a day in the life of someone with depression | mikayla jade 

I’m depressed I’m glad u can focus on a good hobby like knitting I can’t even focus that long on anything enough

December 31, 2020 was the worst day of my life, because I thought I would be dead by then. It’s January 20 something and I’m having another depressive episode. I can’t get out of bed. I feel very alone and depersonalized. I don’t want to do this anymore.

The last two years have been really difficult to me, it's almost as I didn't lived, I'm just existing here. A few months ago I got brave enough to ask my mom to see a therapist, I had my second session three days ago. I'm not diagnosed and I don't know if I have depression, but I don't want it to keep going like this. I'm proud of you for doing all you did that day, and this really helped me. Thank you for sharing, I think I found a comfort video, it made me feel less lonely.

I don't know why but watching this video I started to cry and I would love to embrace this girl ❤

What I do in a day (I don't have depression) I woke up at 3 pm I ate and stay in bed until 8pm and maybe sleep again, then I get up and go to the sofa, hang around on the tablet and eat, then stay up until 6am

This video was absolutely... BRILLIANT!

I have never been diagnosed but I feel like my life has no meaning. I can’t get out of bed, I feel everyone in my life hates me, I cry ALL THE TIME for no reason sometimes, and I cry myself to sleep every night. Nobody I knows understands me. Sometimes I just want to die to get rid of it all. I’m crying right now.

I just read your description. I am SO sorry you’re going through this. Its okay to not feel okay because life isn’t suppose to be perfect. We all go through things unique to us. But the answers always are inside. You are a very talented expressive person. And i hope you find joy in your life . Were here for you always. Stay positive. You will do amazing things

I have depression, but my parents won't let me see a therapist, claiming that "I don't really have it" and "I'm just sad for no reason. Be happy!" . I know deep down, they don't want our extended family members to know that "Their daughter has a mental illness", which is probably why to avoid being the laughing stock of the family, they won't allow me to see a psychologist. The only way I know that I have depression because my friend secretly drove to me one and paid for my session. But I can't keep asking her to keep paying for therapy sessions, that's too much to ask. The only safe heaven I have is with my school's psychologist. It's free and my parents will never know

Two things scare me: Insomnia and depression.

I wish i had room tho, icamt isolate myself🙁 bathroom is the one helped me😅😅

this video helped me so much. hearing you talk about what you're going through makes me feel a lot less alone. thank you x

it's beautiful you're being so honest, i always used to find beauty in brokenness. it's a vulnerable but also a special place. i know the feeling of creating something beautiful out of sadness, in the past all the songs i wrote came from a place of depression. even though there is beauty in the brokenness, i realised i don't have to be sad or 'drowning' to find or create beauty and i wish you the same. i never knew how, now i do. i know the suffocating feeling of depression, at times, i still battle it. it's been there since i was only 9 years old. i've overcome a lot now, i'm very sure you will too. you seem like such a beautiful soul, talented, pure. creativity will flow out of unexpected places, not just the gloomy, darker ones. i pray God will do the same for you as He did for me, everything changed when He came in. lots of love! and always remember: small steps are still steps. your pace is the right pace, your journey is yours. don't let anyone tell you to hurry.

I have depression and OCD and anxiety and I understand the depression

I am so sorry you're going through this. I know this may hurt to hear but please please know it will get better for you. I've been there and it got better for me. Please know that you sharing your own experiences and speaking out in this way helped so many people including me. Your video made me feel less alone. And you are NOT alone. I loved everything about this video also, it was an amazing idea and you executed it beautifully. You've created something really beautiful. Thank you for sharing, it means more than you know.

