Funfact(not really) about mafumafus emotional singing: mafu suffered from abused from the past the bullying was intense, and some of his songs were stolen by his friend who is a producer and that producer then framed him, making his friends turn there backs on him. Back in the day mafu gave out his information and face, what made him stop showing his face is because when he was popular, fans had started to stalk him, showing up on odd hours, coming to his college to follow him around, he was afraid that he had to move three times or more and refused to leave the house. terrible things happened during the time to him, like how people would break in to his door, physically dragging him in bed to the streets. to the point it got him really depressed, to the point he wished tomorrow wouldn't come. But when he met soraru, everything changed for him, mafu posted this in his blog and said "Unable to overcome a part of this incident, wrecked by the spite and violence, swallowed by despair, the one who reached out his hand to was Soraru-san." Soraru stood up to the person responsible for hurting him and promised to protect mafu from any harm. When his terrible past was finished he wrote songs of his own who has a meaning to it, to his terrible past, he covers songs who has almost same thing that happened to him. Thats why he covers this song. (This is a fact about mafu, and why his voice was amazing to the point it was emotional) im bad at explaining lol his cover to this song is emotional.
wow...didn't know about this...i mean i know Soraru because he always make cover songs with Mafumafu and there's a lot of those that it makes me think they're actually pretty close in real life...but i didn't know it's actually deeper
What really got me about this version is that you could really hear the sense of urgency in Mafumafu's voice when he told us, the listeners, to "live and keep living".
The think is mafumafu made a nice cover, actually this was how Kanzaki Iori felt at some moment in his life( the creator of the song) there was a rumor he almost killed himself
Mafu Is Like Reading A Suicide Letter Of A Friend. When He Realizes That, He Shouts. Frantically. Desperately. Trying To Reach Out. Thinking It's Not Reaching. But It Did, It Does, It Will. And That's Amazing :)
fun fact: This is actually a cover of the song even though it is a cover I believe that MafuMafu's version is the best since I think he does the best job in expressing this emotion and you are able to feel this emotion that much more than if you were to listen to a vocaloid EDIT I : im not trying to say vocaloid is bad, i personally really like vocaloid songs. EDIT II : the creator of the song is Kanzaki lori, go check them out!
Especially Mafu’s cover itself. Most other people get the song as in “I get the vibes”. But for Mafu, it’s more like “I lived through these exact words”. His cover is so good because a part of his life basically can be summarized by this song. Ex: “Everything can be bought with money (people will abandon you easily)” He was betrayed by his friend who stole his songs, his other friends turned on each other and him. “Always broadcasting “I want to kill you” across radio waves” bullying and haters when he started out. Japanese bullying is different in a way, kind of more brutal actually. But Mafu’s case in 2013-2015 ish was like top 0.001% on severity, any higher and most people are corpses. Verse 2: he had a time where he considered ending it all. In his concert one of his most famous quotes are “I’m living a life I should’ve never had”. If it wasn’t for Soraru, who knows if he would be still alive. Not to mention, even his family didn’t accept him to be a musician until they grudgingly gave approval once he proved himself.
Dude, I totally agree with you. Like, vocaloid's awesome, but it's so hard to relate an emotion to them :p But Kanzaki Iori made an amazing job with Miku, like, dude, I almost felt something with her!!
Yeah, personally I almost always prefer human covers instead of the vocaloid original. There’s a bunch of other covers of the song that I love as well, but a lot of them are very different. Mafu’s is much more emotional and passionate, while others sing an almost lamenting version, so it’s super interesting to see people’s interpretations of it and how they alter the source material for themselves.
Same same. I actually haven't seen any of the more popular utaites cover any of his songs... or did I just miss them (I'm totally blind)? Actually, I only have seen like 3 people cover mafumafu's songs...
