I had postpartum depression with my son. I hated myself. It was the darkest time of my life. I couldn’t even look at my son with joy. Had overwhelming feelings of guilt. It’s torture as a mother, though I’m happy to say that that period of my life is over and I’ve been on medication that has helped greatly. You are not alone.
I went through this with my son. He just turned a year old in July. I hate looking back now because I feel like I missed out on the first few months of his baby life because I was miserable. How do you explain to people what you don’t even understand? The sadness and hurt when it should be the most joyous time of your life. The guilt and shame because you just wish the crying would stop and wish it to hurry up and go away. I felt like I was on an island all alone, like my life had stopped, while everyone else’s moved forward. I didn’t think ppd would happen to me because I wanted my baby, I prayed for him to come, so why was I so sad? It’s a hard time and no one talks about it
I’m so sorry, stranger. Know that I know all those feelings EXACTLY! I went through years of infertility and it just didn’t matter when he got here. I hope you’ve made it through, but if not, know that I’m here if you need someone. It’s Hell for sure.
I had postpartum depression so badly. My husband was cheating on me during my pregnancy and because of Lyme disease, that I didn't know I had, I had a high risk pregnancy and had to stay in bed. Despite that I was so happy to be pregnant. After she was born she did nothing but cry (she was born with Lyme) and my husband was being abusive and cheating. I had such panic all the time. Only time I felt a little bit calm was when I was nursing her. Things got worse with my husband and my anxiety got so bad we separated when my daughter was one. He thought he was sending me to my mother who would "fix" me. I was leaving because I didn't want my daughter to think it was OK for a man to treat a woman the way her father treated me. There were times that my anxiety was so bad and my depression so deep I would think what if I just stepped in front of a car. It would all be over. I worked very hard on myself and got my life back, made it through the divorce and remarried years later. My daughter is 27 now and I have been happily married for 21 years to my second husband. I am not saying it was easy but I did it. You can recover. I promise.
@@seremanashute4347 When you are in the middle of it time feels as if it stands still. Each day stretches out endlessly. If you are suffering get help. Find a group you can join. Anything that gives you relief. Then someday you will look back on this time and realize how very strong you are.
If this trailer is any reflection of the content of the movie, this movie is what happened to me after I had my youngest son. I lost myself for an entire year and found out I suffered from Postpartum OCD. I hope movies like this make people understand what women with PPD, PPOCD, and any other Postpartum mental illness endure. Telling us to get over it will not help we need to be taken seriously, we need understanding and we need help from people in the Mental Health field i.e. phycologist and physiatrist. There is nothing worse than suffering from a disorder trying to get better and on top of that having no one believes you or is mad at you for being sick.
So so true!…happened to me too with my eldest!….and guess what am going thro’ it All again, very bad, 24 years later with peri/menopause!….it’s simply hell!🥺🥺🥺
@@sharonattard2625 It has to be a shift in our hormones or something we are losing as our hormones change. I am sorry you are going through it again. I hope you have understanding people around you and that you are getting help from mental health professionals. My saving grace was a psychiatrist that believed me and got me on the medication I needed.
@@thelight5384 hey!….so nice of You!….Yes I do have an amazing psychiatrist!….am even due to go soon!….however I feel like the personal strength I built up along the Tears is long lost gone and negative attitudes or judgements send me spiraling into the darkest abyss!…anyways thanks again!….much love 🙏🏻❤️🥰
A lot of trailers are having that now because of short attention spans. So if you're too disinterested for a whole trailer then you can still know what its about from the teaser.
PPD is a monster. It suffocates you. It was one of the hardest things I have ever been through. Please, do not underestimate it and call it "baby blues", seek help!
@@keschmesch , time and therapy. A good and seasoned mental health professional will help you and prescribe the medication you need to pull through. But do not expect overnight results. The path to recovery is long.
Let's be clear. Baby blues is ALSO a thing. But baby blues and post partum depression are not the same thing. They're very different. And you don't necessarily need meds to overcome PPD. Every case is different. It's something to work on with your doctor.
I had PPD and it turned into PTSD...my son is now 15 and I still have days when I remember how hard it was and I can't catch my breath, the title is pretty accurate. This is why I am very vocal about my struggles...it doesn't do anyone any good to pretend you have the perfect Instagram worthy life. Women need to lift each other up and share their struggles.
In 1991 they didn’t even talk about this as a possibility. I was blindsided by what I now know was PPD. I had no idea what was happening, I knew it wasn’t normal to have such paranoid thoughts and dark moods...I didn’t enjoy my baby at all for his first three months. I had thoughts of hurting him, followed by thoughts of other people hurting him, and then wanting to kill myself for not being a good mother. It was lonely and isolating because I couldn’t talk about it to anyone. I think my marriage began it’s unraveling during this time as well, I couldn’t let him in, and he couldn’t understand where his wife went.
