one of the worst parts of feeling this way is when you start to cry and really let your emotions out and after like 2 sobs you just stop and don't know why you can't cry anymore
it started happening with me 2 years ago, now everytime i see something sad i'm like "time to cry" **struggles to cry and starts questioning if i'm really sad** i think the only things that make me cry is what my parents say about me and sad songs/movies/games (when people die and i wasn't expecting just like danganronpa and your turn to die, i love it because i cried so fucking hard playing it)
Am I the only one who doesn't just get angry sometimes but also cries every once in a great while and then goes numb again? And when I cry, I feel a lot of pain.
Yes, i feel the exact same way, but sometimes i do get really angry real fast. Though sadness and crying are what bring me out of the numbness for a little while
Although, I admit that my anger is almost always caused by something that made me angry. I get too frustrated, too irritated, too enraged, and I take it out on others because deep down I guess I have a lot of inner turmoil.
Ugh I hate it. I’m always so irritated then I feel numb. After that I randomly burst into tears feeling so broken and hurt. It’s the worst pain. Then the cycle repeats
That's how I have felt for many years. Going through the motions, struggljng, and not feeling. I was so sensitive in my earlier years. There has to be a balance between feeling nothing and feeling over sensitive.
That whole "you only feel something when reading or watching shows/movies" really hit home. It's why I'm so attached to fictional universes. They make me feel something that's not nothing.
When everytime I watch romantic/action genres I never feel something but when I watch comedic/horror genres the only thing that came out of me was my laughter and fear-
Seeing everyone in my life kinda pass me up makes me feel even less. Still happy for them, but I've been so uncommitted to my own life being numb for so long
It's honestly just so heartbreaking to see how many views this has. It's not the content, I absolutely love Psych2Go's content and want everyone to support the channel but just the fact that so many people feel the might be numb, including me. I'm praying for everyone
"you are on auto pilot" that hit me hard.......I realized that I was waiting a better future version of myself to take control and be productive. It hit hard
@@callizto1964 🥺I’m sorry, I wish I knew how to help you properly but I’m currently struggling with the same thing. I’ve felt this way for so long that it’s like it’s become part of who I am, ingrained in my personality. I hope that one day you will find yourself, I hope we all do. But for now, just remember that tomorrow could be the best day of your life, give yourself the opportunity to experience it. ❤️Good luck
LadyLemon 20 thank you, and you too! I’m planning on getting help from a therapist or something, and I hope that will and least start to help with my numbness. Don’t give up on getting better, and always love yourself. You deserve it ❤️
Seven signs you're feeling numb: 1. You're tired of being what they want you to be. 2. Feeling so faithfulness 3. Lost under the surface 4. You don't know what they're expecting of you 5. You're put under the pressure of walking in their shoes 6. Caught in the undertow (just caught in the undertow) 7. Every step you take is another mistake to them
8. Caught in the undertow (just caught in the undertow) 9. You’ve become so numb you can’t feel them there 10. Become so tired- so much more aware 11. You’re becoming this- all you want to do 12. Is be more like you and be less like them W song btw, i also listen to LP
Fine doesn't mean fine. Me and my friend use "fine" as a code, sense everyone know what it actually mean... ...expect her's and my family and friends. Anyone who is depressed or going through hard times knows what it means though...
I've been acting out emotions for so long, I just wanna feel them genuinely again. The whole thing about only really feeling when intrigued in a piece of fiction was extremely accurate too. I still have motivations and feelings, they're just so stunted and barely noticeable sometimes.
@emu1028I sweaaaar, but no one really understands when I tell them this, it feels like I'm just never going to feel genuine emotion in real life situations again
Whenever I felt numb, I used to watch series and read books to prove myself I’m not. Now I understand why whenever a show ended for days I would feel so bad.
My friends surprised me on my birthday once. I felt happy at first but after the greetings the feelings are gone and feel like its just a normal thing.
What if the instant response to everyone jumping out and the lights coming on "SURPRISE!!!" resulted in throwing myself out the nearest window with a panic-stricken fountain of obscenities??? Haven't even celebrated a birthday in more than a decade... and the possibility concerns me. ;o)
I feel numb almost all the time, but when I feel something it’s sadness, never anger. I don’t remember ever feeling actually angry tbh, just a bit annoyed sometimes.
I've been feeling something like this for a while, and I realize its starting to become a problem. I'll leap at a chance to escape reality, like watching a movie or video. Sometimes I'll just daydream for a while, making up characters with emotions in my head and playing them out, and then realize I didn't do any work but have trouble caring. Recently, my mom put a restriction on youtube, and its been really hard. I've started to self harm just to feel something...
I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this, and I’m so grateful you felt comfortable enough to share it here. It sounds like you’ve been dealing with a lot, and it’s understandable that escaping into movies, videos, or daydreams has become a way for you to cope with everything. When reality feels overwhelming, those escapes can feel like a relief, even if they start to take up more of your time and energy. I want you to know that what you’re feeling is valid, and it’s okay to struggle. But it’s also really important to reach out for help, especially when things get as tough as they have been. Self-harm can feel like a way to manage the pain or numbness, but it’s a sign that you’re hurting deeply, and you don’t have to go through this alone. Is there someone you trust, like a friend, a teacher, or a counselor, who you can talk to about what’s been going on? Sometimes just having someone to listen and support you can make a big difference. You deserve to feel supported and to have help finding healthier ways to cope with everything you’re experiencing. Please be gentle with yourself and remember that there’s no shame in asking for help. You’re not alone in this, and there are people who care about you and want to help you through it. You matter, and your well-being is so important. 💙
I feel emotional numbness since a long time ago, but in the recent years not even fiction is able to make me feel something. I used to love playing video games, especially JRPGs, but not even that makes me feel anything anymore. I'm really scary about living a life that's not fun anymore. I don't feel excited about anything anymore. The only thing I'm getting better at is at faking my emotions so no one notices. I really don't like to talk about my own problems.
