a day in life living alone | going on SOLO DATES 

Next title please : A day in Embracing romantic solitude life

If I have time, I often go to the library, grab one or two books. Then I go grocery shopping and cook some good food for dinner😅

you’re amazing, Anna!! your one of my favorite RU-vidrs💗💗

Ciao Anna, I'm an Italian girl, you know I'm writing this comment while I'm crying, I just came across on a your video from the other channel and I started watching a few, bookmarking some, then I also found this your second channel. I'm commenting to tell you that you are truly BEAUTIFUL.🌻 You have charisma, this word that not everyone knows how to give a meaning to, for me it's a person that I see as a red flower in a field of white flowers. You moved me, your story, your energy, your strength, your hope and survival instinct that got you out of a sad life. You're right, we ourselves choose what kind of life to have. It's true, but the circumstances, the things that happen to us, the environment around us, work against us and make it difficult to choose, sometimes impossible. To this day, emotions and my state of mind still decide for me, choose for me and command my life, a sad life. I understood that mental health is as important as physical health, for example it may seem that not having a leg is a much bigger tragedy than being depressed. But it is not like that, because with depression a person has both legs, yes, but their mind does not allow to use them! and so it is like not having a leg, and not only that, but for the whole body, and even for the mind itself, your mind fights with your mind, it does not let you to stand up and get out of bed, even if your mind tries to protect you by activating hope and the survival instinct and makes you think of something you could do to try to feel better, your same depressed part of mind fights to keep you still, to not let you do anything that could benefit you, it drags you into a deep hole in the ground and if you try to get out it holds you back. Depression is like living in this pit with a huge stone attached to your ankle. I really admire people who finally have the strength to defeat it, they manage to get out, and discover the world, they discover everything that is positive in life and find serenity and maybe even happiness, I really admire these people for the strength they had, because only with your own strength can you get out, no one can help you, and not everyone has this strength. Unfortunately I was born unlucky, in the wrong family from which I distanced myself. When you grow up with parents who are not on your side or are non-existent, the floor is literally missing from under your feet. And you can be 15/30/50 years old, this feeling will never go away, you will always feel lost. When those who by nature should welcome you go against nature and reject you, you will always believe that everyone will abandon you and this fear will never go away. No one can understand the emptiness that you carry inside, only those who have too can understand it. These are incurable wounds. Then I made bad choices, being alone and feeling lost and scared I became morbidly attached to my ex-boyfriend, another extremely wrong person, but the only one who was always there, and I made the mistake of staying in that toxic relationship for more than 10 years, this led to many other events and other things, which made me make other bad choices, but the most serious thing of all was getting depression, I have never been to a doctor who diagnosed it, but I know I have it (which consequently also caused me other problems such as eating disorders, complexes, zero self-esteem, and character changes). I tried to leave him for years, but between him making it difficult for me and me always having this feeling of fear of being left without any point of reference in life, I was never able to leave him, and in these years depression dug and brought me into this hole so deeply. I reached the threshold of not wanting to live anymore. But my survival instinct intervened and did not let me die. The survival instinct is something truly magical, because it is a force that you do not know you have and you do not even understand where it came from, but magically it activates and desperately tries to protect you. And it gave me the shock of seeing that even if scary, it was better to find myself in a life alone than in that life that had brought me close to dying. Thanks to this strength after so many years I was able to definitively end that relationship and I am still sure that it was the best choise for me, even if now I am alone and I feel lost. But unfortunately that force, even if strong, is not strong enough to heal me and manage to get me out of depression. Today I think I'm in the phase where I'm still in that hole, and I just raised my head and I'm seeing the sky the light the clouds and I have the hope that out there there is a world where maybe I could live and find something positive. I managed with years and effort to break the chain that tied my ankle, but this made me too weak and debilitated to get out. My willpower and hope keep me alive, but I still don't know if, how, and when I will be able to get out. My heart is alive, I have so much love inside but I have no one to give it to, and I don't mean just a man, but simple friends. After all, the need to receive and give love is human, in fact not only human, it's the same for animals too. You, your empathy, your story and your journey shared in your videos are truly a source of inspiration and have given me emotions. This is why I think you are beautiful! If I lived in Berlin I would love to be your friend. I live in Milan but work in Munich and I go back and forth between these two cities. I really hope to be able to heal one day... and to be able to take care of myself, and to meet and know beautiful people who could become true friends for life. Thanks to those who have had the patience to read, and a hug to all the people who suffer.❤️🍀