I hear what you are saying-I had postpartum psychosis after giving birth to my first child in 1993. They called it "the baby blues" back then. It took about two years and an antidepressant to fully recover. I know now that my mom also went through it. This movie will hopefully give a lot of moms out there hope, and know that they are not alone.
I didn't know what it was until my sister went through it. I never had kids, so I have three sisters who did and it was so hard for her and I wasn't able to reach her or help her because she was so private about everything in her life. It wasn't until many years later that she finally to me what she went through and I felt so sad that I wasn't there for her enough.
You would have been there if she let you or reached out. But that’s not her fault either it’s the depression telling her there’s nothing anyone can really do.
She still suffers years later. We don't see much of her. We all feel.we lost our sister. I saw her for the first time in months in her new Miini Cooper, hair done, nice glasses, she saw me, but drove off without even waving. That really hurts. As if I never tried to reach out to help her all these years. I was there. I have exactly what she has, but I still believe in family even my worst days. I texted her to tell her that I saw her drive by and she said, "I saw you, but I didn't feel like talking to you." Wow! Amazingly cruelty expressed to me.
I watched this the other day and I was crying like a water faucet. It's not perfect, but it nails the despondency and hopelessness of what someone who is suicidal is going through.
With my 1st child I was 25 - and married. I read all the books, I had a friend who was also pregnant. I worked up until labor. I have a baby - 2 days later I am sent home & for 2 weeks I kept waiting for her mother to come get her. I hated that I didn't have that immediate all consuming love. I never hurt her & met all her needs but she just cried & cried. After 2 weeks of us both crying & crying & me feeling like everything was being judged- something clicked. I couldn't stop loving her and she is mine. My 2nd child I was 39, in bad health and as soon as she was born I couldn't put her down. Her forehead got a little chapped from all the kisses. It's real & we don't talk about it and 8f we do we fear more judgement.
What's heartbreaking that in many countries many people still don't have access to treatment and their disease is still dismissed and stigmatized, but sure - cry over cheesy movie while in reality many people have it so much worse like for example having to endure crippling depression/anxiety with not just mental but physical symptoms WITHOUT having partners/family to rely on and getting access to proper care.
I’ll never forget the day my husband came home to me sobbing and screaming on the playroom. That whole first year I thought about killing myself but I always had my son with me and since my dad took his own life I promised myself I would never put my kids through that same trauma. Thank God my PPD lifted at around 11 months. I hope this movie does this topic justice and brings awareness so we can help new moms.
I am so sorry about what you went through with your dad, and subsequent pain. I am glad to hear your symptoms lifted and I hope you are doing well today.
I'd always like to be a mother and when I was one, I entirely didn't expect to be a single mother. After 2yrs, I still feel the same at times, crying so hard before I sleep at night but mostly when I wake up in the morning. This whole pandemic plus going through parenthood alone makes it worse. Living back with my parents did not help at all even if my siblings came back to live in with us during lockdown. I was afraid to open up to them when I feel bad because my sisters were kind of sick of depressed me, and I didn't want to rain on their parade. I'm just glad to have that one friend who I can chat online when I feel like it. I'd play back funny & cheerful messages of my Ex to help me cheer up, even if I shouldn't be hearing them. I hope every new mother would go through this, get a support forum, and glad this movie will be out there to show it to men who needs to recognize, they need to support their partners more.
Unfortunately most women realize what's happening with them only years after. I've never heard of this syndrome, I'd just felt as if the best thing that could happen to me was to die. I had twins. Those times were so dark I do not want to have other babies now.
If you're aware of it, seeking help in the future is easier because you're already familiar with what's happening. I had PPD with my oldest. It was pretty mild. I didn't with my second born. I felt "normal". With my third, I had it again. It was probably worse than my first, but I was better able to cope because I knew help was there. All I had to do was reach out.
@@BlueDauntless yes, I'm sure you're right. It's easier when you already know what to expect and how to react. But then I'm still unwilling to take my chances.
You are a good mother. I got pregnant a second time and wasn't happy about it, but was determined to have the baby because it was the right thing to do. It wasn't this baby's fault. I'm so thankful I did because things are so much better with the second one, it's like I got a second chance. God bless you.
@@sitcomchristian6886 thank you! Yes indeed, if I get pregnant, then there's no question for me. It's already happened, it's not my right to choose now, it's baby's life that's involved. But as of now? I'm still terrified of being a mother to a baby/toddler (my twins are 10 yo now and it's still hard, because of their autistic disorders). I keep watching videos from mothers all over the world, and I understand that all of us face the same issues. And I wish so much that young mothers would've been prepared! I'd surely appreciate some education on the subject before it hit me. Thank you again!