Nah.. i personally think "life hates us now" was a cleaner translation than "hated by life itself".. but "hated by life itself" sounded way more cooler tho
ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-w6gV6OSaahg.html This has the original Vocaloid audio with a fancier subtitles. The artist here replaced the Japanese kanji with English in the same text-scrolling format. It's pretty cool Forgetfulsubs is also the guy who first translated the song. Very high quality stuff
I love his music. You can really FEEL the emotion and rawness in his words through his songs. For this song specifically, I miss the old translation. I’m not really sure what happened, but the translation lyrics changed and I just really liked the original lyrics a lot better. The original lyrics were not only more accurate, but there was SO much more emotion in the original lyrics then the current translation. Beautiful song. Fucking masterpiece
when mafumafu's version came out, i remember staring into space for like several minutes after watching it. it really hits so much things in me that i ended up being so silent and just thinking everything over.
Hated by life itself(original lyrics) "Don't say you want to die" "Live on without giving up" ...How foolish it is to say songs with lyrics like this that are correct. In truth, I couldn't care a bit if I died, But I'll be pretty sad if the people around me did, I supposed it's some kind of ego, that goes: "Because I just wouldn't like it." Not caring if strangers live a not, And hating someone else just seems like some kind of fashion now, But "Live peacefully" nevertheless? What a wonderful thing that would be indeed... On the other side of the screen, someone dies, Lamenting that someone else sings, Influenced by that, a young boy ran off carrying a knife. We are hated by life itself. Pushing values and ego, as always, So very simply we broadcast songs about wanting to kill somebody else over radiowaves. We are hated by life itself. We who thoughtlessly say we want to die, And look at life carelessly, Are hated by it. I've got no money, and so throughout the day, I sing songs of praise to indolence. Still without grasping the meaning of life, I come to an epiphany that it's pointless and take a breath. Are these wounds really okay to be expressed with words like "I'm lonely"? Carrying nothing but such obstinacy, today again I sleep alone on my bed. We who were but youths At some point start to change into young adults. Growing old, one day we rot away like fallen leaves With not a soul in the world knowing of our existence... Obtaining an immortal body, And living our whole existence without dying... ...I'm just daydreaming about these kinds of science fiction situation. I couldn't care a bit if I died, But I'm wanted alive by the people around me, Living on carrying such contradictions... I think I'll get yelled at. "Things that are "correct" should stay "correct"." "If you don't want to die, then live." If we're going to end up sad and if that fine, then you gotta laugh alone forever. We are hated by life itself. We who simply like the idea of the word "goodbye" a little too much, with no knowledge of a true farewell, are hated by life itself. Happiness, farewells, love and friendship; They're all goods that can be bought for money... Within jokes made by comical dreams. I might just die tomorrow you know, everything might end up just for naught. Morning and nights, spring and autumn, Unchanging, someone dies somewhere. I don't need dreams or even a tomorrow, If you'll have lived on then that's all I need. Yeah... That's actually... What I want to sing about. Hated by life itself. In the end, we'll die anyway. You will, I will, One day all of us will rot away like fallen leaves. But regardless, we live on frantically-- Shouldering our lives, frantically, we live-- Killing, struggling, laughing, shouldering it all, Living,living,living,living, Just live.
I always took the ending of this song to be that despite life being bad, people have each other be it a friends or loved ones, "as long as you are still here, that's all we need, yeah, that's actually what i want to sing about". Not to linger on the sad times but to live for the good moments. A song of a sort of similar tone/meaning is Living with Depression by Yanaga Miyuki (I'm not sure about japanese covers but there's a great english cover by Oktavia) and despite it's title it's a beautiful song with a lovely meaning and pretty unique music track. (I've been quietly watching your stuff since the Aishite video, I really enjoy it ^-^ )
Agreed. Meaningfulness in life is relative and subjective and that's all it needs to be. Kind of a response to existential depression maybe. But an answer and feeling you can only find and embrace for yourself. Still, doesn't mean you have to search for it alone. It's better to be in it together.
I feel like this song specifically speaks to people struggling with depression. Heavy emphasis on struggling because the tune sounds melancholic and sad but the lyrics are blunt and harsh and it’s sounds like the song writer is trying desperately to encourage people to live on despite how bad everything is. Trying to comfort people the best they can despite not being willing to lie to them and promise that everything will be fine. That’s definitely what I feel when Mafumafu was trying to do at least. And actually. Songs with that theme to them make people who are suicidal feel the most comfort. It’s not that “things will get better” it’s that, things suck and it’s hard to live but at least someone else is with you to share in that pain. It’s really inspiring and out of all songs this one gives me the most encouragement.
