a realistic day in my life right now *vlog* - ptsd exposure therapy & feeling low 

"Nobody wants to hear that" Personally I just want to hear whatever you're going through because 1) you're such a sun to me 2) your journey and your thoughts are relatable and often very very helpful And I hope you don't feel any pressure to post ❤💚

You don't bore me by making videos about how you struggle every week. I think it is validating to us who also struggle, but are met by impatience in our everyday life, because people are not always able to deal with the consistent hardships of others. But those who live it know that it is worse for the person living it than the person living around it and as such I only feel sympathy for you.

Brandon seems like he has such a gentle heart. He's so kind to you (as he should be lol) but also seems like challenging in a good way. So proud of you! 🥰

Ro, you have always shed light on mental health struggles in such an authentic, respectful, and comforting way. Thank you for being brave enough to share your CPTSD recovery process. There isn't much out there on CPTSD that shows the day to day lives of those surviving the challenges it brings, so I wanted to say a big thank you to you for being so brave to share something so personal so that others don't feel so alone x

Honestly you saying you struggle every week makes me feel less alone. Everyone always asks me how I am doing and I feel this pressure to say I am doing better and that I am doing exposure for my anxiety when the truth is I am not really. It is really hard and can't be solved easily and you showing me that I am not alone and that it is okay to struggle really helps. So I wanted to thank you 💕

It's so hard for me to socialize too. It has to do with low self-esteem. I just had a hard time during middle school. It was normal teenager stuff, but because I didn't really have emotional support at home and I guess my personality tends to be very sensitive I've never really felt like I got over not having friends in middle school. Usually feel that people think I am weird and annoying but they put up with me because they don't want to be rude. I am working on it every day because I have wonderful friends. I feel like I didn't appreciate them enough by being blinded by negativity.

Happiness filled my heart when I saw a notification that you uploaded a new video🥰💖🤭❤️⚜️🥳✨😘🌷🌸🥝🍓📌🥞🫂🎉🌟❤😊😊❤😊❤

Can we just talk about what a stunning human being Ro is ❤

I know what you mean about being out of practice with socialising. I was very withdrawn during my late teens for personal reasons, and I've only recently been able to meet people and try new things. It's easy to feel like you're 'behind' everyone else but it's not a race. We're all on our own journeys :)

Tbh I’ve been self harming and been very depressed this week. Filled with pain. But I’ve always found you comforting Ro ❤

Hi Ro :) Two things I really would like to share here 1) socialising is like a muscle and when you haven’t used it for a while, starting to use it again is really hard and exhausting. You might get sore afterwards or even pull it. But the more you use it again, the stronger it gets and suddenly you're using it and it's just easy because you have put in all this training. I know it's a metaphor and it's much harder than "just doing it", this is not what I'm meaning to imply, just know from someone who's been struggling with that, that it does get easier and it's worth putting in all this effort. 2) I also really felt what you've talked about in the beginning. Here is little story from me; I have been in therapy for over three years now for multiple illnesses (started therapy in january 2020, covid didn’t really help but I'm genuinely okay now). I was so depressed and suicidal... then some things got better but overall recovery takes so long. This in itself became a problem at one point last year because then, my biggest issue was the illness itself. I was so over being depressed, being traumatized, having to put in work etc. I was tired from therapy. This is when I had to be the absolute kindest to myself even if it was the point when being kind to myself was also the hardest. Look at all the progress. Look at what you've achieved. Give yourself teeny-tiny breaks, not big breaks because they could jeopardise your recovery but tiny ones and then continue to move forward step by step. I have come so far. You have come so far. Compare yourself to an earlier version of yourself not to someone who has never had your specific issues. Be kind to yourself. Look after yourself. Give yourself a big bear hug Thank you so much for your videos. You're helping and inspiring so many people. But most importantly you should focus on helping and inspiring yourself! All the love xx

When I did gymnastics everyone always told me the second time isn't as scary. That wasn't true for me and I used to freak myself out more when the second time wasn't less scary. But I learned over time that the third time almost always was less scary and I tried to hold onto that throughout my OCD recovery and whatever journey I'm on with my ED. So yeah, just thought I'd pass that along and here's to hoping the third walk to the end of the block feels easier.

