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I just asked a friend, because I (although neurotypical) didn't know that was a thing either, but apparently people do it because they are not only excited, but also startled, just like people sometimes make weird noises when they get startled in other situations. (I always thought that we make a noise then just so other people know that we are surprised, like when I open a door and somebody suddenly opens it from the other side at the same time, I make a small noise to let them know I didn't intentionally wait behind the door. Does that make sense?)

I just look angry or displeased while my brain is trying to figure out why its so loud and ahhh weird feeling 😂

I legitimately thought people screamed on rollercoasters just because it's the only socially acceptable place to scream until I watched this video.

wait. i thought it was just part of the ride experience to do that. doing it provides me with a more amplified level of excitement because...... because it's an easy way to look like im fitting in. shit .

I actually had no idea it wasnt on purpose I was amazed. But I also feel like an idiot because I would scream crazy going full out. 😭

I'm sorry that happened. I hope future generations will do better thanks to more access to information and people's first hand experiences. Like this video that allows neurotypical people understand better.

I’m sorry your bracelet broke

maybe autism, including hiding in a corner playing with a new toy at one's own party, isn't actually wrong. including the stress responses, and other non-"typical" behaviours. maybe it's just stigmatised and looked down on because "normal" people don't know any other options. that doesn't mean there was nor is anything "wrong" with you, regardless of whether you're autistic.

Perhaps you're experiencing a touch of Asperger's because in full blown shutdown for an autistic there's absolutely _no_ way that it isn't obvious to carers what is going on. Typically most autistic people experience dysregulation in ways that are aggressive ie violence, fecal smearing and inability to verbalize. The way this person has described their "shutdown" it's more likely they are experiencing what's called "a bad day". Nothing noticable to most people. No genuinely autistic young people I know are capable of covering their experience of being autistic, let alone a shutdown. The functioning is such that they aren't able to interact... There's no "masking" with an actual Autism diagnosis! She's most likely not autistic. In reality most people have the quirks you write about. The girl in the video is pretty typical, too. Many young people seem to think they have autism due to the social media they consume and attention seeking traits/social contagion, but at best it's ADHD and _maybe_ GAD. Those diagnoses are pretty normal for most people! Nothing scary or special about those 🥰. Actually, in reality most autistic people are unable to go more than 10 minutes in conversation/discussion without specific markers of autism being absolutely undeniable. The number of people that are "high functioning" are ALSO extremely blase with very, very flat affect. The young woman in this video is not at all monotone or without affect. In fact, she's quite poised while emoting considerable emotion! Most autistic children that are high functioning are unable to focus the way she did in her conversation or the way _you_ did in your considerably long writing. Not many Autistic folks can do that without straying off topic and/or writing/speaking with technical precision, like an engineer. Describing emotion is rare for a high functioning autistic. And of course in low functioning autism, there would be no typing with the skill you've shown. Very frequently, being able to interact in any way (but especially with the expertise you did!) is simply not possible. Perhaps you have a touch of Asperger's? It would be worth you having a work up to see but most people like you have no need for diagnosis as you're not negatively impacted by your quirkiness! 🤓