I love this cover so much, the way he sings it makes it sound like he’s frantically trying to tell someone to keep living, especially how he raises his voice.
Another great reaction. This song in particular hit me through a different cover (original producer is Kanzaki, though this has been covered by many others, including Mafumafu) and I think if you are to think of this song as a message for someone else, the songs becomes especially powerful. Because I think in the end the message being delivered is that it is hard to live, but even when there is nothing worth doing so, just the act of meaning means something. Thinking in that sense, especially with how the last few words of this are simply hammering in the word "Live," before ending on "Just live," as though pushing you to do so is very powerful. Anyways, great video as always, and glad you've succeeded in moving forward with life.
you know what. For some moments, until now, I thought about making the decision to leave this silly cruel world. i am not kidding the rope is already set up. here just in the last moment scrolling random videos and found your channel, cus the title "hated by itself". the song hit me really hard. idk till when but your messages in the last.. yeah youre right. thanks. atleast ill try to survive
Hey... まふまふ／命に嫌われている is rather sad but also truthful song... The message is deep... We try to do our best, competing with each other, trying to be the best... To the point when even if we try our best, we can't be the on the top... So we just have one thing... Either do something with competitors or... Welp... End ourselves, since we are worthless and not doing enough (even though we do)... So what we do, is just do whatever life have to unfold and then we just LIVE.... That's the point in life, just to LIVE... (Also those poor souls, who really have been sad, you are not alone... We all have been there at some point, everyone been there... Rich people, poor people, smart and dumb, we all been there... Everything will be sorted out in life. No matter your race, gender, beliefs, sexuality or just anything unique in you, you will find friends and allies along the way...) . Also, can you do the review of 僕が死のうと思ったのは (The reason I wanted to die). It's very deep song, very very deep... Thanks in advance
This song makes me wanna make a book about life called "Living while slowly Dying". From my perspective, this song reminds us to value our lives equal to other people you care about, that we shouldn't regret our choices even though we end up the same way. The fallen leaves that represent our lives means that even though we fall apart from the trees and the other leaves, the tree will bloom again meaning that someone will take your place and some part of you will be living with them. And the last part "Just Live" means exactly. It means that even though we make mistakes and have a regretful life full of sadness and agony, we should just accept it and wait for something good to happen since "Just Live" is and order to wait patiently and to see where life can take you. Even though our road(life) ahead is dark and cold, we just have to keep going to see that beautiful blue skies ahead and that view of light in the end of your road because even before dying, the best views is seeing your success of overcoming that dark and thorny path behind you and just enjoying the view because We Are Living While Slowly Dying. I hope you guys have some time reading this. It may not make alot of sense but writing it from the heart is what matters. Wrote this while listening to the song.
Good to know someone understands my point of view since we all have different perspective in life. Some think it's chaotic, some say it's peaceful. But i think life is both chaotic and peaceful. Knowing that overcoming pain will lead you to success is just so beautiful.
TW; I wish i found this song when i was at my lowest. It has such a deeply pessimistic meaning, but at the end of the day, the person is telling you to live. I struggled so much with suicidal thoughts, and at one point already made a plan and started drafting my farewell notes. I felt so light and free about the thought of death. Idk why i ended up calling a crisis hotline, but i guess it was my sunconscious trying to scream at me to live. I don't know where i would be today if i didn't make that call and got professional help. Mental illness like depression is so stigmatized because we don't look any different from other people. It's true that it's normal for everyone to get depressed moods at one point in their lives, but with depression, there's a real chemical imbalance happening that alters your thinking. Even i never considered my depression as real and thought that i was a fraud for the longest time for feeling the way that i do. But my mental health team made me realize that i was really sick, and that my thoughts and feelings weren't my own but because of my illness. I hope more songs like these get created, so more and more people can get a glimpse of what people who suffer from mental illness feel like. It's not just sadness; sadness is just the tip of the iceberg to a much more complex and multifaceted illness. I still feel like wanting to die some days, but i have more okay days than bad.