Same, games that I love turns to get boring when you really love it. Until then, some of my favorite hobbies turned numb to me and I didn't feel enjoyment to it anymore.
Same. Nothing is interesting or fun to me anymore. Even the things that I really have a passion to do are slowly becoming uninteresting everyday. And if I do feel something, it’s either anger or sadness.
Towards the end of last month started meditation. First week cried a lot, it really helps me stay focused. Before that I felt stuck in the past mostly angry. What I referred to as being in a coma
Me, but I act the way I used to on the lead up to it because I know that I loved it so much and so that it doesn’t seem like I’ve gone off track and I want to convince myself that I am still the way I should be based on how I actually am but when it comes to it I sit there n just eat and receive stuff, that’s it nothing special no strong joy or excitement but still appreciation for the people and things
Yep, this is me. I also am constantly disassociating from reality, and I sometimes feel like I'm floating near myself, just observing. I also only feel through my imagination, and feel like I'm on the outside, looking in. And I feel like I'm on autopilot, and have little control over my life.
it just feels like your surviving through a terrible war, but unable to become traumatized. Looking at all the people you experienced it with not liking loud noises, crying from the trauma, while you just act like a normal person. It just feels like your a Sim whos personality slots havent been filled in
1) you're living on autopilot 2) you don't enjoy the happy events, even the big ones 3) when you DO feel something, it's anger 4) when you DO feel, it's through watching a movie or TV show, or reading a book 5) you're dealing with emotional blunting 6) you can't empathize with others Still watch the video to find out more about these points! Stay save y'all 💗 you can do it, some day you'll have what you want. You've got this
I’ve lost complete interest in hanging out with my friends and I don’t like doing fun activities anymore because they don’t bring me joy and tend to just irritate me. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. My therapist thinks it’s because I am not busy enough and need to find more things to do. It’s hard to find things to do when nothing sparks an interest at all.
absolutely same... all the passions I had before just make me frustrated too... like why did i even like them in the first place... now they just make me feel emptier because i can't feel what i remember feeling... i feel so weak... like im losing to my own mind
@@siana8807 I feel the same way 😭 it really sucks. I can’t even go for a walk anymore without breaking down crying because other people are walking around with their dogs and it makes me sad to see that.
If you ever lived on autopilot.. At least for a few days or weeks ; it's the weirdest feeling ever. Like, you don't socialize as much, you don't realise what's happening. You feel like if you took some drugs or too much medicine. Like if you had a strong fever ; you don't know what's going on. You are there.. Yet you aren't. You kinda feel sad if anything at all.. Yet if someone asked you, you feel nothing. Life passes in front of your eyes and everything becomes obsolete, unimportant. It's just... Weird
Try Indian parents who say "You are not depressed, now go to your room and study. You just need to get higher marks. No such thing as depression. You are just reading crap on your phone."
I’m not going to lie not being able to empathize one made me feel less crazy. Because normally I’m a very empathetic person and not being able to do that anymore makes me almost feel inhuman. It’s God awful to see myself turn from a nice caring person, to someone that’s dead inside.
Eternal life in heaven is a free gift from God. No human being deserves it due to his/her good works. We have all sinned and fall short in glory of God(eg.Jesus says if any man looks at woman with lust he has committed adulterly with her in his heart..No man is that pure😅). So how did God give us this free gift🤔? He sent his only begotten son to be betrayed,humiliated ,beaten and die as fine/payment for our sins and rose from the dead on the third day. Since he is a just God and has to punish sin. All you have to do is humbly repent of all your sins(read the 10 commandments) honestly turn away from them. Believe in/trust that Jesus did that for you. Confess with your mouth that he is your lord and saviour..You will be saved from hell🔥. The holyspirit(his omnipresent spirit) will in dwell within you and convert your cold heart of stone into that of flesh that can truly love God and be a slave of righteousness and not of sin. This might be the last time you read the true gospel of salvation..look around 🔥🔥 the end is nigh. Please don't reject God's gift. Your soul is on the line.Jesus loves you❤
@@keyboardevangelist no jesus don't love us and that works for yourself not for others you may not see but this is nothing more then toxic So just stop with your religion cause that's not how it works You didn't even ask to the person if he/she wanted something like that you just said it *Don't do that*
The numbness is eating me alive. 2021 and 2022 were largely pathetic years for me. My grades slumped in 11th and the entirety of that year was frustrating due to covid lockdowns, online school, my grandma passing away and having no friends. I still somehow managed to pass 11th with decent grades. The first half of 2022 was quite good as there was minimal school pressure and i was enjoying the freedom from covid. August 2022 was when things started to go to shit. I had 3 exams, in Aug, Nov and Jan 2023. I screwed all of them up and I just ended up hating myself for it, i lost faith in myself and became numb. Now as i write this is in March 2023, my final exams are over and i did pretty ok. But i still feel numb and i dont think i have recovered from the 2 yrs of trauma yet. I want to feel alive again...
