autism tiktoks and memes that make me feel less alone  

My last manager had me written up and put a Do Not Rehire in my file because I was trying to help her. When I described our interactions to other coworkers they said it sounded like the manager was intimidated by me!??? By me? I'm not scary at all. I went out of my way to be helpful and cooperate. Found work to do if it was slow that helped everyone. Nobody asked for my side of the story so this Write up, only had her opinion on it. One of the things she wrote was that I'm not allowed to TOUCH people. Ummm, I never go around touching people. What does that even mean?? But part of the job description was we HAD TO greet customers and shake their hands. The custom of shaking hands is to establish trust. I tried not to shake hands with the next customer, but it felt so awkward and weird. So I continued to shake hands after that. At the end of the season she went over my goals. She had previously set my goal to increase revenue by 20% over the prior year. Only SHE didn't think my prior year's revenue was enough. So she made up a fake number and added 20% to that fake number. Then during the season she barely scheduled me to work any hours. I told her I seemed to be working half the hours as the previous year and would she adjust my goal accordingly? She said no. On the last day she told me she didn't think I met the goal. Later the official numbers came in online. I could calculate my actual revenue. And see hours worked for both years. So I calculated using actual numbers, what my revenue generated per HOUR worked was. It's the ONLY way to compare apples to apples. I had increased revenue over the previous year by not the 20% requested, but by 84% !! Apparently that's such a massive failure that I shouldn't be rehired. Could I take them to court? Maybe. But the bigger question is do I even want to work for a company that allows one person to complain about me, never actually talks to me, or has the 2 of us sit down with a 3rd person to sort things out?

Neurotypicals are f$&king insane. There are scientific studies showing that they automatically don’t like us even when we talk and act like them. They can sniff us out. They are such bullies.

My mother worked with me on tone, inflection, enunciation, politeness, etc. when speaking. Taught me how to properly answer the phone. (She was a British long distance operator.) Worked with me on posture, walking, etc. (I've got lots of physical issues, too.) I was pretty good at 'Monkey See, Monkey Do'; which is pretty much what masking is. Masking becomes more ingrained over time. But I can't hide my poor penmanship and less than stellar coordination. (aka, I'm like a bull in a china shop. I'm either going to hurt myself or break something on a daily basis. I just expect it now, and I have to just laugh at it. What else are you going to do?) I got written up at work on my annual review once for my poor penmanship when signing my name. I should have just started signing paperwork with an X. (I've got lots of other issues. It is what it is.)

i'm autistic and i have a tumbling coach who's autistic, as much as i can relate to her, she's very rude to our whole team, and all of us have complained bc she's very snippy.

I love this! Seriously, hit the nail on the head.

Part of me realizing I might be autistic was looking at the symptoms and seeing my mother and sisters and a nephew as having traits. And my children too. Finally one sister confirmed that everyone I suspected was autistic . BUT she doesn't think I am, and asked "Why would you want to be called that?". Like it's a bad thing. OMG because it explains EVERYTHING!! And she hasn't lived with me since I was 16 so how would she know? Plus I'm the only family member with epilepsy which can be comorbid with autism.

​@@recoveringsoul755epilepsy can be co morbid with autism? I was suspecting that a cousin of mine was autistic and he has epilepsy as well. Interesting.

I feel like my anger issues are a result of my autism, although I am still a tiny human who naturally masks (but not very well lol). Also I probably have a myriad of other mental problems which means I’m either the most overstimmed person alive or a complete nihilist.

I totally understand!! Its just crazy how eye opening it is to hear it from someone else and finally kind of understand it

Ooh. That one reminded me about how I tried to explain to my NT dad one time that I feel bad for the people who *_just_* have an attraction to children (as in have never acted on it) because they can't help that their brains are deviant. This turned into a whole discussion about how I wish nothing but the worst for people that hurt children, but I'm not ready to imprison those that haven't.

You are not alone in really feeliing that one, and I am just realiziing that I probably fall somewhere on the spectrum. I just lost almost a decade-long friendship because of this, and along with what the preceding person said, "I hate everybody at this point who has treated me like sh*t over the years."

"Or the idea that you can state an objective fact and not agree with it or like it" YES. some times I give up talking because I know i will need to tie myself into knots disclaiming the things that I say, because I know somebody will take it the wrong way. i feel as if nobody just automatically senses nuance like me and its frustrating.

@@beemixsy thank you. That means a lot

Same.

You definitely are *offers hugs*

@@2_lynbovoid_490 I’m sorry you can relate

@@berrysnowyboy5251 thank you ♥️

What I try for a while now: ive read that people enjoy conversations most wehn they have a slightly larger speakingtime (like 60:40, but ofcause depends on the person) so i try to relate with a story of my own, that is shorter than theires (which is easy for me) and then encourage them to speak again by asking a related question. And then max two questions in a row before telling an owne anekdote again. Ive been told more questions feel like being interviewt and not like a conversation. Had to train that for a while XD

I’m so confused by that clip, actually! To me the concert example sounds like a perfectly nice way to respond. Is it really considered rude?? Crap…

@@kaizey I know right! I suppose that just means people like you or I wouldn't think anything of it, but I keep hearing about how NTs don't like that sort of thing...? >_< Makes me so conscious when I do it.