A friend of mine made me listen to Mafumafu's songs and covers. It was during september 2018, as school was starting again we learnt we were going to the same class and so we talked about Mafu together when we could between classes, in the bus etc. It was also a time where I was struggling with my mental health that was worsening. A few of his songs were hitting hard (Like Hello Dystopia) and then I listened to this cover of Hated By Life itself, and the text hit hard , but his voice was hitting harder. I was listening to this song on loop , contemplating dark thoughts and acts, but in the end, Mafu was one of the artists that made me keep going. With Mafu I discovered other Utaite, as a lot of them actually know each other, and some of them like Soraru and Amatsuki also indirectly helped me. To this day I still listen to them and some songs help me through a lot . Im thankful to my friend for a lot, making me discover Mafu, but also, she helped me and still is helping me and supporting me. Im better now, and I am fighting even if there are dark and difficult times, I try to keep going
I've been listening to the song ever since Kuro posted it on their NND channel. What Miku sang really hurted me by how it was accurate. I wasn't bullied, nor did I wished to die. I was one of those people, trying to help someone from dying. A friend of mine in middle school was in a severe depression. I did my best to not let them go, because they needed help, but didn't have the voice to cry for help anymore. The beginning of the song is very hard for me to listen to because the sentence "You don't care if you die, but you care if people around you die", it was something that I kept saying to them, when Miku sang it, I almost broke in tears. I never was in the place of a person wanting to die, yet for some reason the song really resonated with me. Actually, I understood what my friend was in because of this song. Yet when I listened to the song, it was already too late. I lost my friend because they lost their life. When I finished listening to the song, I was already crying. I remembered feeling guilty for not understanding my friend better and letting them die. A year later, Mafu uploaded his cover of the song. Once again I listened to it. The original version was lacking emotion, yet I understood the emotion going through the song, but Mafu's voice made it even harder for me to listen to it. It was like my friend was singing this to me, screaming at me for not understanding anything. But I know it wasn't them singing it to me, but still, I would have loved if they were saying "Just live". I realized that I just kept saying "You don't care if you die, but you care if people around you die", to make them understand that I would be sad if they die. But I was just selfish, I was only thinking about myself, about how I felt, not about how they felt. For a long time, I tried not to listen to the song, I especially didn't want to hear the "You care if people around you die" line, it just reminded me of my mistakes. Time didn't healed my wound. Again, a year later, it was the birthday of that friend that wasn't with me anymore. I don't know why, but I listened to that song again, something just made me wanting to listen to it. Once again I cried, but not because of guilt. Through Mafu's voice, I would hear my friend not screaming at me, but telling me to "Just live". I realized that I was able to fully understand the song. Without me knowing, I fell into a depression. That song broke me and saved me at the same time. This time, it was my friend telling me not to die, I'm very glad that I listened to them. I would never be grateful enough to Kuro, Miku, Mafu and my friend for saving me.
I really like this song, especially this version by Mafumafu. He had actually been through a really tough time and had been really depressed. So I feel like when he was singing the song it was very emotional and he was actually expressing these through the song.
Your message at the end was so, i don't know the right word, motivational. This world has many cruel things that are out there, and make people depressed or really doubting their self and their importance in life, but that's why we have those great friends and maybe family members that help us make our days worth while.
I always try my best to be real with you guys. Especially for these types of videos, I need to convey everything straight from the heart, no matter how painful LOL. And thank you for the kind words! 🙏
You don’t imagine how much that song means to me. Whenever when i listen to it a tear rolls down my cheek. The song somehow makes me feel better not really knowing how to explain it. I usually smile while crying to this song. Reading the lyrics just hits me. The lyrics is just so accurate! And the fact it’s so relatable. Anyways enough of my sorrows, your reaction was amazing and we all appreciate it! Keep up the good work!
Man, as someone who has been and still is suicidal this song makes me feel things, but not necessarily all bad? The end feels like a slap in the face, like *because* we will all die someday then we should live to the most, just keep going and try things even if it hurts.
If you're talking about the one where all different utaites sang then I just wanna say that Mafumafu's screaming was just epic amidst all the other utaites' singing.