Sometimes we all need to just watch a casual day. Sometimes that exactly what will make us feel more relaxed, especially if it's you because I think you're just impossible amazing at cheering us up just by existing. We love your channel, no matter what kind of content there is. We love you, no matter what

I LOVE the “boring” life you show us. MOST of us are doing boring stuff every day - just a little small sweet meaningful boring life. It’s lovely to watch you living yours and fighting so hard for your own happiness and well being. Please always show us the small and the boring and the mundane. Because you make me realize it’s OK for life to be simple and boring and normal.

Here to let you know you don’t ever bore us. Actually, you are my comfort content creator, and everytime I wacth your videos I feel, somehow, at home. You had helped me (and still are) so much in my mental health recovery journey. Thank u so much 🪴🫶🏻 Sending you love and strength 🌷

You are so brave for documenting your journey. It really means the world to me and others. I have struggled with eating disorders and now I have PTSD and depression from different experiences. Please don’t ever dull your sparkle. You are absolutely brilliant, and worthy of love. Sending you love and hugs ❤

Ro your vulnerability and honesty makes you such a gem and honestly social media would be a much better place if there were more people like you. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You should be so proud of yourself; your courage makes you are hero.

Love seeing how great your support system is❤️ it's so hard, but you will get through this! It's okay to not finish a challenge sometimes, it's not a step back, it doesn't undo any of your progress, it's just part of the journey. You got this, you're one very strong person ❤

High key relate to the feeling that years of not socializing makes you incredibly awkward and like everyone else is brilliant at it. I also try to remind myself that more practice is the solution and try not to compare with others who never took a break and got constant practice. It’s hard, but it will hopefully get easier🙏🏻

we all love you so much ro and we r all so so proud of you!! keep fighting queen you got this

i missed you ro! you are such an inspiration for recovery and im so proud of you

hi ro! you helped me so much with getting help for my eating disorder i wanted to say thank you so much, i love ur videos and i hope your ptsd recovery goes well!!

Hey Ro, You're amazing! You always motivate me to start recovering and i really enjoy watching your videos. If i never found you'r channel, i probably wouldn't want to get better. You are helping me so much, i love you!❤

Your vlogs are so comforting! I was so excited to see you uploaded a new video. The last two vlogs I’ve been watching on repeat for the past month and a half lol. They’ve been really helping me as a version of body doubling; your content is perfect to put on while I push myself to do the dreaded things that i need to do to take care of myself.

ur an amazing soul ro. so proud of you!! lots of love xx🤎

You’re literally the reason I started recovery Ro, thank you so much. Every one of your videos has helped me, pls keep on posting and I would love to see more what I eat in a day type videos or eat with me (like when u talked about why you stopped being vegetarian whilst eating a bowl of tuna pasta). :) xxx

It's a great idea to give yourself a pat on the back for all the things you have achieved. You've come so far!!! You're a beautiful, intelligent young lady and a completely different person from the one that started these vlogs. Massive congrats for all you've achieved so far and also in helping others SO SO much!! ❤

Watching this in the British heat wave and I’m just so proud of u ro! I can’t wait for ur next post and keep on going xxx!

You are such a comfort youtuber, you have helped me so much with my ED and anxiety, thank you❤

so proud of you Ro❤️‍🩹 keep going xx

You are definitely never boring!!! You are so incredibly brave 😊 Thank you for sharing with us. Keeping you in my prayers ☺️

I love your content not to be inspired by your life but to be inspired by who you are as a person. As your grow and evolve your content will too but we will still all be here to continue being inspired by you

Thank you for making videos even you are having a hard time. It makes me feel less lonely because I’m also having a hard time. Warm hugs ❤

Thank you Ro for showing us your journey ❤️ you are inspiring me and many others with your strength and willpower to get better💪 You've personally helped me begin recovery for Ed and ocd, and I am Forever grateful for your videos and Instagram posts🤗

I was thinking about you recently and so happy to see today's new video. You have helped me so much in my on-going recovery from anorexia. Sending love to you from the U.S.

