autism tiktoks I showed the psychiatrist that diagnosed me with adult autism 2.0 

i’ll never forget when i was getting my photo taken and the photographer said “okay now let’s do some serious ones” and i went from this 😄to this😐in a split second, and the photographer literally said “woah” out loud. just another fun little day of masking

3:54 “Bro… neurotypicals eat when they’re hungry.” I’m being SENT 😂

The first one made me think about how I was wearing ear defenders in the hallways of my high school (which is a private, Catholic, “all-girls” high school) and my teacher told me it was a “safety issue”, then proceeded to say that I could only wear them during tests and stuff like that, which sucks because the hallways are so fucking loud at a high school. like teenagers are literally so fucking loud. One time, while I was in the cafeteria, I heard a girl behind me smack the table and yell “no way!” for something her friend said. God, it’s unbearable sometimes.

I get hyperempathy a lot and one of the times I feel it the worst is just watching shows with embarrassing scenes. They hurt so bad to watch that I genuinely just avoid them at all costs. Although its the worst when I identify more with a character.

35:27 I relate to this so much! My mom is trained in assisting "special needs" kids (she's an assistant director at a preschool), and she wasn't able to identify my autistic traits as autistic. I also think she might be autistic as well because a lot of autistic traits I have I've put off as, "Oh, that's just genetic because my mom does the same thing".

The Ted talk tiktok repeated itself. Thought I would let you know.

The guy talking about learning about ourselves making us cry as I’m still crying from the previous clip 😭

The ghosting your friends thing reminds me of my dad. Him and his best friend both travelled a lot for work, literally would only see each other a few times a year and would never call or message each other between that. One of them would just be like, "oh hey I'm gonna be in the area next month for work, can I stop by your house?" and when they would see each other they would just hug, head out to the patio or living room to talk and pick up right from where they left off like they had seen each other just the day before.

I wrote a paper on the double empathy problem and relevance theory in relation to autism and I think it’s so important to the understanding of autism and a step away from all the theory of mind conceptions that can be really stigmatizing. I highly recommend looking into it!

all the adult psychs in my area: a diagnosis? you're over the age of 17??? ma'am that'll be $2,000 if you want a diagnosis

I just got a vivid memory from when I was about 8 or 9 years old. I remember getting in trouble with my teacher because she caught me eating a piece of paper. At the time, I had a habit of eating my pencil erasers and stabbing my big white eraser with my pencil during class. I even used to nibble on my pen caps sometimes. So, I was sent to a councilor and my mother was there with me. I don't remember much from the conversation, but I do remember the councilor asking why I was eating paper in class. I didn't really know why I was doing it, but I knew that people eat things when they're hungry, so I said it was because I was hungry. My mother asked me why I didn't just wait until lunch time. I said I don't know. The councilor said that I was doing it to get attention. My mother asked me whose attention I was trying to get because I already had hers. I said I didn't want attention. And especially not negative attention. The councilor didn't believe me. She said that negative attention was the type of attention I got. I don't remember anything else after that, but I never ate paper in class again. I still ate and stabbed my erasers though.

I'm so glad I'm not in middle school and high school anymore because the noise levels of just... People talking in class, all at the same time, while I was trying to work, were SO overwhelming and I ended up in tears from the stress of masking (without knowing I was masking), sensory overload, and all the other stuff affecting my mental wellbeing. I had people witness my meltdowns when I cried from the noise and some stood up for me, while others ostracized me for being "too senstitive". Im in university now, and bc of lots of stuff (including the global pandemic) I've spent the past the last 3 years in virtual classes... And I'm scared to go back in-person. I have no idea if I'll be able to handle it

