and a community and friends that love you. i hope you feel better soon. always here for you.

I relate to this video so much. The pressure and guilt to work but you just can't. It's so hard to explain because life goes on but you're just paralyzed and can't move along with it so you feel worse as you miss out on things, events, deadlines... Despite we've been improving as a society in terms of raising awareness about it, this is a disease that's impossible to truly understand unless you experience it. So glad you decided to make a video about it. And so happy that treatment is working for you. We got this

I can’t describe how timely finding your video was. I struggle with anxiety, am starting lexipro, and I’m going to start therapy (for the third time) on Thursday. As an asian christian woman who is also led by creativity, you have given me a glimpse of hope to carry on down the same paths you are taking. This season will not be forever. Thank you for sharing your journey and here’s to getting healthier and better!

Seasonal depression is the worst, it definitely got to me back when I thought it was *me* that was the problem. It never is. Trust me, you'll get better if you keep bettering yourself. Keep away from crap foods, get sun and fresh air everyday, keep moving around and try not to sit still for long amounts of time. I find the easiest exercise for me personally is going up and down stairs, even if in short bursts, but each person has something that works for them. Don't start with a lot, even 5 minutes of being outside in the sun a day, and 2 minutes of exercise, is good enough at first. A lot of people think depression comes from bad experiences and traumatic events, when it doesn't, not directly. Such events are catalysts that start you on your spiraling path, but life choices, even the smallest ones, are what determine whether you're able to detour from it. Whether life events tear you down, or make you stronger, is entirely dependent on the choices you make. The path to beating depression is not a short one, it takes months of small consistent steps to get better. But it does get better. I believe in you! I believe in all of you!

Creating the feelings of love is what has taken me out of my depression. It can work for you too.

Depression really sucks , having pms dysphoria made me realise this . Those of you who are fighting it are so brave and more power to you !!

proud of you for seeking help and getting on the meds! they saved my life. 2 years later i am now coming off of them. It gets better❤❤❤ lots of love

I suffered severe depression and mental disorder several years ago after divorce with my wife. Got diagnosed with ADHD. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

here i sit, with a broken kneecap, the sun is blazing and yet i sit inside, not really able to finish a task that i still need to do and not really being able to apply for a job though i reeeally need money. very relatable kaiti, and very good to see your ups!

I (34) have been depresses all my life. The wors thing is that I'm depressed due to something that will never change, speaking I can't cruse my depression. I (33) have a learning disability. My IQ is approx 80. I got tested twice in school. It is mainly due to the fact that my mother drunk alcohol during her pregnancy (FASD spectrum/Fetal Alcohol Syndrome) Everything is harder in my life. No matter how hard I try, I always fail. I needed to visit special ed class till 18, I never had many friends, I never had the ability to visit college or achive high education, I only work at sign holder jobs...or fast food...currently I'm unemployed. I also never had a girlfriend, let alone something as a date. I still live with my parents. I couldn't survive on my own. I only learned how to do my taxes last year. I don't know what to do anymore. My counsellor gave me also antidepressants. But they don't help. All I ever wanted is to be healthy, but these pills can't change me. What should I do?

going through the same shit rn. whoever's reading this, please take comfort knowing that you are not alone.

I can feel your pain through this video, I'm so happy the later clips felt more energetic. Depression isn't easy to navigate but I hope you continue to feel better❤

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your journey with us. It's beautiful to see how you're growing in character and faith this season. I'll be praying that you will be healed from depression, this season will end.

You spoke into what I'm going through. Thank you for your vulnerability Kaiti, you've been such a blessing!

November 2022 was really a point where everyone was on their breaking point(it seems), including me. Some major endings happened in my life too- relationship, and a new career. I have been suffering for the past 6 months. Only in May that I started to feel better. All the best and all the power to you Kaiti. Remember to take care of yourself. Take your meds, eat healthy and go for long hot girl walks. Snapping out of an overthinking spiral is really important to me. Also dancing or some form of expressing yourself can help❤

Thanks for your honesty. As a person going through depression right now I realize how valuable that really is.

Welcome back! I hope that you're doing better, even if the road to getting there isn't linear. Thank you for being so vulnerable about such a personal topic. :)

i feel so much better knowing that i'm not alone, thank you for sharing this.