I can really relate with the social anxiety you show and describe. Bravo for making this vlog and posting it! I love your content and I think you are super brave and cool. All the encouraging compliments to you!

LOVE LOVE. take all the rest you need it’s important to prioritise yourself!!! 💞💞

so happy to see you post again :) sending love❤

Keep making whatever content you want. We will watch, support, and love it 🙂 You are amazing!

Hey Ro! Just here to drop a comment and say that i really appreciate and love your content. I find it relatable and it makes me feel less alone. Seeing your content motivates me to be kind to myself and help myself. Thank you. You are appreciated.

Thank you for sharing about the reframe around socialization and "not being good at it." It really opened my eyes to my own situation: I also beat myself up for being socially awkward and very overwhelmed in social situations, and I've similarly been socially isolated since 2018 when I went to treatment. I'm just now opening up my life to more relationships and connection, so I deserve to give myself some grace.

Ro, I don't know if you'll see this, but I can't tell you how much my heart goes out to you. I relate to these feelings so deeply, and I can't tell you how so so proud I am of you for facing the fears anyway. I see how hard this work is, and you're doing it! It does get better, I promise

good job facing your fears ro, you are so brave! a fear is a fear because you are scared of it and doing exactly what your brain says is scary can be very very hard. but in this case we know it only gets better if you do this again and again.. so, keep going! you'll get better and better at it. ❤️

I am proud of you for never giving up

Ro, I'm also doing exposure therapy for my ptsd and it will get better. Some days I'm still really struggling, but most of the days it's so much better now. Just keep on going, you will get there ❤

Keep pushing through! You got this! Something is always better than nothing! One step forward sometimes brings you 3 steps back and that's okay as long as you try try again.

Finished the video and I just have to say that I am very proud of you. I find something difficult similar and different from you but im abnormal too but there is no normal 💖 wishing you an abundance of love hope and protection

Hey Ro, I’m very sorry you’ve been battling so much and feeling down and overwhelmed. But I just wanted to thank you for being vulnerable here when you post. Im very much aware that there are so many people battling with MH but I just see everyone around me carrying on as usual and acting fairly “normal” and I just do not know how they do it. To see you being honest about your struggles and sharing similar feelings is a comfort because i tend to invalidate my health issues because I don’t have people around me who relate and struggle with the things that I do (or are open about it perhaps). I do not wish it on anybody, but I am grateful to you because it reminds me that I have my own unique experiences and therefore my personal own unique path and that’s okay, even when it’s frustrating. Wishing you all the best and strength for your PTSD recovery ❤

that was super comforting and relatable. i struggle with mental health too and so often i feel like nobody on earth understands. videos like this really help

You're literally my comfort person. I can't stop overthinking lately and your videos help me a lot!

so so proud of you ro. you’ve done so many hard things before, and you will continue to do these hard things. your struggles and journey are so valid and are providing so much light and comfort to those following along. every step forwards is progress, and future you will be so grateful that you pushed through 💛

You are so loved Ro!!!

Your mum lurkin in the background lol -also, soooo proud of you Ro! Small steps lead to big changes -You are seriously smashing it ✨

I have different struggles but I resonate so much with how you feel. "This fucking sucks, i wish i could just be like a normal average person" Is word for word what I've been saying to myself recently. I'm really appreciative of you sharing your experience, it's made me feel a little less alone in these feelings.

heyy, hope everything gets better and btw i’ve been looking through your anorexia recovery vids, and you’re looking so good! well done 😃

Ahh I’ve missed you Ro, love your vlogs❤

I appreciate your realness more than you know. I had my baby 8 months ago. I have severe postpartum depression, relapsing in everything. I have the best support and live with my parents and thankfully they help out so much. But i feel so much guilt about it every day. My feed is all moms making aesthetic videos of a day in the life with their baby and theyre doing a million things everyday. And i just cry as soon as i wake up and cant do anything. I want to sleep all day. What you said about going on social media and seeing all these people doing all these things making you insecure about your own life is exactly how ive been feeling. Like why can eveyone do it and i cant? But its not everyone. Theres so many people who get it, were not alone. you reminding me theres other people who get it is what keeps me alive