Psychosis is a nightmare let alone postpartum psychosis. My daughter had it at 15 and I can't even tell you what hell it was. Such a important topic. It's such a dangerous disorder. Especially when not managed properly by medical professionals. So many kids could be alive today if psychosis was taken more seriously. It KILLS.
When I had Prenatal Depression and then Postnatal Depression (which makes a few years feel like dark, hollow decades, am I right?) I felt like a fly that keeps hitting a glass window because it cant see the window is actually open. I just thought I would end up a dusty fly exoskeleton on the windowsill. It is so so so scary. I know this film is going to really hit me hard.
I hope they do this topic justice. I had PPD in 1985. Nobody knew what was wrong with me. I couldn't stop crying and wishing I had never had a baby. Took me months to recover with the help of anti-depressants and family. It's a dark, dark place to be.
Hi Cynthia.....me, as well. 1984. I sought help and was told it was the "baby blues". Bullshit. I was afraid to be alone with my son. All I did was cry and regret having had him. It was horrible for almost 8 months. I, too, had medication and my husband was wonderful and eventually it got better but PPD is the real deal.
Going through it right now but fortunately was able to recognize it to seek help. Fourth trimester is the one no one talks about but imo the most dangerous
Such an important topic to be in a movie, this is a very common condition that until this day many are not so open about it. They picked the right actress, Amanda is outstanding and she is a young mom and will probably relate with the character at some levels/ (Disclaimer< I haven't watched the film but I will.)
@@ninachristensen7330 I cried a lot, and for some time only lived to get my other very small kids and the baby through the day. And at some point it gradually lifted. The lack of support was devastating though, and although it took me years for my brain to catch up, signaled my marriage would eventually end.
@@keelahroseIf you run from suffering you’ll never truly live life. It’s been worth it, through every parenting trial, mistake that I’ve made, when I have to ask for forgiveness & for all the joy. I’ve grown more as a person through my suffering than any ‘happy’ times in life. I don’t seek suffering out, but I’ve stopped running from it.
@@nrkltkman8512 You are a warrior. I suffer through this with my 2 children after my second my doctor told me that I really should not go through it again and I agreed. You are right it does make you stronger as a person, and it does make you appreciate life more.
I can’t tell if she lost the baby, or what really happened from there(please tell me haha) but I’m glad they chose Amanda for such a well deserved topic. For me, I connect to her because of her role as Sophie in Mamma Mia. My name is Sophie, and funny enough my dad left just like how she lost her dad (though it was undecided who of 3 men it was, my mother knows for sure who my father is). She’s such an amazing actress, and I’m glad people who suffer from whatever devastating mental crisis will get recognized by someone who is so good at her job.
I connected with Gerald from Heavyweights. There weren’t too many movies featuring fat white kids with severe atopic dermatitis, so I felt SEEN for the first time. This was in the mid 90s, when representation was only for the majority of the country, which was and IS white lol. But yea, representation is so important. I mean, would Hendrix have played such good guitar if he hadn’t had so many other black guitar gods to look up to? Oh wait. He didn’t. He just did his thing and was good at it. Weird. It’s almost as if you are a pathetic rube if you need to see yourself on tv in some way , lol. Everything I said before was a lie. Have a good day loser 🤙
i remember having to watch the ppd dvds in hospital before they would discharge us after my son was born, i chose to stay 2 nights in hospital because i was already afraid i didn't know how to be a good enough mom to him. I worried about everything, i was on high alert 24/7, i would bring him to the er for every little thing, my husband could not console me, i had ppd and ppanxiety, and probably ocd. it was bad. and it lasted for 3 years, i had vitamin and mineral deficiencies, my son ended up being spec. needs, he did not sleep more than 2-3 hours at a time for his first 4 years of life. I was exhausted beyond belief. No one tells you this can happen. And no one tells you it can be caused or worsened by the pitocin shot they give you during labor. I remember getting that shot, no one asked me if they could do it, they just did it, jabbed right in the right shoulder, and in the iv. I remember feeling dull, emotionless right away, detached, like I didn't recognized my son as my own. I wanted to be alert and loving every moment but it was scary and debilitating and difficult instead.
Unfortunately because of AHS, Finn Wittrock creeps me out, since it was the first time I ever saw him in anything. Its like seeing Daniel Radcliff and immediately thinking Harry Potter.
I'm watching ahs season 10 rn and he's the main character so it is a bit strange to see this commercial rn though so far he's normal in this season, I do get a strange vibe from him due to his portrayal in earlier ahs seasons and his roll in ratched, which just goes to show how good of an actor he is that he can pull off all those vastly different characters
@@thegoodguy44 Not sure what you think I mean, but I just meant its the first thing I ever saw him in and he played the role too well. Its not like I'm going to run away from him if I see him in street.
