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My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
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@eledwin21 6 лет назад

Dude relax, everybody makes mistakes, thats what makes this channel so authentic.

@joywalsh6150 6 лет назад

Edwin Delgado thank you i should have said this too!

@bignoknow 6 лет назад

I couldn't just pretend nothing happened. Had to own it out of respect for the few thousand peeps that watched and then reached out. I messed up and I apologize to anybody that struggles with addiction and mental health that I may have triggered. Won't happen again RU-vid fam.

@NYC_YELLOW_CAB 6 лет назад

You Are a Human Being please don't censor yourself keep it real that's why I follow you.

@sportsguy8738 6 лет назад

I think it’s fine that you posted it, fine that you deleted it, and fine that you posted this. No wrong done. Just get sober man alcohol is a depressant and we want to see you happy again!

@joer3501 6 лет назад

You still managed to make that video compelling and insightful :). But totally understand why you don't want it up. Nothing but respect for you, Noah

@joer3501 6 лет назад

Btw if youre concerned you mightve said something you shouldnt have in that video, there really wasnt anything IMO that you wouldn't seem to say while sober!

@mariatruman939 6 лет назад

Gush that’s me... you where not trigger me as an individual... but what I live every week... in a sick way I guess it helps me because I’m not alone... I feel happy that I’m not the only sick person that does shit like this while I’m boozing ... and realizing that I need help... right now your my go too. You keep it really real I cry because I know I need help... but right now can’t afford it... I’m stuck men and I suffer from deep depression and anxiety too... this year was going to be great for me.., instead I get bad luck after bad luck... damn if it wasn’t for bad luck I wouldn’t have any luck at all...

@fionab614 6 лет назад

It's all good. We all fall down.. it's the getting up again that defines you not the fall xx

@rustyblade9366 6 лет назад

Why do we fall, mr. Wayne

@klairesimpson9402 6 лет назад

Hey, thanks for the update. Think you’re like me in so far as you are your own worst critic. Be kind to yourself!

@bignoknow 6 лет назад

Klaire Simpson absolutely am lol. Learning to be more kind to myself each and every day.

@KayHazelofficial 6 лет назад

We are all human here Noah, I think filming yourself drinking wasn’t the best thing you could’ve done for yourself and your audience but at the same time try not to fixate on it. I feel your audience are some of the most forgiving and understanding folk. We are all here on this journey. x

@JohnSmith-mi5dj 2 года назад

What your human? Forgive yourself first, and move on this is a great learning moment for alot of people.

@augustinebarrett1991 6 лет назад

Just watched the video of you being sober for 1 year and 1 day. Congrats man! I've been sober for over a year and life was amazing and I learned what I was capable of doing during that time. I believe in you man!

@mirandabraaten1905 6 лет назад

I totally understand and I think you are so brave to show your using moments or your breaks in recovery. I find for me I hide when that happens. Mostly because my biggest supporters who are my family are the most judgmental. So for me to see someone like you show that yes you can fall off the wagon and this journey of ours is real I think you are very brave and I commend you for that. I am glad you took the video down and I am glad you addressed why. You are obviously very very smart and logical which is similar to me. All my life I had my younger sisters look up to me until they found out I was an addict that has misdemeanors for theft on my record. I was always very logical and worked hard for years as a surgical technologist. I kept my addiction to myself. Only my then (abusive) husband knew about it. Please keep your head held high because it will help you on your journey. Thankful to have found your channel.

@pmh9966 6 лет назад

I have been sober for 13 years. it is to me a matter of not giving in to the desire because as you said in a previous video about pure O (which I have as well) It is just a thought. Do I think about booze? Yes. What do it do? I acknowledge the thought and move on... .. A useful thing I did was get all my bloods taken... They showed that my cholesterol was through the roof, as was my blood pressure. Also the booze had increased my sex hormone binding globulin which buggered up my testosterone. I also grew boobs. So I have dropped 50lbs I now have low BP and I take supplemental Testosterone... My drinking partner- my wife refused to stop.........She drank herself to death.. Remember that taking a drink may well be a body or psychological compulsion. however you don't have to give in to it....... Us guys with OCD like to be in control----- you can do it :-)

@patrickwood3160 6 лет назад

I have been a supportive follower for several years now. After viewing your "drunk recording last week"; and with you stating repetitively over the last several months, "this isn't what this channel is about" - I have come to the conclusion that you do need to take a brake and deal with your drinking issue. This comes from personal experience, and those that I have witnessed - you are heading down a road of destruction Noah. Also, I say this in love 😇, and continued prayer for your recovery! I was a click away from dropping off your channel, but didn't - because you matter to God! Choose yourself over the impact of potentially losing an audience base. And, I will wait as long as it will take for your healthy return and freedom from addition!