My numbness is eating at me too. In 2020, schools shut down and I didn’t do that great with online school. I also got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes at the end of that year. In 2021, three of my family members had died. The only reason I got by was because I had school, Church, and my friends to “distract” me. In 2022, two out of three of my best friends moved away to a different state. Also at the end of last year I got diagnosed with ADHD and started college. My dad also got diagnosed with cancer. I realized that with the combination of past childhood trauma and everything that has gone on in the past few years I became numb. With the combination of numbness and ADHD I feel like I’m failing.. I often have days where I have no motivation to do anything. I just finished my second term of college and I almost failed all my classes.
I relate to this 100% with my grandpa dying and the school thing and everything, but right after the traumatic events I actually found great success. I actually am engaged and opened my own business. I still feel numb regardless of the accomplishment, if anything it almost makes it feel worse. Glad I’m not alone but it’s hard cause I just want to feel genuine happiness again. I hope we can figure this out and get in a better head space one day.
Find a hobby you like. Passion for something can help. Try something new. A sense of adventure may help stir up your emotions. Humans are not meant to do repetitive tasks everyday that can cause emotional numbness too. So doing new things makes you feel alive.
Whenever I'm sad i believe that its just a mood swing, I'll be out of it. And then i do become happy but i feel like my happiness is a phase and sadness is just with me always, even though its hidden. It follows me like a shadow. Anybody else?
Usually I get a "sad phase" whenever something bad happens (even if it's only mildly upsetting), and it lasts for a little less than a week long. Then I feel mostly fine, but the pain still lingers. It's like an inescapable cycle.
@@LL-nc7ne for me, its like i forget about the event. But the next time something bad happens, i suddenly remember everything. And it is an awful feeling. I just don't want to experience it.
@@apoorva6237 Well I can definitely agree with the fact that I remember everything. It's weird because when I'm feeling okay, I don't remember much about how I felt or why I felt that way. It just comes rushing back to me when I'm back to not feeling good.
I genuinely cry and become heart broken because the characters that bring me joy, comfort, and I'm in love with aren't real and never will be. They can never say it to me directly and I'll never be able to hug or be comforted by them when i need to. Ig that's why I spend so much time daydreaming pretending they're with me
I enjoy crying when watching stuff like pixar films. That's the only time when I feel stuff, feel touched. You may want to find someone as soft hearted as you and cry and laugh together watching stuff you both enjoy. I bet that should make you feel more connected and alive. I myself am a 20 something year old male, I don't identify as a female but I wish I were one because that should make it easier for me to do the same thing, finding a softie buddy to cry with at movies. I'm guessing you're a girl, should be easier for you to find a person who can empathize with you. Mind you it won't be EASY, but should be easier than if you were a boi. Stay alive, buddy. It's obvious you crave a friend you can share emotions with, so go find that person. Be on guard though, you are a vulnerable individual, easy prey, be on guard. But never lose hope.
Oh my, I can relate to this so much. I ususally make up fictional characters and stories around them and then put me inside of it. This way I have people who I feel like they care for me. But all of this only in my head. Whenever I can I think/daydream these stories to feel. Sometimes I cannot sleep without thinking of them.
I used to be super bubbly and happy and people said I was the funniest and nicest person they ever met. Everyone wanted to be my friend. However bad things started happening to me and I started feeling stressed and overwhelmed and I had a mental breakdown. After the mental breakdown I felt numb. I felt empty and emotionless. I don’t care about anything anymore. My friends notice that I keep my hood up and hide myself from everyone now. I don’t take my earbuds out. My face, my eyes, everything is empty. All I wanna do is sleep. Edit: So I felt like this for over a month, and it got worse. I started feeling suicidal. I got help and I finally felt emotions again. I had to cry and cry and cry until I felt ok. I’m slowly getting a little better.
Alhamdulilah Im glad ur ok ❤️ The numbness, from my view, happens when something traumatic happens and u block ur emotions to protect urself. It may also be that u dont want to accept ur reality after something bad happens, and numb urself. Having someone to speak to( a loved one is better) helps a lot.
In my opinion, you don't need to die to be dead. Edit: so, I've read all the replies and I honestly didn't think there'd be so many if you. I hope one day you can all find joy and feel alive again soon. I hope you all fall in love with truly being alive. Good luck 💗
The video: "3. When you do feel, it's usually anger." Me: "Oh, then I'm not numb. I rarely feel angry and I feel something when I watch a TV show--" The video: "4. When you do feel something, it's through watching a movie or a TV show or reading a book." Me: "(sigh) ... damn it."
I think it's highly possible other emotions can take over the primary emotion. Like sadness. Or anxiety. That's been my experience - at a hairpin trigger it explodes and I'm crying & my body gets aches from tension in different areas. And I haven't been taking in fictional media bc I know the feelings they used to give me aren't real & I need to know what's real. This is really hard. I was actually talking to a friend about how entertainment media can give us (individuals in society) a fuller sense of something we might otherwise experience in a well-rounded, socially-fulfilling life (ie for neurotypical ppl *or* folks who face mental health challenges). I actually wonder if feeling things from media dulls what we're able to feel in other areas, if we rely on escapism to fulfill us. I'm realizing that it doesn't really matter right now bc everything is wrong & bad & I need gas in the tank. Now it's just overwhelming to even think abt what I want to intake... I've seen it said that some ppl w anxiety watch the same show/movie over & over rather than try something new bc what they know is predictable, reliable for the emotional experience, not a wasted time & energy investment, and for sure not triggering bc we know it start to end. But that's not how real life is either. I think I watch ppl play video games bc there's a level of socialness overlay on the media I'm ingesting, reminding me it's not real even if it's compelling and giving me a sensation of social interaction, experiencing something "together" w the player in the video on my screen. Best of luck to you. Being numb fucking sucks. I hope you find a way to feel more w/o too much of that "more" being awful & bad.