This was SO brave. I’m there now and this is the first thing that’s really brought me some comfort. Thank you for sharing this

Thank you so much for making this

Im so sorry you are struggling lately but thank you for being so open about it. I think society needs to talk about mental health MORE. I feel you with the medication oh my life!!!! I didn’t respond well to any of mine so I have been raw dogging it on and off for years (7 years no meds depressed & anxiety) its so god damn HARD! Im thrilled yours started working for you & I hope you find the light at the end of this dark tunnel ❤❤

Aw, proud of you, Kaiti Yoo!! Meds are hard to get right. Even if you don't get it right at first, it's still so nice to get a break from being SO sad all the time. And if you're paying attention to HOW they're helpful, (even if it's not your perfect fit,) you will glean great wisdom from your journey. Wishing you the best of luck, and better days ahead!! :)

You are so strong. No matter how you feel, you’re trying your best to get up in the AM each day and live. My thoughts are with you. ❤

Glad that you are doing better and thanks for sharing your vulnerable with us. That takes lots of courage. Glad that you are celebrating your small wins. Wishing you a full recovery with your depression. Also you have a new subscriber ;) Cheering for you Kaiti!

Kaiti, I am so so so proud of you. As someone is going through depression right now and am unable to get help, I know how hard it is. Thank you so much for the thoughts you've been putting out and I hope you have a great day

You were someone I really admired from the first video of yours that I saw. I really appreciate you posting this, I'm going through my own mental health stuff at the moment and knowing that even someone as impressive as you are has to deal with this bullshit makes me feel less defective. I wish you well.

Sending love Kaiti.🤍✨ You are the one thing in this world, above all other things, that you must never give up on... You are more precious to this world than you'll ever know…✨ Thank you for your honesty & transparency… I admire you.. proud of you!🤍 ​Isaiah 41:10.🙏🏻

Watching this has been very cathartic b/c it just makes me feel less alone and so seen, so thank you for making this video. Being vulnerable in front of anyone let alone a huge audience is so incredibly courageous

so so SO glad to see that you're on the mend! Depression is no joke, but it will pass. Just keep taking it one step at a time, and give yourself grace. You've got this

So sorry about what you've been going through, and I'm glad you're doing better. Sending love and hope 💕

Kaiti ♡ Your videos has helped me gone through my hardest and darkest moments in life, and I wanted to reach out to remind you that you are loved even in those darker moments when you feel unlovable 🫶 It is okay to take your time for yourself❤️ Best wishes xoxo

Kaiti you're so strong! Your vulnerability is something you should be proud of. Struggling with our mental health is tough but better times will come no matter what. Spread love always, you never know what someone is going through

You are soooo strong for posting this. Thank you for sharing your story

May God bless your life Kaiti! May He continue to help through healing and going forward. You're a good example to all of those who are struggling, myself included

Wishing you peace, Kaiti! It's scary to be so raw and vulnerable, and you're a brave and strong soul! Sending you loveee 💓🙏🏽

Katie! Thank you for sharing this vulnerable side of yours. We're with you

Kaiti...thank you sooo soo much for documenting this video! It helps so much. I am so glad to know you are getting better😭 loads of love💗💗

I love you so much Kaiti! I hope the journey of navigating life with depression helps you move from one small win to another until you feel much lighter and optimistic about life again :)

I’ve been feeling this way for a year and half. Hope better days for you. Your video makes me feel so heard

Im SO GLAD you are alive!!!! You are living. You can do this and im happy for any small growth 💓

Thank you for being so vulnerable! Keeping you in prayer, Kaiti! ❤

Giving you a virtual hug. I feel you. You’re already making progress. Cheers. ❤️

Oh my gosh thank you so much for this video I am going through one of the worst episodes of my depression and coming out of a hospitalization so you really made me feel seen❤

you're so awesome for this kaiti sending much love to you

Thank you for being honest and sharing this struggle bc I’m in the same boat as you been struggling the past 2 yrs after high school feeling stuck and guilty for it my classmates moving on with their lives and I’m not in school I’m ashamed but this reminds me it’s okay to struggle this makes me feel less alone:(

I'm watching this right now as I am currently going through something similar. This gives me comfort knowing that I am not alone in this albeit for different reasons. You earned a subscriber btw and I am looking into your other content. Thanks Kaiti :))

Appreciate your rawness Kaiti! You are lovely and so thankful you are still here 🩵🩵 hope you are able to seek professional help!

kaiti, thank you so much for your vulnerability- my heart aches for you because i felt/feel the same way after i got my anxiety diagnosis last year. If it’s one thing that’s been constant - it’s that God remains the same and faithful. in our highest of highs and lowest of lows, we can rely on Him ❤ i am praying that these past few weeks have been kinder to you, sending so much love 💕

I’m very proud of you! And I thank God that he has been helping you! I will pray for you so he can give you peace and strength 🤍✨

thank you Kaiti, for being so raw about your experience. I know everything you go well because you deserve the best ❤

Wow Kai you are so brave for being vulnerable in front of the camera. Give you a lot of respect for that not many can do that. We all go through it and one thing I know is your not alone just remember that.