@mattfromeurope 6 лет назад

Patrick Wood Amen! Could not have said it better. You‘re a good guy at heart, Noah. Every human makes mistakes. That‘s just how we are. Admitting them is a real sing of strength of character. You already recovered once, you will do it again. Do you still remember how you managed to do it the first time? Maybe that will help you.

@amynicole5884 5 лет назад

Agree. Would have triggered me. But much love..

@haileypeterson1936 6 лет назад

Don't feel ashamed, you are really trying. Maybe tell yourself, "i can drink, if I choose, but I don't want to." Versus "I can't drink ever" or obsessing about how to moderate. Having that resistance feeds to problem psycolgically. For a while I obsessed about drinking.....when I would or wouldn't, how much, how hungover I would be, if it was worth the hangover, would I want to go back to the liquor store later, etc. Once I let go of those obsessive thoughts of resisting it so much, I felt a lot of the burden go away and it became easier to forgive myself and be aware or my drinking without obsessing. It's difficult not to be so hard on ourselves but less resistance will lead to more inner peace. Much love to you and thank you for always being so brave to be open with us!

@Aquamarine1111 6 лет назад

Hailey Peterson I love your comment! :)

@haileypeterson1936 6 лет назад

Indira Lakshmi Thank you 😄

@PaoloBroccardo 6 лет назад

You embraced testosterone replacement therapy. Have you tried regular therapy for the drinking/depression/anxiety? We share a very similar story in terms of TRT, anxiety and the drinking devil, and seeing a therapist to help me get to the cause of the drinking has been a huge success. I highly recommend it mate. Best of luck! I completely understand the grip it can have on you. PS. A great book to help you dig deeper is "Healing the Shame that Binds You" by John Bradshaw.

@mysoullovessoul558 6 лет назад

I'm here with you man for the ups and downs, cause we're all on that same rollercoaster. Keep on keeping on my friend. ❤💪👊👍

@sergiovalenti7255 6 лет назад

You're not thinking when you're getting drunk. You think your way into the first drink, then the alcoholic allergy kicks in and your brain wants more and more and more. Don't pick up that first drink bro, and hit some meetings.

@thatnorachick 6 лет назад

Don't feel ashamed, you are human and you do so much for others on this channel. You are just showing that yes in fact you are a human being struggling just like many of us and we love you for being honest. I think you are an amazing person and your advice has helped me with my anxiety for years.

@joywalsh6150 6 лет назад

I have to admit i started the video then thought no im not going to watch because it felt wrong icky and i just wasnt comfortable with it. I domt hang out with drunk people and i was afraid it would be a car crash, especially after spending an evening recently with an old old friend who is an alchaholic and i never knew, i found it (that evening) so traumatizing as she doesnt want help. Dont beat yourself up though, you fucked up, shit happens, you are on a journey honey and youll have pratfalls along the way! Ps even my toes hurt after the gym tonight!!!

@lorraine9673 6 лет назад

Pratfalls...funny

@debbieporter6581 6 лет назад

Even with all that u are going thru in ur life right now u still make time to read our comments. That's one thing that makes u so very special. And why we love and care about you. Thank you.

@jasonhardwick1773 6 лет назад

All good brother I was the one saying I was on day 2 opiate with drawl good news I’m 8 days clean.

@angelabarrera24 6 лет назад

Jason Hardwick Proud of you! Keep pushing through! You can do it!