Yeah I do those things as well. I feel like I'm trying so hard to relate esp when I'm jumping into conversations. Like I'm not trying to be nosy I just overheard you and I thought we could have a conversation together about it.. Idk neurotypicals are difficult to navigate with all of their rules and such hahaha

I'm 56 years old and social stuff is still a mystery sometimes. Lol

Same here!!

Literally reading this is hit myself with my water bottle

I hit my leg to a desk really hard just this morning lol. I'm so undiagnosed help lol

I'm having a breakdown rn sorry if I sounded weird

@@dry_strawberries nah i didn't notice anything. sorry you're doing bad *sending support lasers*

Yes! Especially at night when you're trying to sleep

It doesn’t help that I used to be into typology, which tend to center around thought patterns lmao

Sooo trueeee

😞😞 a healing cry maybe! A less lonely cry

@@noiseforautism It's more like a release cry. Because I finally have the answer for what I'm dealing with my whole life other than just "I'm not normal"

/pos/srs btw 👍

All the time same here it's rough haha

its hard for me to sing a song with my own normal voice because im always imitating their voice lol

This is my problem also…

Honestly me with a winter blanket I used to have as a child. I loved the smell n texture sm that even in the warmer weather I’d want it. I liked it so much that even if I’d sweat becuz it wasn’t made for warmer weather, I still cried when my mom took it away and switched it with a seasonally appropriate blanket

the tism at work for sure haha

same! the fridge too

for me i love the smell of heaters and irons

I still do this! And it's such specific smells too

it's crazy how much we can learn from other people!! I'm so glad this helped you understand yourself a little more!!

@@noiseforautism yea, tho honestly that was like the uh 5th??? video/tiktok about them before i fully realized wut they actually were

When i was a kid I used to have "tantrums" which were actually autistic meltdowns and would get punished for them

THIS!!! I don't have tiktok and I don't want to use it, but I wanted to know more about these creators; specifically the guy who talks about "am i faking my autism" in the therapy sketch, and the girl who explains her experience as a non-traumatized autistic. Neither were included in the "list" in the description :C

@@hiddenmutant if we’re thinking about the same therapy sketch, that’s the one I was hunting down- it’s by generic art dad.

Haha love it

LMAO AWESOME 💖

fr i’m always scared about that but i don’t know how else people continue conversations

its the same when people find you intimidating.. it sucks but stay strong and stay close to those who do respect and take you seriously ❤

I do this and people get so annoyed its tough hahahah

@@noiseforautism English is my second language, I watch a lot of interviews from my favourite band and the members all have a very strong British accent so whenever I speak English I sound exactly like them 🫣 Sometimes people think I come from England.

Aww thats so sad! Im sorry your doctor wasn't will to at least investigate the possibility for so long.

Thanks so much!!

I was one of the unlucky few to have been diagnosed with bipolar without any further testing. The didn’t officially start to diagnose me with autism until I was eleven , but they diagnosed me with bipolar disorder at nine. Edit: even then psychologists were flippant and dismissive of me until I was 14 and we had to fight tooth and nail to have it be officially diagnosed. They were so willing to ignore the symptoms of what I actually had because of the stigma of girls and afab people not even being considered to have the potential to be autistic, that they diagnosed me with not one but two incorrect disorders ( Bipolar and ADHD) both of which extremely stunted my progress in understanding myself and how to adapt properly. Being misdiagnosed was so damaging socially and emotionally and never had I felt more like I had been the problem than that time. I hope with this recent boom of people speaking out on their experiences and advocating for better treatment that it will become a thing of the past!

@zombinary3138 I hope so too the only reason I got diagnosed with Bipolar before my evaluation is because I have type 1 and have obvious symptoms like hallucinations and mania. I finally got my evaluation finished but I won't get my results for a few weeks. Doctors are only just now finally agreeing with me after almost 2 years of me saying I may be on the spectrum. My parents ignored my symptoms along with their own neurodivergentsies.

Glad you like them!

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I can easily recognize faces but I’m also amazing at voices

Yes! I want to find the person at 31.18 but theres nothing there! And usually theres at least the username on the video if its tiktok

same

Haha love this!! Thanks for the support!

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@@noiseforautism much appreciated! I'm familiar with several autistic, ADHD, and AuDHD RU-vidrs, but I'm not on tiktok and a ton of these people were new to me. Thanks so much for sharing!

When is it appropriate to talk about yourself? Apparently, only when you’re neurotypical. When you are autistic, people get upset about it and then interrupt you, give you a dirty look for no reason and talk about themselves more.

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This is how I talk to people because I don’t know how to talk to people and carry or start a conversation

ok 3:10 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

00:10-35 as well.

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Ill try to turn these on if I can! At least the auto generated. Ill see what I can do in the future about adding them to videos!

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@@noiseforautism thank you!

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