ive been eating 5k cals everyday for the past month i feel super stuck. my problem is that i get too excited around sweet things and i always feel like i have to finish everything infront of me
I binge when i dont get my morning walk in i also have to follow a restrictive diet due to health problems along with having an inconsiderate housemate fortunately there is an opportunity to move away from that situation. Im quite underweight but the weight was only fat and negatively impacted health. Have bone structure of child. Im 5.7 stone currently. Any excess of fat has led to cancer scares so cant have fat or sugar i just eat protein and carbs and small amounts of fat proportional to small frame. Due to noise pollution housemate blaring radio all day causing loss of appetite the housemate has schizophrenia and cannot tolerate headphones. weight gain has been slow. Any time i have had excess fat on my body i have jad cancer cells and i now have body fat of 8 percent and reducing to 3 the lowest a lady can survive. My feet hurt as theres no padding on the underside anymore but I wont eat food with much fat any more. In my womb i was beyond humiliated and terrified id photographed fat rolls from a series of nighttime binges id haf. Theres no room for error. No room for takeaway. I will end up in a box if i eat more than what a 7 year eats. Ive the frame of 7 year old destroyed by anorexia therefore i xant eat like an adult. My nutritional needs reflect a childs not an adults. Obviously when my metabolism speeds up calories will go up buts fats will stay down The macros i need are 25g of fat daily and 7g sat fat basically nothing. I cant buy anything processed as it would exceed those. Every time i saw fat rolls i had bad news off the doctor or osteoporosis. I may lose a couple of pounds of fat and then lean gain as i cant afford to die. I reversed the osteoporosis. Its good now. Currently can lift 40kg. Doctors confirmed i had a stunted bone structure when i was 31 i have alter clothes as i have a 21 inch waist and 30 hip. I walk seven hours a day as my metabolism is slow as i starved for so long my bmr is about 1400 with my 1000 cals in total. Thats why im alive. Very occasionally ill binge on food in teh kitchen. Once i found food wrappers from takeaway in my bag but fortunately they werent mine. MY body is very prone to cancer there fore i dont believe it is safe it is helathy for it to have fat on it.