I'm so sorry. TL,DR: parties were overwhelming when I was a kid (they still can be!). I had meltdowns at my own/other b-day parties when not allowed downtime. Because it was the 80's people thought I wanted attention (attention was the LAST thing I wanted). Finally, I'm really, really sorry you had to go through that sh*t. I hope things are better now. I had similar experiences growing up. Birthday parties were A LOT to deal with as a kid... my own, and the ones for my friends. I vividly recall melting down at a couple parties for one of my closest friends: both times were during activities that split the party into two groups, made us compete against each other, involved some sort of performance like putting on skit, and were involuntary (I _said_ I wanted to sit out. I wasn't allowed 'cause "it wasn't fair" to the team). I remember anxiety over not wanting to perform (or even compete 🤷🏻‍♀️) and eventually becoming overwhelmed by the constantly changing directions given to me as the group "leaders" decided what each person was going to do/say... I screeched, bolted into my friend's bedroom, and hid under a blanket the first time... second time it was a pile of laundry. I cocooned up and cried: enveloping myself was comforting and I liked hiding. Not having to see others and not being seen. People came in and tried to comfort me/convince me to return. I refused to move until I was told my friend's mom was going to call my mom to take me home (yeah, both times). The threat of further embarrassment was enough to get me back in the game. I didn't like a second of it, but I was already embarrassed about "freaking out" and stopping the party. The potential additional shame from being "the girl who had to be removed from the party because she freaked out" was too much. Especially because it wasn't only about people at the party: I went to a small school and knew _every single student_ would hear about what I'd done on Monday (or worse, an exaggerated version, because that's how gossip works 🤦🏻‍♀️). It sucked. Still, I was lucky it happened with that friend... our families had been close since she and I were infants. The mom knew me well and was willing to put up with a lot of my odd behavior. Another parent probably would have called my parents ASAP. Honestly, I didn't want to leave the party. I liked the people there. I wanted to keep hanging out with everyone! Just NOT during that activity... Now I can see that at the time, although I'd been enjoying myself, I was _pretty_ overstimulated and needed a break. At other parties I'd be allowed to sit out from things and even wander off on my own for quiet time. Being given time by myself (sometimes a few minutes, other times a couple hours) kept me from reaching the point of meltdown. Of course, parents talked to each other so they all knew I was weird at parties: some were understanding and thought there was something going on but weren't sure what it was. Others decided they'd rather let me be alone instead of dealing with my behavior when I got "needy" (when kids overheard their parents and told me, "needy" was the word I heard the most). All I needed was to be left alone! It wasn't like I was disruptive or went to restricted areas- I told the adults where I would be and stayed there... it wasn't like I took anyone's attention from the party by needing to be constantly watched 🙄. My own parties... fortunately my parents knew to have something ready to keep guests entertained if I needed to be alone for a while, if it was just friends/classmates. Parties with adult relatives sucked because leaving was "rude." I'd make my own quiet time in the bathroom: having all my relatives think I had diarrhea was less embarrassing than a meltdown... and when I got older, IBS meant I didn't have to lie about it! 🙃 Unfortunately the one thing I could never get out of was having the room sing "Happy Birthday" at least once. I know it sounds bratty to complain about people showing up and celebrating my birthday. I felt bratty! I cried when it happened until age... well, much older than I'd like to admit. I tried so hard not to. Having everyone's eyes on me, the loud singing, all of it was just too much. I covered my ears as well, until even older... my parents told me it wasn't nice but eventually they stopped. They were embarrassed by it, but I was too... At least when I grew out of crying I could make myself smile while I covered my ears! It's one of the earliest times I understood masking made people around me happier, although I didn't know what I was doing until much, much later. I'm in my 40's now. As a kid born in 82, nobody knew my behavior/responses were symptoms of an ACTUAL issue and not attention -seeking or from being spoiled. I'm finally figuring out things I didn't understand about myself, and it's been incredible... I'm grateful I'm finally able to understand my own thoughts/emotions/behavior, although some incidents make me feel bad for my younger self... and it always breaks my heart when I hear other people have gone through the same or similar experiences. If you made it this far: I apologized for blabbing so much about ME... your story brought up some memories and I basically typed them out in a "stream of consciousness" manner 😬. I'm sorry. Sharing my experiences is a way I relate to people, but I know I can take it way too freaking far... I'm sorry you had to go through really hard experiences. I'm sorry no one noticed/realized you needed something you weren't getting. I hope things are better now, and I hope the people around you today understand and treat you the way you want and need to be treated. 💜💜💜

Same I just thought it was that people want to fit in with each other, like a band wagon lol. I personally shrink into my shoulders like a turtle and tense my whole body’s lol

I always laugh on rollercoaster, and often put my hands over my ears, not in the air

omfg as a kid I discovered that if I tense up and like… exhale slowly on roller coasters (which probably looked VERY weird), everything felt so much more manageable, which then made me think, “man, these other people are going soo crazy cuz they don’t know the trick” even though the actual trick is to just scream and let it out because I guess that’s what roller coasters are for…? Idfk 😵‍💫

I'm sorry but I just think that the roller coaster thing isn't true??? I've asked a million neurotypical people this and tried doing a lot of googling and they all say they scream just because it's fun/what you're "supposed to do" - It seems like it is very much voluntary for people who aren't actually super scared of the ride.