It feels good watching you enjoy life so simply and to the fullest each day... You're beautiful and inspiring ; you give me strength and motivation to face my inner "demons". Thank you for being you and sharing your kindness with us 🥰🥰🥰

I immediately liked the video because I read the caption and I just took myself out on a date for my birthday yesterday 🥳✨ thank you for your beautiful energy 💗

The hug and the kiss are my favorite parts of your videos 😁

OMG.... You won't believe this Anna when I say that today I was upset that I am not mingling with others and had too much of self doubt like if we are being too selfish and that's why people don't be around me but you know what I found the answer through your video today that nobody cares... Absolutely a big hug 🫂 this vlog made my day a very big 🎉❤🎉. Thank you and looking for more of such types 🙏

Hii Anna, I just want to say you are one of my favourite RU-vidrs you make me feel less self conscious and you make me motivated to workout and get moving!! Thanks for what you do here!! Xx

Love u Anna ❤ This is a big project, but can u try a week in my life, that would be so cool to see❤

Thank you so much for creating such inspiring videos Anna! Truly needed this right now. You are so amazing, we all appreciate you so much ✨

When I'm alone in the city I love listening to your podcast... I literally listen it on repeat 😅❤

Your video was amazing as always ❤ And your cloths were gorgeous 😍

Thank you. Could you do a series on Romanticizing your life pls. It was my fav topic ❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏🙏

It’s Φέτα (feta) from 🇬🇷 and it’s fits everywhere ❤

Your videos really inspire mee thankks you so much ❤️‍🔥✨️

You are my absolute favorite RU-vidr! You are an inspiration in so many ways.

you somehow inspired me and I am going to grab a cup of coffee by myself, send you love♥

I love you , Anna! 🫶😘❤️

Hi Anna. Today is my birthday. I love you very much and you are my biggest inspiration to start living a healthier and happier life. ☺️🎂🤍🫂

omg hey anna I really support you and never stop believing in yourself and in true love love you so much

I have solodated my whole life, because I need to be alone to fuel myself. I never felt lonely. I always fewl at peace. Its amazing.

You are the best anna ✨️❤️

5:40 nostalgia for me🫂 7:30 Eat strawberries(5 star) and do nothing😂 19:03 We too have a special place for you in our heart and life❤️❤️❤️❤️

ANNNAAAAAA we need an update on your dating life and the guy you had a successful date with in the other video!!! 🩷🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️

I go to the museums by myself or I do long walks to recharge or I just go and shop for new books or artcrafts and I discover so new many... Super comfy. Sending you hugs.

I absolutely love your videos and workouts, not a week without them! Could we have the zucchini muffin recipe pls!

Hi Anna, when will you have the YOU GROW GIRL Diary and Planner back in English? I really want it. ❤❤

you make me so happy. between these vlogs and your fun workouts, i just love you

Du bist einfach wundervoll 🥰🙏🏻

I know this video is meant for an adult, but I am 11 years old and this video has made my day! Thanks so much!

I love your videos, thanks for making these, I live by myself and sometimes it's hard to feel happy about being alone, other times I'm glad for it, it's all in your mindset 🥰

Aww love u Anna! Ur video could come at a better time! It makes my day🥰

I love solo picnic, and going to cinema by myself. those are two of my fav self-care activities! really love your vlogs, always have good vibes🥰

I always go to the cinema by myself ❤ i really love it ❤

This was amazing .so relatable and beautiful and simple ❤

Came across your channel yesterday and I love it❤

I'm obsessed!❤

Thank you so much❤❤❤❤

Appreciate this little insight into your solo life ❤ Love how you embrace more balance ⚖️

Those last 3 minutes of German ASMR, aaaar🤤 You are awesome, Anna❤ I practice solo dates a while and try to bring my sketchbook to draw people. This is interesting and funny experience 😀

Oooh I absolutely love this, need to try more solo dates ❤😊 thanks for this inspiration, I also would live to go to cinema by myself and do a picnic, go for a hike, I thought about it & now you gave me encouragement to really do it! You are amazing 😍😍🎉