10:38 - “hearing the truth moves us to tears” Me: Starts tearing up

One of my earliest memories growing up was wanting to be where people were talking and things were lively, but not necessarily wanting to interact in that environment. I liked being around family but sometimes it was a lot to process. So often times I would sit or lay somewhere, close my eyes, and just focus my energy on my surroundings. By slowing down and not moving much- aside from maybe some fidgeting with my hands or feet. I could hear things a lot clearer. I also felt a lot happier and relaxed. I recall watching the lights in front of my eyelids change or darken when someone moved in front of a light. I remember the sound of someone getting off the rocking chair. Sometimes during doing this I would fall asleep, but mostly I just remember letting people think I was asleep. Interestingly, it wasn't until looking back that I even realized that's what I was doing. I just knew it was one of my favorite things to do. Unfortunately... this coping would extend to a lot of things later in life. I would go into that ''idle'' mode, even without purposely doing so. Making me forgetful, communicate less, and sometimes just confused. While I know I had some meltdown-like (??) moments in my childhood. I think the reason why I didn't /don't have them as much of as is associated with autistics, is that I am MUCH more likely to shutdown than meltdown. It's like instead of my brain firing a bunch of signals, it just goes ''alright shut'er down boys''. That said, the times I did meltdown (later on in life) was when I was forced to be present while in shutdown mode. If I try to push past it, It's like the switch is flipped and I'm visibly and/or verbally freaking out instead.

oh my gosh finally somebody talked about the tight clothing thing!! I always described it as liking my clothes to feel "secure." I don't want tight clothes all the time, but the pressure can help me feel grounded. It makes it hard to shop for clothes sometimes because something that's comfortable for me in one situation could be uncomfortable in another, and every clothing brand for autistic people focuses on making everything soft and smooth.

First of all, the battle between the auto generated subtitles and the word naltrexone had me laughing so hard I was crying. I'm watching the video going "I really thought everyone did that." "Wow, I thought that was normal"..... "oh, um, I think I have an appointment to make."

The first one makes me so mad I swear to god

In addition to Gregory I also feel like Jacob is autistic as well. He loves to info-dump and can't tell when people are getting fed up with him 🤣, misunderstands social cues and situations (like when Janine was having a row with her sister and he thought it was about the board game they were playing) and his dedication to making sure that he does the best for his students, coworkers and Abbott. In one of the episodes Gregory didnt get the point about having work acquaintances (either we're friends or not) and small talk but Jacob is overly friendly to the point of smothering. I love him and Greg together and it's funny that the next vid is abt autistics getting along with each other better than neurotypicals

First of all, I'm so glad there was mention of AFAB people with autism. I'm trans and potentially autistic and it always socks when people talk about women with autism and men with autism cause I never know where I fit medically in that case. Second of all, I have a weird mix of hyper empathy and a complete lack of empathy, so it's refreshing to hear about that from an actual neuroscientist. I had a therapist who told me I couldn't be autistic because I was too empathetic, even though I display a lot of symptoms and traits. She also said I was too well adjusted to be autistic when I'm 23 years old and have learned to mask a variety of things quite well. I'm hoping to find a therapist that actually knows what they are talking about one day haha.

The one about friendship and callimg/checking in. Yes! This! I wish more people got this.

Hahaha. "Did you know you could do it this way?" I just had that conversation with a coworker the other day.

"Neurotypicals eat when they're hungry." I felt so called out! I don't always feel when I'm hungry, and even when I do, I still don't want to. xD

22:42 this had me crying so hard. I can pin point the moment that ruined my mental health, and that was when I was talking to my mom about being bullied at school and having her tell me that 'maybe if you stopped talking about pokemon then people would treat me better.' and for years ive spent hiding my special interests, to the point that Ive become ashamed to even take part in them in private. like im doing something wrong by being excited, and that my passion is a dirty secret. im trying hard to unlearn these feelings and its slow going, but its nice to remember that im not alone.

39:38 made me have to stop and cry. That one really hit home for me. I used to think I “grew out of” my meltdowns because I used to have fits of anger as a child but I don’t anymore, but really I’m just very repressed. I just cease to function. What he describes is so similar to how I feel when things pile on, and I have felt so guilty for years because I couldn’t do it. All these things felt so minor and I felt awful because I should just be able to get on with it but instead I just couldn’t do anything but crawl into bed and let one of my cats lean against me. I hope he’s okay. I hope you are all okay. Protect yourselves.