@@TrulyAndCompletely I used to believe in coincidences but not now. Your reply came in when I needed it. Just few days ago, I snapped at someone close to me because of something trivial and, due to an old unhealthy habit, I redirected the anger to myself. Afterwards I ended up watching some movies that made me feel something other than the anger. I guess we do consume entertainment media as an escape but, yeah, it also dulls our true emotions. I think some of us who are going through this numbness, including me, have become too afraid and/or exhausted to share and feel emotional experiences with real people. A part of me wants to get professional help but by the end of the day it all goes back to the one question: "Do I want it to change?" We know we need to change something in our life to stop feeling numb; the problem is some of us end up holding on to this numbness because we're used to it even when it sucks. Thank you for sharing your story; it's always good to know that there are those who are trying to go through it. Best of luck to you, too.
@@matorihidensnow2998 I'm glad it was helpful. You can choose to change and still maintain coping skills for tough emotions. As long as you come back around to your feelings - in this case internalizing anger - you can deal w it w ppl who care abt you; I think they'd rather understand how you felt & why you did what you did than let you feel angry towards yourself. I'm trying to get professional help, too. You're worth investing in; whether or not you seek out a pro brain sleuth, know that being vulnerable opens the door to things getting better. Things you'd never experience if you watch a movie to fix every time you feel bad. You deserve *real* good feelings but it takes consistency in doing hard things. If this is a sign... You're gonna be okay. And I am, too. 💕 (Oh hey, btw - I've really appreciated reddit communities for putting things in perspective this past year, lurking *and* responding. We're kinder to others than we are to ourselves. Maybe that could help crack open some hard nutshells - seeing what other ppl go through, their questions for the internet, and the cumulative brainpower/experience in the advice given on how ppl deal (and what happens when you don't). Various subreddits; only you'd know what'll be helpful to you.)
i haven't felt like myself in years, it feels like i'm watching myself through a screen all the time, and not even anger is there anymore. i tried therapy and couldn't find any ways to explain how i was feeling, or not feeling, sometimes i look for sad videos just to feel something, but i cant cry anymore. if anyone starts feeling a little bit like this. do the things you love and feel what you want to. please experience life
I'm the same way man, have been since middle school. Can't feel anything, positive or negative, antidepressants haven't worked, and I have no clue what to do. Best of luck.
I was having this deep talk with my brother once and he became genuinely concerned I wasn't crying or expressing emotion when I mentioned how much I was struggling. I can also relate to living on autopilot and only experiencing emotions when reading or watching something that's completely unrelated to my own life. I also get easily pissed off due to the smallest things and find myself dissociating when I get stressed out.
@Pop11n H34dz Tbh I feel this way, I've been feeling this way for 7-8 months (since July/August) and I don't really care at all, I can relate to every single signs in this video, add in irritatibility when I talk to anyone and we're good, I'm currently forcing myself to type this so that maybe someone has an idea on how to fix it, and hopefully something that I haven't already tried yet. Even tho my irritability is slowly starting to leave and I can handle normal conversations again. I just feel extremely irritated when someone tries to make me empathize or when I hear someone's problems. I can kinda see where this comes from but it doesn't really affect me anymore to know or not, I just hope someday I'll be back to normal, even tho I don't hope as much as I did at first and it doesn't do anything to me anymore to know that I'm in this state. I started focusing at school again 4 weeks ago because I had completely lost my motivation and stopped concentrating since the beginning of last year. I also (somehow) found something that gives me interest sometimes like, once every 3 or 4 days, which is studying the human brain because there's a huge amount of knowledge. Sometimes I don't know what to do with the rest of my days, I only get scared a few times when I'm on my way back home, especially when I finish school early because I don't know what I'm gonna do at home, nothing interests me, nothing related to dopamine attracts me either. I didn't know I could do that but, I lay in my bed, I don't sleep, I just lay in my bed, doing nothing, for hours until it's long enough for me to go to sleep and wake up early in the morning to do this again.
@Pop11n H34dz i feel like this may be me with my boyfriend, he tells me he feels this way a lot but i’m no fully grasping the concept. i rlly want to be there for him i just really don’t know how
Whenever I feel anger, joy, or probably even sadness, there's always this sinking feeling in the stomach... and when it touches down, I immediately feel nothing.
*Me before Christmas* : **Has a breakdown because I’m not old enough to drink my dad’s beer as I’m unsure of what to get people** (that’s one of the only times I show some kind of emotion).
1 : you are living on autopilot 2 : you don't enjoy the happy events, even the big ones 3 : when you do feel something, and it's anger 4 : when you do feel, it's through watching a movie or reading a book 5 : you're dealing with emotional blunting 6 : you can't empathize with others
Thanks for the bullet points. It’s just sad that I finally found something that describes me. Pharma can’t be trusted so I’m not sure where to go next. It’s not like I want to be like this...