@1trillionviews516 6 лет назад

Hey brother, it's a struggle, of course you're unsure of it. I'm a recovering addict and alcoholic, 2 years clean off heroin and meth in June, and just a few months sober of alcohol, and everyday is a struggle. I love your channel and all your videos, regardless of their content. I started watching when i was looking into info on TRT. I saw the TRT videos and became a happy subscriber. I just wanna tell you keep strong and continue with your drug and alcohol counsellor and you'll get so much out of it. Bless you man. Edit - you did NOT trigger me. I saw the video title and I didn't have to watch that one, but i chose to watch it.

@mariaclark3122 6 лет назад

Think we have all been there. Don’t beat yourself up so bad remember you are human and we all make mistakes. Keep your head up and keep moving forward. 😊

@asifaman6879 6 лет назад

You are super cool person. We appreciate your effort for this. I like your bold open speech about past!

@patsomerville1310 6 лет назад

Dude just go to AA...

@ABCDuwachui 6 лет назад

Politicrat that's a rather cruel thing to say

@TheManicRainbow 6 лет назад

As one of the people who watched that video, I have to say that even though I don't struggle with that exact problem, I still felt some sort of connection to the things you were saying. And it was interesting to see you speak in the way that you did. What I mean by that is that you were vulnerable and very open. You didn't censor yourself as much when you had a bad thought, you just said it out loud. And while it feels bad to hear you say things about yourself, it's also slightly nice to know that you think these things too. That you feel the same way. I don't know if this makes any sense at all. I just hope that you continue to be strong and that you get through this. Because you are strong enough. You are good enough. You can do it. We believe in you.

@clairerose5113 6 лет назад

I think it's good that you talk about your drinking. It's a part of you. Mental health is good to talk about but it's not your entire life. It makes sense that you would talk about other parts of who you are, things you are proud of and things you aren't

@learningasigo6424 6 лет назад

I understand what you're saying "how would people view me". I have been through allot in the past four years. Almost died after birth, the baby wasn't in the room, and left the hospital without him. On top of that two years of false accusations via CYS, two years of getting turned into the township, ECT. I litterly gave up trying to be "perfect". I posted on FB some of my depression while not everything. I have low end that lasts longer than the higher end of mania. It saved me allot of anxiety. My simple answer is "I'm beautifully broken. What I want through does not define me."

@KonjikiKonjiki 6 лет назад

You made a choice you regret and feel shame over. I live with major depressive disorder and anxiety; ruminating over what i wish I hadn't done, and how I would have done it differently, has been a way of life for many years. Like you've I've done things I regret and feel shame over. Maybe different brain chemistry, maybe all kinds of other differences, but sounds like you are handling it well. Examining the situation to see what you can learn from it, working on not repeating the situation, and continuing to move on with being your best self.

@Mportello1 6 лет назад

well done Bro! That really was a good recovery from that video :)

@Lcanino 6 лет назад

A program helps, AA, NA, CR they are all support groups with accountability, rather than trying to do it on your own and not suceeding.

@atypical_moto 6 лет назад

Alan watts said something along the lines of "Happy people don't constantly tell themselves they're happy". So long as we focus on being happy, we are reminding ourselves that we aren't. Don't let your ego analyze things too much.

@MrBpd 6 лет назад

I run into the same thing when it comes to content. I have found your subs find these things interesting. What I do is put a warning at the beginning. I'll do a video save it for the next day. Then I record a part for the beginning explaining the video and the fact that it could be triggering then I show the video. People appreciate that.

@dreg2656 6 лет назад

Hey man you're human, at least you're trying. I respect the honesty and I wish you posted more videos buddy but anyway keep strong!

@stevem125 6 лет назад

What you did is nothing out of the ordinary. When we're are told that we can never do something we are drawn to do it even more. Your a young man and you will do fine . But we must always remember that is a chance that we can return to that same dark place. You have the tools that you need. Experience ✔

@buttaz3000 6 лет назад

don't apologize for anythinggg

@1Rokyro 6 лет назад

Noah, it's tough to put yourself out there, I sure couldn't. I see you and I see someone struggling a lot. In my experience, unfortunately addicts have to be shocked into sobriety. Once there, that's when conditions of gentleness, empathy and understanding are essential. I'm curious how you managed to get sober on previous occasions? Was it when the pain and discomfort became such that drinking wasn't soothing enough?