Love you so much Anna💗

When you say come to the cinema with me I don't know why I'm so excited 😊 Anna you don't know how much I love you 😘❤ please always be happy my princess 😊

Wow, an edible spoon-that must take the ice cream experience to another level! 🤩🍦By the way, I'm googling the recipe for chili sin carne now, sounds like a great idea for my weekly meal prep 💚

Love you Anna❤❤ You are such a Lovely and body positive person 😊😊 And your videos are super therapeutic. Lots of love from India ❤❤

Anna Engelschall, awesome content I loved it

I just love the video! It's everythinv that i believe! Thank you! A hug for you too!

Such a calming voice ❤

Anna, Today is a stretch day for me. I'm following your 14 day back to basics challenge, it's been 2-3 months journey with you, starting with beginner workout for 30 days, 7 days level challenge(2 times) and now 14 day challenge(2nd time). I'm touching my toes for the first time in the seated position and other variations. I'm so proud of finding your channel. Thank You Anna ❤❤❤. Request 🙏🏻: Find a girl like you for my date(I'm 23, Indian, slim guy with growth mindset)

I am recovering from a DCA and i start to enjoy solo dates so much ❤

Anna Engelschall, I turned on notifications!

In my early 20s I went to the movies by myself because I moved and did not know anyone. It was wonderful; everyone watches the Movie not you. When I see a woman on her own some place I look at her because I admire her independence and confidence. Hope you have more wonderful solo dates!!!😊

Can't waittttt ❤❤❤

Omg i love this video!!! You are like so amazing, strong and beautiful woman💗 you are a huge inspiration for me, thank you so muuch💋💌

Anne l love your videos you inspire me ❤❤

Hi Anna , i feel a lot of feeling with ending this video like now my eyes get tears as i feel the same you , really i want to hug you and be your friend ❤❤

Boaaaah, thaaaaank you, so so very important what you say and it is so so helpful!!!!

The swing part is so true😂

Anna i feel so bad when i wake up late... All my motivation to workout is usually gone when i don't wake up early

I did the same thing with swing when I was young 😂 it used to feel so dizzy 🥴😅 btw love the vlog ❤

My fave ❤

I'm something between a city and a country girl... Depending on my mood I want to be in a city and then I want to be in a village or the woods 😅❤

I love your channel ❤

Love watching this🩷🫰

Hab dich auch lieb! Du bist wie die große Schwester die ich nie hatte ❤🥹

Your videos motivated me❤

You inspired me to go on a solo date tomorrow 💪☕ Thank you

I too really like Mama Mia. It's one of my favorite film

I open YT just because of you

It is so incredible😍💘

Wonderful❤

Does anyone else also want the muffin recipe?? 😭🙏 Pls Anna!!

So subtle so beautiful ❤

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Hi. Lovely to see ❤❤🎉🎉

"A special heart in my place"

17:46 That's why I got a cat😅🫣😌

Great inspirational video- Can we PLEASE get the exact recipe for the zucchini muffins??? THX from USA.

I’ve been going to the cinema by myself since I was 12 😂

I need the recipe for the muffins❤

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plssss do a Q＆A

Can you share the recipe for muffin??❤

❤❤❤I love you 🥰!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you share your vegan chile and muffin recipes? Thanks!!!

At 3:00am

Hey 👋🏼 I am ur new subscriber ❤❤

Missed it again😢

Do you speak english or german in berlin(when you not filming

Go for it Anna🎉 but what happened to your 'boyfriend' are you not still together? Sorry if I missed that🙃

I love being alone. but can't... not anymore.

Anna, could you do some videos in German too? It's my second language and I like your accent to emulate. Btw I always do a double take when you say "get" your hair and make-up done, because it means when you pay somebody else to do it for you (beim Frisör) and sounds pretentious/ expensive lol, then I see you mean "do" your *own* hair and make-up.

I love you so Mach

I loved to go on the swing when I was a child but nowadays I get so nauseous.. 😅 Is this a getting-older-thing? 🙈

I wish you was my friend in real life

I wish I could watch your videos on live, but I can’t because it’s 3AM

You are so beautiful 🥰

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