an honest life update 

What my mom once told me, has always helped me so much: No matter where you go, or what you decide, you can always go back and return, if you’re not happy. So don’t be afraid to go, wherever you feel you want to go. You will see how you feel, when you get there.

I have OCD and i really struggle with the decision of right and wrong. Thanks to therapy i learned that there is not right or wrong choice. every choice has its own pros and cons. Rather than trying to find the right choice we need to accept the uncertainty and lean into discomfort.

I am in the exact same place in my life. I've been travelling a lot these past years and i feel like even though it was an incredible opportunity, i didn't get the chance to create stable relashionships in my life. I think that's one of the cons of travelling : you get to live an exciting life but you sometimes feel very lonely.

anyone else just as excited as i am for those beautiful hiking videos in Switzerland ...and the picnics at the lake ... and the weekends at the cabin ...i am sooooo happy for your decision ! Greetings from a romanian living in Berlin for a few years. I get the ''the grounded feeling'' so well....I wish you all the best Chloe, no matter where you settle! ❤

This felt like old Chloe, the girl we knew two years ago who spent her time running around the city, swimming in frigid lakes, going on solo hikes, and genuinely appreciating the little things in life… not hyper analyzing everything and spinning it to be some ground breaking life hacking be your peak self shit. I hope you’re able to come back to yourself again, I know a lot of us have been holding out hope for that. xx

Be with your family and friends, what is more important than that? Your wish having a home base is the most natural thing there is. To be surrounded by a social network that supports and loves you and nourishes your feeling of security will ensure that you can thrive freely again. Take a breath, Chloé!! Peace and Love!

I love your venerability and openness to whatever comes. “Be like water” that’s what I’m trying to do in my own life in times of not bing sure.

Happy September Chloe, thank you for being so open and honest with us. Hope your return to Europe is a positive one, we're here for you. Hugs❤!

Hey Chloe! Beautiful video! Good luck with your transition. The best advice I was given at one point when I was in a similar situation, not knowing which way to go next was to just make the next right move. You don't need to know all the steps you'll take or how everything will eventually work out-just take the next step that feels good. It'll unfold! Trust that it will and enjoy the moment you're in. Best of luck 💕

wow, this video really touched me. I used to watch you when you were in Switzerland years ago and I’ve been with you ever since along your journey. this video felt like authenticity. like coming home. LOVE TO YOU CHLOE

I’ve had ocd all my life and started treating it 4 years ago, when I left uni and felt overwhelmed by life and making the right decision, and I started having panic attacks. I learned nothing is black and white, and that’s exactly were the beauty of life is found. Right in the middle of it. Something could be white and get darker the next day, we change, things change and we grow a little bit every day. I’ve learned not be too hard on myself and give myself some window for mistakes, it’s okay to try things, that’s where we learn. Talking about things with my friends, my therapist, writing down my thoughts and find calmness in my life to give space to thinking, have helped me a lot.

Chloe, I appreciate your honesty a lot. I faced a similar situation to yours last year, living in a natural environment away from home and from my partner too. I felt something very similar to what you're describing- this perfectionist voice telling me what is right and what's a "failure". Eventually I decided to leave (like in your situation it was the plan to come back home at some point, I just wasn't sure when). The experience was quite eye opening, at first I felt like a loser, but at some point I started looking at my decision as a win actually. I learned what it means to actually listen to MYSELF, so don't be hard on yourself with your decision whatever that is. The way I deal with decision making has improved a lot lately, but I never fully "surrender" to the process, I don't think it's right either. I make lists all the time, but not pros and cons- I just try to script what I am able to see and add on to it a little bit every time, this way I get a bit more clarity. Sometimes I can get very obsessive about those lists (particularly in times of anxiety) but I try to Balance myself out as much as I can. I think the answer is somewhere in the middle and it's more about making sure you take care of yourself and try to spend as many hours/ days being busy thinking about your other interests in life and being present.

I take two things into account: 1. Being a woman, I always give it at least a month (full menstrual cycle, or two) before I make a big life decision. It really helps in sorting out what is my hormones making me feel a certain way and what it a genuine shift that needs to be made in my life for my growth. 2. I always try & leave a place or something behind with appreciation, gratitude, and as much love as possible. When things are not left in peace, they tend to bring up many unpleasant/negative feelings or thoughts regarding the outlook of my past, present & what is coming.