@artisticamnesia4153 6 лет назад

I think you had good intentions. Your trying to figure your addiction out, how to conquer it. It's relatable, in one way or another we can empathize with that. I think many appreciate you care enough to take the video down. I know you will conquer this.

@Ski7440 6 лет назад

Everyone everyone makes mistakes , we are all.human Noah. I self soothe with a glass or two of wine in the evening . Ok I don’t video on u tube at all, but we can all say things or even do things when we are a bit pissed. You’re a good guy Noah, and I really like all your posts. 👍best wishes from 🇬🇧

@KendallLove15 6 лет назад

You ‘re so strong and authentic Noah. Even if you kept it on, there would be some positive benefit however you’ve made a call that it could do more harm than good. Good on you. I just wanna add also that I’ve been going through some of the comments and while most are positive, some aren’t. Telling you just chill & get your life together. I think you are extremely emotionally intelligent and analytical of yourself which can be a blessing and curse. Many of the negative commenters may be wired differently hence their suggestions and opinions. Keep doing you. This is your journey. You are doing the best you know how. Have compassion for yourself.

@debbieporter6581 6 лет назад

Stay strong. Everyone does things they may later regret doing. Don't let it get you down. You have so many of us who will always support you and stay with you no matter what. Take care.

@911SuzieQ 6 лет назад

While it may have triggered some , it was a reality check to me !! And i am now getting the help i need ! So it helped one person !!

@drariannamedici 6 лет назад

Relax mate we got your back always.

@lizwaechter1526 6 лет назад

No shame in authenticity. I too am an alcoholic in recovery, I've relapsed several times, the video reminded me of many of my own journal rambles while intoxicated. If people are too fragile to witness someone imbibe, perhaps they shouldn't watch material that covers the subject matter, both good and bad. To thine own self be trill! No apologies. Keep it up, Noah, love your honesty. ✨✨🙌⚡

@chaps1148 6 лет назад

Tbh I wouldn’t judge you on that video. You posted it up and it’s just one aspect of you as a person. Be that the struggle with drink, addiction, depression etc... that’s just you as a person right now being real. I watched and just hope and hoped you will get the help you need and require to combat your demons man. There are great aspects that shine through to, the honesty, motivation, the workouts, determination etc... no one person is perfect we are all glorious and we are all flawed. Life is a journey and it’s important we learn along the way and take each day in turn to better ourselves and learn from our mistakes. Don’t apologise and don’t reproach yourself. People that have been here the longest love and respect you and wouldn’t give up on you man. Nothing but love.

@joelparish9421 6 лет назад

You made that video for a reason .maybe it wasn't for us maybe it was for you.nevertheless you made it.but it was for some purpose in your life. yes it could have affected someone else negatively .but its your battle you have to fight .we all have some sort of addiction we fight daily. So we have to take the good decisions with the bad and learn from it stay strong man.I will never judge you for your actions.

@aliciamariediys1069 6 лет назад

Ur amazing! Don't worry about what others think. Love yourself and when the day comes to watch the video don't be harsh on yourself! Shit happens.....

@hardushelm6268 6 лет назад

Thanks for awnsering my question

@bthechange1633 6 лет назад

I think trying to be perfect and not wanting to feel shame or self loathing seems to kick start all kinds of addiction. Work alcohol drugs addiction addiction to fixing enabling etc addiction to being in control rather than feeling the trigger and asking ourselves... what is triggering me to feel like I want a drink

@lukemyles1367 6 лет назад

you know best why you drink you rationalise it by saying it was you trying to examine your thinking ...it's your addiction rationalising itself

@Aquamarine1111 6 лет назад

Don’t beat yourself up, Noah! I can totally see where you were coming from. You’re always honest and your subscribers appreciate that.

@vespertina9545 6 лет назад

I didn't catch that video probably because I've been sleeping 12+ hours a day on new medication, BUT... what I can tell you is, we all make mistakes. I doubt anyone here is going to judge you for this because we've all been in that place where we do not so smart things when in the back of our mind we are thinking this might actually help me or someone else. Life. It's an interesting thing to navigate and as long as you learn from your mistakes, that's all that matters. 💞

@angelabarrera24 6 лет назад

We're all human and we all make mistakes. Keep your head up.