@@themicrochip find a therapist to talk to. It may not solve all your problems but it makes it easier when someone can point out your cognitive dissonances and tell you ways to cope that are healthy. I got over my anger issues and hating myself that way. I’m still severely depressed, especially since I haven’t seen a therapist regularly in almost 2 years, but trust me, it might be able to help you
@@themicrochip That's a self-fulfilling prophecy. Yes, it can be hard to find the right fit. But you're not allowing the possibility. Psychologytoday allows you to filter for your specific wants in a therapist
Years after a very traumatic event I asked my mother for therapy because I felt ready to take that step, she had just finished telling my brother to try therapy after he had gotten out of a tough relationship so I figured it was good timing. She knows how hard it is for me to ask for help and even comments on it alot, she also knows how hard it seems for me to express or feel any emotion. I ended up bursting into tears while asking her to get professional help, and she just told me I didn't need it and that strong people don't need therapists. She said I just needed to remain positive. The amount of betrayal and pain I felt right then was absolutely crushing.
You deserve therapy not because you're weak but because what you struggle with every day is hard, valid and none of us can do it on our own. I hope you get what you need, and the way you're treated by others doesn't reflect who you are. Good luck
Omg. How could she say something like that? I sincerely hope you're okay. You've probably heard this before but you're gonna be okay, no matter what. I pray for you 💖
I'm sorry about that. You shouldn't have to feel that way and be treated that way. Even if she was being genuine and tried to comfort you, you deserved better than that.
I did not see this when i was feeling numb. My mother died, 2 days before my birthday. And I did not feel anything when i heard the news. I forced myself to cry to show my grandmother and family that I was feeling something. I knew that I was feeling numb and openly talked to my sister in law about it, but no one really helped me. So for the rest of the month of February, I felt numb. and let out my anger on my father.. I masked my emotions for so long. I should have looked for this video a long time ago.
i feel you,when my mother was dead i felt nothing my chest was just empty, i went numb and sometimes I let out my anger on my father too... the things I related to to you
1. You're living on autopilot 1:15 2. You don't enjoy happy events, even the big ones 2:04 3. When you do feel something, it's anger 2:50 4. When you do feel, it's through watching a movie, TV show or reading a book 3:53 5. You're dealing with emotional blunting 4:51 6. You can't empathize with others 5:54
I realize I feel emotional numbness when I know I feel sad, I can't show any emotion and confused, but when I watch a movie, I cry when the character's having a problem, I feel happy when they're enjoy their life, etc.
Sounds to me like your an empath. I think being an empath and feeling everyone else's feelings is so draining that we just don't have anything left to feel our own feelings. I am an empath and I've realized I feel others feelings way more than I feel my own. I've struggled with depression and anxiety basically my whole life but for the past couple years I've been feeling numb. It's exhausting and infuriating!!
i feel super numb pretty much all the time but recently as i was reading a story and a the antagonist toyed with the life of an innocent person, making the protagonist beg, before killing them in cold blood and i remember just seeing a line about their body and sobbing. i hadn’t cried in forever but that one scene had me on the kitchen floor scream crying like my child had been killed. it was nice being hysterical while it lasted.
This sound like me, i feel the emotions when im watching a movie or online but when im not i can't empathise or feel anything. Like when my grandmother died i knew i should feel sad or mad or something but i couldnt.
I relate to all. I’m in counseling but it’s not working. I just feel it’s something I have to do to work to get better. I’m at the point of just giving up and not caring anymore.
Anger and frustration are the only two emotions that I relate to. That’s not to say I live daily in those states, but that nothing else exists. I can’t tell you the last time I experienced joy or happiness, but I can guarantee that anxiety and worry were present yesterday.
i literally don’t know anymore. im not depressed or sad i just dont feel anything. i only feel genuinely happy in my daydream life, i live the best life in my head, or reading wattpad, but then when its time for a reality check i just feel nothing. 💁
I thought it was just me... I can feel happy throughout the day with family members or with my best friend, but while everything is going on I fantasize about an alternate world where exciting things happen and I can have a purpose and we could all just have fun going on adventures in this fantasy land. I use so many escape mechanisms to fulfill this desire, sometimes I get so entangled in these thoughts I always feel excited as though I’m preparing to go to that world, only to be hit with the reality that it doesn’t exist. Thinking about growing up and having to deal with adult things and college soon, just everything, it makes me wanna dive deeper into this world I have in my head. It makes me feel like I’m really crazy, but I just feel so disconnected with this world. When I go outside I’m aware that I’m here, but I’m not. I wonder if you feel this way too
Here´s an interesting question: What if there´s an event that SHOULD make you feel a certain way? I.e. loved one dying or other "traumatic" events, but instead you just feel nothing? Like while everyone is going through the reasonable responses you just kind off accept reality and move towards the next thing without the felt need to grief?
My maternal grandma died during pandemic from cancer. It was not an easy period, she was suffering and we knew what was to come but we tried everything that could help her anyways. Unfortunately it was not there when she passed away. I received the news on call from my mother crying. I just hummed and went to sleep. The next day went to funeral feel extremely empty. I didn't shed a single tear and i know for a fact a couple of my relatives judged me because of that. Anyways, i would never admit this irl cause it will be cruel to my mother who was having such a hard time, but the days following her funeral were the happiest days i had that year. Honestly, i don't want to make excuses but we all have different ways of grieving and some of us have not discovered them yet. Some of us can't let grief hit us like a train, we need a passage of time to come in terms with the tragedy and more time to deal with it. Sometimes it involves living our life as it was without feeling anything. But don't worry grief finds it way to come out always
My dad had a heart attack A month or two ago now, and he is fine, but in the process of the whole thing I didn't feel anything, like, at all. I felt numb
Me too!!! I really tried to think about when this lack of feeling began and it seems it started with my Grandfather's death. I was eerily numb when it happened and since then it's like I don't have the same capacity to feel as I once did. I really miss it.@@emu1028
@@emu1028same, there was a point in my life when I felt so lively and emotionally rich (I'm 16 rn), I felt pleasure in the simplest of things, but also compassion and grief on sadder occasions. It all seemed so perfect, and at some point I remember feeling like it had to go downhill at some point, it was just this tinge of oversatisfaction, and that scared me. And over the next two years, that is exactly what happened. Now I don't really know who I am. don't feel anything like I used to. Emotions are not entirely uncommon for me, but I mostly think I'm putting on a mask and am never 'happy', so much so that I don't really understand what it means to be genuinely satisfied and happy anymore.