You’re not autistic.

You know thats fair!! But diagnosis can help you understand why that laziness happens! And lots of other things can happen to neurodivergent people generally to traumatize you. Capitalism is hard, you're not lazy just human ❤️

If you ever get the chance its always good to just talk to a professional about it and really understand yourself and how you function, even if its not autism!

​@@noiseforautism yes that's why I've decided to get a diagnosis nonetheless. Atleast knowing is important.

@@sakuranovaryan9261 I settled for being 90% sure, because if the 10% is the case and I'm not autistic, then I don't even wanna know what the fuck is wrong.

Same. No diagnosis and not really an option right now but my sister's and my closest friends think I am on the spectrum. This kind of video is helpful for me in part because I do have an ADHD diagnosis but the autism stuff is newer to me and helpful. How often in one's life do we gain perspective or context in our perception of ourselves? Maybe just a few times in your life.

Yes, we are extreme people pleasers even when we shouldn't be. Then we have strong feelings of loyalty in bonds and when it feels like people betray you then you get fuming angry under the surface and replay the incident in your head all night... maybe carry it around for a few decades. It sucks.

@lakecityransom Indeed it does.

The accuracyyyy!

Bingo, I was the best at selling products when I worked in a camping store. It was all an act.

Frr

asking for help is a complex skill that can improve with concerted effort and repeated practice. best wishes in that endeavour!

To touch on this a bit more its out of necessity that a lot of autistic individuals that are damaged or come from an unsafe environment mask because they don't feel safe even at a young age. Speaking from personal experience I have masked nearly all my life, and as far as I can remember I've masked all the time especially with family. I can't take off the mask with them, I've tried, but so much has happened that I can only have that mask off if it cracks and sometimes it does. Though it goes right back on. Asking questions, getting help, learning to grow or make mistakes on my own because I wasn't allowed to make mistakes. Especially if you're a person of color, and gay in the Midwest. People were more concerned with me not being violent and thats literally just it, since I wasn't violent I got no diagnosis or help. It was the 90s. Wasn't able to be diagnosed until I was 32...that's a long. Tiring. 30 years...

That is interested! Maybe never forced to which is awesome!

And also people are different. They experience things differently and it doesn’t mean they are neurodivergent.

I’m going to have to google Audhd, never heard of it

It’s so odd when someone is like “I can’t choose to mask”, like talking about it as if it’s something we do on purpose or with intention-rather than traumatic conditioning to visible traits being dangerous and safety requiring them to be masked-does not compute. Like if you want to mask just get abused for a while I guess, since that’s where it comes from, your nervous system forcing you to avoid danger and said danger coming from being noticed, so everything that can be noticed or has been noticed gets shoved down and hidden from yourself. Like it literally takes trauma recovery to unmask, it comes from having identity trauma but non-masking autistics try to act like we’re just neurotypicals “putting on an act to fit in” and it’s enraging, like my entire body and mind would change for decades because of an offhand comment someone made that I internalize as *oh I can NEVER do that again in public or private got it* and I wasn’t even aware of it, constant suppression of needs and your own internal signals based on being convenient to the people in your environment being what kept you safe, that’s what masking is.

​@@Xanderj89THANK YOU YESSSS PRECISELY

Yes!! My stomach was doing flips and I felt it in my throat! I got hyper lol it’s now 4 am and I have to be up in the morning.

Omg YES!! I cringed 😬 😣🫣

This video found me because I've just realised my 17 yo ADHD daughter said she thinks she has autism like her younger brother. She's been rude and unkind to me since starting high school. Anyhoo I suspect she has PDA auDHD. So I'm watching this to understand her, I get to 24:53 and realise that's me. Non traumatised non masker. The world stops. I empathize with my daughter who doesn't know to ask questions and is crippled by anxiety, fitting in and failed friendships. The relationship between me and my daughter changes INSTANTLY because I now speak her language. We click. This literally happened from that moment to taking her grocery shopping to coming home and watching the rest to reading these comments. Thank you OP!