I feel so called out by the Autism / ADHD bit.

I got my son diagnosed and this journey has made me self diagnose. Helping my son is like helping my small self. This video is healing and triggering at the same time but I’m so happy I’m understanding myself more. I used to hate myself and thought I was odd. I suffered and silence and masked so much I can’t recognize my natural self.

@16:19 this is a real autistic meltdown, the actress is autistic (and adhd) and sent herself into a meltdown to make it look real and authentic

The first one is me with my noise cancelling earbuds at school 😅, I can HEAR PEOPLE YOU KNOW ITS MISOPHONIA.

I JUST SPEND ONE HALF HOUR ON AN AUTISM QUIZ AND ANOTHER HALF HOUR ON ANOTHER ONE BOTH CLAIMED TO NOT COST ANYTHING THEY DID AND I CANT PAY I AM SO ANGRY RN

a lil b4 21:47 yeah, my own therapist said i was low empathy bc idk how to react when someone was crying. Thats just bc of trauma that im still going through though, and bc of it i cant say that its said trauma for legal reasons (im still a kid yaknow) but being told i have no empathy when in on the verge of tears just from seeing someone cry really fucks me up

22:40 I relate to this so strongly that my heart hurts. I've had this happen so many times that I've taught myself to not get excited. I'm known in my family to not get excited when something they know I like is coming out.

Ahhhhhh! I'm pretty sure Quinni from HBH is actually an Autistic person. (Sarcasm) crazy how actually hiring Autistic people to play autistic characters results in accurate representation! lol

I once explained autism to someone in the sense that, for everything a neurotypical thinks of someone with autism, people with autism probably think the same thing about neurotypicals. So if typicals think we are annoying, well chances are autistic people find typicals annoying! If a typical thinks autism has unique qualities, well autism most likely feels the same too about typicals. Its odd because for all the misunderstanding there is, we do on some level understand each others general nature. And that alone is enough to stary a spark, good or bad.

Damn that elementary school lunchtime one really hit home

I’m not autistic but have adhd and need a little music in my ears not loud but I help me concentrate and helps with background noise as well or I can’t do anything I get overwhelmed

17:42 Never related harder; I do this to family and friends and it isn’t because I don’t care, it’s because I’m trying to sort a lot of things out or feel bad that all I have is bad news on my end. Than when things get better I think well I waited too long and don’t call even longer.

O.O I feel so seen. I am 30 years old. I go through a lot of daily frustrations, my stim is rubbing my socks to the point of ripping them apart.... I hyper fixate on things as well.

In the second one, when they said ‘orange furry sweetheart’ I immediately yelled out “THE LORAX!”

23:49 that was some thing I never realized before. I called my mom out on this all the time. I was recently talking to my mom about it ‘Hey, I think I have autism can I go get checked out or maybe just get diagnosed or something because I’m really thinking I have it.’ And I was expecting a bad reaction, right but I wanted to get it out of my system because it was just overwhelming my mind and I needed help contacting a doctor because I am awkward as fuck on the phone. So I asked and she was really OK with it and I was like hell yeah, this is going better than I thought maybe I was just freaking out for no reason and so I was talking to her more about it because I was understanding that she was receptive to the idea and what I was talking about and then midsentence as I’m explaining like why I think I’m autistic and getting ready to like dive deep in to the topic she turns to me and just starts talking about my niece, saying how proud she is that she finally started to talk and like my whole brain just short circuited and I looked at her and I and I got upset but I let her finish talking about whatever it is she wanted to talk about that was so important. And it wasn’t because I’m literally in the group chat where all of this information was shared. And then I turned to her and I said ‘hey, I’m very upset that you did that’ and she said ‘what? what did I do?’ and I said ‘that you rudely interrupted me when I was talking about some thing that was very important to me. I did not appreciate it, and I think you were very extremely rude at that moment.’’ And she was like I wasn’t rude, I just don’t wanna talk about it and I was like ‘OK then tell me you don’t want to talk about it don’t just ignore what I’m saying unvalidate me, and then move on at your own pace. Because that destroys me and makes me feel less in every sense.’ But she didn’t understand that. And just kept goingand moved on the topic because she didn’t want to talk about it anymore. 😤

the actor who plays quinn in heartbreak high is actually autistic!!!