Honestly I feel like they should've mashed the two subtitkes together, because the new one definitely conveys the song a bit better in some lines and the original subs also conveyed it better in other lines
@@shooshiMooshi btw i've been thinking this for this song for the past 2 hours after i commented this Can you listen to Byoushin wo Kamu by Zutto Mayonaka de iinoni it has that E ve kind of style of animation but less hairy(sketchy) but instead of a guy, it's a girl
this song feels like someone who has gone thru this is singing about it, but then telling the listener to live despite all of that because they know what its like, this video may be 3 years old but its still relevant and the song is just beautiful, mafumafus voice when he basically frantically tells us to live, man, the only thing keeping me alive right now
This song saved me multiple times. It's extremely well put together, because if you are in that situation where everything in life seems like it's meaningless and if you struggled with these feelings for a long time, hearing someone say that life is worth something is not enough. How the song opens is exactly the kind of thing that makes people in that situation relate to it. Slowly it describes our mindset to a T before giving us a reason to live. If not for someone else, if not for yourself, then at least until the next day. "I've gotten this far, let's see how far I can go." is a phrase I ended up repeating day after day. But it was enough for me to keep going long enough to find things that were worth living for. I mean, I always had things that I wanted to do but at some point, I lost track of them. This song helped me find them again.
Same! Something about it almost makes it seem like I’m competing with myself in a good way. Like c’mon I’ve fought this hard for so long. I can’t quit now. I gotta see if I’m just one more day away from achieving happiness. It actually really helps
this song is amazing it describes exactly how i feel, ive had those exact thoughts, actually im not afraid of the end of my life (like the concept of my life ending), im just scared of the pain it takes to get there, even so ive harmed myself and contemplated suicide many times, I have such little regard for my life, and ive gone so far as to have an explanation why I care about others dying and not me dying, i came to the conclusion that im a selfish brat that only wants them for their connection with me and not anything else, despite that i still think Life is meaningless since we have the same fate and feelling these feelings are just instincts of ours, just like when you come face to face with a life ending threat you are scared its just instinct, i was even at a point once in my life where i could have potentially died and i just sat there and accepted it (i had asthma and didnt have my puffer) point is, this video describes how i feel pretty much EDIT: and thats why the song really hit me hard when I first read the lyrics and listened to it
You can really hear the pain on the final note…. The “Just Live” feels like the vocalist is screaming out to those who are listening and feel the same way to not die. The pain of losing a loved one to suicide I can only imagine. And the pain I put my family through with my attempts… I got help and was registered to the hospital for mental help… and honestly it made me realize that I don’t ever want my family to go through a funeral cause of my decision… I don’t want to kill them from my death. Please anyone out there that feels suicidal, just know you will find someone out there who loves you and would die if you were to go. Shit gets rough and hell we fuck up in life but that’s part of living. We are only human. Love and cherish yourself cause your soul and your life is precious. 🩵
I only recently found out about this song. It appeared on my front page just today, but it seems like its been out for a while now and I couldn't have found a better time for this song, because I've had an incredibly bad depressive episode over the last two days. This is the worst I've felt in years. I was trying to snap myself out of it. I was trying desperately. I went to sleep, and woke up to this song on my suggestions. Its helped me a lot. And hearing your take on it helped me appreciate it even more! Life is tough, and its hard to imagine the future. You can fantasize about the wonders of TOMORROW, but it's hard when it feels impossible to survive TODAY. Anyways, I'm rambling. I just wanted to thank you for this. I appreciate your take on this and helping to share this song with a hurt person who really needed to hear it.