@user-nv6ul3wb9m 6 лет назад

We love you! Stay strong

@nitinyogi9299 6 лет назад

it is good to watch you again love from India.

@ericgagne1450 6 лет назад

that ok man everybody make mistake. i made many mistake myself but the important is to keep moving foward.

@bstokes9424 6 лет назад

Thank you for the update. We are our own worst critic. Alcoholism is no joke, it's hard, but it isn't hopeless. You have been sober before and you can do it again. Personally, it broke my heart to watch you drink, but I don't fault you because I've been there. I have 6 months sober due to the grace of God.

@roughrider11100 6 лет назад

We are only human we learn from are mistake you are doing good

@greygoose4941 6 лет назад

I totally understand. It happens really. Mistakes. That is what it is to be human. The problem is there is anxiety. Constant anxiety. And in a moment drinking a couple drinks makes you feel better. Then there is some internal thing that makes you keep going. I found a way around this way to go cold turkey. And drink loads of water.

@karicampbell1644 6 лет назад

Hope everything's good with you rn

@a.c.9993 6 лет назад

We all make mistakes and will continue to make mistakes. It is part of being human. I think what is most important is to except your mistakes for what they are, mistakes, no more no less and to continue to progress in a positive direction. A lapse doesn't mean you have to throw away the progress you have already made.

@TheReminisce777 6 лет назад

dang bro i seen tou get through seveer dp, major depression and anxiety disorder you were my hope then.. and i i know you'll get through this too hit up doug too for some more support

@cat793c2008 6 лет назад

Your all good man. Stay the course

@northumberlandbeta 6 лет назад

Respect, brother.

@jessehinostrozajr.3697 6 лет назад

It was hard to watch that video, but you were honest and have been. That's what everyone loves about u.

@rachaeladams7025 6 лет назад

Stop beating yourself up. There’s been worse things to happen. People make mistakes man. Forgive yourself.. I struggle with alcohol and mental illness as well.. it’s hard it’s really hard.. I love your videos you really help me get through.. be good to yourself though.. love you buddy

@PercussusResurgo 6 лет назад

Listen man you made a mistake and your have owned your mistake. The real test for you as a person (not as a public YT figure) is if you learn from your mistake. I hope you get and stay well. You are a caring, honest and brave man. It also turns out you are also nor perfect. Well I guess that makes you human too. Wishing you all the best. Stay strong. Be kind to yourself. Stay off the booze. It is not for you. Period. One Day At A TIme.

@randyjohnson6390 6 лет назад

I didn't watch it at first, but after reading the title, I got worried about you and went back to watch and it had already been deleted. Give yourself a break - I think you may have actually done it for a good reason and didn't realize. Sometimes we'll show a side of ourselves to people in hopes of confirmation or denial of what we already know to be true. That can help make the next step more clear. The next step is to ask yourself some questions (which you probably already have); Do I drink simply because I like to get drunk? Is it strictly a physical addiction that could possibly even be genetically based when there's no real mental desire to drink? Is there pain in my past or a very negative self image that I'm trying to medicate away because deep down I feel like I deserve a self-destructive habit? Have I come to identify myself with my struggles so much, that if I don't hold on to at least one I won't know myself anymore? Am I afraid of responsibility to myself to live to a higher expectation if I'm sober? You've probably already gone over these in your head many times, but I've seen all of the above be very real reasons people drink. Your video probably even helped some people struggling with the same problem. You open yourself up so much to people you can't even see - who realize openness and vulnerability are wonderful qualities to have and are inspired by it. We've already understood and given you a break before you have done the same for yourself. Good vibes to you always...

@jamiesmith5391 6 лет назад

I understand it may have been a trigger to some, but I did not take it that way. I appreciated your video, relapse is a real concern with us all in recovery. Your video allowed us to see your struggles and the harsh reality of it all. it makes me feel better knowing it happens and we're not the only ones that go through this. but we gotta pull up our big girl panties and get back on track. We're human we make mistakes, it's just important to learn and not repeat them. Don't be so hard on yourself if this were a cakewalk situation and you never failed ever then I would question the sincerity of your journey. That's why no matter how many years someone stays clean we still identify as a recovering addict, not in past tense.