Why is it that I don't think I really match the autism diagnostic material, but I relate so strongly to like 90% of these.

19:23 I am waiting on my results from my assessment, but this! This right here is probably my number one problem most days. I have to shower, eat something cause I'm shaky cause I forgot to eat the night before, and I have to do dishes. Well, I have to do dishes before I can cook to eat something because all of the dishes are dirty. I also have to do the dishes before I take my shower because I always spill nasty water down the front of myself when I am doing dishes, but I have to wait at least an hour between doing the dishes and taking a shower, but then I figure out I have to do at least two loads of dishes, so I can't take a shower right away but still have to wait for the hot water to come back before I can run the dishwasher again, and while I'm going through all of this in my head I'm feeling more and more lightheaded from low blood sugar and I need to eat now! But I literally have nothing to cook on or with, so I start doing dishes and get a headache so I have to stop cause I'm getting anxious. 6 hours later, I am sitting in the kitchen, still haven't eaten, the dishes haven't been done yet, and I still haven't taken a shower and now I have to put on my mask before my boyfriend gets home so he doesn't lose sleep or worry at work if I'm doing okay or not. I tell him "I'm just tired" and he accepts that most of the time. If he digs any deeper, I always end up sobbing uncontrollably because I wasn't good enough at hiding my issues, which was almost literally beaten into me as a child. 37:44 as well! I did that so muchin any crowded loud place!

There used to be a million traits that I had that I thought disqualified me from being autistic, because they didn't match with the few examples I had seen on TV and in real life (because at the time, only the most severe cases were actually being diagnosed), and so I thought, _Well, I'm not like that, I'm like this, and autistic people aren't like this, so I guess I can't be, even though I really feel like I am,_ but now I know that literally every one of those traits I'd thought meant I _couldn't_ be autistic are actually extremely normal for autistic people. This awareness is so important. Every time I watch a video like this one, I cry hard, multiple times, because each time some part of my childhood gets peeled back to reveal another part of me that was autistic all along, that I had spent so much time agonizing over, thinking that I couldn't be autistic because of it not fitting my very false image of what an autistic person looks like.

IF YOU HAVE "BROKEN WRIST SYNDROME", GET CHECKED FOR EHLER'S-DANLOS SYNDROME! cannot stress this enough! if you have it, you need to know as early as possible!

I'm sorry, I just had to pause-- That Tiktok with the video of a girl named Quinni having a meltdown-- THAT is a normal meltdown?! I've been having meltdowns?! Other people have this same response to things? I'm not just some freak who can't regulate my shit? I need a moment

The older gentleman at 35-40 minutes. Holy. I feel you dude.

15:50 Not me literally sitting like that while watching this TikTok :0

Don't remember if it was this video (commenting after i x'ed out the tab) but the fingers going in and out of my ears to change the noise input is very familiar to me. Didn't know others did it too lol

This was a great video collab thank you for posting. Many of the things were so relatable and there were so many aha moments for me personally.

22:57 Oh I feel this so much. It's so sad.

22:45 Um yeah, uh.. I was in such a state of shock that I did actually cry like mentioned before in the video! I had never given this much thought before but yes, of course! I've had the exact same experience! It really just never hit me or hit home like that. Once I told my mom "I think I'm autistic" and she looked at me kinda wide-eyed. Does that mean she's scared of autistic people? Why? What else could that mean? How am I supposed to react to that? Do I acknowledge it? Anyways I'm trying to be more persistent and get a diagnosis. The main pushback I'm getting from my parents is, "Why do you think you need one?" "If you got one, how would it help?" And I honestly don't know how to answer that !! Does anyone have ideas?? Sorry for the tangent, by the way ^^" Edit for a grammatical error !!