I love your vlogs exactly because of this; you're brutally honest. Thank you for that

Interesting how you said with anxiety comes excitement it’s just how you perceive it. I’ve recently struggled with almost debilitating anxiety for the first time in my life and I’m struggling to move through it so I like the way you’ve phrased it in a more positive light. Thanks 😊

Massively relate to what you are saying here in your honest approach to life. I am also in a big life shift/change and what has come with that is that anxiety and excitement. Trusting and being open to what the universe has to bring is key. Knowing that this new event in life will happen and will evolve in the right time. Our minds always try to rush what we imagine and its remembering to come back to the present moment because when we do that we actually realize that what we are imagining is actually our reality! (sorry if this was badly explained!)

Thank you for being so honest and open 🤍

Good luck with everything 🧡

I love your content and your videos, Chloe! Hope you have beautiful moments with your loved ones and yourself ❤️ All the love from Brazil :)

You are so deep with so much wisdom. You deserve the very best.

Regarding your question, I am extremely inpatient. I need everything to planned and controlled. I can barely live with uncertainty. Going with the flow is almost impossible and I have to learn this.

I have started to make decisions based on my intuition. I give myself options and then pay attention to how I feel. If it feels right, I go with that. Anxiety can still appear with the choice I make. But I really believe our intuition is always right

i always am and have been guided by my intuition, and in any moment that i have gone more for the rational route i've always regretted it ^^

I never comment on any video but this time I couldn't resist. I think this is one of the most beautiful videos I've seen from you. The honesty, vulnerability and wisdom together made it... beautiful. Thanks for sharing and inspiring, Chloé

🤍🤍🤍 a gentle and raw talk, it’s been nice to appreciate your self-compassion with your changes of energy, very real 🌤

Good luck with your next move :) so good to take your time to find what works for you now :) not always easy to make decisions

i love how you accept life. most of the time i really struggle and pressure myself about not knowing what to do or not being able to control but you help me remember to let go. everything will find it's way and i need to be kinder to myself. thank you✨💜

I am already looking forward to the Switzerland content tbh😅 missed it so muuuuch! Chloe you just need to go back home and that’s totally ok. That’s normal.

Sending you a heart fullof love!

Thanks for being so honest… when you get concious about a thing And share with us I can also realize things about myself. And that’s a beautiful learning. Also when I get lost first I just do things impulsivity like organitze, clean, overthinking… And when I can see clear that something is happen to me the most important And helpful thing is just to hold space for things coming into place slowly, sit with the unconfortable times and accept it, And be patient… it’s hard but for me I’m learning that it’s long but worth it

Nope, I never rationalize, it always leads to overthinking for me, i dont know how its for others, but I trust my intuition and emotional needs, I think my deep self already knows where Im heading, and I have to trust this feeling and let it guide me. When I trust my deep self, thats when Im truly happy, thats when I feel in harmony with outside world, thats when I feel grounded.

Tune into your intuition, girl. Always go with your gut. It will not steer you wrong. Also, there is something to be said about finding your own inner peace, first and foremost. No matter where you go or how far you run, you always bring yourself along for the ride and, if you aren't at peace within yourself, no major life change is going to accomplish that for you.

Hi Chloe! For me, right or wrong can be identified by listening to the body. The heart is like an antenna....it picks up signals from the universe, from our higher self and it guides us. Right feels happy, the heart expands and you feel this energy that makes you creative, full of ideas, it's as if you are connected to Source. On the other hand, when you feel something is wrong you retract, contract, you dont want to give anymore because you are too busy analyzing the situation... Looking for a way out of it

Thanks for your honesty. I'm in a similar situation where I don't know where I'll live next. I've lived on another continent for many years and I knew I wanted to return to Europe for a while - but I didn't know in which country/city. I decided to take a gap year to test some cities that I find attractive and see how I feel in each one of them. You have the flexibility to do this, maybe this could be a way of finding your answer? :) And eventually, no city is perfect, so I think it's good to go somewhere we feel good overall, and always know that we can change in the future if we really need it. Nothing is for life - so no pressure :)

You don't have to have it all figured out, Chloe. For me, i tend to surrender to the universe and let the answers come as they will. It's not as easy thing letting free the reins of control, but knowing that i have been led to make the right decisions over and over again makes me allow myself trust it. I hope it all makes sense and that you are grounded soon💗

I have always been very controlling and just as today I was force to think about this again, thanks to some events that are occurring in my life. I think that being able to flow in life is fundamental, especially if we are on a spiritual journey, and I also believe it is the most difficult to accomplish. Sometimes life forces us to accept it as it is by presenting us all sorts of delays and unwanted events. When it happens, my first reaction is always panic and find a solution. These days I try to stay with it a bit longer and understand the lesson.. it's never easy, but maybe one day it will be!