I got out of it by talking more to the others and engaging more in social interactions in general. Also tried stuff I didn't usually do (drawing for example). Getting out of daily routine. Also, I went in some trips, it's amazing how helpful travelling can be. But the thing that helped me most was the connection with God, the idea that there's a light at the end of the tunnel and that He was near me was very encouraging.
im having more fun watching edits and see funny content on ani tiktok than hanging out with my friends , i don't feel like im sad but i don't feel happy either- idk about extreme anger but every once in a while i'll randomly cry and it's like my life flashes infront of my eyes..every experience i've been through and how it could've been different (not exactly sure what to do anymore)
Similar but different, instead of anger like they said I feel annoyance, sadly I don't remember many of the happy or big events that have happened, and if I do remember, its not in detail
Yeah my strong emotion isn't anger my strong emotion is sadness.. I can go a period of time just numb to everything but once i'm completely alone i just feel sadness until my brain decides its felt enough for the rest of the day
Same, but without the additional emotions. I just feel lost and tired, but not hopeless since I can still feel happiness when I hangout with friends. But the feeling immediately disappears when I'm alone. Like I'm very conscious of when I switch from my smiling face with friends to my default face when alone, which along comes numbness and confusion.
“You feel numb no matter what you do” - well I feel comfort and happiness whenever I listen to asmr audios of people talking to me 3:50 “You do feel when it’s in a tv show, book, but or movie” ... 𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓 𝘍𝘙𝘐𝘊𝘒
😂literally same. But then I finish watching something and the second I turn it off it’s back to feeling numb again. That’s why I usually watch shows with with round 10 seasons and 20 episodes each.
For number 3, I'm wandering if the "strong feeling" can be fear/anxiety, instead of anger? If so, I can relate with every single point in this video 😅 Btw , thank you so much for these short and very understandable videos, they really help me understand a lot more about different mental health issues. It is extremely useful as a future health professional, but also for personal understanding and growth
i can relate to you, i dont have much anger, but my anxiety is so amped up its crazy other than anxiety i dont feel anything, happiness, sadness, satisfaction, empathy, love etc
Does anyone feel like they have to act “happy” like smile or laugh in front of your friends just so you’re not awkward or don’t draw attention? Whereas your generally numb and just don’t feel anything. That’s me all the time. When my friend shows me a video that she finds funny, I feel like I am forced by a being or person to laugh so that I could fit in.
i think everytime i go to work i will just smiling and pretend to laugh when thing a not even funny for me, pretend to be happy, pretend that im okay, dont know how to say no or refuse. dont know how to get angry. all i do is smile. but at home, i cant even smile for myself. empty. maybe this is why i dont even have 'friend'.
i do this but because i don't want to disappoint or hurt my friends/loved ones. i don't want them to think something's wrong so I'll act and if they do notice I'm a little off, i don't want them to feel like they are subpar or that they don't make a positive difference in my life. So i act.
One thing I'd add is that if you're emotionally numb for a long period of time you can't really tell how you're going to feel about certain events, and when something does happen the emotional blow feels devastating.
The thing is, I can barely cry. No matter how bad I’m feeling, I just can’t cry. I can only cry if something hurts to the point where I can’t take it. I don’t think I’m completely numb (I’m not sure).
Same I cant even get a tear out. My therapist said that I have emotional numbness due to ptsd of being shown as a kid that sensitivity only produced bullying and pain.
I've actually been thinking about this kind of stuff, realizing how I haven't really felt much in a while, like I was more observing than interacting. This video hit home. I relate to all of these bit the medication, as I don't take any of those listed. And then the anger point is true, but instead of anger it's guilt and/or regret for whatever reason. The empathy part felt real too. My realization of numbness came from a venting friend, and me noticing that I didn't feel bad for her, or empathetic at all. I was just listening, uncertain of what to say.
I know how most of that feels bar the medication and empathy. While I also personally don't feel what they feel and feel nothingness, I feel the ability to empathise is much stronger than usual instead a I'm 99% on point whenever I'm using it. Dunno if it's just a really accurate imagination or just constant lucky guessing
A lot of the time , yes. And then I hate myself for not being genuinein my laughter, and when if I don't laugh I blame myself for being such a bitter, lonely person.