Wow, that was really deep. I'm honored to have been introduced to this song and I'm glad you reacted to it. I love songs and writings with deep meanings like this one, even if it's depressing or sensitive. A lot of people have those kinds of thoughts; I'm sure we all do (or at least we will) at some point in our life. Many have been diagnosed with depression and often have suicidal thoughts. It's a real-life problem and I think it's great to have the awareness spread in songs. aH that was sad, but great video! ❤️
This is my first time listening to this song and I already relate. Heh... really goes to show that people suffer more than others yet days go by that nobody notices. Keep doing what you're doing because you're I know you're giving a lot of emotional support for a lot of people from your comments during your videos, at least... for me... ☆thank you☆
Wow... I've just searched for some reaction videos to this beautiful and deep song by one of my favorite utaite and you were the first video I clicked. It is the first time seeing you and I've to say, your words made me shed tears. They expressed the exact meaning of this song in my eyes. A couple of days ago, one of my favorite actors passed away after taking the wrong decision... He was so young and that makes me feel so sad. Therefore, I listen to Mafumafu's song again and thought to myself "if only he could hear those words... If only there was someone around him who could have supporting him..." Words can affect someone's soul and can make them choose a different path. Words can tear someone's world or build it. It is all depends on how you use them. You have a warm heart and your feelings shown through your video expressed this fact better than your words. I felt your feelings through your video. That, my friend, is just one reason to why your channel deserve so much more support! I decided to be one of those supporters. If people around you laugh at you for who you are or for what your hobbies are, please don't listen to them! Laugh back! People are releasing their anger, sadness, depression, frustration and jealousy by humiliating others and making them look weaker just because they want to feel better about themselves. Never be shy from who you are! Just from one video I figured out you are a beautiful person! Be proud of that! That's all I wanted to say. I hope I could convey my true feelings correctly. Thank you for your beautiful video! It was perfect!
Thank you so much :,). It REALLY means the world to me that you took the time to make this post. You also seem like a very warm and lovely person. I’m glad I was able to convey my feelings properly :)
@@shooshiMooshi Aww thank you! It really took some time to write it because English is not my first language... (I hope I didn't make mistakes) But even so, I really wanted to write this to you! Thank you for your reply! Also, please don't change who you are! You seem like a very nice person indeed! 😁
This song is literally my biggest comfort, I am personally having the hardest time of my life right now and this song helps me keep living. And I love this song!!
That moment when you listen to a vocaloid song and all the "stuff" that happened in your life just flashing in front of your eyes and your heart starting to feel heavy as if you're suffocating I truly love this one, this song never failed to make me cry and that part where the song screams "Live, Live, Just Live" rly hits me every single time This song is rly beautiful, try listen to different Utaite covers, they did a rly great job trying to express their emotion into singing this song I love all your reaction videos on vocaloid songs but this one is my top fav!^^
Shooshi reacting, analyzing and giving His point about the hole song is the only online class i need in this quarentine. But seriously, i really liked everything you said, and yes, if you have people that wants to help you, don't push them away, they're gold 💖
I’m so freaking happy you listened to this. Mafumafu is my favorite Utaite and I love that people are hearing just how much emotion he puts in his voice. Thank you so so much!! ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡ If you don’t mind me asking, could I request that you do Rolling Girl next. It’s very popular so if you’ve heard it that makes sense, but if you haven’t, it would mean a lot.
If I had any song to describe my mental health/thoughts it would be this song. I have been battling depression since elementary. This song actually describes what I think to myself in my lowest points. And having these thoughts going around your head is a nightmare. I try to forget but they keep coming back like a flood that came out of nowhere. And this song is really trippy to hear the things you hear in your head. To anyone who hear these thoughts at night don’t let them win. Distract you brain with something else to remove those thoughts. It’s a pain to get rid of these thoughts when they consume you. So fight on and continue living. You’ll see the beautiful if not for the the people then the beauty of earth.
I love it when others react and enjoy Mafumafu’s music! Edit: I just wanna support him and care for him because me and him both have anxiety and are super similar he’s just precious Also I’m subscribing now :D
I found your channel recently and I absolutely love your thoughts and inputs on all the songs you’ve listened to. And hearing your thoughts on this song and mafumafu, one of my favorite artists, it makes me so happy. I remember when I first heard this cover, and as someone who struggles with depression daily, the pain in mafu’s voice got to me and I couldn’t stop crying. Seeing you hold back tears is a testament to how powerful human emotions are and how emotions can affect media. If you listen to more of mafumafu, I highly recommend his covers of self-inflicted achromatic, abandoned stella, ikanaide, lemon, idola circus, and flamingo. For original songs, I highly suggest jigsaw puzzle, keep out, berserk, RPG, FPS, a red balloon, apple fireworks and sea of soda, and hindoki. I’m excited to see what other songs you react to!