Love you so much ❤you are helping me with recovery so much❤

you deserve all the good things Ro

quit apologizing ! please prioritize your well-being n do what makes you comfortable . we know you're human as well , do what you gotta do 💗 wishing you the best , i'm v proud of you always , Ro

You are such a beautiful person. Inside and out.

i have agoraphobia as well and nothing motivates me as much as your videos, thank you ro

You are such an inspiration to me and so many others! ❤

I am also doing exposure therapy and seeing your experience makes me feel less alone

girl absolutely not!! i struggle with ptsd as well and all i see are people who seem to have the perfect lives. this helps a lot because sharing your happiness with everyone is easy but sharing your struggles is not. this takes a lot of courage and i can never thank you enough for making these vlogs. ily

Take your time love, we adore you and just want you to be okay❤

yaaay another upload! love u ro!

Thank you for keeping posting videos. We just want you to be you Keep going! FIGHTING!!😘😘😘😘

Well I gotta say I’ve been trying to work up the courage to go to the post office for like a month now to mail my dad a Father’s Day gift I made him… the stress is REAL. Way to go for continuing to work through it all. It’s not easy but you are doing it

haven't gotten through the entire vid yet but I from the outset I was so struck by how beautiful you are it had to be said

You did in once (you are now a healthy food queen) and you WILL do it again. Babysteps 🫶🏻. Whatever trauma has happened I hope you heal, looks like you already are! xoxo your friend from Holland

I cannot say this enough, You look absolutely stunning omg. White really compliments your skin tone and makes your eyes look WOW !!🩷🎀

My t-shirt came today. Your hoodie looks great on you. You should be proud of yourself for doing the exposure work. As is the case in ED recovery ‘if it doesn’t challenge you, it won’t change you’. Regarding your point about not having an interesting life, ‘interesting’ RU-vidrs don’t interest me. The fact that it feels like I can relate to you and your journey is worth way more than showing holidays and current fashion trends. Keep being you, keep challenging yourself, you’re an inspirational young woman. Lastly, thank you for inspiring me to continue working towards being recovered from bulimia.

This was so peaceful and calm 💓💓

I love your videos. Your truly Journey to recovery inspires a lot. Tks tks tks. Please keep going. This kind of content is so helpful ❤❤❤

I haven't watched you for a while just came back. And omg! Ur so beautiful! 🧡

I love that you fight the voice that lies and tells you that youre not enough or should be scared. Its so easy to give in instead. I know reading the Gospel of John was a game changer for my own peace. God bless 💕

It IS possible to fully heal. I was a depressed, suicidal, self harming 20 something once. Carried issues from my teens into my adulthood, so i totally understand how hard it can feel to be a young adult. Now I am 34 and if I could give u 20 somethings advice, I'd say leave social media or limit yr time on it. Dont waste yr youth comparing yrself to eveyone else. Appreciate how completely unique u are and that u have something unique to do in this world. Dont keep turning over the same thoughts and allowing them to rule u. If u have a bad thought, let is pass, dont meditate on it. Dont let feelings of failure become routine thought patterns. Recognise that a negative thought life can actually be self indulgent. Spend time doing things for others, its a huge anxiety reliever getting yr mind off yr self. Work out what the emotional root of yr anxiety is. Believe and know that with age u will become more comfortable in yr skin. Watch sermons on the life and ministry of Jesus Christ- they are a life changer.

thank u for using the whole avocado; i was beginning to think i was the only person who does that and it was stressing me out, but i feel better after seeing you use the whole thing too 🥰

Haven't watched ur content in a while good to see u

im so proud of you 💌

It's 10:00pm now in my country , im stuck in my bed wtaching your video😢❤ love you're energy

Btw avocado tip. Remove the stem/cap, if the colour under it is yellowish it’s ripe! If it’s white/green, it’s not ripe. And brown is too ripe. Hope this helps :)

Omg you look stunning from when I first discovered you to now big amazing change u look healthy ❤and absolutely stunning 😍

"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering." -Friedrich Nietzsche Sometimes our meaning is to be in pain, our pain has purpose as we work to healing ourselves, sending strength to all.