I suffer from major depression and anxiety disorder as well it's hard to cope at times

This makes me feel less alone, I am really struggling right now. Thankyou for being here with me ❤

Girl, my heart hurts seeing you. I wish I could give you the biggest hug ever. I could feel as I dealt with depression last year, and it was the worst time of my life

*Proud of you beautiful soul for showing us a portion of your life and what you go through mental health is super necessary... I’m going off to college this summer and some day I want to be a therapist ! Seeing videos like this inspires me more to work hard to push to achieve just that!!!* 🌞 💙 *even though this was a year ago still very valid and always will be regardless if your doing better know or not I hope you no how much I care and how much I want to succeed in giving therapy one day*

I feel you💖 I’m proud of you. I don’t feel like I could do half the things you did right now. But you inspired me to try. Keep taking care of yourself pls

okay but i found this so relaxing i watched this like too many times this really relaxed me thank you

I felt the beauty, pain and growth in this video!!! It was absolutely beautiful!!! Thank you so much!

Hey mikayla, it makes me sad that you're not feeling well I wish I can fly over there and give you the biggest hug that you ever had. You have a lot of people who love you for who you are. Lots of love, love your smile love it when you're happy. Hope you feel better peace out💘💞💗💓💝💜💛💚💖

This is so calming, and i thank you for this ❤️ if anything, it made us feel less lonely, almost as if we're in our loneliness together and its very reassuring. Ironic part was when i was watching you eat while watching videos of other people, and i myself was having my own cup of cereal ❤️ keep it going, sending you lots of love

From one wolf to another.. I love you. Thank you. This has inspired me

I love to see that youre doing better now and posting music It really gives me hope

keep fighting girl!

This video is very comfortable and you're very productive to me 💜

I have depression and I just can't get myself to socialise with me people and I'm always crying sometimes for no reason I worry alot and somedays I feel like whats the point of living

Stay strong luvv you got this bbyg ❤️🙏🏽🥺.

It may sounds cliche but you are not alone. I’m going through the same. Love you ❤️

sending all my love your way ❤️

Please stay strong. More power.♥️

your such a sweetheart!

Holy shit this was a powerful video. Better days are coming Mikayla

Truly Beautiful....the emotion and depth......priceless

Loving the scarf 😍 sending love and hugs 🫂 🤗 ❤

please be ok.

I loved the scarf ! I had a relaxing day today ! Good for some reflection !

Get well soon,a big hug from the Netherlands.

Been struggling too and no one seems to care

I learned in my yoga book that you shouldn't stretch your skin, face, neck etc. I was 14 then. Now I'm 51 and it's true. I look younger than others my age. So my lovely, try not to stretch your skin! Stretch ur beautiful new scarf!! It is very nice. I admire anyone with the patience to sit down & knit for hours 🌈🕊️♥️

You are not alone,i love you deep❤

We LOVE you Mikayla! ♥️🦋 #TeamMikayla #MikaylaTime

💚 - You’re amazing, just the way you are

Lots of Love and Peace to you🙏

All my love and best wishes from Mexico!

Hey mikaylaa!! All the best for you! I know its kind lame to hear this sort of thing at this point - cause it only makes sense to think this way when you've already looked behind and after you got over it - but things are gonna get a lot easy, eventually. When you simply try to be true and do what you can, someday you wake up and realize somethings like: "Meen, im tired of crying over this specific issue, it certanly doesn't help!" Or "I don't want to be the person that talks pretty but doesn't accomplish" or "I cant be a person that waste all the time and energy in the past" and so on. Althou its not easy and i feel like its not for everyone, if you are able to do that for yourself, in time, after trying to be true with your feelings, trying and crying a lot haha, eventually and slowly you will take some sort of emotional learn and move pass it. In other words, things start to change or you are able to change, and what made you unhappy in the past becomes irrelevant even if you are in the same circunstances, cause in some point you stopped focusing on what you feel and rather started thinking about the person you were becoming, or something in those lines hahah. Well, I dont know if it helps or not, but I certanly hope so, you deserve to be and make yourself happy so, again, so in certain days take it easy, try to figured out when you mikayla need to take a break and from what. Anyway, Things are gonna work out for you! Ps. Be carefull with all these internet thingy. Behind a keyboard, people love to show themself superior, and throw all theirs insecuritirs in others, so they can be very mean. Anyway, dont let those kind of things get the best of you. Well wishes all the best, byeeee

I wake up at 12 and then keep using my phone.I don't even go school

Be well young beautiful girl. You have plenty to live for and you'll be well sooner or later. Life is in front of you and I have no doubt you'll succeed in being happy.

hey mikayla, i just wanted to tell you that everything will get better. We all are going through a lot but soon, everything will be alright. Get well soon and please keep being awesome.