It was in a Molly Ringwald movie years ago! I can't remember the name. But she gets pregnant as a teen. Then after she has the baby, she just checks out. Her little sister (sister in law) is the only one who recognizes whats happening. Granted, it's not a movie entirely abiut the struggles, but it does show that they're there.
WOW This Movie Rocked My World. I AM TERMINALLY ILL AND SUFFERING 24/7 No not postpartum depression however it is severe depression as well! I totally related to the way she was feeling and she did a remarkable job! However the ending just left me so empty in my gut! 😢😢
Postpartum is driven by the unnatural way we live in this modern world. Our nervous systems are designed to regulate off contact with other humans. Being a mum is isolating in itself..we don’t live in tribe anymore. U can be surrounded by people in a city, and still feel so alone..
This trailer needed more information. It just showed a woman having anxiety attacks and having some difficulties (but not sure what difficulties exactly) due to these attacks.
@@megbailey3136 Actually it's supposed to be an advertisement that gives you enough hints to know what it's about but not too much to where you know the whole story. So sorry MEG it didn't meet the requirements of a decent trailer. It made me not want to see it bc I have no idea what to expect. I can't tell if it'd be good or bad based on this very ambiguous 1 minute video. Based on your argument you must waste a lot of money on movies that turn out poor due to not caring about what is shown in the trailer.
@@kateyoung8126 Really? Okay please enlighten us on what this movie is about? She has some sort of anxiety but don't what know what. Some are assuming (which this should not be the case if done properly) that she has Post P. How do you know? All it shows is a lack of motivation and days she tries to smile on through? What's the climax? That's usually shown in trailers? This trailer had no purpose. It didn't even show any turmoil with other characters.
I cannot watch this. I know I need help and I know I am not getting it in this pandemic. My husband thinks I am a lunatic but the truth is, he practically abandoned me to take care of my son almost alone for 3 years. Yeah, he is at home but he treats him as a Tamagotchi - plays a bit with him, gives him a snack, forgets that he exists for the next few days. I don't know if it is PPD or just a normal depression but I cannot watch a movie that hits home so hard.
It takes a village to raise a child. It's a tragedy that mothers are not only separated from other mothers, but sometimes their own family, as everyone just assumes- she's ok, it's only one kid. Imagine you had complete responsibility for one life, that didn't speak to you. People can lose themselves in that responsibility.
I'm currently dealing with postpartum depression, I sometimes think that if I wasn't around it'd be easier for everyone but then my baby laughs and smiles at me. I'm just in awe that I made her and carried her and brought her into this world I can't leave my baby without a mother. I am in therapy and it gets a little easier every day.
Yeah, I think was technically postpartum psychosis though. Which is an emergency, 911-worthy. Having had it PPD twice, I haven't been able to bring myself to watch these for fear of getting in that headspace again.
The postpartum depression opens up her memory to trauma that happened to her as a child. I never had children, because I was far too afraid that I couldn’t protect them not only from strangers, but the monsters in your own family.
I took care of two sons with making moneys to survive. I have a responsibility for them to be safe and grow up a being good men. Also I love them so much that motherhood stands for…I thank my husband to give me two beautiful sons. Be a strong mother for kids and your family, love your husband
Wow. This will be fantastic and relatable as a woman who had long term PPD that really affected my abilities in every way to be a Mother. I love my daughter and she is the best thing in my life but those first 18 months were blurry, dark, sad, confusing and very scary at times. Good family and husband support helps ❤️❤️💜 Amanda Seyfried and Finn Witrock 😊☺️🌟💫✨💜❤️
I think it's incredibly cruel that women in the US have no maternity benefits and are forced to return to work so early. That must make PPD so much harder. I never realized how hard and painful that must be until I had a child.
Can someone that has seen the movie PLEASE TELL ME if she died in the end or not. There was the last scene when her husband came back from spending time with teddy and he walks out the car and looks up shocked… SO DID SHE ACTUALLY KILL HERSELF ORR
It's obvious that she killed herself. She puts her daughter in her baby chair and goes outside to kill herself. They show you at the end that she's not present with the rest of her family when her daughter gives birth and they put that flashback when her husband comes back and you can see his shocked face.
@@KanadeLapis OMG THANK YOU AFTER I POSTED THE COMMENT I HAD TO REWATCH THE END AGAIN BECAUSE I WAS CONFUSED WITH THE WHOLE HOSPITAL SCENE I DIDNT KNOW WHO IT WAS BUT THEN I WAS LIKE OOOOOO