@mastereruthien2656 6 лет назад

Mate honestly your actions are absolutely excused. Alcoholism is one of the hardest things to beat in my opinion. I love what your channel is about and I fully respect your intentions and the intention of your channel.

@TheMadDasher1970 6 лет назад

We all make mistakes dude. I have to be honest with you on some level. If you can control you're drinking. You seem to mention that you be sober for 2 or 3 days and then drink. If you can control it, it's not a problem. I have seen a bunch of your post and it seems at times you can't control it. You haven't made it to that and kudos. And I will admit I do look forward to some of your post. I was a hard-core alcoholic for 14 years. We're talkin half gallon of vodka every 2 days. For me to quit drinking I had to detox in a hospital. That's something I haven't heard you mention. How you got sober and if you need it to be medically detoxed. I wouldn't mind a video based on that if there is one. Beer typically does nothing for me. Can't drink it fast enough to get a affect. You keep doing you man.

@N2Capital 6 лет назад

Dude, being on trt makes me want to drink all the time and I have never been much of a drinker at all. I can go 2 weeks and touch nothing and then, Bam I slammed 18 brews for no reason.

@onepurpleflower8910 6 лет назад

Put mental health first. I do but then I say, “nothing about this thinking is helping my mental health. ,Then I put a problem in my higher power’s hands and forget it. Do everything that makes you happy. Play a sport, travel even if it is just for the weekend. Go to the movies and go out for dinner with wifey. Indoor rock climbing, go zip lining. Anything that makes you feel better. This addiction requires obsession. What if you obsess about happiness and feeling better. By the way, your feelings are not facts, especially about the deleted video. Nobody else is obsessing on it. So forget it! You are over reacting to it. Trust me, we will get over it 😊. Plan for something fun to do every week. Go to meetings and don’t drink. Stop worrying- nobody cares about that video. I even forget what you said. So calm down. Stop those negative thoughts and tell them to get lost. Feelings are not facts.

@susaninthehouse768 6 лет назад

. Ya it was definitely wrong to drink on camera . Whats the first thing that goes out the window when drinking ? Our judgement. Keep tryin

@penguin06102011 6 лет назад

I know a guy for 32 years. I had to detach myself. He was an alcoholic. He was a controlling narcissist that at his teen he had to combat the Cambodian genocide. I did not know that I was living in his PTSD. He left his mother so young to be here with his brother on his back. That was one of the reasons why it always have to be my fault. But now I learned it's not okay. He is still an alcoholic. But you own up and admit what you did. He could be pissed drunk and he would reek of alcohol and say that he is okay or stand up for what he does. Why I know you are not an alcoholic .... you will admit you fail. Like I say.. failing is what give us strength to do better. My father did not and he never apologised and own up to what he did wrong. Wow![applauding...] 8 hours... that gotten you to realized what you are doing. My friend you just made a mistake. The worst thing you can do is admit you did something wrong, knowing you did something wrong and not changing for the better. You are on the road to recovery because you realises it. we are all here NOT because we are judging you. We are here listening because you are a strong person for admitting you are going through something, reaching out to those who don't have a support system. You are your worst enemy and believe me and many others... You are our support and we are staying through your rough moments too. My 1st message to you on one of your older post explains a little about me. I am a prisoner to myself because I had to live in shame and guilt. Born in America, Mind of an old Asian tradition and passed. I just recently had to do the detachment because I have a 20 month old that I chosen over all that had been embedded in me. It only been 3 months ago since I end all connections with them. My mom chose him and I am her youngest. Be strong and we all have to be there for one another because no one else will.

@melomaniacspodcast1105 6 лет назад

Get a sponsor and get to a meeting

@daniiiakasha1436 6 лет назад

Noah, you’re fine. I saw that vid, clicked on it and then shut down RU-vid in a couple seconds. I have an OT question for you- since my major depression in 2014, I have not exercised at all. Recently, I started a new job with my CNA license, and it involves caring for people severely disabled. One of my clients is about 600 or 700 pounds, and another is a man in advanced Alzheimer’s who is very tall and muscular, heavy, and tenses his muscles. I have noticed that every single muscle in my being is toning up. Epsom salt to the rescue. Then I stepped on a scale, and I gained like 10ish pounds. I know muscle weighs more than fat, and I know I’m getting toned. I guess I just need your validation that this is normal. Thanks.