Im going through this right now, Chloe. I moved abroad to Switzerland actually. It’s been over a year, I love it, but I miss feeling grounded in my home country and with my people. What you said about being paralyzed by making the right or wrong decision, that is something I have been reflecting on a lot. It’s given me decision paralysis and I’m trying to go with the flow as well right now, and I know I will reach the decision that serves me.

I think knowing what's the right next step comes from being honest with ourselves and listen to our gut feeling. How I make decisions is based on what makes me feel at ease and brings me joy and if there are things that gives me anxiety and feels like it's way too hard and the reward isn't fulfilling enough to carry on I just choose a different road and drop those things out of my life. That can be people, living situations, places, or career choices, even daily routines that I wished to apply in my life but it doesn't work for me etc. Pushing ourselves to be better and getting out of comfort zone is great but there comes a moment when we should realise we can change our lifes bit by bit to fit us not change ourselves to fit life and a plan that just wasn't the right one for us. Sounds like you're making the right decision for yourself, a home base and security of the environment is extremely important for a gentle soul like you. I'm very similar. X

Well Chloe you don't need to decide straight away, just go with the flow....

Hi, I'm twenty and as far as my experience, if I feel any uncertainty about a decision, or if I have any doubt, than I shouldn't do it. Sometimes I only realize why not doing that thing was good much later. But yeah. Anytime I felt doubt about a decision and than I took it, it always ended up being a bad decision.

Je me reconnais tellement dans tout ce que tu dis. C’est marrant parce que moi aussi j’ai cette envie de faire le choix parfait, et cette quête de la perfection me paralyse Je peux passer des heures, des jours, des mois.. pour faire un choix Imaginer tous les scenarios possibles, revenir aux memes questions Au final, je pourrais passer moitié moins de temps à réfléchir et agir Je crois que l’action est un remède aux tergiversations sans fin!

Merci pour cette vidéo très honnête. J'en suis au même stade que toi dans ma vie. Je commence à avoir besoin de stabilité, alors que je fais partie de ceux dans mon entourage qui aiment le plus voyager. Je pense qu'on ressent tous un moment où on a besoin de se poser. J'espère que tu trouveras cet endroit. Moi j'ai eu besoin d'un burn-out pour me remettre sur cette voie. Aujourd'hui, je sais où est ma happy place, mais j'ai encore quelques marches à gravir et virages à prendre pour l'atteindre. Suis ton instinct et tes sensations. C'est ce qui marche le mieux pour ne pas avancer dans la mauvaise direction. Au final, si on ne prend que des décisions rationnelles, on risque de regretter un choix irrationnel qui nous aurait rendu heureux ou un chemin que d'autres trouveraient inutile, mais qui est fait pour nous.

It’s going to be very cold 🥶 I hope you be ok with your family 👍🏼

Life is a Pinball Machine...stay strong...be good in your own skin ...thats the key

Wow this unstable/ questioning moment sounds so familiar at the moment. I'm also questioning what's next and how it's not necessarily aligned with my current situation... However, my approach is to let it flow, let it solve by itself... Answers (and opportunities in my case) will come. I just need to be open for it. Allow it to come to me :) And YEY to your Europe come back! Meet me in Belgium sis! Lots of love and compassion your way during this transition

I relate to this so much...

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Chloe, maybe you will enjoy Asheville. It’s a place that great for short term and long term

this is asnr video i am just feeling so good while listening

I’ve recently come to realise that life isn’t just one straight path but rather made out of several very different steps. Maybe we got from previous generations that we have to have it all figured out as soon as possible but nowadays, in a world so full of uncertainty and change, we just have to go with the flow and accept that one step leads to the other. Stability is just an idea and it belongs to you to decide what shape it will take for you. So when I’m overthinking it or trying to justify my aversion for a path that I’d find to « narrow », I just stop and listen. Listen to your soul, it knows the way. Deep down, you just know what you need so you just have to follow your heart and instinct. At least that’s what I try to do as I think it’s so important and we shouldnt lose that. Hope you find your way dear.

Coucou Chloé ❤️ have you read The Midnigt Library? I am pretty sure this book will speak and help you 💕💗

You have very good taste, then you can create something very good at any part of this planet, just take your time and don’t press your self.

Are you staying in South Africa? Welcome!!!! Are you in CPT, JHB or Durbs? How are you finding SA?