Thankyou soo much😭❤️

Miss connecting with you through the livestreams. Get well, and hopefully I can make the next one. Edit: The style of video is great, reminiscent of watching someone I loved that I use to backpack with. Just setting up camp then getting preped for bed, how every movement we made seemed free. Keep up the good work.

Damn I felt that.

I don't know when it started but since last 6 days it's been very difficult for me to get through..I am struggling with emotional numbness, body aches, tiredness,depersonalization ,panic attacks ,anxiety and Tinnitus which have worsened. My mind is clouded and I am occasionally spacing out. Don't know how long will it continue but currently I'm nearing my semesters and I need to work up my assignments and projects.. I'm pushing my body to do these like a machine.....😓

Hola Mikayla. Hace unos dias vi tu blind audition in the voice por casualidad y se notaba que estás pasando por algún tipo de depresión que te afecta emocionalmente. Si te soy sincero vi ese video varias veces porque me gustaba tu forma de interpretar las emociones en la canción que cantabas. Creo que eres una persona sensible o hipersensible, como yo. Solo quería decirte si me lo permites que eres muy joven y tienes muchas cosas por delante en tu vida y que tienes que canalizar tu dolor hacia algo positivo como haces cuando cantas. Las relaciones sociales son muy complicadas en estos tiempos y las personas sensibles tenemos más problemas para sentirnos a gusto. Quiero animarte desde lejos, desde donde estoy, quiero decirte que entiendo lo que te ocurre y que es importante que intentes canalizar tu dolor interno de forma positiva. Sé que es una reflexión de una persona extraña que se encuentra a miles de kilometros de donde tu estás y que solo son palabras, pero también creo que debemos luchar en positivo contra nuestros "demonios internos" y que es importante entender que lo que nos ocurre podemos transformarlo en algo positivo. Disculpa si te estoy molestando por comentar esto, pero pienso que eres una persona receptiva porque eres sensible o hipersensible y vas a entender bien lo que te quiero espresar. Sin más que decirte, mis mejores deseos para ti y espero que sigas cantando y canalizando, porque eso te libera por momentos de todo lo demás y es algo bonito que haces para el resto. Un saludo y sigue adelante con fuerza. Google translate. (i´m sorry, I don´t speak english good.) Hello Mikayla. A few days ago I saw your blind audition in the voice by chance and it was obvious that you are going through for some kind of depression that affects you emotionally. If I'm honest I saw that video several times because I liked your way of interpreting the emotions in the song you sang. I think you are a sensitive person or hypersensitive, like me. I just wanted to tell you if you allow me that you are very young and have many things to ahead in your life and that you have to channel your pain into something positive like you do when you sing. The relationships social are very complicated in these times and sensitive people have more problems to feel satisfaced. I want to encourage you from afar, from where I am, I want to tell you that I understand what is happening to you and that it is important that you try to channel your inner pain in a positive way. I know it's a reflection of a strange person that is thousands of kilometers from where you are and that they are only words, but I also believe that we must fight positively against our "internal demons" and that it is important to understand that what happens to us we can turn it into something positive. Sorry if I'm bothering you by commenting on this, but I think you're a receptive person because you are sensitive or hypersensitive and you will understand well what I want to express to you. Without further ado, my best wishes to you and I hope you continue singing and channeling, because that frees you at times of everything else and it's a nice thing you do for the rest. Greetings and keep going strong.