Fr

Neurotypical people* ;)

oh my god i was on the yukon striker (at canada's wonderland) twice a bit ago and i screamed the first time and only the first time only because i felt obligated to, like i was supposed to. i was so confused as to why i didn't scream.

My dad told me the reason you scream is because it helps ease the butterflies feeling, but since my body doesn't do it naturally I tend to forget to do it.

yeah, I never felt inclined to, I usually found it annoying. me my dad and my brother end up smiling/laughing, and my sister screams because 'she finds it fun', not bc she's scared

Yeah lmao I was made aware of this from my friend when she found that making a deadpan face like I did on a roller-coaster without screaming was something people found difficult. I usually find screaming to make the ride more fun than just having a straight face (idk probably something adrenaline) so that's why I'll scream.

Agreed

Did you find her Tik Tok account? I looked on the list provided and didn't see it :) She is legit amazing and really wise.

ikr?!?!? i was cooking while listening to that and had my jaw dropped numerous times by how savagely and thoroughly she shut that ignorance down

And that’s on Period.❤

Wait is Autism "trending" because that's just weird. I may have autism and I have yet to be able to be evaluated because the waiting list is so ridiculously long that they won't even make me an appointment yet. They said it could be 6 months to a YEAR before I can see anyone. I don't know why anyone would WANT to have a learning disability. I know that whether Tha is what is going on with me or if it is something else, I would rather have a normal functioning brain. Being neurodivergent may SOUND cool, but it's actually very frustrating in a world that caters to neurotypical people.

And here I am as an AuDHD smoker lol Tbh the reason I started was bcs it gave me something to do with my body instead of fidget awkwardly and tic in social situations. Now I’m just addicted 🫠

Mask + tiger balm + ear plugs + sunglasses in my bag at all times

SAME EWWW

Reminds me of how I seemed like the only kid who covered her ears when fire drills happened. I never understood why no one else was bothered by them, I just figured it was some weird "wear shorts in winter" flex.

When people think you're pretending to be autistic but you have imposter Syndrome so you're like "yeah probably" 😭😭😭

Does anyone know the creator’s name/handle?? (I don’t have tiktok to view the attributions playlist.)

Oh I'm sorry :(

Man, that sucks. I'm sorry you gotta deal with that. I don't really want to be that person, but as someone with ADHD (and maybe autism????), have you tried looking at stuff not as tasks to be completed? Like, finding something you want to/can do and just making it a routine rather than a thing you are doing in the moment? Like going to one specific social thing every Friday without bothering to ask yourself if you want to do it and going even if you don't until it's routine, writing something small like a poem or a short story every day, or even just going to a nearby park to sit and look at the sky. I know this is the life you live and you clearly don't want to live this way, so you've probably tried a lot, but this is how I manage to do a lot of things that used to just be impossible for me. I'd also like to suggest on jobs - you've probably tried a few different ones and they didn't work out, but maybe you could try career counselling? It's hard to put my finger on it but it sounds like there really are jobs that you would work well in and enjoy (talking structure; not specific work) and you might just need information from someone who knows about how incredibly varied experiences in the professional world can be.

@@fruitymcfruitcake9674 thank you for your kindness and tips Unfortunately I've tried such things, it's more difficult than that. I am very high needs, doing things I don't want to do only lead to autistic breakdowns or panic attacks. From going into town or even talking to an old friend Its constant and annoying. I have so many things I wish to do, but if I keep pushing against my own mind I'll get into some trouble I had a job for a few weeks and was almost sent to a mental hospital I had migraines after work everyday and would have panic attacks in the middle of the day But thank you got taking time out of your day to be kind

@@DecoyZ I see. I'm sorry you've already tried this stuff and didn't find it helpful. I hope one day you can find stuff that works for you and enjoy the benefits of a normal life :) I know hearing people trying to help with advice you've already tried can be really annoying, so thank you for taking it nicely anyway. Have a good day!