La solution pour moi est l'introspection,, prendre le temps, un pas à la fois, rester positive (faire confiance en l'univers) et plus à l'écoute de ton cœur, vers quoi tu va naturellement ou des signes de l'univers, plutôt que ta tête qui veux tout rationaliser et catégoriser bien ou mal 🙂

Is there a right or wrong decision? They’re just different ways It doesn’t mean one of them is right or wrong I think it’s better to trust your guts and even some day if you felt regression you can tell yourself that’s what my old me decided based on that time and that situation

There's an old saying -- good decisions come from wisdom, wisdom comes from experience, experience comes from bad decisions! I think your intuition to seek rootedness and stability is good, and that as you rediscover or re-establish that for yourself, you'll be better able to see and understand what your intuition is preparing you for in seeking that. I think when you don't know or aren't sure, stay curious and pay attention -- you are in a learning process.

Hi Chloe I never comment but I’m in a simmilar situation. I left my home town 10 years ago. Currently I’m living in the home town of my boyfriend. But it’s 1;5 hours drive from my fammily and friends. At this moment in life I wanna setl and make a home base to have kids. But I always imagend to leave my home town and life somwhere greater. But I feel I wanna be close to my famillie and long term friends. So its hard to make a disicion. But I feel my gut already knows. Its just time and talking about it and making a list to match the rational with my gut. And I always tell myself what my mom told me when I left to move in with my boyfriend. Nothing is permenent so you van never make a right or wrong discision. I can addapt and life a happy life where I live now away from family. And I can addapt and live a happy life in my home town. But my gut is telling me that the people I care for are more important to live close by then the town or place I live in. I hope you keep sharing your honest strugle and proces because I can realy relate to it. 😊

The thing that I've loved is the honesty and reality that your message contains. Especially on social media, other people's life always looks perfect: everyone knows where to go, with no doubts, no uncertainties. But life is everything but perfect, everything but sorted out. And I feel that the more we share it, the more people will feel less lonely. Watching this video, I felt less lonely. I also found myself so much in what you said about seeing oneself as the one who would always seek new adventures and new travels around the word. But the truth is that I've decided to stop in the country and city where I grew up.. and I couldn't be happier. Am I gonna be feeling like this forever? I don't know. But that's life. I will follow your journey on this channel and of course, wish you all the best! Europe misses you!

Virgo season in full swing coming to bring us its energy, I love it! Time for all of us to reorganise our lives, until the next season comes and allows a new energy to come in. I like to see myself as a surfer of life, every new energy coming my way is like a wave and it’s up to me to add fluidity in my actions and reactions so I can surf the wave that’s coming. Each wave will come and then go, giving space to a new one. There is not one unique way to surf a wave, it’s always about catching the one that is just there, it happens in the present and doesn’t make sense to try to know how the next one will be. We’re surfers of the universe :) 🏄🏻‍♀️✨🌊🔮

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The Bible says, “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5,6

Coucou Chloé, merci pour ce partage. J’aimerais te suggérer le livre d’Aurore Roegiers, intitulé « Libre ». Je pense qu’il va beaucoup te parler et t’inspirer/te réconforter durant cette période un peu plus floue et fluide de ta vie. Going with the flow and trusting Life will show me the next action necessary one step at a time is for hat helps me most when I feel lost. I just surrender and try to connect within more. Hope this helps; bisous

Merci pour les non sous titre en français

You have good filming skills... wish you could continue to improve on the craft and use those skills professionally. Sometimes I feel like you are a bit of a wasted talent in that regard.

"Never make permanent decisions on temporary feelings." Buddha. When I find myself in a place in life, where I have to choose or make decisions, Its good to remember one thing: giving yourself permission, to not choose, is also a decision. Choosing patience and silence instead of acting out of a place of fear or hurry is also a decision. Giving yourself time to wait for that moment, when there is no room for doubt, because you get this deep knowing. A deep knowing of what is right for you. Surrender to time. Also embracing the not knowing, accepting the uncertainness. Get really still. Listen to that place deep within you. That deep place within your soul, that have all those answers to the questions you may have. Chloé. I send you and everyone else so much love. Thank you for sharing your journey

Christchurch, ireland ?

I think it’s called ‘coming back to reality’.

damn, that square space voiceover sounded really forced...like they made you say all of that or else you won't get paid or something...sorry Chloe...i hope that you're doing ok...it's ok to go back home...we all sometimes just need to go back home

lol, as opposed to a dishonest life update? Anything for views, right?

Vegan depression and misery.

Just listen to your gut and take small steps. You dont need to know everything, what is right and what wrong, take babysteps and look what feels good 🫶! Good luck my dear 😊

I have a conference with my inner team (Schulz von Tun).