Lovely to see you back on here Ro also never heard of that rule on Vinted 💖

Welcome back ❤

I got sick in 2017 as well and stopped going to school in person. I spent senior year in treatment then graduated in 2020 during covid online. Moved out with my grandpa and spent the next 2 years alone in my room. Im 20 now and just got adopted by an amazing family. I had a baby and now am a single parent and love it. But despite my circumstances getting better, that gap in socialization while being sick, left me feeling like a shell of a person. I forgot how to interact with people, whats appropriate to say in what setting, etc. I hate it. I avoid it. I have no friends. But were so young and have so much time, it'll get better❤

I just have to say your hair and make up in this video is stunning😍

I am someone who do have problems, but not this kind. Tho I still find Ro really comforting and human and it helps me understand some things I don't. I am terrified of height, but against all odds, got back to school into carpentry and it's hard this week in scaffolding, because I never really get anxious? Stressed, nervous, yes, but not anxious. I had a panic attack at the top, in front of everyone (That were all lovely and patient with me!) And it's so hard because I have no idea how to deal with that feeling (I just wait until I am fine enough to continue) and it's hell at that moment and am a bit shaken for the day. Ro's deal with it every single day, and fight it. No wonder sometimes it gets hard, no wonder sometime it feels like it's impossible. It's a mountain, it's hard, and she do it, and doesn't stop, and continue, even when it's hard. Sorry for rambling, but it's really incredible!

Hi ro I would just like to say I love it when you upload. I am currently struggling in ed recovery it is very hard and also I am so proud of u on how far you have come. ❤

Thank you for your update.

She’s so pretty 😍

your mom lurking in the back killed me 😭😭😭😭 like why was she standing there for SO long 😭😭😭

Thank you for your video was waiting for it 🙂 I'm glad your okay. I enjoy your videos. I'm crying watching how nervous you are when you started walking. I can relate to this completely. Thank you so much Ro. I feel so alone with my PTSD symptoms. I think it is normal for a woman to look around a bit or behind her. It's good to be aware of your surroundings. Who decided you shouldn't look behind you? (if it's your boyfriend talk to your therapist about that bit)

@romitchell the exposure walk is so relatable to me (not sure if this same thing)today I went to the pool with my family but the process of putting on a new swim suit or one i don’t often wear especially in my more grown body is so scary, I panic about the timing like is it better to on time so everyone is in swimsuits out of the water before the session or go in a few minutes after because everyone will be enjoying themselves but the feeling that everyone is looking and judging me in my swimsuit is so overwhelming I’ve nearly gone home because i don’t think I can do it .

OMG I love your bear hoodie ❤

Thank you for documenting your struggles with leaving the house; I’m currently doing little exposures with mine to but often I feel so alone with it because as i’m sure you’ve experienced it’s incredibly hard to make someone who doesn’t suffer understand how crippling a simple thing like walking out the front door can be. We’ve got this 💪🏻🖤✨ xxx

Please could you share your current makeuo favs? 🥺 Just started the video - your makeup in this intro oh my WORD so glowy and a gorgeous colour pallete 🥰

Ro you are an inspiration, my story is quite different from yours, I’ve had anxiety basically my whole like and developed an Ed due to gender dysphoria from being trans. I don’t have ptsd of cptsd but living with generalised anxiety and social anxiety actually sucks. I can’t imagine the extra trauma on top of that. I have anxiety surrounding “being in the real world too” ever since I was little I’ve been afraid of people hurting me or my family and had nightmares of such. Everyone always made me believe that these thoughts to my daily extent was normal for kids which sort of was true, and that I would grow out of it. Which never happened. Anxiety sucks and can control your life, but watching you fight for your life back has made me go outside more even if it’s just the creek with some friends or doing something once a week. I haven’t seen any other mental health creators really open up about these fears of what is basically human behaviour. And watching you feels real to me, a real person who wants to live. I’m so glad I found your channel and please take care of yourself ❤