Got so frustrated with the first one had to get up and take a walk

The expenses for healthcare WITHOUT the weed cost included 😅🌿 true.

Halfway through the first tiktok and I already want to pull my hair out 😭

Greggory was Chris from everyone hates Chris. Crazy to see him.

the professor in music broke my heart , i cant help but tearing up , realizin how closely i can relate

“Squishmallows are like crack for autistics” Not me staring at my enormous pile of Squishmallows (which also happens to be one of my special interests) as well as my (almost complete) collection of squishmallow trading cards (yes they exist, thank me later) as well as my squishmallow sticker collection and we can’t forget about the squishmallow croc charms! 😂 My favorite is Rosie if you were wondering 😅

4:20 that's funny because I don't expect myself to live pass my 50th birthday, lol.. I guess I'm right

I don't believe a game of telephone is a great way to gauge social communication and/or cooperation on a grander and more complex scale. It seems very limited and facile. It does suggest to me, though, that you'd better have a mix of Neuro types if you want a funny outcome in telephone.

44:19 I must rock back and fourth while my brain makes me a whole animated storyboard that I’m never gonna animate to that song I’ve listened to over ten times in a row Me to the Neurotypical kid who looks like SpongeBob and bullies me: *Hmmmmmmmmm* You can’t understand the Uber power of My Uber autism

hey thanks for selling me on abbot elementary by putting that clip in there :v always assumed it was like the middle or another boring ABC show, THRILLED to have it make me laugh my ass off like it just did 😂

16:00 im not even gonna lie, this genuinely made me cry. so far ive only seen myself have meltdowns, i dont think ive ever seen any of my friends or, anyone at all have an autistic meltdown. very very powerful stuff.

45:01 - 46:29 honestly reminds me of what might have happened in my past with some people. Not that people really said this, but I was just. . . it just reminds me of a lot of negative things that happened that I wish I would have had more control over, and I think I could've. But things were just... so hard. And just. . . I didn't understand myself and I don't think others supper did either. Not that Autism was on people's minds like ever. I wish I would've known myself better and done better . . .things could have turned out so differently. I don't know weather to give myself grace or continue to punish myself if I was in full control the whole time.

THE ONE THAT SAID NEUROTYPICALS EAT WHEN THEY'RE HUNGRY JUST REMINDED ME THAT I'M HUNGRY OMG

44:02 this one really hit me...i recently went to an electronic music open mic at a hackerspace with some friends, and it was basically in a garage/warehouse type place with everyone sitting on mismatched office chairs or standing around. at first, i was the only person who was walking around in the back getting distracted by all the other neat things in the space, and then, once a desk chair was available, i went and sat down and started vibing to the music...feet quietly tapping, chair lightly swiveling back and forth, leg bouncing, head bopping, etc. i glanced around a few times and nobody else was doing anything even close to that 😅 but idc, listening to live music is just so much better when i can feel it in my body

oh the Jurassic Park pots!!! I'd be stuck in that garden center the rest of the day XD

I was here for my kid honestly but that woman at around 28 or so minute mark has me convinced I am here for myself, everything saw spot on.

I definitely have issues with heat and cool and my hands and feet being cold. I thought it was lyme disease. When I was a kid I went hungry a lot because I couldn't eat what my family cooked. I raised myself from 14/15 after being kidnapped and having to get away myself anf deal with the whole aftermath myself, being a young mother pregnant at 16 whose baby dady was older and went to prison. I had to emancipate myself and get my own apartment. I never have haf anyone there for me people dont believe me when I tell them what I went through. I have been through severe situations and nobody helped if I called authorities they aldo didn't help and really made me afraid to ask for help in fear of recieving the opposite. I have never had anyone tell me about autism, now that I am learning about I now know my children are also autistic. And it just sucks seeing how little everyone cares and how badly we are treated and why.