i actually love this song because of how strong the vocals are, it’s one of mt favourite mafumafu covers BY FAR and the song sounds incredible aswell as the impactful lyrics
can you believe this video was in my recommended and i still don’t know why but when i clicked this video three seconds in i unconsciously subscribed and liked the video immediately because for some odd reason i knew and felt how good his video was going to be like and his whole channel too?❤️ update : i am watching more videos and omg i love this channelllll
I don't know Why but . . . . my tears come out for some reason. thank you so much for your message. the best reaction know I feel so sad for the lyric.
I cried watching this. It's always has an impact. If you still feel like to listen to a song like this (with deep, meaningful and hopeful message), I recommend to listen to Soraru's cover of "The Reason I Wanted To Die / 僕が死のうと思ったのは" Soraru is utaite like Miyashita Yuu, Eve and a close friend of Mafumafu. After watching your Miyashita Yuu reaction I felt like you will like his voice too, so I couldn't help wanting to recommend him! Soraru is legendary for his low, breathy voice, with a slight drawl. Sorry for the long comment,, Thank you for reacting to this video! And thank you for your message at the last part, its it's great. I'll try to remember it.
I always took this song as a reminder to appreciate our lives more with lines like "we say we don't want our life as if life is always there" being alive in itself is a miracle and because we don't appreciate our own lives "we are hated by life itself". When he says that line his voice almost seems mad. And by the end of the song when he's urging you to just live it feels like a reassurance that life does have good parts and that even though we're all going to die anyway it's worth the ride for all those good moments you experience in life
That song has a similar way on how I view life especially the part where as long as people around me are alive and happy I'd be fine in life. Your video is amazing as well as your reaction.
Ah yes, I remeber when my best friend shared this song with me, it was what I needed to cry and release so much that had been angering me for too long but I wasn't able to put into words. Ever since I love it, it still helps me release my feeling during those days I fin it hard to release whatever is making me sad.
The first time I heard the song, I was sobbing. Big, body wracking sobs. Life is a mixed bag. It comes with pain, yes, but it also comes with all the good. Happiness, love, kindness... it's all there. You take it all, and you just live. To throw away all pain, you must throw away everything else as well. And by that, you lose all the good as well.
This is my favorite song that Mafumafu sang. He sings a lot of emotional songs. This is a cover tho. But he also has a lot of his original songs that also has a deep meaning. I'm so happy you made a reaction video about his song! Thank you! ❤
As a person who actually had and still has this mental state in the beginning that is mixed with the end, the lyrics grasped that on point better then i could have explained myself. Like holy fuck man i feel like my thoughts are exposed on a screen as if they took the side of me that hates life and is in such pain that i dont even wanna live anymore its not worth it, and then the side thats desperately trying to live trying to be happy, that just desperately wants to reach something to completion besides my own life
Thanks so, so much for these words. Had these thoughts, still need to go to therapy to "have a diagnosis". I love how Japanese producers/vocaloid express such topics, that's so helpful. 💙
Hey shooshi, I think I can relate about what you said at 9:40. I saw in your first video that you were once in a soccer team, but it seems you can no longer play it like you used to. I know it sucks, since I’ve gone through the same situation. Every Friday evening, me and my high school friends used to play futsal. It was a routine back then, something we did every once a week. I didn’t have any particular skill, but I REALLY enjoyed every second of it. Chasing the ball, pressing opponent’s forward, sweating my shirt out. I felt thrilled when I stepped on the green turf. However, things started to change when we graduated. We are busy with our own businesses. We have no more chance to meet, let alone play futsal. I can no longer do something I love. Nonetheless, I’m glad you have this channel to rediscover your passion, be it Japanese culture, video making, public speaking, or whatever it is. I wish you all the best for your future journey!
The song Hated by life itself is the first song on piano I learnt with two hands. The reason behind that is because for that me and my friend have related to this song and many more (Lost onrs weeping tokyo teddy bear Girl A Rolling Girl Suicide Song etc ) Pretty depressing but these songs and others i hold close tk my heart
