I was a buddhist monk for a while : one week end a monk arrived for the week end ; he'd been on retreat on an island for a long while , and we were in city; he shut himself in library for days with a load of rented dvds and that was that !
"Grim determination": wow. That's what I see in many from the so called "progressive path" and yogic discipline. For their part, they accuse me to be lazy, to stare at the ceiling. They don't quite get the unbelievable power of surrender. The immense joy that comes with it. By the way: that is the joy that is not conditional. Where they put discipline to keep the joy, I surrender, I put trust. (Which takes anyway an effort not to make effort, that is to say: as you find yourself struggling, surrender and loosen it up instead of spiraling up in doing).
Sometimes, after many months of spiritual awakening/ liberation/ No-Self, life is so easy and peaceful...barely a hint of suffering..., I find myself pondering; So where do I go from here? But in relative short time the universe kind of nudges me on to whatever and life goes on. Lol. Darryl Bailey says we have no free will. Do something or do nothing and still, there you are. Might as well just go with the flow.
I see now that these days I am aware that the happiness derived from such activities is indeed conditional, and it does indeed take much of the juice out of them, which lessens their pull. So yeah, it's falling away..
So he's promoting instinctive therapy. All I want is playing videos games and smoking weed... I stoped for 2 years, but all my being tend to go back to this, and I resist, I say "no it is bad for me". Should I just follow what I feel and stop thinking to consequences ? I could become crazy because weed make me heavy psychic troubles, but I still want it so much, I feel a call there... What a dilemma, this is a big unresolved conflict inside me, a part wants, a part says no... Who to listen ?
I think he is saying, the issue doesn't lie in the books, games or other playful hobbies. Those things are just things, experiences, life, stuff. However, suffering is born when you -think- that lasting happiness is found in them. The seeking, craving, searching for peace or contentment in these things is the cause of suffering here. It's up to you to see that though, notice how games only bring temporary escape from the mind. It's that cycle, seek happiness in something > Feel good for awhile > The method stops working > Seek happiness in something else. And on and on it goes. Samsara. It's not good or bad, it's just how the mind works. However true peace is found when you realize this and no longer blindly follow these methods. The -seeking- happiness, not the thing itself. Gaming is fine. Relying on gaming to bring you joy is the illusion. Hope that helped!
Try different strains of weed and only smoke a gram a day or less than that. Mediate whilst you are level 1 high. So you know, the high where you feel.it but you aren't freaking out. Proctice.mediation that way for awhile. Fit into the feelings and fer used to them and slowly smoke more and more. Continue with your good nature and your good intentions and always keep.your eyes on your number 1 priorities weed enhances the effect of mediation ans speaking with spirits. which isnrlly cool. but a lot of people don't know that or disagree because they want to keep it in their mind that it's a party have fun drug, or something to give to get munchies but theres so much more to it
I have the same, smoking everyday weed. But I dont know if its right! But judging by it self is resistance. I follow a course in miracles. Jesus tells in it, that to judge about something = not love. The world is a classroom to learn to love. The world you see is a reflection of your innerworld/mind. In this world you must learn not to judge anything, this is love, this will release resistance, because of this you release resistance, and the world and the body will reflect the release of resistance. The situation will come back until you dont judge it anymore. Just do what feels most easy to do. Consequence are ego based, its fear of the future. The universe will take care of you and your consequences, if you just do your function the release of judging yourself. Also I was scared paranoid in the beginning with weed. With weed it can amplify the fear you collected your whole life. Just sit eyes closed feel the fear in your body, only notice the sensation. Your ego mind will keep trying to generate stories, of what the fear means. Just keep reminding yourself to just stay with the sensation of fear in your body. Doing this on weed will focus your consiousness like a laser on the fear. You will feel the fear burning away trough your hart. This releases all the stuck fear energies you collected. After a while you start to notice you will enjoy the weed for releasing fear and judgement!
I used to smoke weed every day. I tried to quit several times. I did a year sober from everything. I got in touch with deeply rooted emotions like anger. I came to realize I don't like high THC cannabis and only smoke CBD strains and even then it's rarely. I'm not attached to the stuff any longer. Your attachments will fall away soon enough. A good question to ask yourself is: why do I like this? What does it give me? Relief? I know for me weed put me in a playful, creative space where I found things silly and didn't take things seriously. There was this mindset of "there are no problems" and an extreme instinct to just RELAX. That herb is a sacrament to me, it taught me much about letting go, smiling, laughing. And I can do well to continue integrating these lessons.