😢 it's like I could have written this. I see you friend. You're not alone. I want you to succeed and get those dreams back. Love, hope, and light to you poppet... You'll be ok. I have faith that you can figure out your neural pathways to all your hopes and dreams. Please don't give up. You may just be experiencing burnout related skill regression and neural pruning, which means if you can find another access point to the knowledge you have, you can reteach yourself. If today isn't that day though, that's ok... Take care of yourself then, drink some water, take a shower or bath, pamper yourself in whatever way works best for you. I'm sorry you're struggling, but I hope you can get some rest and relaxation to try and progress further the next day.

Probably the same reason I love compression socks, other than the obvious benefit of improved circulation. I feel like they're hugging my legs just right

I always wore a hoodie tied around my waist because the pressure comforted me

Lol me with corsets

I give myself a hug with my plush blanket that has the right amount of stretch and the right amount of cozy. But I don’t like human hugs… or human skin… 😑

Ah, yes. I see that you also like to (over)analyse everything.😢

I never moved my arms while walking. My sister pointed out when I was around 16 that I walk funny because I don’t move them. I then started practicing, but thought “should I move right arm with right leg?… No That’d look strange. Ok. Do the legs move a little faster or at the same pace as the arms?” Still haven’t answered the second question but I’ve been moving my arms since so I hope I’ve got it right 😅 I’m not observant enough to remember to compare.

I don't do it at all I just think it looks dumb

This is the logical explanation for it, that lady is full of sh

​@marmedello arms moving when walking is a byproduct of your hips rotating when walking, so your shoulders counter rotate to offset the torque, then your arms (if you're just letting them hang there with no muscle input) just sway a bit. If you're moving your arms in isolation then it comes across pretty robotic.

That's a mood on the face bit, it's why I don't like having my own face as a facebook profile picture. I just can't stand staring at myself because I fixate on my profile pictures on websites and it's just weird -- it's not true to life to see yourself off to the side of the person you're talking to.

omg is this why i hate taking pictures? I'm fine looking in the mirror though

i also often don't really want other people looking at me.

I was always uncomfortable looking at mirrors. Especially out in public like in malls. It wasnt until i got high one day that i realized there was something wrong with me

@@tatewinters5565 who's to say that's wrong?

I don’t scream either except for roller coasters that were too intense not to. But one made me giggle in between screens. My kids are amusing on the swings. They act like their I always did and don’t smile or laugh unless they’re playing with each other at the same time. Their stoic faces crack me up. I can hardly change it no matter how many ways I try and play with them. My two year old used to always get annoyed when I’d try and play with him on the swing

This, I scream on roller coasters because it's what your "supposed to do" I never realised it's involuntary for others.

rightttt i never realised or knew it was involuntary. i’ve never screamed on rides, i’ve always been silent and straight-faced for the majority of the time

I don't think it's only this way for NT and only the other way for ND. It blew my mind too but my NT boyfriend said if he wants to scream then he does, if not then not. But yes of course there are some people doing it involuntary.

@qrypyid same girl same

Im sorry that happened! people are very ableist and cant see autism in people who don't look a specific way. But hopefully this is changing as we all become more educated!

@@noiseforautism yeah luckily I did have one class that approached autism very well in my anthropology class I had an amazing teacher, he even said that he had autistic students he taught that notified him about how horrible autism speaks is and taught that to class and showed that ted talk video, I miss that class so much it was my favorites 😁

I definitely find the other people in that situation to be the 'weird' ones. That's certainly a strange reaction to someone just stating they're autistic.