This is scarily accurate. Especially the reading/watching something to feel emotions. I swear you are legitimately psychic Another way for me to feel is music. I'm always singing, humming, or listening to music because I can't feel emotions without it
Exactly the same for me. If it's not a fictional work I'm completely absorbed in I'm spacing out to music, sometimes sprinkled in with looking at art and stuff. It's gotten to the point where real life is so bland and colourless in comparison that I don't want to do anything but be washed over with all the creativity 24/7
What you said about music resonates super hard, about putting it on to feel emotion. I know its important to feel the emotions, especially if theyre negative. Often i obsessively listen to music just so i can feel those emotions because i know i would not feel them otherwise
I had a depressing childhood and feel like this is my personality now. Like I don't know if I will be able to function as a healthy person. It seems alien to me.
it fucking sucks and i’m sorry but i’ve been through it too and no i’m not mentally happy yet, but we both will be. i know it sounds corny but i promise things will get better :)
Try art. Any form is cool. Painting, sketching, singing, writing, even sewing. When you let your creativity escape, you will find emotions you never knew you had. Try to feel sad more often too. It's like a bad itch, the relief of it is almost better than feeling numb. Trust me I wanted to die for like 2 years and started painting.
For so long, I've been searching what this kind of feeling was. I thought I was weird because I don't feel attracted to anyone or I'm lacking of emotion for a certain situation, though I feel different emotions while reading and watching movies/dramas just as stated here. I'm aware of it. I know I feel numb, it's just that hard to explain. Feels like I need certainty, this vid helps a lot. And I don't know why but when I'm taking my time thinking about it, I came to the point of question my existence here. And I would always do everything to stop myself there because I know that what I would think next, is leaving or just wish to become one of the characters I read or just become air. I don't like the idea of suicide though I always want to die first before everyone else in my family. My goodness why am I writing these here.
it's like i don't even understand why I'm not interested in anyone. i watch it on tv and I'm like, "yeah, i want that" but the second i think about it, it has no appeal.
I'm a 14 year old, living summer vacations with my great family, with great grades and I got into the place I wanted, but I feel this video is describing me. I told my parents that I didn't know how to combat this feeling of numbness, they told me I'll have to deal with it alone because they can't help me, they are busy with work and can't take me to a therapist, now I don't know what to do, I've been feeling this way since last year in quarantine. I feel this is not normal for a 14 year old, and that I'm just playing the victim, but I swear that I feel empty.
hey, I’m 13 and I know this isn’t the same, but I get where your coming from. it sucks that they can’t help , and can’t do anything, and if I could help I would. I’m not gonna sugar coat it and say it will be fine, cuz it may not. but hopefully you can get through it
@@katiekeen5465 thanks, It's lovely to see that somebody understands me, I'm getting better little by little. I hope you're doing fine too, and if you're not? It's hard to remember this (for me at least), but there's always a solution
@@Gaby-gu4ym thank you . I know I’m just stranger on the internet but you’ve helped me in more ways then you can know. I’ve had a rough week, and this helped so much . keep being amazing and you’ll get through it
I feel very sad now after watching how accurate this describes me. It scares me that no one understands me and that I'm wasting my life and i feel like i won't ever be normal again. sometimes i just remember how hopeful and positive i was about life and just be depressed. I can't get professional help
When you're waiting for Christmas to feel happy and different but you're always disapointed because you blink and everything is behind you and you didn't feel special at all.
I didn't know I was living numbly ever since 5 years ago. I was always wondering why I felt numb but I didn't really know how to explain it. I definitely felt the autopilot one hit home. Just like being an npc. Thanks for helping me realizing it Phsyc2Go
Whoever feels this way should go to psych2go’s signs of self hate/loathing and decreasing mental health videos (not the exact title but it should be easy to find). They help give some insight to the underlying reasons of why we feel this way. It definitely helped me. Little tip if you’re going down a dark path, isolate all your spare time for yourself, do squats (specifically) to a trap beat, and cut out sugar. Note during your spare time, don’t watch frivolous and short videos that are lackluster. Understand that you’re the priority, because you can’t help others until you’ve helped yourself. You have to feel you’re worth it. And not the fake feel either. If you feel up to it take care of a plant or a pet, with genuine compassion. Let it just be you and the object of your care, nobody watching involved. Slowly but surely open up yourself to the idea that you deserve love. Take care of yourself.
Same i realized ive been like that since 4th. Happy emotions weren’t strong alot of the time. And i always felt like just a routine of school to home. When i did feel something it was anger. It was really bad at home. And then i would be numb at school with some bursts of anger at times. Then one day i made a friend. For the first time i felt like alive. And then we got ina fight and made up. From then on i felt actual sadness and i became angry less and i became more sad instead 💀 its crazy how i ddint see this before
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired So much more awake I’m becoming this of I want to do,is be more like me and be less like you
Feeling pain is a reminder to YOU, from YOUR BODY that something is WRONG. Pain is one of the reasons how we are still alive today. Seriously think about it.
I've seen some of your videos and you've been expressing how i felt better than anyone else. how my childhood is, how my insecure, and how i felt inside. sometimes life became so boring for me, even when there's a lot going on. it's just a desire to not exist. I'm overwhelmed, sad and stressed but calm at the same time. it's like time has stopped and I'm stuck in it. people are achieving things while I'm, stuck here.
It’s not necessarily shows or books for me but I love making up characters and storylines for myself, and coming back to the real world is so disappointing. I feel like I’m constantly having to act out emotions whenever I’m around other people, even those I love most. And I’ve had the option to talk to someone professional but I always say no cuz I don’t even know what I would say and even though I talk about it here I feel like I just fake having this problem. Or I would tell them I was faking it and then just end up getting no where.
You should talk with someone or a professional, they are there to help people with their problems, don't let your emotions control yourself, everything will be fine.