I was diagnosed with depression shortly after I turned 14 and I have struggle with it for so many years. I’m 19 now and i still struggle. But not at much as my past self, who was in therapy two times per week. I want to be thank you for this video and for being so vulnerable. Depression is so hard and it’s so common and I’m so glad that we are starting to be able to talk about it more openly. ❤ I’m so sorry that you struggled with depression and I’m so happy to hear you are doing better now ❤❤❤❤

Thank you for sharing, Kaiti. Been having a lot of bad weeks lately myself, but somehow, today was an okay day. So, let's celebrate the small wins together🎉🎉❤

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I can relate on so many levels and the biggest takeaway is to stay faithful. Once I focused on trying to find the light, little steps of improvement everyday are appearing. AND be kind to yourself !!!🙏

Your journey of overcoming difficulties and now working to help others is truly admirable. Your experience sends a message of hope to many, aiding them in overcoming their own challenges.

thanks for this i feel so alone in my depression so it helps me and i wish u all the recovery

I'm praying for you Kaiti! These three months have been hard for you, but I know God is going to use it for good and bless you abundantly. We're so proud that you're going on strong!

More power to you for posting this. I've suffered from depression and anxiety for years, and IMHO it can be a very cruel thing to live with. Hoping things are looking up for you since this time.

Its so so so so so SO brave of you to be so open about depression! It feels horrible and knowing we aren't alone is SUCH A RELIEF. Sending you SO MUCH Love 💗💗💗💗

This is video is more important than you'll ever know. People need to be able to see what depression is from a day to day period. I have had periods of depression that were absolutely debilitating and would spend weeks without ever leaving the house. Suicidal thoughts would cross my mind most of the day. This lasted for 5-6 years. Now I am in a great place, but depression is horrific. You're so brave. Thank you.

Poor thing. Working is difficult. You have to push through personal things to work and support yourself. There is no other way unless you move back in with people who will support you. Adulting is hard. If you can cut out some high pressure things - school, toxic/demanding people - it will help you rest and recover. Good luck.

Thank you for the video, Kaiti . I'm so proud of you. As a fellow depression sufferer, you are truly an inspiration ❤

thankyou of posting this. your timing couldn't have been better.

One little step forward at a time, at your own pace. I’m glad to hear you are doing better and sending many prayers and lots of love your way ❤

I really needed to see this. I have been battling with depression on and off my meds due to not wanting to have that stigma over my head and not feeling comfortable with taking the medication. I have caught myself not taking proper care of myself or my work and it’s affecting more than even so back on my medication I am going. At the pharmacy now to get myself back in alignment with the better side of myself

Thanks to you kaiti for spreading mental awareness about this....not everyone talks about it...kudos to u

I love you! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this. You deserve the world

i appreciate your vulnerability and i'm sending you so much love 💓

Thank you for sharing Katie❤ sending much love and happiness to you! This video helped me to understand my brother’s situation more.

sending so much love and support to you!!! you'll get through this, it's a never ending journey but you'll continue to learn and find ways to cope and live life to the fullest despite your barriers.

Gave me goosebumps watching this. kaiti - thank you for sharing. May light lead your way.

hey kaiti (: fellow brunonian here. i was also started on lexapro when i was first diagnosed with depression - the drowsiness becomes easier to deal with as you mentioned but also happy to chat about depression, meds, therapy + other ways i've coped. sending so much love

I was diagnosed with major depression...I WAS DOING WELL for almost a year didnt feel sluggish had energy had hobbies now 2 months ago the depression came back with all its force I wake up everyday now with zero energy and cant enjoy my hobbies and my antidepressants arent working I wish I could go back to how I was feeling so badly and now I even have widespread pain over my body

you made me cry, i really needed this

Thank you for voicing so many of my thoughts. Im taking medication too and i feel a crushing wait to be better. To have my energy, genuine personality and moving has been a struggle

Hey Kaiti❤️ thanks for sharing. Sending lots of hugs and loves, and praying for strength for you in this season❤️

You go this Kaiti! :) it was so great to see how you progressed through the video, and i know God has great things planned for you

So proud of u Kati, thx for sharing your journey + thoughts with us.

big respect for psoting this sis

You got this Kaiti, only grow out stronger and brighter

I'm dealing with anxiety and fatigue right now. I am sending you so much love and a warm hug!

I love that this is raw and real and you’re not out here pretending or pushing brand deals

i feel you so much thanks for sharing this and im so proud of you kaity

You are so brave Kaiti. Thank you for sharing, thank you for being you. Sending you so much love and strength.❤

Currently going through a super heavy depressive period of my life after a few months of joy and it feels so confusing to get so low again after feeling so okay. Thank you for sharing this - authenticity can mean different things online nowadays but this is exactly what we need. I appreciate your vulnerability so much ❤️