… well when I was a child I did used to move so hard to the music that my parents had to tell me to stop because shaking the entire car was making driving hard.

Oh Woogity. 😑 I relate to the first thing SO much. People think I'm being crude and rude or disrespectful because I keep 💤 earplugs in most of the day... Especially in the car/truck. It's so helpful. ❤

I LOVE loop earbuds. They are a game changer for me. I work in a hospital on the floor where there is 1000 alarms at all times for literally everything. For 12 hours. I can hear the alarms. But they are not as...💢🤬😭😣

Crap, okay, ableism. That's what I have. That's why I struggle to accept my autism. I was raised to believe that I had to be able to always help others while never needing help myself. If other people needed help, that was okay, but if I couldn't _see_ the person's reason for needing help then they were "lazy" and "a crappy person," so I fear that other people will perceive me that way when I say that I need help, because my problem isn't visible.

The red haired girl at around 23 min I so feel her.

THAT FIRST ONE OH MY GOD that shit is so frustrating

41 mins in awww 🥺 i love that man. Ill be praying for that man.and men whose gonna be busy later too. ❤

The ads disguised as content, selling pharmaceuticals, make me mad that I watched this video.

has anyone noticed the sound lagging?

The first one was so relatable lmao

Omg 23 mins. Fuck yes this. Holy shit this is so freaking true. I feel this so much. Being tried to care but then no one caring about your special interest is the every day. And at around 40 minutes. That is so a shit thing to deal with and it just keeps happening and everyone acts like its a total shock and surprise. Nope its everytime. But people refuse to remember or care.

You know something I’ve learned that I think that I do but it’s a telltale sign that I could be autistic but I just never thought about it until this moment. When I am crying instead of feeling sad, which I normally am sad because I cry, but instead of thinking about the sadness I focus more on if I’m crying right. Like when I’m crying the thing that I’m thinking about the most is how my face is looking while I’m crying and why do I cry so weirdly. And the sadness is always second in these moments. I always thought that was just a normal, but I’m coming to the understanding that a lot of my thoughts are not normal. And I haven’t heard this one mentioned yet but I’m pretty sure this is like part of the thing.😂😅

so many of these videos have nearly silent audio... i can't turn my speakers up anymore and i'm not putting on headphones lol

Cannibis 👌 for the win, begone cptsd symptoms, begone Insomnia, hello zen.

I cant relate to much of majority of "tiktok autism" at all. They include so much fluff

Omg the broken wrist. I sleep like that every night. 😩

THE FIRST ONE IT’S SO TRUE

THank's for the trigger warning for showing a meltdown. I intentionally bit on my finger in a non harmfull manner toi be able to cope with that to not have a meltdown myself watching a played or true meltdown of someone else around 17:00

i never understood the "special interests" bit about autism. do people not have favorite shows or interests? what makes it different between those who are neurotypicals and those with autism/adhd?

Ayyy shout out to Loop ear plugs ~♡

17:00 i gotta watch that now bc OMG 😭😭😭

37:43 literally me bro😳😳 I remember telling all my friends to do it too

3:51 “Neurotypicals eat when they’re hungry” Not me currently avoiding food cuz everything sounds gross right now even though i last ate yesterday at noon.

Which noise cancelling airbuds do you guys and gals recommend?

3:48 I've never felt so directly called out as someone who suspects I'm autistic and also will not eat when I'm hungry until shit gets dire 💀

i love the allism/allistic: non autistic person one. Took me a second to figure it out but once i did.

Haha I use shorts all the time to describe how I’m feeling 😆

I keep watching all these autism videos... I relate to 90% of them and I also have two daughters who are neurodivergent. I keep telling myself I'm not autistic...

12:07 well said

So the wrist thing got me.

Omg I just realized, this is why I HATE led headlights and wish they would make them illegal.

“Storage-ass ho!” 🤣🤦🏾‍♀️