@smokey4201489 6 лет назад

I don’t think it was a mistake shows that your humane like the rest of us

@civanlfc4358 6 лет назад

The density of hair on your moustache is impressive. Would definitely be cool to see you grow it out

@jackLoveX 6 лет назад

soooo.... where can we go to watch the video now? i'd love to see it lol

@alexfishersfamilyvlogs9533 6 лет назад

Didnt trigger me but that's just me. Just hope ya took my words to heart

@colourswift 6 лет назад

We don't care! You do you. We love you for who you are. Stop judging yourself so hard. Be nice to yourself.

@danalyze 6 лет назад

It's like you do shit but then you regret it right away..?

@sab_1055 6 лет назад

i'm not mad at you, but i'm concerned for you bc i have that t shirt. you've made a positive impact on my life. i need you to take care of you. K? K.

@happytrails699 6 лет назад

good job Noah

@tonyp9929 6 лет назад

Bro what makes you drink?

@josephcaskey4811 6 лет назад

Unrelated, you're handsome dude.

@willbendingsteel6258 6 лет назад

Its facebooks fault

@serverunion 6 лет назад

You have the same smile as my cat

@BonzoBanzai 6 лет назад

Please Big Mon - forgive yourself. First rule of the club, mes ami! You slipped up, but the true measure is now to do something positive about it all. We all mess up from time to time and yeah, it's awkward for a bit, but then we realize why we stick around people certain people ... in your case, it is your positive attitude and sheer determination. If anyone starts giving you guff about it from this point onward, I would seriously question their motives ... You are clearly contrite and will learn from it. Anyone who has been in any way following you knows you're one of the good guys. Looking forward to some good vids and maybe a change in direction for a while might help things. You'd have to learn stuff and that'd be a distraction ... maybe some comedy sketch or cookery . Or music ... Noah's Norwegian Black Metal Workout Hour ;-P

@MrMarkusbotha 6 лет назад

:D Shit happens. Half the people exist in the world because of alcohol. Who knows, maybe half the youtube videos out there exist because of alcohol.

@rustyblade9366 6 лет назад

No worries, buddy. We make mistakes, all of us. The difference between you and the rest is that you're brave enough to share it. That's why we love you and your channel

@onepurpleflower8910 6 лет назад

You constantly put yourself down. How’s that working for you?

@Elrocksta24 6 лет назад

Flowers🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

@JovanLatte 6 лет назад

Oh man if I had a dollar for Everytime I did something embarrassing, awkward or stupid or all of the above drunk, i'd be so rich 😂 it's ok trust me bro

@daynatorngren7699 6 лет назад

Forgive me. I’ve been watching these vlogs for a few weeks now. I may be ignorant/naive but my point is this. Noah, are you looking to get sober and STAY sober? OR no. Because there are drinkers. You drink often, so what?! I’m saying if you’re trying to get sober and stay sober then fucking get off the booze and STAY OFF of it! What does your wife think? Do you even consider what she feels or says? Or she doesn’t care what you do? It seems you being and “alcoholic” and saying you need therapy or what ever it is is not working. So it’s my question do you wanna stay clean or no? Simple. Cause if you’re gonna binge then binge. Drink. Get drunk. Feel sick the next day. But don’t post videos implying you wanna stop. Stay safe. Wish you well. And maybe try AA. Again. ??? I dunno.

@mitch6362 6 лет назад

Absolutely heroic. I would love to take you partying and drinking. Make a video vlog mid shot of us doing shots.....post it on youtube and hit up McDonalds brahhhhh

@pmh9966 6 лет назад

Totally unhelpful.........

@KidCody13 6 лет назад

As long as you’re not drinking out of cravings I guess. Everyone in their twenties binge drinks all summer long, winter, fall, spring, it happens. Just don’t drink all day every day

@KidCody13 6 лет назад

I guess what I’m trying to say, is don’t drink to cover a problem and it’s really not an issue, unless your drinking hard liquor everyday. I’m not encouraging you too drink, just from experience I know there’s a difference between the two. I have friends that go out and drink every weekend, as to where I enjoy some drinks after work once or twice a week.