Mikayla you look very nice as a blond. With that said, you look beautiful in your natural color! Let your natural beauty out! I just wanted you to know that your loved for who you are, regardless! Take care Mikayla!

I love you💗

Ok but you know what I am proud of you and i love you!! ❤❤❤

You write poetry? I do too, it's one of the things I love most in the world!

I comment on your latest video just a Huh!? Word.. all I can say is your still lucky Myka.. its a very uncomfortable life and feeling, but you know the drill, nobody can help u except u.. (sorry for my bad english)

I thought this would be boring, but it was very well done & I enjoyed it. I really enjoyed the music background. Was that your piano work or was it a recorded audio track?

That hoodie suits you down to the ground. Good colour for you, I think....get better soon.

Don't let depression to take away your life from you just focus on yourself forget that you have depression like thing in your life because you have got all things as human being these moments will never come again so cheer your moments and change your life 🎉🎉

I'm from Syria and i love your personality I love you so much. Why you are so sad.

I love how real your videos are. Which is so relatable. Thank you for being real.

Me when I'm lonely: watching your vids. 😳😳

Im 21 and im not only understand what you go through, im feeling it. I had my second session of therapy yesterday and my therapist told me to write down what i do in a day. And today i felt bad cause theres really few things to capture cause i did kinda nothing. So im here in youtube searching “a day with depression” to see that im not alone and maybe that’ll be okay.

❤️❤️

Damn a smoothie with kale spinach beats n bananas always heals me when I'm sick af

I would love to hug you ❤

I'm depressed. Your video good ..

Hey why are u feeling so lonely ? Are u in Sydney ? I’m finishing my degree in psychology and always like talk to my friends, if you want ...

people will never understand that this is a mental illness thats uncureable for some people. on december 23. 2020 i attempted suicide by overdosing on strong painkillers inside my car parked at a place where i thought i wouldnt be fount until im dead. im selling my very expensive car right now so i can quit my job and try one last time to cure this illness.

I have depression too

Lovely ASRM video thanks for share

Quick easy remedy for colds: Breakfast- Lots of bananas, oatmeal, and other soft foods for sore throats. Lunch and dinner- CHICKEN SOUP. If using canned soup, buy a rotisserie chicken to add more chunks of chicken to the soup. And hot green tea with lemon and honey also helps. Also: NO CHOCOLATE AND DAIRY PRODUCTS WHEN SICK.

Nice scarf

Pretty sweet shirt. What a pleasure to see you with this beautiful smile

Gws ❤️

And thank you for creating this little solar-system with yet 32 planets, circulating around a bright shining star in their centre. They welcome your gravity, hoping it will catch more, which are already receiving some rays of your warm light,, but undecided to join. When these systems form, there is chaos. But patiently waiting, with the passage of time, they finally become one of the most constant and wonderful miracles, that we know of.

I will wait for you to understand your beauty fulfill your promise realize that His love is always yours always will be

Stay with me and you.they promise nowt.we are the first of a new day.

you remind me of Beth from little women (that’s a good thing ❤️❤️☺️) she’s sweet a little shy and very pretty

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need to knit me some clothes and buy me some candles

Who taught you how to knit? 😊

Hello Mick.... I love you from Brazil!!! You are so beautiful

Se eu soubesse fazer cachecol eu faria vários

cover Indonesian song please....

Ur cute

Dipak Jyoti ,🕎

where is ur family ??

She doesnt look depressed she's so pretty

why dont you get a dog or a cat!?

Jesus is the cure, if someone is depressed or anxious, Jesus will heal you, call out to him. But you need to be commited with Jesus so he can heal you, how can other people say that they pray and nothing happen, do they even call to God and follow God's commandments? or do they only call him when they need him?. If you don't follow you're parents and curse them, and one day you tried to beg for money, will they still give you? of course not, but if you love you're parents and follow all their commands, they will give you everything that you need, before you even say it.

people have real problems like lviing in war torn places, no food, and having to work and take care of the house at an early age, learn to be grateful and your so called problems will dissapear