@@TheHestya honestly I agree everyone there pretty much reacted like they never even met an autistic person my age

They acted like you told them you are a serial killer or somethjng 🙄

i am so glad you lived to tell the tale. not everyone does. ;_;

@@ozok17 thank you, I really appreciate your comment. And I'm very glad as well. some really bad things happened around that time with violence & unfortunately some ppl didnt make it past 20..to this day and always, I will go to the cemetery & put flowers up for those ppl I knew whose lives were taken for a little $ & some random stuff. 😔

​@tarahj478 I'm not really sure if anything changed tbh, I was verbally harassed and attacked by my ex in the hall at high school. He was a bit more well liked and popular and I was the just the odd quite kid everyone thought was smart. And no one not a single teacher that I looked at while it was happening came over to stop him from grabbing me and shouting at me for not going to his football game when I was sick with the flu. For granted I've never been diagnosed with autism, I'm in my 20s and I've just started thinking about how odd my child hood was, at one point I had someone that I thought was a friend in middle school say something like I was a dog...no matter how many times you beat and put it down, make fun of it you chase after people and want to play. And that was the same very day I decided to ghost all of them and never open myself or try to make friends again, everytime I try I fail.

of course! no trolls here haha, I'm glad you enjoyed. You're definitely not alone!

It may be comfermation bias

​@@supme7558​ There are far too many varying degrees of involvement and in depth experiences shared for this entire hour+ compilation video to solely provide confirmation bias. And saying what you did makes it seem like you think the same way as the chick the girl with the DSM called out. It's like you're dismissing an important moment for someone as not being as eye opening as they feel it is and that really sucks. Especially in a world specifically designed to be confusing to people who don't conform to societal norms a ways of thinking/processing. I'm not saying that's specifically what you meant by your comment, but that's the way it came off. If that's not what you meant, I would expect more of an explanation as to why you said what you did. It's hard enough for ND to relate with anyone most of the time so it feels really good when we actually can. And even more than just relating, we can understand ourselves better, as well.

I really need a diagnosis. Ive struggled so much and these are resonating so much with me.

Also not to be a hater but we use our arms when we walk as counterbalance. We as humans weren’t exactly made to be bipedal but we decided (biology decided lmao) anyways that we would walk on two legs. So the arm swinging is from our genetic ancestors and also as counterbalance for when we walk.

​@@FeyPaxthank you for saying that, it really bothered me that I hadn't seen anyone mention the counterbalance effect so far down the comments

Jesus!!! The amount of people expecting everyone else to cater to you is insane. I just couldn't bear the boredom in that class"? Just tell us you are self absorbed and a child.

I never knew it was involuntary and I’m questioning myself

@@alex.r.891 Now I get why I was so confused at my friend for never screaming on the roller-coaster when we went to theme parks.

Haha it's crazy all the things we never realize about how different our individual experiences are!

Wait, so it’s not optional? I thought like, you can scream if you wanted, but you don’t have to

i never knew that either like wtf

Its hard but Im so happy you found solidarity here! You're not alone!

I think you're doing your best Please take care

Who is the creator? There's no credit on the video. I feel the same way. I have job struggles and nobody can tell me why or what I'm doing wrong and it's really sad and exhausting. 😢

@@noiseforautism Who is the creator at 30:00?

I fully believe the "manic pixie dream girl" trope is just an afab autistic person

Would you be mean, judgmental, intolerant and impatient with your best friend? I sure hope not! Now you have to become that best friend Thank you for expressing yourself

Man I really relate to what you wrote 😩 As a child whenever I was struggling and asked for help, I was told I was lazy or not trying hard enough and made to believe I wasn't actually having a hard time. As an adult I realize it was gaslighting. I've read somewhere that the words and tone we hear as children become our inner voice as adults. I wonder if my first reaction of not believing my fellow autistic peers stems from the negative internal voice I inherited from my parents. Just curious and don't feel obligated to respond, but do you feel like you were brushed off a lot as a child, not taken seriously or had your feelings invalidated by the adults in your life? I wonder if this reaction we have stems from the same root for everyone.

I tend to be quite protective of family/friends, so have started trying to hijack the protectiveness & apply it to myself. Helps that I dissociate a lot & already tend to talk about myself analytically as another being. I'm now starting to be able to be protective of myself, often in fun indulgent ways & be like 'whoa nobody talks to me like that, back up buddy' - to myself & my 'your-problems-aren't-real/valid' inner voice

It helps with balance also. I don't move them much when I walk but when I speed walk it definitely helps my balance.