Sometimes it’s I find myself acting the way I think my friends/family want me to, but it’s exhausting to do that. I find myself thinking “for best performance of a happy person, the winner is….”
Okay so the part where you talk about how people feel happy and full of emotions when watching tv or reading a book, is that why when we finished a series or a book we feel empty inside? Like I get like that a lot. Every time I watch a new anime and I love it, once it ends I get really sad and feel empty.
I do, too. But I also feel a little bit of relief because I invested so much time and energy and now I can do other things. Also, there is seeing the fan base, analysis of the shows, behind the scenes, etc. and that lets me extend it out, process it and connect in other ways 😉
Idk if anyone feels the same, but for me when I'm thinking about my obsession I get really but really excited than usual, and by this I mean pacing back and forth and just thinking about it, anyone else relate?
@@olaa6161 I relate! You're not alone. I get so excited thinking about my obsession and once I'm able to focus on it again, I literally lose touch with reality. I don't eat or sleep and just get tunnel vision.
I been feeling like this lately. No matter how many times I rant to people about it I feel like I’m just dumping my own mental health problems on them. Even for friends when they vent I give them advice but I secretly I know the advice I give them will make them feel better. I cannot really puzzle the pieces together of what I’m struggling through, Neither I say people sometimes find hard for me to talk or I have hearing problems or even a little joke that not that deep still hurts me and even tho it’s a joke I would be called sensitive if I even told that the joke is not that deep. Now everything that people talk to me I just say: “I don’t know.” Because I really don’t even now I’m saying I don’t know because I don’t know what wrong with me I cannot really name what’s going on but yeah..
I've been so absent minded with stuff lately, i can't concentrate on whatever the conversation is ,i can't process whats going around me it's all blank inside and outside and idk what to do with this.
I don’t snap, I just laugh, I don’t feel a whole lot of anything, but situations where most people would be yelling or crying I just laugh, it’s funny somehow Edit: I suppose some context is in order. I very much do don’t like crying, this is primarily because I want to be the anchor to everyone around me, and anchors don’t cry. That and getting yelled at for crying every single time I cried, definitely creates an aversion to it. It doesn’t affect my life much, I only really have a “breakdown” once a year or less, even when things were the worst.
Your parents must've made fun of you when you were in your most vulnerable state. Made you think that yelling and crying is funny. Could be wrong but... whatever.
I make that sometimes, I need to supres my laugh in some situations that would be too much awkward if I did, and the trauma thing the comment above said happened, even though that was one time thing when I was 9-10 and was trying to put my dark thoughs in proper word's and had a breakdown in the middle of it, my parents just had take it as a silly nightmare and laughed about it with my little siblings, that must looked stupid for them but that just killed the confidence I build to talk about those thoughts
Me too, my go to facial expression is smiling even if I'm in a really sad or frightening situations I will most likely just smile or laugh. I literally don't feel anything 24/7 since I can remember so ┐(‘～`)┌
I don't really know how to explain it but for this past year, it feels like I'm not fully there, yet I am. no matter how much I try to concentrate, everything the teacher tells me goes right out of my head. I have been reading constantly and that's the only thing that will stick. I don't really get exited with holidays, or I can't really understand how I should feel or say to other people. this video has really helped me with what has been going on so thank you.
I’ve always loved Christmas. Celebrating the reason for it and giving gifts to others. But this year I haven’t. I’ve had no feelings about and I’ve put off making gifts for people because I just don’t feel happy about it and it just feels like I’m on autopilot. I’m sorry about this. I just haven’t told anyone and I feel like someone would be upset if I told them I don’t feel happy around Christmas.
I feel you. This year Christmas hasn't felt the same with the pandemic. I had a wonderful Christmas and felt grateful to be with my family when so many people haven't been able to. But I still felt kind of numb like I was trying to go along with it.
that's exactly how i felt, but during new year's eve. didn't help that my mom ruined it too n i got really angry at her bc i thought that she didn't make the effort to make it enjoyable. :/
I’ve grown to resent Christmas the last few years. I’m generally happy once the day goes on but the build up is exhausting, especially as the burden for creating Christmas is generally on Women. I thank God I’m Australian & don’t have to do Thanksgiving as well!
3:52 I had no idea that was a sign of emotional numbness. I've been obsessed with an anime now and those 2 weeks of binge watching were glorious. I became so obsessed over it I rarely ate or slept. Now that it's over I just feel empty and sad..
This ^ It's why I rarely let myself watch shows or anything, I know for a fact that one of 2 things will happen; either I wont like it and I'll view it as a waste of time and feel like crap, or I'll become dangerously obsessed with how great it feels to watch and binge till I'm sick then when its over feel like crap. The alternative to these is to not watch anything, which makes me feel unfulfilled bored and feel like crap. What a fun situation to be in
You know some therapists out there do understand that you Don't have the money and they'd minimize the price or do it for free if you really are in need of it.
If you've been instilled that you're not allowed to feel certain motions from a young age, you develop a habit of surpressing it until it truly isn't there anymore. Which results in forgetting how to feel at all.
last year i was the most numb ive ever felt. and i completely relate to the loss of empathy, and im normally a pretty empathetic person. its so hard to show emotions when you feel absolutely nothing but emptiness inside, and its so uncomfortable. its especially hard to fit in when feeling numb because you can't put yourself into fun conversations you would normally be apart of. the most uncomfortable part of numbness is when someone is extremely happy about something but you just can't bring yourself to care even though you love the person deeply.