This makes a lot of sense now. I think Everything Everywhere All At Once being coded as ADHD is a bit annoying too. They're right, just make canonical neurodivergant characters that represent multiple symptoms/traits.

I cried too because it was me. I'm 38 now... I finally found my bestie. I really did and so will you. Keep being you

jealousy jealousy..

I feel this so much! Know your not alone its really hard

Yes. This is a big reason why i get "but you dont look autistic" 💀 and yes, i get described as "cute" constantly... but i am 43 freakin years old and have grey hair 🤦‍♀️

Being attractive covers a whole lot of things.

then I must be hella ugly bc no one likes me at all 💀💀

Yeah except she said everyone is on the spectrum like WTH 😭😭😭😭

Fr the fuck

Same. ❤

Sammeee omg!! Ive always thought about if i have to move them or not

Believe it or not, many goofy people are not autistic.

@@MungeParty yes, I didn't say there wasn't.

I remember my mother saying it was weird that I moved my arms back and forth in sync! I did change that a while back. Or I hold my hand behind my back and just look.. fancy? I've also been told that I walk and move like a Sims character - which isn't helped by my strength and flexibility which can make my movements borderline artificial.

@mikafoxx2717 that's unteresting how people can think the opposite things are normal.

Yeah I am the same way. Ive gotten into the habit of telling people because I don't want them to be offended. But it truly just takes me a while

Same here! The "imaginary friend" thing was very short-lived

autism assessment docs are often full of shit when it comes to diagnosing adults are you amab or afab if you don't mind me asking

@@RosenrotRtLiebchen87 totally understand why you’d ask. I’m afab trans male and had transitioned before my assessment but I know that years of living as a girl definitely doesn’t help getting a diagnosis.

@@novaanimations5958 yeah, being socialized as female is i believe a barrier, at least in some diagnostic circles. too many docs don't seem to update their knowledge with advancing criteria understanding. i was an outlier personally, I'm afab but was still somehow diagnosed both autistic and with adhd at a young age, single digit age basically. my mom and dad aren't reliable sources of information though for this stuff so asking for an exact age of dx is not the best option for me sadly

@@novaanimations5958 I'm personally a form of nonbinary btw

@@RosenrotRtLiebchen87 hell yeah remix that gender. Also good on you for being diagnosed young! That tism was strong In all seriousness though, getting socialized female definitely made me behave differently than otherwise and that has absolutely made getting my diagnosis more difficult.

I totally relate to the creator, I do it to at some flair to my speech. Sometimes I just like how a word feels.

​@@MagentaDinosaurs sampling concepts like hors d'ouevres

Yeah i do this same thing. Its so hard but I just try and explain that I just thought the sound was cool, im not making fun I just do that, most of the time like automatically and not because I want to

I was nobody at all

Its so nice to feel!

ME TOOOOOOOOOO IT SPOKE STRAIGHT TO ME

Jeez... I'm so sorry. Your parents were... just awful. I hope you have people around you now who love and respect you AND treat you the way you deserve to be treated: with compassion and acceptance. 💜

Hi! Thanks so much for your comment. I've just made a list of all of the creators which you can view on tiktok! This is a link to the playlist. You can also find it in the description now! Hope this helps! www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8ehXskb/

@@noiseforautism Thank you! I will check it out this evening when I have a moment! 😃

​@@noiseforautismso sorry, but I don't have tiktok. Is there another place with the list.

That‘s terrible to hear, especially from your parents. I mean why do we autistic people have to learn about ambiguity of language to even be able to defend ourselves while they just assume things without even being aware that there‘s 2 or more possible meanings? The person that trained me in my job did something similar. He often asked me questions if I didn‘t forget one of the 20+ computers I had to inventory to great detail (like 15-20 properties of each pc like the position, OS, RAM, CPU, …) and I answered truthfully: “I think yes. Not 100% sure though.” (I’m often overwhelmed and forgetful and the pressure increased this forgetfulness by a lot). If he then found out I had forgotten that pc, he accused me of lying, which I didn‘t. I admitted that I wasn‘t sure and only added that I think the probability is low of me having forgotten that particular pc. I do also argue with my parents about the meaning of my or their words, though they are like at least 80% less judgemental about that.

@avengedprophet1559 and it's always the least charitable explanation for it too. Oh, you misspoke or forgot some details? It couldn't possibly be that you genuinely forgot or misspoke . "You lied, you purposefully decided to mislead us for your own purposes" . Some neurotypicals do have the patience for us to just exist but I swear, I just got unlucky with the ones I have to live with and spend most of my time with.

@@squidnipendleton3765 Yeah, some people can‘t grasp the concept that some people are different. Like don‘t infer from yourself to others. Not everyone is like you. Would be boring if it would be.

yep, autism is often anxiety-inducing

I highly recommend neuroqueer heresies by Nick Walker... - an autistic teacher

Haha aspie soul food omg! I've just made a list of all of the creators which you can view on tiktok! This is a link to the playlist. You can also find it in the description now! Hope this helps you get a little more of them in your life! www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8ehXskb/

i wanted to make it clear that ive done a lot of reasearch and taken online autisim asessments.

Yeah it's really hard especially if you're a woman! People just don't know what autism looks like in women so we're all figuring it out together. If you want it, keep fighting for that diagnosis! Someday you will find a doctor that will listen to you.

@@noiseforautism Thank you!!! ❤

Yeahh I had this experience as well haha. Then I started screaming just cause it was fun and there's no other time I could just scream for fun

Aw thats so sweet! Love to hear that

Of course!! Thanks for supporting!

It’s not us. There are scientific studies showing how judgemental neurotypicals are towards us for no reason. They sniff out that we’re different and exclude us immediately. Reach out to other neurodivergent to be friends. That’s the only hope.

I 100% relate!!!

I totally feel this. I feel like you can take a lot of positive things away from even understanding yourself better even if you dont ever go through with an actual diagnosis!

It's different for each person but the difference is our brains. I have dyslexia and ADHD, so for me my brain has some crossed wires. Because of that I can't see letters the right way or say things in the right order, and I literally can't control what my body wants to do sometimes. For most of the things you asked they don't think about it it comes naturally because their brain has a straight path to communicate through. In my brain it's more of a zig zag, it'll eventually get there but maybe it's messed up so I say something wrong or bite my tongue by mistake for the fifth time.😅 My brain may also decide a sound is too loud so I'm suddenly overwhelmed while another person hadn't even noticed the sound. That's why "typical" is used, a typical brain works like this while ours like to be "divergent". This is why it's important to make it common knowledge that some people think differently and that's okay, we don't need to be the same. It's also important to understand those differences mean we can't do the same thing sometimes and that's also okay. I've decided to be a teacher to help children like me, I may not be your typical teacher but I still am one. 😊 The same goes for you and me, I'm sure you don't have the same difficulties as me but we are still both neurodivergent.

Because they are as weird to us as we are to them. For a more scientific and probably way more accurate response look at the first answer :b

Thank you both! My notifs didnt work for the first response, but I just read it and it makes a lot of sense now :>

Im soo sorry. We gotta build community now!

I'm struggling with the same thing. I see these videos and think to recognise signs, but then I'm afraid my memory deceives me, and that I'm actually greatly exaggerating my own symptoms in my mind. I got an official autism diagnosis, but now that I think back, I fear I wasn't being truthful in the sessions with my therapist and that I don't deserve my diagnosis. The only thing I can say is what my mom always tells me; if the label autism helps you in getting through your life more easily and helps you accept and understand yourself, then that is all that matters.

Welcome to realizing the world is full of propaganda and people trying to make everyone else think the same way they do. Every “quirk” is now a crusade of being different and forcing everyone else to champion the quirk. It’s exhausting. Just be yourself and stop trying to fit in because everyone you’re trying to fit in with, is trying to make you fit in their box. Let them have it.